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okay i wont be using this journal anymore.. i decided to go to livejournal and be like everyone else haha yah?...
www.livejournal.com/~dream2believe
i <3 u
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| Don't waste you time on me..you're already the voice inside my head... |
[19 Jan 2004|04:16pm] |
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last night was pretty fun .. we went to the movies and saw along came polly.. ehh some little sherman 8th graders sitting beside us were soo annoying... "please remove the dagger from my chest" omgsoh what a loser... please dont ever say that...then we went back to leslies and did stuff haha ... Leslie and amy are fun girls =)
These are my words...that i've never said before
I think I'm doing okay
And this the smile...that I've never shown before
Somebody shake me cause I...I must be sleeping
Now that we're here, it's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
And all the mistakes...one life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we're here, it's so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
And I can forgive and I'm not ashamed to be the person i am today
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| ..way away away from here ill be... |
[15 Jan 2004|05:46pm] |
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Yellowcard - breathing |
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you brought this all on yourself....
this is how it feels to not believe....
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| lonley she waits... |
[14 Jan 2004|09:18pm] |
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uhh.. today wasnt that great? idk ... i wish mike wouldnt have changed schools.. he was my bestfriend.. i dont know whats goin on tho we dont talk like we used to...o well.. immmm bored and i dont know?
why do people lie? hmm ill never figure it out..and i dont know at all what to say...woooooooow
SHIV PATEL is so awesome im so happy i have a friend like him! hopefully he wont turn out like my other ones! and he will stay close! <3 ya!
love, brittany
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| davo is my favo =) |
[12 Jan 2004|08:50pm] |
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David Glenn is an extremely awesome guy and he is also my favorite...he is just the coolest...i <3 him and i am happy that we are friends of courseeeeee =)
sooo the soccer teams doin good ehh...4-1! keeeep it up guys
i heart u
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| "Everything i know about breaking hearts i learned from you" |
[12 Jan 2004|05:48pm] |
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YELLOWCARD - way away |
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Taking Back Sunday - There's No 'I' In Team
Well I can't regret,
can't you just forget it?
I started something I couldn't finish
And if we go down,
we go down together
best friends means,
well best friends means
And I've got a twenty-dollar bill
that says you're up late night starting
fist fights versus fences in your backyard
Wearing your black eye like a badge of honor
Soaking in sympathy
from friends who never loved you
nearly half as much as me
Broken down in bars and bathrooms
All I did was what I had to
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's just what anyone would do
Take the time to talk about it
Think a lot and live without it
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's something unforgivable...ohoh
Well I can't regret,
can't you just forget it?
I started something I couldn't finish
If we go down,
we go down together
best friends means,
well best friends means
You never knew
well i never told you...
Everything I know about breaking hearts
I learned from you, it's true
I've never done it with the style and grace you have
But I've made long term plans
based on these mistakes
Broken down in bars and bathrooms
All I did was what I had to
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's just what anyone would do
Take the time to talk about it
Think a lot and live without it
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's something unforgivable
Is this what you call tact?
I swear you're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back
so let's end this call,
and end this conversation
there's nothing worse...
(that's right he said, that's right he said it)
I swear, you have no idea
The jealousy that became me thinking
(that's right he said)
that you always had it way too easy
Broken down in bars and bathrooms
All I did was what I had to
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's just what anyone would do
Take the time to talk about it
Think a lot and live without it
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's something unforgivable
Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
Best friend thinks I pulled the trigger
Best friend thinks you get what you deserve
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| ...i guess you'll never know... |
[12 Jan 2004|05:25pm] |
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so i feel really good...i got rid of something bad..and im relaly happy and it feels good..because i havent felt like this in a while i finally feel like great...idk i cant explain it =) just WOW...
uhh...i miss talkin to erin =( but shes grounded right now so i will just waittttt...
im sorry to everyone i have not been nice to lately or if i have ignored u
I AM IN LOVE WITH RYAN KEY!!!!
later
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| ..if i just breathe... |
[05 Jan 2004|03:06pm] |
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derek thomas is such a homosexual...i really dont liek him hes a really bigggg loser and yea!
jk =) hes the coolest
....hmm....
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| ...she burns... |
[03 Jan 2004|04:09pm] |
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lalala i am really bored....yea yesterday my dads grandpa died but i didn't know him i dont think.. maybe when i was younger but yea it's sad..but lets see..
Jared Mistrot is a cool person!!!
uhmm..i met this guy name Cory he is really awesome..and has coooooooool hair :)
hahah i have nooooo idea what to say right now!
I swear that I can go on forever again
Please let me know that my one bad day will end
I will go down as your lover, your friend
Give me your lips and with one kiss we begin
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| you still have all of me |
[30 Dec 2003|03:30pm] |
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Dashboard Confessional - So Impossible |
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My cousin is having her baby today aww..how cute :) yay.. haha it was funny because I went in to the room at the hospital and she looked at me and said "Don't ever have kids!" hah..
so...i'm really tired of arguing and fighting with Derek..i wish it would all just stop...and Derek i kno he has waited 10 months i kno he's probably tired of waiting..but i don't kno what i want yet..i kno its stupid and i guess im just stupid or maybe derek is for even waiting for ME since im the one who "makes him feel like s..." isn't that what u said...yea i just dont even kno what to say because everytime i start thinking about this or try to talk about it everything comes to my mind at once and i cant say it all! but really...i hate it all
Erin makes me laugh
bye
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| "My tongue is tied to a dream of being with you" |
[26 Dec 2003|10:18pm] |
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air REN 20: and we awl will have sex :-D
air REN 20: DAMNIT DOMINOS**
hahaha I LOVE YOU ERIN! ur great.. thank u for being there for me thru alot of stuff thats bein goin on lately.. ur the best friend i could ever ask for!
uhm heres some stuff i wrote...
If I dont love you
If I dont care
Why does this hurt me so much
Why am I taking it so hard
Why am i finding it hard to breathe
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Look in my eyes
Tell me what you see
Can you see the hurt
Deep down inside of me
Why is it that people
Thank you're different than you are
They dont know you secretly
Wish on every star
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| she fakes a smile... |
[21 Dec 2003|09:46pm] |
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Sic Transit Gloria...Glory Fades - Brand New |
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We were only 15
I let her go like paper air planes
How can I explain
That Im lost without you around
What If I never lost you
I wouldnt have to find you all over and over
(over and over)
Your the one Ive, Ive always wanted
The one that I just cant live without
No one understands
The meaning of your eyes
And how I feel
Burning deep inside
What If I never lost you
I wouldnt have to find you all over and over
(over and over)
Your the one Ive, Ive always wanted
The one that I just cant live without
Get the flyers up
Have you seen the girl with my heart on her sweater
Get the flyers up
Have you seen the girl with my heart on her sweater
my heart on her sweater
Send her on my way
Send it here to stay
Sending light just like a star
Tell me where you are
Where you are
Sending light just like a star
When you come to me
Come today
Embrace me and break me
Embrace me and break me so go
Your lost without
Your lost without
Your lost and found
Your lost and found
Your my lost and found
Taking Back Sunday - Lost and Found
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| When one more kiss could kill you |
[07 Dec 2003|11:04am] |
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True friends stab you in the front
Keep you from getting what you want
When one more fix could kill you
They help you realize that
You're more and less than you first had believed
You've so much to give and there's so much you need
Shortcuts through graveyards and a brand new way to breathe
Three thousand miles just to learn,
All that's gold does not all shine...
And helping words aren't always kind,
When one more kiss could kill you,
They help you realize that
You're more and less than you first had believed
You've so much to give and there's so much you need
Shortcuts through graveyards and a brand new way to breathe
Three thousand miles just to learn.
how to let my guard down
Accept the fire that has spread among us.
And if you're feeling all right,
You've got to play it again,
You've got to play it again
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| "so kiss me hard cause this will be the last time that i let u" |
[04 Dec 2003|05:00pm] |
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The spill Canvas - all hail the heartbreaker |
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whoaa..i haven't wrote in here since August.. and now its December?...like 4 months .. okay well... i broke up with my boyfriend today..yeh sad..no idc
well im not in the mood to put anything so bye
R.I.P - Beverly Taylor
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| ERin |
[10 Aug 2003|03:15pm] |
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TAT is DEFINATLY OVER!! idk about for you but over for me for Gooooood !! i looove u tbffl!
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[10 Aug 2003|03:02pm] |
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Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I said
But I didn't mean to hurt you
I heard the words come out
I felt like I would die
It hurt so much to hurt you
Then you look at me
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken
I'd give anything now
to hear those words from you
Each time I say something I regret I cry "I don't want to lose you."
But somehow I know that you will never leave me, yeah.
'Cause you were made for me
Somehow I'll make you see
How happy you make me
I can't live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive
So stay with me
You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry.
And you forgive me again
You're my one true friend
And I never meant to hurt you
thats to derek! :)
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[10 Aug 2003|02:26pm] |
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well lets see i havent wrote in here forever..not much to say relaly my life is boring but oh well lets see. eh.. Tuesday i went to alexs we stalked derek but never found him lol Wednesday we went ot six flags alot of freaky things happen that day Thursday i wen to fish camp and uhm the softball game Friday .. uhm.. i realyl actually dont remember what happened.. i think i went home..lol oh well but yeah satruday we went to the mall yeh..fun. no and today is sunday! yeh not alot last night alex stayed the night we talked to derek on the phone for like 2 hours hah he is soo funny and great!! yay
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I love Erin I am soo happy that she is my bestfriend seriously i odn tkno what i would do without her.. shes the best perso any one could ask for and she understands me 100%! she thoguth she love patrick but now she is havin doubts shes not sure..i dont really kno how to say it ..lol uhm but yeah I think that her and Kolby shold go out lol aww :) yeh she will probably start liking him! haha but yesh I love her and I hope that when school starts we still have time for eachother cause i dont kno what i would do without her!! I NEED HER! tbffl-
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lets see I think that is all for now so im out...later
-Being grown up isnt half as fun as growing up these are the best days of our lives..the only thing that matters is just following your heart and eventually you'll finally get it right-
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| la la la |
[30 Jul 2003|04:55pm] |
*you're beautiful
-I heart u!
+britty
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| the new me..and other things |
[24 Jul 2003|07:53pm] |
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hello! man liek today I am the best mood ever! and its weird...i like it :) maybe ill just be liek this all the time hooray hahah but really i feel like i am the like most not nicest person in the world :( so im gonna change that cause i want people to think i am nice :) hhah yah i dont even know hat im talkin about but I just wanan be like that or somethin lol cuase i can be a little rude sometimes and people dont think that I care about them or how they feel they think i just care about myself or things like that but its so not true..i mean sometimes i just do this because I guess i think the otehr person doesnt like me or something but its all gonnan change! i am the new brittany :) haha .. oh man so yes! first of all i would like to take back everything and anythign i have ever done to anyone or anything that either hurt them...or made them mad or sad or stuff like that..im sorry i dont mean to do that I love everyone but somtimes i just get to where I dont wanna talk or somethin u kno? ! im going to be nice to everyone NO mattter who u are! everyone can be my bestfriend hah jk but yah everyone can be my friend!! i have some bestfriends -->alex, mike, DEREK and last but DEFIANTLY noT LEAST...........***drumroll please***........... ERIN!!!! my true bestfriend! lol hahah wow such a great introduction for her! lol man i think things are getting A LOT better for me... like ok ... me and jamie used to be BEStFRIENDs in the whole world nothing could seperate us.. we were **inseperable** i thought that would never change and that we would stay bestfriends forever until the end of time but .. i was totally wrong.. during this past school year things started going downhill with us...she made new friends..i made new friends..we stopped hanign out...i would ask her to do stuff she would be doing something with someone else or make up an excuse to not do it but thats ok .. i mean i guess we arent meant to be bestfriends right?..but oh well ill always love her no matter what I dont care what shes done or anything she will always have a place in my heart and i will always be here for her whenever she needs someone! okay and now MIKE he is truly an AWESOME friend hes always been there for meand i can talk to him about anything! anddd DEREKKKKKK--- ohh my hes just abotu the greatest guy anyone could ever get to kno! i will always love him and i hope nothing ever ruins our friendship!!! alright --->nexxxxxxxt---> lets see I think this is pretty long entry lol im just really bored and i have nothing to do...I only slept about 2 hours last night...i went to sleep around 5 and woke up around 7 but u kno what I am tired of typing! ahh lol so im gonna go now! --laterrr!
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[23 Jul 2003|10:47pm] |
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PLEASANT BULLET - poison the well
i've woken up every day
with my eyebrows pointing at my mouth
making all who care for me go through all my worst
times with me
and i give them no choice
all my worst times with me
i need to be unhappy to smile
but i haven't quite got the hang of it yet
i need to figure out why this room has blinds that never open
it's so hard to be these days
i wasted all my time
trying to remember
the word content was
there isn't much to open eyes for
i want to be excited just haven't been educated yet
wonder how long it will take before they leave me behind
questions in and questions out, they always ask me
it's so hard to be these days. i wasted all my time
trying to remember
the word content was
i just want to be happy
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