Thursday, January 15th, 2004
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9:09 pm
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I know, I know. I am a bad Blurty user. I never update since I got my LJ. I promise to start x-posting.
Right now, I am back on the hunt for a job. I still work at the daycare but it sucks. They treat me like shit and the people that work there suck ass.
Not much else is new. Off to shower and head to bed.
PS Happy birthday to  madscientist!
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Saturday, December 20th, 2003
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12:40 pm
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I hate not being able to sleep in. I woke up at 8ish and got out of bed around 10. I am tired but I can't seem to fall asleep. I would take some sleeping pills but I don't think I would get up for work at 5. Grr. And tomorrow I have to visit my grandparents so I have to get up somewhat early.
I did manage to clean a little. Not much but every little bit counts I guess.
The Christmas play at school yesterday was so bad. Mr. English just glared at me while my kids ran around like morons. And Mary was being her usual self, throwing tantrums and running to her mother whenever she got yelled at. Mr. English got up and walked out. He seriously needs to realize that my kids are 2 and they don't want to stand there and sing. I tried getting out of the program and doing a private one in our classroom but he said no. I guess this is what he gets.
Off to put on some Dave and chill before work.
current mood:  awake
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Thursday, December 18th, 2003
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7:47 pm
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Sorry I have been absent for a while. I have been preoccupied with my new LJ. I need to start cross posting.
I got my new cat. He is so sweet. I (well, Laura) named him Goliath because he is so big.
The CYC Christmas program is tomorrow and everyone is so stressed. This is our last scheduled program until Easter so, unless the Bishop visits again, things should calm down.
Not much else new. I am going to go relax.
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Friday, December 12th, 2003
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5:55 pm
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Tuesday, December 9th, 2003
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9:26 pm
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This week has been going smoothly so far (but it is only Tuesday). Not much to report except Shasta got her new apartment and is in the process of getting settled so I no longer have a roommate (just the way I like it).
I am starting to feel apprehensive about this party in Allentown on Friday. I found out that Shasta and I will be the only girls there (I don't quite know the reason for that) and that the guy whose house it is at is seperated from his wife who is a psycho. So, I am not sure I really want to go. I know Shasta will be totally pissed but I have heard this guy's wife gets all weird when her "husband" hangs out with girls. And Shasta and I spending the night probably won't go over very well with her. I don't want to ditch Shasta last minute but I also don't want this crazy bitch showing up and starting problems.
I talked to Laura for a while today. She is all depressed because she is unemployed again (long story but Kay's was really mean to her when she asked for time off when her grandmother died). She just can't find work and I know how she feels. So she is bored to death and broke which is an awful combination.
I can't wait for the end of the month. I get 2 paid days for Christmas and 2 paid days for New Year's so I will have time to relax and get drunk without having to worry about being hungover at work. I can hardly wait.
Right now I plan on laying in bed until I fall asleep, which will hopefully be soon.
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Saturday, December 6th, 2003
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9:30 am
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It has been a while since I updated. It has been really hard to this week between work and Shasta staying here. She and her finacee broke up and she does not want to go home so she has been crashing here. She moves into her new apartment on Monday so hopefully I will have more time. Sorry to all my Blurty friends for the lack of comments lately. I tried to catch up today.
I got a new aide on Tuesday. She is ok. She is the cook's sister. She is much more helpful than Lauren.
On Wednesday, this little boy (Keyshaun) bit another boy (Garrett) and drew blood. This is the fourth time he bit someone (he but Mary Rose 3 times). Garrett's mom flipped (I don't blame her) and threatened to call a lawyer. So, my director went to her boss and had Keyshaun terminated. Garrett's mom was happy. Keyshaun's mom was pissed. She is blaming me but she does not see I have no say in who gets terminated. A kid could stab me and I have no say in if that kid stays or goes. So, Keyshaun's mom called her welfare caseworker and is trying her hardest to have me fired. I have been told not to worry but it is pretty hard not to.
Needless to say, I went out Wednesday to the Woodlands. It was a ton of fun and I got way drunk. Thursday was pretty rough at work.
I finished up Christmas shopping. I got Laura gold hoop earrings and some socks. I got Jen this cute little set of Victoria's Secret perfume. And I got something for Jenny but she reads this journal so I won't mention that.
It was so nice to sleep in today. I have work at Boscov's from 4-10 and then I think Shasta is coming over if she can make it home from Allentown. Then tomorrow I am doing laundry and some more shopping. All of that means I won't get a day to lay around. Bah.
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Sunday, November 30th, 2003
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6:39 pm
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I got the rest of my Christmas shopping done today. I got Jen this really cute set of purse sized perfume from Victoria's Secret. I got Laura gold hoop earrings and some socks. I am so excited to be done. Well, I am not technically done. I still need to order something online for Jenny and have it shipped to her but I can do that at anytime (Jenny...if you are reading this my dumb ass lost your address AGAIN so could you email it to me pleeease?)
Shasta and I are discussing a plan to drive to Texas to visit her friends who are stationed down there. It will be like a 21 hour car ride but we figure if we leave on Thursday night we can hang out on Friday and Saturday, leave on Sunday and be back for work on Monday. I would need to get a Friday off from work but a lot of people take days off so I think I can swing it. It will have to wait until after the holidays so I can save some cash but I am already excited about it.
We are also planning a weekend in Allentown with Mark and Louis. That should be fun. I love going to new bars. And Allentown was fun the two times I went there.
I am not looking forward to this next week. I need a vacation SOOOO badly. I just want a whole week to sleep in and be a bum. I seriously miss unemployment. I don't miss being broke or depressed but I miss having time to do things. Right now, I have a zillion things I need to do but I am too tired to do them. I wish I could win the lottery (maybe I should play?)
Well, I need to straighten up a bit and then get ready for bed (I am a total loser). Night.
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9:02 am
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This week was pretty rough. Since Lauren flaked I was all by myself with no aide (which is illegal by the way). I was so glad to have the week over with. My boss has someone in mind for the aide position so hopefully she will start next week.
Shasta ended up spending the night last night. She was hysterical because she and her fiancee broke up and he is moving out. I feel so bad for her.
I have 95% of my Christmas shopping done. All I need to buy for is my friends. I wrapped most of the presents I bought on Thanksgiving so that's out of the way.
Well it is very early in the morning and I think I need to go lay back down.
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Monday, November 24th, 2003
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6:17 pm - AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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Today sucked so so bad. My aide finally quit but not before ruining my reputation. Here's what happened: I was outside having a smoke with Ann and Suzanne came out looking all serious and told me that Mr. English (the executive director) needed to see me. I was like am I in trouble and Suzanne told me that she couldn't talk about it but that it was about Lauren.
So I get in there and sit down. Lauren was already in there and she was sitting across from me and Suzanne was on my right. Mr. English came in looking seriously pissed. He asked Lauren if she though I was a good employee and if I was good with the kids. She said yes. Then he asked why she called a parent and said I was being mean and unfair to her daughter. Lauren asked "What parent did I call" and he said Sierra's mom (the girl I had terminated for disturbing the other kids). Lauren played dumb and said she didn't. Then it came out that Sierra's mom had given Lauren rides home from work (Lauren has been hitting everyone up for rides). So Lauren told Sierra's mom that I had a vendeta against Sierra (a freaking two year old). So Sierra's mom is all mad now.
Anyway, Mr. English started screaming at Lauren and she walked out. She said she quit. Mr. English told her not to come back. Then, he turned to me and started to bitch at me. He said I am on probation and he wants Suzanne to keep an eye on me and he wants a weekly written report on me. He got up and left and I started bawling. Suzanne said there is no permanent record so it won't keep me from getting another job.
Well, I am off to rest. My head is killing me.
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Friday, November 21st, 2003
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7:57 pm - Waiting for a download...
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..so I figured I would update.
Not much has happened. This week went by quickly and I am sure next week will as well because of the Thanksgiving stuff we are doing at school. And I have Thursday off, which is nice. I have to work Black Friday (which sucks) and we have to decorate for Christmas (which sucks more) and get ready for the Christmas program (which sucks hardcore). They expect us to put on a mini play. My kids can't even shit on the toilet let alone put on a play. Please.
I got my new Dave CD today. It is 3 hours long and I sat and listened to the whole thing. I love that man.
Oh, and I consolidated my school loans yesterday. My payments went from $340 a month to $56 a month for the first 2 years and $156 for the remaining 13 years. Schweet. I will be paying loans until I am 38 but whatever. Hopefully, my mom will pay them for me when this whole lawsuit thing goes through.
So I am downloading Napster so I can burn some more CDs. All of my money goes to rent and bills so I can't afford to pay for my music. Except for Dave, that is. I would spend my last $20 on a Dave CD.
I was going to go out tonight but I thought chilling was a better idea. I have work from 12-9 tomorrow at Boscov's and I know it is going to be super busy until the buses stop (old ladies take buses) and I don't want to be hung over.
My mom has her panties in a knot over Thanksgiving dinner. She bought 2 turkeys and all this other stuff because she is anal and always makes too much. I don't even want to be there for the cooking of the dinner because she will be all stressed and bitchy. I think I will wrap Christmas presents while she cooks because it could get ugly. She hates when people are in her way when she is cooking a big meal.
I think Laura is coming for Thanksgiving because her mom is going to Oklahoma to visit Heather (Laura's sister). I haven't really talked to her about it but last I knew that is what she is doing.
Napster is taking a long ass time to download. Stupid free Wilkes internet.
Well, I am going to lay down because I am sick of waiting.
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Wednesday, November 19th, 2003
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5:37 pm
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I have been neglecting my Blurty and all my Blurty friends and I am so sorry.
This week was pretty rough. The one kid at school, Sierra, is a little brat. She does not respect any authority figure. She keeps all of the kids up at nap time. She eats the other kids' food. And to make matters worse, her mom thinks she is a well behaved angel. Today, the director told her mom to make other arrangements. So hopefully next week will be better.
I went Christmas shopping on Sunday. I got most of it done. I got my grandfather a tie and a tie clip. I got my grandmother a figurine of an angel with Hail Mary on the side. I got my mom a DVD player and a bunch of DVDs, as well as jammies and socks. I got my uncle jammies and his wife a picture frame. I got my cousin's kid, Kaylee, some clothes and toys. I also got Shasta a crock pot and some sushi plates. Now, all I have left is one aunt and the rest of my friends (I am just getting stuff for Laura, the two Jennys, and Jen and the rest will get bottles of booze).
I have been cat-sitting for my friend who can't have any pets. The cat is so attention hungry. He keeps me up all night. Jen is coming to pick him up tonight (thank God) and is bringing me wings and beer to make up for it.
Last night I went to Shasta's and we watched Wrong Turn. It was freaky but not all that scary. I ended up spending the night and coming back home in the morining to get ready for work.
So now I am totally tired. And I don't even get a full weekend off (I have to work 12-9:30 at Boscov's on Saturday). I guess I better go comment and then lay down till Jen gets here.
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Saturday, November 15th, 2003
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7:48 am
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I found yet another disadvantage of my job: I can't seep in on the weekends because I am so used to getting up early. I fell asleep last night at 9:30 and I woke up at 7:30. Grr. I want to sleep till noon.
This week at work was okay. Thursday was a bad day however. The kids just seemed to be in bad moods and they pissed me off. No one would sleep at nap time so it turned into chaos. I just got really frustrated with it. I talked to another teacher who used to be in my room and she gave me lots of advice that we started doing on Friday. Hopefully things will get better.
Laura is coming over at 10:30 to hang out and then I am going to Shasta's to do laundry. And then I have work from 4-9.
I am off to lay down since I don't think I can sleep more.
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Monday, November 10th, 2003
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8:24 pm
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Today wasn't too bad. I kept myself busy decorating my classroom. The old teacher didn't really care about how stuff looked so it is kind of drab. Lauren and I made a bunch of stuff to make it more cheery.
I am rather tired today. I always hated Mondays. I hope this week goes by quickly because I can't wait for happy hour on Friday. That is the one thing I miss about college: being able to drink during the week. I can't really function with a hangover but I didn't mind not functioning in class. And 12 screaming kids don't make a headache any better.
Speaking of kids, there is a new 6 week old at the daycare. Guess how old her mom is: 14! That makes me sick. Granted, I was doing the nasty when I was 14 but I was safe about it. I wouldn't dream of having a baby now, let alone when I was 14. And if I did happen to get pregnant, now or then, I would put it up for adoption. A 14 year old can't raise a kid.
I better go because I am so tired and all I want to do is lay down.
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Sunday, November 9th, 2003
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1:10 am
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Jen and I didn't go to Bananna Joe's tonight. My knee hurts from where I fell and she ended up having to work late. So, I rearranged my room instead. It looks a lot bigger now.
I watched Dave on SNL. He is so awesome. I can't wait to get the Central Park cd.
Work sucked. It was long and boring.
I don't know what is up for tomorrow. Probably sitting around doing nothing. I hate Sunday because there is always the thought that I have to get up early the next morning.
I need to go finish putting my room together (it is a mess).
current mood:  busy
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Saturday, November 8th, 2003
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10:02 am - Drunken memories
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Last night was so much fun. Jen and I got to the Woodlands for happy hour at around 6:30. We got drunk so fast (I have no idea why...hehe). We watched the band for a while but then the old men started to piss me off so we went into Evolution to find some boys.
We were dancing and what have you and then I had to pee so we went to the bathroom. As I was washing my hands, a fucking bitch fight started to break out right in front of the door so we couldn't get out. Then, the girl who everyone wanted to beat up fell on the floor and started to puke. Jen started yelling at everyone to leave her alone and I sat with her and rubbed her back. I felt so bad for her because people still wanted to fight her. It was a mess. Then, the bouncer came in and kicked all of them out.
We went back out to dance and this sorry excuse for a guy came over and started dancing with me. His stupid line was: "You're my favorite one here" (I know it was a line because he said it to Jen 10 minutes later). I humored him for a while but he started to feel me up so I told him that Jen and I weren't looking for white boys who can't dance. He got a little pissy and he left. I guess he forgot he was mad because he kept coming back and trying to grab my boobs. That's when we decided to leave.
Today I feel like crap. I think I fell at some point because my elbow hurts and I have a big bruise on my thigh.
I have to go get cigarettes and I have work from 4-9 (yipee). Then, tomorrow, I am staying home and resting.
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Monday, November 3rd, 2003
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9:28 pm
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Grr. Aol IM is being stupid so it won't let me sign in. I have to uninstall it and now it won't let me reinstall.
My aide came in all appoligetic today. Everyone is sick of her shit and they won't even talk to her. And I know my supervisor wants her fired so she is going to work on convincing her sipervisor that it needs to be done.
I don't have work at Boscov's until Saturday so I am enjoying being home at a normal hour every day.
I don't really have much to update so I guess I am out.
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Sunday, November 2nd, 2003
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5:36 pm
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Ugh. I just lost my whole update and I am way too tired to retype it so I will try to sum it up.
My aide stormed out again. It is a whole long story (that I had all typed out but lost it) but they still won't fire her. We have to have a "talk" tomorrow and I am not looking forward to it. Maybe I will retype the story tomorrow.
I am going to go lay down before I throw this computer out the fucking window.
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2:21 am - The last 2 days
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I am really drunk right now. I just got home from Bananna Joe's. I drank a lot. I went to the Woods for Halloween. I did bad bad things that I won't ever talk about.
I have work tomorrow. I am going to be sooooooo hung over it isn't even funny.
I saw Niki and Lex who I went to high school with.
I will update more tomorrow after I have work because I am tooo drink now.
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Tuesday, October 28th, 2003
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8:34 pm - Grrrrrr...
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It is official: I hate my aide. I thought her purpose was to HELP me but all she does is question what I do. I tell the kids to do one thing and she tells them to do something different. I was ready to kill her today. The kids had just finished PM snacks and I told them to throw out their bowls and cups. Right away, she said, "Do you want to sing songs?" and they started screaming and running over to her. I told her that I wanted them to clean up from snack time and she stormed out of the room. When she came back, I told her that I wanted them to clean up before they played and she was like, "I didn't mean for them to sing songs now". I told her that, when you say somthing like that to kids, they don't undertand that you mean later. Of course they would rather sing and dance than clean up. But wait, it gets better...
At the end of the day, the kids have free play until their parents come to get them. I don't believe that children that young (2 and 3) should be taught to throw things. They don't understand the difference between hitting somone with a plush ball and a tonka truck so my policy is no throwing, period. I yelled at the kids all day about throwing things. Well, during free play, Lauren decided to have the kids throw balls to each other. I flipped out. I said, "Lauren, you have been here all day. What have I been telling these kids?" and, once again, the bitch copped a 'tude with me. I was ready to slap her.
So, all of this, coupled with the fact that she takes cigarette breaks incessently (and always when the kids get rowdy and she leaves me to deal with them) and she curses in front of the kids (I am waiting for one of them to curse to their parents). I seriously don't know how much longer I can put up with this. I need to talk to the director about this but she is really close to Lauren and I have a feeling nothing will get done. If Lauren comes in with an attitude tomorrow I am going to flip on her. She is my aide. She is supposed to freaking help me but I think life would be better if she wasn't there.
Tomorrow and Thursday are going to be rough. I have work at school and Boscov's so that's 2 14 hour days in a row. Don't expect to see me online much because I will be coming straight from work and into bed.
current mood:  irate
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Sunday, October 26th, 2003
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5:18 pm - My day off...
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It was so nice to sleep in this morning. I had a total blonde moment last night, though. I knew we were supposed to do something with the clocks last night. Idiot me turned them ahead. So when I woke up, I thought it was 11 (it was actually 9). Duh.
Today, Shasta, Jen and I went to the mall and for lunch. It was nice.
Shasta had her surgery oin Friday. The doctor said it was a one in a thousand chance it could be cancer. I am sure she will be fine.
Tomorrow is my first day alone at school. I am nervous. I really hope the kids respond to me without Carol (the old teacher) there. And I hope I can resist the urge to kill my aide.
I also work at Boscov's tomorrow. Another 14 hour day. Ugh. I am going to be so tired. But I have this whole weekend off. Drunken Halloween at the Woodlands. Yipee.
I need to go and surf the internet for some worksheets and craft ideas for November's lesson plans. I will try to update tomorrow but I will probably be too tired.
current mood: working
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