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(go ahead and laugh cause it don't cost much) you're still waiting for someone who never ever came [14 Aug 2005|12:53am] i tried to do a free write. i thought that since i'm so lost right now just not thinking as i wrote would help. but nothing came out. no subconscious thoughts. no anger. just nothing. i feel so empty. i hate not doing anything with my time. i'd rather be working my ass off at banana or at school than just sitting at home. reading doesn't distract me anymore. neither does packing. i finally really understand that garden state quote. i'm not just trying to be emo about it. You know that point in your life when you realize that the house that you grew up in isn't really your home anymore? All of the sudden even though you have some place where you can put your stuff that idea of home is gone... You'll see when you move out it just sort of happens one day one day and it's just gone. And you can never get it back. It's like you get homesick for a place that doesn't exist. I mean it's like this rite of passage, you know. i should feel home here still. but i don't. i just don't feel any connection at all. i love some of my friends from here, but let's face it, most of my real friends were from nfty. i can be friends with anyone from any distance. maybe that's why leaving here doesn't scare me. if any of these friendships are real, then they won't end. my mom and i fight too much. shit with my dad is coming back and i honestly have never felt so at a loss as to what i should do. fuck it. less than two weeks.

(go ahead and laugh cause it don't cost much) [13 Aug 2005|01:43am] sometimes i contemplate making a 2nd lj. but i'm parinoid. and i'm saving my moleskin for college. so hi blurty. i think i should delete you but i'll wait for college. i'm blank lately. thrilled for school. but i feel guilty about feeling so little sadness about leaving. but fuck, i'm ready for college. i already have some really close friends. it's going to be good. i also feel guilty because my mom still isn't completely better. i'm kind of freaking out because i'm probably going to get cancer someday. my mom has it. her mom did. we don't know farther back because of the holocaust... shtetels were destroyed and my grandparents lost a lot of papers and things in china. but two straight generations, according to the doctors, is a pretty bad sign. so there's that to look forward to. i'm sick of falling for the wrong people. in my life i've been involved with 3 people. or at least tried. sam lived half an hour away. but that was when we saw each other once a week and neither could drive. so it was like hours. then, during nfty i had 4 hours. with warren which also fucking sucked. now i'm free and adult and it's on the other fucking side of the country. but it's things like this that make me glad that i feel so little regret about just ignoring how i feel. two more weeks and i'll be surrounded with accesable hookups. and i'll be brilliantly distracted. hooray. i guess the lack of jews in mta made me ignore the population. in my mind i have nothing wrong with nonjewish boys. but let's face it. in real life they just make more sense. and lorrrrrd i love a mysterious jewish boy. i'm really turning pessimistic. and i don't like it. i find snarkyness and cynicism attractive in other people... in myself, not so much. i'll work on it. no. i won't. but summer brings it out. it'll melt away soon enough. not even going to spellcheck. sorry, self, if you reread this. actually not. if you do, just delete the journal, ok? ok.

(go ahead and laugh cause it don't cost much) [02 Jul 2005|10:40pm] not gonna lie. i have never been so influenced by my period in my LIFE. i want to cry, yell, have a wild hookup, and punch the shit out of someone all at once. kelly caught me off guard and so i have to work tomorrow. whatever. 4 hours isn't bad. then zoes party monday. whee. hannah s, jess and i are planning a roadtrip. part of it includes eisner. i am excited but kind of wary. i want to see warren this one last time. in my head i want to yell at him for never saying goodbye. or keeping in touch. or showing any emotion except for when he wanted something. even then. but i never will. because i don't know what to do with him. anyone else i can handle. dsfjdsl. BAH. erica and scotty and liz are there. and dan. so it'll be fun. even if he pulls another levi leap. i am a mess right now. this mood is not me. well it is. but the me i keep hidden. if i was confronted right now about anything by anyone i'd blow up. except i think if i got a hug i'd break down crying. midol, it is time for you to work your magic.

(go ahead and laugh cause it don't cost much) [02 Jul 2005|01:31am] update number 2 since the lj began. what is the world coming to? dear hormones, FUCK OFF! love, deena. my entire body is nearly incapeable of life. i am achey and crampy yet hormones are alive and well. is this what being pregnant is like? 9 months of PMS? i hate that i still miss warren. and think about him. i'm hoping it's the imbalence that female life has blessed me with because it'll be a long summer otherwise. but i was looking through my pictures for college and i found this one with this face he makes. head leaning forward a little. eyes looking right in the camera. tiny kind of deep smile. it looks like he's biting his tounge. i forget where it was... it might have been an interview but some super model... or maybe julia roberts... i forget... anyway she said she does her sexy smile pushing her tounge between the back of her teeth. that's what this smile makes me think of. it kills me. i keep thinking of all of these nfty memories and memories of him. and i DON'T want to go back to high school... but i can't even put it into these words. life was so fucking beautiful in nfty. not perfect. i stopped calling it that ages ago. but it just worked. it makes my heart ache that i won't get to see hannah kicking ass as president. and that i'll never hear moishe again. or debate with joel. or be pissed off that warren's eating ribs. or wear my bra outside of my shirt and play 10 fingers like it's totally normal. or any of that. my list of what makes me cry could fill a book. i don't know what it was that nfty did to me or gave me but it changed my life. in the most mundane ways. but huge at the same time. one thing i miss was the physical contact of nfty. i love being able to hug or kiss or cuddle with or lean on anyone. within seconds of meeting them. i don't know where i'm going with all of this. i hate hormones. that is a good wrapup. lord this entry is shit. luckily nobody will read this and i will never reread it.

(go ahead and laugh cause it don't cost much) [27 Jun 2005|09:23pm] hm. i remember the good old days of blurty. lj is where it's at but i think i'm going to write here tonight. things are changing so fast and so slowly all at the same time. i'm graduated. and excited for college and the real world. and it's ready for me. i got my braces off. for once in my life i sometimes feel pretty. i am starting to feel right with myself. more than i ever did before. except i'm growing farther and farther away from two of my best friends and i hate it. i grew a lot this year. branched out. was more open to making friends outside of nfty...aka at home. and it treated me well. i have a wider circle of really diverse and fantastic friends... but i feel like in some ways it's hurt me. i'm afraid that when we're in three different states it will be the two of them keeping in touch and me once in a while. i know they are closer with each other than with me. i brought that upon myself this year. but it still hurts that we lost some of whatever we used to have. i feel myself about to cry and i hate crying so i'm done with this paragraph. this year i really think i was depressed. i think i still am. i cry for no reason, i pick fights with my mother and just feel like complete shit for no reason. i lost all motivation to do well or to participate in activites and i blamed it on college. on the cancer. on everything except the fact that i just hated myself and life. i'm not afraid of hurting myself because i look so forward to the future... but i'm here for a few more months and every time i get into one of my moods it's harder to get out of them. the stuff with warren lately isn't helping. i like him so much and i think he feels the same or at least felt. but we just suck at communicating. unless we're physically together we can't manage. i think back on the past two years of us getting to know each other. it blows me away how weird we are. whatever he does or i do i know that at one time we had a really nice relationship and that's enough for me. i'll never forget the night he gave me the one compliment that i've needed to hear my whole life. he said that he respected the fact that i trust slowly. that he thought it was admirable and i shouldn't apologize for it. i bet he doesn't even remember saying that. he never knew how much it meant for him to tell me that. it hurts that i'm never going to get closure between us. at this point it hardly matters. he's at eisner and i'm here. then we leave for college. i don't want a long distance relationship in college. especially one that hardly even feels like a relationship at all. i don't know. i wish i knew what he was thinking once in a while. i never thought i could meet someone less open to talking than me. i lost my chance with him and have to get over it. i don't think anyone uses blurty anymore which is the only reason i'm posting this. i hate private entries at lj. i'm always positive someone can read them. and i can't find my moleskin. these long paragraphs will bore anyone who happens upon them anyway. so blurty it is. i'm done.

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(go ahead and laugh cause it don't cost much) rar! swash swash buckle buckle! [13 Dec 2003|08:04pm] [ mood | restless ] [ music | dar williams ] yesterday was grand. school was school except instead of going to history i went to a YAAPP presentation. i was crying through almost all of it because the more i watch it the more i think back to everything that happened with brandon and it makes me want to scream. then it was science olympiad and OHHHH man i love it. dynamic planet is the only one i've been in since freshman year and the comfort of knowing ms.labranche and such is so nice. knowing the cookies and cheeze-its will be there. knowing we'll joke about john. just everything. and leslie is back which is awsome because she's fun to be with. then we brought andrea to her house to get her sports bra and brought her back to school so she could catch the bus to her game. she drove back and i think the only person who is a scarier driver than her is jay. she was going nearly 60 in a 25 neighborhood. after that thrilling ride sarah amanda and i got... duh nuh nuh.... GUSTER TICKETS! the butts at bull moose charged a transition fee but EEEEEEEEEEEEE! WHO CARES??? so excited for friday. it'd better not snow like it has the past few years. i'll die if it does. while sarah was in her job interview, amanda and i went to tj maxx. after a while sarah came over and then i bought a skirt, a hoodie, and some jewish socks. now i can say "___ rocks my jew-socks" and can really have them!!! and then it was pirates time. the movie was soooooo good even though i missed half of it due to abuse from emilie and sarah, but what i saw was brilliant. and i must admit that johnny depp was fairly sexy. and very talented. after that emu had to leave and sarah amanda and i talked a bit and watched amanda be insane with sabre and then slept. g!d that girl is a crazy one. she talks to sabre like those crazy old women talk to babies of strangers. "ohhh what a snoogum woogums!" tonight my mom went out with some friends. to a baby shower. but at least she went out. i hate how anti-social she is. it makes it hard for me to do lots of friendy stuff and not feel guilty. this entry was brought to you by uninspired ramblings and the letter Q.

(go ahead and laugh cause it don't cost much) my jew-unit [13 Dec 2003|02:36pm] [ mood | rappy ] [ music | 50 shekel - in da shul ] http://www.50shekel.com Go, go, go, go Go, go, go boychick It's your birthday We're gonna party like it's your birthday We're gonna sip chewitz like it's your birthday And you know we all know the shpiel That it's your birthday [chorus 2x] You can find me in da shul, praying after school Honey I got the chewitz if you're jumping in my pool I'm just into making peace, I ain't into causing trub So come give me a hug, if you're into getting love [verse] When I daven up front, you see me shuckle with my cuz When I pray pretty deep, it's me and G-D up above Ladies hear I'm in L.A., now they wanna call me up When I shpiel like Eminem, and the Jews they show me love But chevra nothin's changed, be proud, Jews up I see Sandler in his flicks, just keeps blowin' up If you watch how I shmooze then you'll see how I do my shtick Been abused by this town but I ain't walk with a stick In the shul then the ladies saying Shekel you hot They like me, I want them to love me like they love G-D Yo holla Brooklyn to Teaneck, them places taught me to love yo My plan's to bring peace n' put thing song on the radio Keepin' focused man, my plan's on my mind Got a second chance to give and I won't fall behind Now girly said she feeling my laughs, she feeling my shpiel We're gonna go out tonight for a great sushi meal “ I'll pay [chorus 2x] [bridge] These J.A.P.S. they want most everything Fancy clothes, fancy cars, fancy diamond rings Gucci, Lexus, Sushi, Bel Air West Bank, where's the peace and why ain't you still changed [verse] And you should love us, way more than you hate us Why you mad bros? I thought that you'd be happy we're neighbors I'm that mensch showing people how to live the Jew life You're those angry ass bombers trying to hold us down right When my thoughts get to G-D in the shul it's on I wink my eye at the Rebbe, my aliyah is on If Bush wants to fight ˜em, let the powers overturn If he's talking taking over, chevra I ain't concerned I'm a tell you what Bernie told me just go ˜head speak your mind up If extremist hate then let ˜em hate Then watch them blow themselves up But we could go upside the bank with a bottle of chewitz Come on we can make peace [chorus 2x] [talking] Don't try to act like you don't know where we be neither chevra We in da shul all the time, it's about to pop off chevra Shekel and Rock The Beat Productions in the hizzzousssse [DJ Rock The Beat: Act like you know And knowing is half the mitzvah Shekel Style

(go ahead and laugh cause it don't cost much) i'll love you until the end of time. i'll kiss you goodnight but never goodbye. [11 Dec 2003|05:39pm] [ mood | mellow ] [ music | bridge over troubled waters ] exausted! today was strange and very energy draining. chem sucked donkey butt like a beast. (how's THAT for mixing B2 phrases?). everyone pretty much failed the test but it's because we don't study and/or care about school. but when we all get A's and B's it's because she can teach the material so well. hypocritical much? anyway... she yelled at us and told us we're all going to fail college and that though she likes us as people, we're lazy students. oh how i HATE HER. in math i realized that i am the dumbest person in the world. even though nobody else understood it she kept giving me these looks. i dunno. i've pretty much accepted the fact that math is my ego-check. history was AMAZING. we had a huge test but since we had mr.watkins as a sub we were allowed to work in groups. so i worked with megan, heather, sarah, katy, jeremiah, dan, and tatanya. we each took 10 questions and then shared the answers. plus mr.w helped A LOT. so we got done super fast and then jeremiah dan tatanya and i talked about old-school tv shows. like captain planet and fraggle rock and the magic school bus. it was great. german was also amazing. herr shereton came back to visit which was crazyness. after school heather jake tracie and i made our movie. it's great. then i went to art club and worked on my YAAPP gift and then sat with jared for a while and we talked. mostly about chem. all in all it was an exausting day but the kind that brings the students together. i've made so many close friends just through the chem abuse. EEEEEEEEEEEE for YAAPP presentations and pirates par-tay tomorrow. i think i'm gonna go work on my service. ps: emily's father died. exactly 9 months after her mom. it depresses me for many reasons but one of the biggest is i know how much she loves them and how they helped her find our mom and paul's brother and we didn't even get to meet them.

(go ahead and laugh cause it don't cost much) he wrote my name in silver strands [10 Dec 2003|10:20pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | in demand. the alan rickman version. ] I'll do the bad news first because then i leave on the good news. bad news is that the world is shit today/lately. car accidents. deaths. depression. avi. the good news. feb p(remove your c)'s rock my WORLD. jess now known as jco makes me so happy. and allie is brilliant. i showed her a picture of me and raimi from biennial and she asked jco who raimi was this is what happened: jess: she's our friend raimi. from biennial. she's in nfty-ger. allie: GERMANY? oh this is going to be SUCH a good group. now i have a buttload of homework to do and still 12 hours of school before pirates time.

(go ahead and laugh cause it don't cost much) sucky!day [10 Dec 2003|05:07pm] [ mood | hungry ] [ music | guster!!! ] "i wish i was a viking." "why? so you could rape, pillage, and burn?" "no. so i could wear the cool hat." ps- notice the fanfic loser refrence in the subject? today was exausting. i feel like everyone is out to get me and that my brain is on vacation and left behind a pile of mush. especially with math. dan and i went to math lab twice, worked together, and everything else... but we don't get it. yet mrs.p says it's the most simple thing ever. so dan and i must be the dumbest people ever. my life is like menopause. some days are perfect and amazing and some days are shitty. and i never know which it'll be. sigh. on the plus side science olympiad is getting started for real now and i'm excited for that. i really want to be on the blue team this year. i feel bad for saying it, but i almost feel like i deserve it. i'm the only junior who has done it all of the years and i've given SOO much time. i'll be ok if i end up with red... i know that it needs a mix of people. but i want to go to nationals so very much and gah. the blue team is how to get there. meh. i have more to say but i'm soooooooooo hungry so maybe i'll just go eat and forget about this. yeah. that sounds good.

(go ahead and laugh cause it don't cost much) butt shake? what? [09 Dec 2003|07:29pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | friends ] today was strange. classes were ok. the "war" bettween me and edmondson lives on. we blew some stuff up in chem. dan told me some stuff i'd rather not know because it makes me even more frustrated. monica came to dance with me and amanda. it was awsome. i love that class SO much. sexyness. i saw a YAAPPer (i always do) and she said she'll be at the holiday par-tay so i'm excited for that. i haven't eaten for a million years so now i'm gonna go get an orange to eat. ta, darlings

(1 coin | go ahead and laugh cause it don't cost much) i miss those MN skyways [08 Dec 2003|08:05pm] [ mood | ranty ] [ music | dar williams ] i'm in a very meh-y mood today. so i'm going to do some rants. rant 1. people in general. i'm finding that i have a low tolerence for some types of people lately. i don't like people who lie or make things up so that they feel better about themselves. and for some people it is SO obvious that they are trying to impress people. i also am frustrated when i am expected to be "the calm one". some people expect me to be emotionless and act a very specific way and as soon as they realize i'm not like that, they can't handle it. lately i've had a lot of people saying "wow. i've never heard you say something like that before." or "i'd never expect you to say that!". maybe one day i'll just turn into a completely new person as a sort of screw-you to the world. i am also sick of having to disregard my feelings in order to make sure other people don't get hurt. i understand that friends are important and pretty much the people i love the most in my life, but how do i decide if i hurt myself or a friend? especially when no matter what i choose means i hurt everyone. ALSO something amanda and i have talked about A LOT is wanting to talk to teachers about our crazyness this school year but don't want them to think less of us. shouldn't we not be worried about things like that??? mrs.galle is the only teacher i can really talk to and not worry about her thinking i'm insane. i want to trust mr.palmer and mr.edmondson more because they are my other beyond favorite teachers, but i feel that with both of them i have a certain type of me that has to be held up and anything that's not what i think they expect means they'll no longer respect me as much as they do. ESPECIALLY mr.palmer because he and i have a very strange relationship. WARNING: I've said all of what follows here in past rants. it just happens to be that i am full of passion about the subjects of nfty and such and when i feel like shit school wise, i need it even more. especially when taling to 7 people about how much better nfty is than the rest of life. 2) I MISS BIENNIAL AND KUTZ LIKE CAH-RAY-ZAY! as i say like every 2 seconds, nfty is my love. most of my favorite people are in nfty, the people who understand me more than i understand myself are in nfty, on and on. i completely expect to meet my husband at a nfty event or at a biennial or in kesher/hillel or something of the sort. nfty is my soul-mate. that's all there is to it. 3) not even what i was thinking about, but my husband comment made me think of it. WHY WHY WHY does the HUC make you sign that damn paper saying you won't get into a non-jew relationship? i really want to go there, but what if i fall in love with someone who's not jewish? would they tell me i can't study there? yes! which is SICK. we're REFORM here. REEEEEFFOOOORRRRRMMMMM. now i understand that jews need to reproduce and such, but denying people an education because of something so uncontrolable is awful and slightly NON REFORM. if i fall in love with a non-jew, props to me. nobody's gonna tell me not to be in that relatioship. so puh to the HUC. i can become a jewish social service person somewhere else. 4) is it college yet?????????????

(1 coin | go ahead and laugh cause it don't cost much) he's a wonderboy. like wonderbread... only a boy. [08 Dec 2003|05:34pm] [ mood | lethargic ] [ music | TMBG ] well today was the steryotypical day of shitty high school. it wasn't awful but it wasn't worth waking up for. i took some tests all of which i either did amazingly well or i failed. and i had the nurse make my headache feel worse. and amanda and emu skipped. every time i passed sarah in the halls or whatnot, we said "ohhh that damn amanda and/or emu. i'm gonna kill them tonight." i stayed after and tryed out for our town mostly because i didn't want to take the bus home and i saw sarah in the halls. mrs.lemley doesn't seem to remember the time in middle school that i exploded at her because she was really nice to me today. now i have a lot of homework and i'm in a blahhhh mood. i feel like such a teenager. when i was talking to my mom about being a P(c) she was all "ohhhhh you get your OWN service???" and insert other completely obvious things. i just wanted to scream at her that maybe if she'd listened to me gush about NFTY even once since 8th grade, she'd know a little more about it. we haven't been getting along at all as of late.

(1 coin | go ahead and laugh cause it don't cost much) ah feel it in mah fingers. ah feel it in mah to-oes. [07 Dec 2003|03:51pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | some strange crap on public radio ] well. today sucks. i rented when harry met sally and watched it. but now i'm borrrredddd. i want to go build a snow fort or just go walk around the neighborhood and enjoy the prettyness of the snow before it gets all brown and yellow and plowed. but alas i have nobody to do any of that with so i'll just sit around and drink tea and mope. i think i figured out a theme for my service. it's not a one word theme though so i'm not going to try to explain it. just YAY! i have an idea! well... all i have to say about this snow now is that it'd better give us a snow day. it ruined my weekend plans and it should be fair.

(go ahead and laugh cause it don't cost much) don't buy drugs. become a rock star and get them for free [06 Dec 2003|12:53pm] yesterday rocked my world. in school everyone was lazy and in all of my classes everyone was superly lazy. thennnnnnnnnnnnnnn for the good stuff. amanda and i came back here so we could get my car. then we picked up sarah and had a grand evening. i'm lazy today and waiting for the PC conference call (damn the storm) so i'll just make a list of my favorite parts. 1) i got almost all of my gift shopping done 2) toy stores are funnnn 3) barista man at the coffee house was really fun and clearly cool if he was happy to stick his fingers in amanda's drink 4) the food was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good 5) amanda likes indian food! 6) good conversation during dinner 7) we got sarah into the movie with no problem. no ID check at any point and amanda's story about why she had to get sarah's ticket wasn't even a good one 8) love actually is the greatest movie i've seen in a long time 9) it was funny and sweet and alan rickman was a sexy sexy man 10) alan rickman has the most yummy voice and facial expressions 11) colin firth was really cute 12) so was hugh grant and the girl who played natalie 13) stalking jeremiah 14) that amazing u-turn 15) playing on the WC playground for a few min. 16) sarah forgot all of her JANE magazines in my car siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh to no PCness. but we do have our conference call in about half an hour but abby hasn't sent the stuff out yet. ergh. well. i'm going to go check my email again and then do my 9483209483209584309 homework papers.

(2 coins | go ahead and laugh cause it don't cost much) there was lots of crazy stuff going on. people dying. people... doing words i'm not allowed to say. [04 Dec 2003|09:14pm] [ mood | rejuvenated ] [ music | GUSTER! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! ] well. another perfect day. crazyness. english: i love NYC. i love reading about it and talking about it. and being there. (sarah, i hope you're there now.) mr.palmer is one of my favorite people in the world. we talked about 9 stories for a while. he's so excited that i'm reading it. chem: crazy woman. she likes me though. much to my shock. i think i am learning to tolerate her. i don't respect her very much or agree with her but i am pleased that she is so supportive of me and wanting me to do all my sciencey stuff. i have fun in that class because dan and i like to make fun of each other. homeroom: mr.edmondson rocks my socks. right across the room. plus it's fun to have andrea and sarah come in every time. math: i understand it. it's crazyness! mrs.palmer is so funny and very helpful. today octavia and i had communication issues but we had a good chuckle about it and eventualy did the right stuff. lunch: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DARLING AMANDA!!!!! i made her cupcakes and sarah made a slightly porn-ish card and we ate and had fun. tomorrow we celebrate our 17ness. history: awsome possum. mr.e still rocks my socks and jeremiah and dan are great fun. also i am becoming a HUGE fan of lincoln, much to the pleasure of mr.ed. german: i LOVE that class. today we talked about how to get protein and beating people up which of course involved lots of violence between brothers libby. we all had tears coming out of our eyes by the end of class today. art club was joyful. jeremiah made some cool art and i pretty much watched him because the library only has crappy magazines to cut up. but yay for my YAAPP gift being done. YAAPP tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i think peter is going to be there!!!! ::happy dance:: BNL is coming and jess and i reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally want to go (hey! that's me! spagetti!) but i think it's during feb insti. speaking of feb insti... if we get that damn snow storm and i can't go to the first meeting/bonding.... i will be PISSED. beyond pissed. dammit i need to see jess and meet the rest of the PC's and get some NFTY-NE lovin'. dammit. but yyaaayyy the concert was pretty good. my mom said it was great but she doesn't know better. we screwed up some. but pretty much it was spiffy. and alex was SO great. and they stood during that song. and brian and i talked most of the time because we share a love of mocking everyone in the world. ::happy sigh:: ps: movie tomorrow is R because of LOTS OF SEX! alan rickman and colin firth and hugh grant. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. moviegasmic.

(go ahead and laugh cause it don't cost much) oh baby oh baby [03 Dec 2003|09:31pm] [ mood | giddy ] [ music | alan rickman and his sexy voice ] ok so tonight my life just got a hell of a lot more exciting. all of a sudden ALL of my friends are seriously planning amazingly fun things for this month and i'm going to have great times. plans: 1) PC bonding/dinner and first meeting this weekend 2) pirate party 3) love actually (exciting because it's R and amanda and i can get in without an adult OR breaking the law!!) 4) guster/howie day. oh BABY! 5) before-insti hanging out 6) visiting people at their work places (haha dan has girls visit him. i still say we should have blown kisses.) 7) jesus (it's pronounced hey-seuss) b-day party/kutz reunion online 8) someday seeing mona lisa smile more stuff but becky and i are too busy talking about music for me to think *dances off in a random crazy dance*

(go ahead and laugh cause it don't cost much) how mena mysteries are there? [03 Dec 2003|04:51pm] [ mood | indifferent ] [ music | nothing ] sometimes i wonder why school is the same. every day. nothing exciting happens. and my brain is going to die. except that mr.edmondson's story about STD's at dork camp were good. but nothing new and exciting. i'd actually already heard the story. CRT was even nothing new. i don't really like the set up this year. but it's productive so i don't want to complain. after school amanda sarah and i went to buy top secret stuff for tomorrow. since amanda is the big one seven. (yay! someone to go see love acutally with!!!) i told amanda about my Issues. and she started to giggle. bah. she tried to be all positive about it but meh. frustration. well. tis time for me to go bake. PS- in band matt was strange today. of course he usually is. but he was super strange today. hmmmmmm.

(2 coins | go ahead and laugh cause it don't cost much) say ma? [02 Dec 2003|03:30pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | wclz ] today was beautiful! i got a 90 on my math test and a smile face sticker! wahoo! also instead of going to english, emu and i went to the YAAPP presentation. it was mip and sarah and so was really amazing. the only bad part was that the skit is always hard to watch, but after everything with mia and brandon, it was even more intense today. like the party scenes. i was definitly questioning my decision to watch the skit. during lunch we looked at naked people in vouge. (ps- sarah, i only said that because you said that i would.) urinetown is coming to boston. i want to go see it like WOOOOAAHHH. same for howie day and guster. i had something else to say but now i forgot. oh well. ps: it's sketchy to be stalked by a teacher.

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