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Sunday, January 6th, 2008

Subject:quitting her
Time:1:40 am.
There's this girl,
and she loves this girl with all her heart,
with everything she has,
basically every fiber of her being.

But she's not good for her,
and she knows it.
She's given up everything else;
coffee, cigarettes, drugs, music, her guitar, bad habits,
even things that make her happy,
all to see if they're the ones that are making her blue.

But in the end,
her heart is still breaking,
and she realizes that it's actually the one thing,
the one person,
that she loves more than anything else in the entire world,
that is breaking her heart.

But she's not angry and she's not bitter,
she just knows what she has to do.


why are the most simplest sounding things
the most hardest things in life
to do................


I gave up coffee and cigarettes
I hate to say it hasn't helped me yet

I thought my problems would just dissipate
and all my pain would be in yesterday

I poured my booze all down the kitchen drain
and watched my bad habits get flushed away

I thought that that would keep my head on straight
and all my pain would be in yesterday

But it's true
I'm still blue
But I finally know what to do
I must quit
I must quit
You

I thought that if I didn't go and play
the sadness would get bored and go away

I thought that if I didn't go astray
that all my pain would be in yesterday


I sold my guitar and my piano
I thought that it was these that kept me low

I thought if only I could try and change
that all my pain would be in yesterday


I must quit
I must quit
You






It's like im losing her
all over again

this cycle
this continuous need
to keep each other around

only to watch
and slowly die inside
and suffer

I broke down today
not because im hurt
not because im heart broken
not because i love her

but because
losing her
is the only way

and losing her
means
Losing her forever

but that is it

I've already lost her forever
and this person
i've tried so desperately
to save
is gone

what the fuck am i
without her

I love her so unbelievably much
and she is gone

im so terribly heart broken
and empty

i miss her
and love her so much

not one single tear
will ever bring her back to me
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