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  2004.02.18  16.00
Had a fight with my friend yesterday..


Hey.. Yesterday my friend kept trying to pick a fight with me..I dont know why she was so angry.. It confused me.. Shes my Best friend, and means more to me than she would ever know.. But i guess ive been a little distant lately.. And shes taking offense by that..
Heres the poem i wrote, not very good.. but its what i was feeling at the time

Your picking a fight
with thin air
not caring if afterwards
Ill still be there

You seem to be lost
Confused and unsure
you seem to be rash
And im not your cure

Your my best friend
and always will be
I just wish you would stop
Taking advantage of me

You know i hate conflict
And fighting with you
You say mean things,
well 'i love you' too

Sometimes, im not near
and others not home
But i dont want you thinking
that your all alone

Something must be
Hurting you, within
Just let me help you
Tell me who, what, where, when

I Hope this will pass
Just like everyother time
Just hope it doesnt, hurt me so much
One of these times

I just hope she relizes that i love her alot, and it hurtsme, to have her think i dont like her.. or whatever shes thinking



Mood: hungry
Music: sideways- Santana
 
 


 
  2004.02.18  16.00
Had a fight with my friend yesterday..


Hey.. Yesterday my friend kept trying to pick a fight with me..I dont know why she was so angry.. It confused me.. Shes my Best friend, and means more to me than she would ever know.. But i guess ive been a little distant lately.. And shes taking offense by that..
Heres the poem i wrote, not very good.. but its what i was feeling at the time

Your picking a fight
with thin air
not caring if afterwards
Ill still be there

You seem to be lost
Confused and unsure
you seem to be rash
And im not your cure

Your my best friend
and always will be
I just wish you would stop
Taking advantage of me

You know i hate conflict
And fighting with you
You say mean things,
well 'i love you' too

Sometimes, im not near
and others not home
But i dont want you thinking
that your all alone

Something must be
Hurting you, within
Just let me help you
Tell me who, what, where, when

I Hope this will pass
Just like everyother time
Just hope it doesnt, hurt me so much
One of these times

I just hope she relizes that i love her alot, and it hurts to think i dont like her.. or whatever shes thinking



Mood: hungry
Music: Amber- 311
 
 


 
  2004.02.13  16.46
Blah De da


OH my, i wore the cutest outfit today, and got so many compliments, ill esplain it to you- Black Skirt, Black shirt, White(with strips downward) over shirt, Black go-go boots.. And i had just Highlighted my hair.. So i looked diff.. just to let you know, i dont normally wear skirts.. almost.. Never. Lol.. Goodness. im starting to like guys.. but im getting so confused about it.. and i dont know why...And grr.. I keep fighting with my friend.. So ive decided that im not gunna hang out with her as much.. like every other weekend maybe((no joelle, Not you*if you were wondering*)), Well i guess im gunna go.



Mood: indifferent
Music: Amber- 311
 
 


 
  2003.12.30  20.28
...long time no write


Hey,
Lifes pretty much the same, christmas is over, got lotz of cool things.. dvd player, hanging ceiling chair thingy mabober... down comforter.. ok im done.. um.. im still with thomas, i saw him... sunday? hmm.. im wearing a skirt, surprise surprise. lol. ((im not a skirt wearer.. im more of a pants person..)).. Ok well im done for now..



Mood: calm
Music: Brand New- Sic Transit Gloria...Glory Fades
 
 


 
  2003.12.08  15.58



Hey,
Grr times are changing. Most of all people are changing.. Most of my friends are so much different now.. Its almost like weve grown apart or something.. Oh well, hope it will change..
Lauren is so funny, she's this sweet girl im becoming friends with, were gunna bring her to a ska show, and then a hardcore show.. Shes nervous, she doesnt want to seem like a poser. Its so funnyish.. lol
Thomas is being complicated. He said to joelle that i didnt tell him i was going to satillite high(friday) until i was there, but REALLY i told him on thursday that i was going, he said he had karate.
Christmas vacation is almost here!!! Im so excited. I still got to get lotza presents for people, so im gunna work around the house today to get some money..
AAHHHHh tommorrow im gunna start have mr. christoe((Asshole)) for my sub for math.Im so mad. Im gunna be in a bad mood for the next 4 days.. i can tell. He is literly the spawn of the devil.
I played volleyball on sunday, it was so much fun.. I think im gunna try out for the team next year
Ok well im gunna go..Buh*byes



Mood: sleepy
Music: Jingle Bell Rock-Bobby Helms
 
 


 
  2003.12.04  16.26



I HATE MR.CHRISTOE!! HE SHOULD ROT IN HELL.ok he was my subsitute in class today.. and he was a fucking jerk. If he ever acts that way to me again, i will leave class, and gggrrrr do SOMETHING. ggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr i hate him i hate him i hate him



Mood: pissed off
Music: Slipknot- left behind
 
 


 
  2003.11.30  17.55



Hey, this weekend was nice, i went to my sisters on friday and watched movies all day, i went to the movies yesterday and watched a Love actually, which personally i thought was really good, a lil slow. But it the end it made me smile. So all the movies i saw this weekend- Elf, Crossroads, Princess Diaries, Romeo and Juliet, Chicago, Blue Crush, Love Actually, Look whos talking now. Lotza movies.. hehe, i love movies. And my movie day was so relaxing and put me in such a good mood. and when i got back that night, me and my family put up our christmas tree.. Today we went to this art show in cocoa beach, Very interesting.. I also got Mcdonalds!!! Which is a great thing in my book. Well i guess im gunna go.. BuH*byes, Good*Day..



Mood: content
Music: Clocks-Coldplay
 
 


 
  2003.11.26  16.23



Kylie won.



Mood: sad
Music: Staind-Its been Awhile
 
 


 
  2003.11.26  07.47



Elections are today can i say nervous? I want to win so bad.. But kylies gunna win. Wish me luck!!



Mood: anxious
 
 


 
  2003.11.20  21.14
GRRRRRRR


GGGGRRRRR parents dont understand most of the time.. gees AAAAHHHHH cant even type, ill write when i calm down, CANT TAKE IT!!!



Mood: pissed off
Music: Fuck this world-SlipKnot
 
 


 
  2003.11.20  19.53
*Thursday*


Ok so ya.. My sister got a Speeding ticket, and you know how they send those notices telling you that you have a ticket right? Well i was supposed to be checking the mail for awaile to get it when it came so my parents wouldnt know about it((shes at college)) But no. The one day that i dont get a chance to check it my mom gets it. So she finds out, So i was gunna call my sister to tell her that my mom found it to give her a heads up, but my cellphone was dead, so i had to call with my moms, and right when i was about to leave a message , my mom walks in so i couldnt just tell her on the answering machine, so i say "call me back as soon as you can" and hang up, my mom of course wanting to know who i called, wouldnt stop bugging me, so i told her what i was doing, and pretty much streesed the point not to tell my sister. that i told her..but NO when my sister called back, my mom goes, your sister called to warn you about a ticket, that i just found out about. So now my sisters pissed off at me for not having her back and telling mom. Grr. I tried. Oh well not good enough i guess.. ANYWAYs, im going to Disney this weekend, staying in Dixie landings for about 2 nights.. Gotta make my posters soon, to put up around school.. gotta remember that.. lol**mental note**.I got some books from the library((yes i like to read)) i got the second book to the seris im reading-anne of avonlea, and i got this Book by..-Terry Pratchet((not sure on spelling)) and one about london, since im hopefully going there this summer...Im getting a lil worried, I dont know where joelle is.. And i dont think she was going to a soccergame or anything.. so im worried that something mighta happend.. and shes not answering her phone.. Grr.... and shes not online.. I hope nothing happened.. If anything happened to her, id die. Prolly from killing myself from grief.. heh.. Oh well i gotta go. Buh*byes



Mood: worried
Music: Bottom of a Bottle-Smile Empty Soul
 
 


 
  2003.11.18  15.44



Just got home from school. I have an ArchNemisis, like superman and all that, start out best friends, end up hating, but not voicing it because theres no point to that.((No not one of my best friends right now, dont go ballistic)) But ya.. VOTE FOR ME!! Im running for VP of my Grade. So if you go to my school vote for me! I got some christmas presents bought yesterday.. I havent talked to thomas since sunday.. I wonder if he noticed?? ok well i guess im gunna go. Buh*byes ((its really hot in here!!))



Mood: hot
Music: Dammit-Blink 182
 
 


 
  2003.11.17  18.22



Got my stuff for my ,Vote for me Posters and Pins.. Something really funny happened today, My mom got a call at work asking her to come check out her daughter cause she was sick, so she called my dad and told him to come get me. When i got in the car, i was like "why are you checking me out" He said "arent you sick?" I said no. So when we got home we called my mom, and called the # back that had called her, And when they said Daughter they meant my sister. So i didnt have to go back to school. Good day. Good day. lol, I also found out that my friend that i thought i was gunna be able to trust with things, Read my personal note to my other friend, who then told me other friend what it said, and it cause lots of unasked for drama.. Grr.. Ok now that im rambling about dumb things im gunna go. Buh*Byes



Mood: hungry
Music: Train- When I look at the sky
 
 


 
  2003.11.16  14.14



I just came back from my boyfriends.. Not as GREAT as i woulda hoped for.. When he saw these gurls it almost seemed to me that he was ashamed to be with me.. Kinda Hurt, ya know? ANYWAYS I didnt fight with jenna when i went to this Amazing play that was put on by my schools Drama class((Cash On Delivery)). It was so good, the plot was really Intricate and the two main characters((norman, and eric)) were really sexy.. Made it all the better. Lol.. This weekend all in all was cool, got to hang out with my Best friend((joelle)) and go to a play, and Go to the mall.. Grr the boyfriend thing is still bothering me a lil.. Im gunna ask him about it next time i talk to him.. alright G2G Buh*byes



Mood: aggravated
 
 


 
  2003.11.13  21.30
Bored..Rambling..


Im bored.. Yes.. Im bored.. Tomorrow.. I think im going to the mall with joelle, My boyfriends grounded for bad grades so he wont be going with us :(.. Well ill go if the "Bill" guy leaves before its time for me to go. "Bill"-Inspectoer guy to Inspect my house to see if its *safe* to have foster kids. Yes, my family will soon be foster family that brings in kids. And most people are wrongly informed of these things. We are not bad people, we do not starve kids.. We treat them like family.. Its doing the better good for mankind.((hehe)).. So ya.. Anyways.. Tomorrows friday which is always a good thing, cause that means no more school very soon. HAHAH im talking to my friend alex, so funny so funny, he always says hes not *sexy* around girls to get them to Gasp and be like WHAT YOUR SO SEXY ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY.. i think its giving him a big head. lol. ((he is sexy by the way)) but ill only tell him that now on*alex is sexy day* lol. yes he made a day devoted to himself. lol.. Wow it seems like im talking to myself.. hahaha. ANYWAYS.. I feel bad for my friend mike right now.. hes so sad.. I never seem to know how to help him.. I WANT to.. But i never seem to say the right thing.. I mean i care for him more than anything but.. i dunno it doesnt seem to accumilate to words to help it out.. ((did that make sense??)) hmm... I guess ill go now.. Buh*byes



Mood: weird
Music: Clocks- Coldplay
 
 


 
  2003.11.13  21.10



Grr parents are complicated.



Mood: aggravated
 
 


 
  2003.11.13  18.50



Hahahhaha, Me and Joelle got the same grades on our Interm((2-A 3-B 1-C)).. Nothing interesting happened today.. ill write back later.Buh*byes



Mood: indifferent
Music: Surfacing((F*** this world))-Slipknot
 
 


 
  2003.11.12  21.15
Actors I want to meet...


Kevin Alexander Clark, Tom Felton, Travis Fimmel, Johnny Depp, Orlando Bloom, Tom green, Heath Ledger, Richard Gere, Josh Hartnett, Ben Affleck, Matt Damen, Jack Black, Shane West, Daniel Radcliffe, Michael Rosenbaum, Mel Gibson, Nicolas Cage, Chad Michael Murray, and many many more.. lol.. Alright im done for now.

 
 


 
  2003.11.12  20.08



Admitting you have a problem, is the first step to solving it. So im doing that. I have a problem. I seem to dwell on my problems..I complain alot.. I need to change. Joelles gunna help me. Shes gunna make me work harder, watch richard simons tapes, and get out of the house more, and off the computer. Shes so nice. So that is my goal for now. To get better. lol.
ANYWAYS
I wanna finish my book((The lovely bones)) But i can never seem to find time to get to it.. I have to bring it back to the library tomorrow, its already late. lol. ill finish it some day..
I NEED MONEY FOR CHRISTMAS. I have so many people to buy for and so little money. lol.. Ill work on it.. Im gunna wash cars, Babysit, Mow grass.. ill figure more out. Any suggestions??? ok well since im losing convo.. im gunna get.Buh*Byes



Mood: blah
 
 


 
  2003.11.12  19.06
First entry..


Ok.. Dont really know what to do yet, still learning.. But um .. hmm.. I started going out with Thomas yesterday, which is good, Joelle((best friend)) says I love him, I dunno, I always thought love would be this great thing, with fireworks that makes you tingle when that special person walked into the room. But what do i know. Today was Not very interesting.. I had A SGA meeting, ya im running for Vice president, go me! lol. I dont know if ill win tho.. Cause the gurl im running against is pretty, popular, and practically has it in the bag, But i shouldnt look so down on this, i may win. So i guess ill just keep my hopes up, and wish for the best. Hmm.. Plans for the weekend.. I think im going to be going to the mall with joelle and figuring out what im gunna get people for christmas, see the prices and save up money.. HARD STUFF. I like to spend money. Its hard to save. After the mall, i may go to Disney((on sunday)), Family day, joy. lol. My family isnt all bad, just to much drama if you ask me. Well I guess im done for now. Ill write more later. Buh*Byes