| Detoxify Me!!! |
|11:45pm||Monday 27 October 2003| |
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Fresh Air from Natural Concentration |
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My mom brought home vegetables from Baguio good to last for a week. I'm a vegetarian again for a week, hehe! It's hard to be vegetarian in my family. Maybe with a little help from my sister, I can eat all these veggies up in a week. Wish ko lang, medyo ma-detoxify na body ko at ma-clear ang body ko ng mga pimple, kahit for a week. I'm starting to learn yoga na rin.
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| The Bride |
|04:56am||Saturday 25 October 2003| |
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Michelle Branch - Breathe |
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I can't wait to see Quentin Tarantino's Kill Bill in the big screen. I had just finished watching it, I found a pirated copy (I am never watching a pirated vcd copy, again. I always feel guilty.). Why the hell didn't I watch Pulp Fiction??? I'm borrowing a legitimate copy of that movie tomorrow.
The anime scene in the movie is great. Bloddy violent. Unconventional story-telling, but I want to watch the second volume of the movie. Bitiin!!!
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|04:49am||Wednesday 22 October 2003| |
Harvey Milk is a brave dignified man.
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| Gluttony and Lust |
|02:40am||Wednesday 22 October 2003| |
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Bj?rk & PJ Harvey - Satisfaction |
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I'm munching my younger brother's Sour Cream & Onion Pringles while browsing Sean Cody's porn site. Two of my weaknesses combined. Real bad. I love Pringles and porn.
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|11:28pm||Tuesday 21 October 2003| |
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Alanis Morissette - Uninvited |
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A moth had a stop-over in my room last night. I don't know where she came from. It took me two hours to take a picture of this moth. She was flying everywhere every time I tried to go near her. I'm trying to take a shot with her wings spread. Haha! It was hard a task. I have to settle for this pic because everytime she perched in one position she would only flap her wings two or three times in less than 30 seconds. She has two beautiful spots inside her closed wings. She must have been hungry all the time she was in my room. I woke up past 4 in the afternoon and I finally let her out thru the window.
Few years ago, I had two big bats in my room. They were a couple. I woke up in the middle of the night and saw this bat couple having intimate movements on my window curtain. I got so scared, I sprayed them with insect spray. Poor bats. I realized my mistake so I trap them in a bottle, which was rather easy because they were dizzy from the spray. I freed them together outside. I went back to sleep.
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|12:26am||Tuesday 21 October 2003| |
Pinarurusahan ako ng langit.
Ang laki ng pimple sa noo ko. Aaahh! Tapos gitnang-gitna pa siya sa pagitan ng brows ko and tightly closed and pore sa area na yun. It's swelling big everyday. Consolation na sa akin na hindi siya namumula buti skin tone ang color.
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| To the fool |
|11:09pm||Monday 20 October 2003| |
In reply to  thefool's comment.
You're missing the point.
When Japan was humiliated and defeated after the nuclear bombs were dropped, they admitted their fault. They paid the damages, financially and in other forms. When the International Court tried Japan and sided with the women raped in Southeast Asia, they admitted their war crimes. Yes, there were flag-burnings here and in some other parts of Asia. But America, known for its arrogance, would never admit their atrocities. They even tried hard to get immunity from International Courts, but to no avail, majority of the countries in the world refused to that and will continue to refuse. I don't need to go far to give an example of American arrogance, just try to recall the Balangiga massacre. After retaliating against the Filipino local community, they stole the Balangiga bells. The Phil. government, until now, is asking it be returned, but a decision from America to return it would be an admission of their atrocity. America may be guilty but they won't admit it.
People burn something as a symbol of hatred, aversion and stonger antagonistic motives. I don't agree on burning flags or crucifixes or any symbolic objects. I consider it as big disrespect and close-mindedness.
The Great Wall of China was built to fend off invaders but they welcomed traders and visitors. South Korea was a hermit state for a time and it did work for them. But international politics would tell you that closing your country from foreign interaction would not work today. But international politics will also tell you that few alliances are based on authentic friendship among countries, you can name all reasons why there are alliances. Most colonized country are allied to the their subjugators and that relationship exists until the longest time because they were made dependent to them. I recognize the fact that America "provides" financial assistance. But this assistance is never free, mind you. There's always a catch. And the assistance you're talking about is not for economic prosperity, mostly aid for the military. If ever, you heard America say they gave or will be "giving aid" for economic purpose, try to think about WTO, or APEC. The world is a prospective market for the Americans. You don't need to have a good view of history or politics or an MBA to understand this. It's a simple equation of good opportunities and grabbing it. The US wouldn't be notorious for its capitalistic motives for nothing.
As long as people see malevolent motives they would always speak up, if not for themselves, for the people who don't see beyond the surface. I or you may not approve their manners of protest, but they are empowered thru this manner. Independent and progressive legislators air their grievances thru the channel they own, that's their empowerment. Do you think these tibaks would rally their intentions inside the Legislative Houses?
Let's give credit to these activists. I know they deserve it, even if its too little for us to see. And for once, let's look at America in a suspicious manner, like talking to a stranger for the first time.
Thank God for America, for they graced our land with dialysis equipment. Thank God for America and for all other richer capitalist countries, for they have forced poorer nations to open up their economy when they are still disadvantaged and for they have threatened those who stood up against them with embargo and trade restrictions. Thank America, for we wear Guess's and RL's and Tommy's that are American concepts but mostly made by underpaid laborers in Asian or Latin American soil. Blessed are the Filipinos who purchase PX goods that are cheaper than local counterparts. They are smart consumers.
That's just a part of a bigger picture.
Blame Spain or Japan or any other foreign nations we can think of. Blame the non-Christians and the non-Muslims. Blame the government. Criticize the President or the activists. Criticize yourself. Criticize me. We are all but critics.
I am no activist and I am not pro-American but I acknowledge the good US citizens have made. Proclaimed nationalists may not even judge me as one of them, but I look up to them for the respect and love and sacrifice they made to the country. But, I would NEVER rejoice - like a kid accepting a candy cane from Uncle Sam - for some pathetic donations and short-term relief coming from the US. And even if its sad to hear Filipinos holding contempt against their own countrymen because they simply made a major inconvenience in the traffic flow for the nth time, I would NEVER badmouth any Filipino. Simply I have tried to understand them and respect their democratic rights to speak up and join politics. I would never trade the dignity of a person for some candy cane.
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| Freud's Frozen Anger |
|06:34am||Sunday 19 October 2003| |
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Nothing At All
Santana
I am a victim of my time
A product of my age
There's no choosing my direction
I was a holy man but now
With all my trials behind me
I am weak in my conviction
And so I walk to try to get away
Knowing that someday I will finally have to face
The fear that will come from knowing that
The one thing I had left was you
And now you're gone
You were a victim of my crimes
A product of my rage
You were a beautiful distraction
I kept you locked away outside
Let misery provide
And now I am ashamed
And so I walk to try to find a space
Where I can be alone to live with my mistakes
And the fear that will come
From knowing that the one thing
I had left was you
And now you're gone
Is there nothing at all
That I can do to turn your heart
Is there nothing to lean on
That could help erase the scars
Te quiero - me quiero
And I could use a little strength before I fall
Is there nothing at all
I am victim of my time
A product of my age
You alone are my obsession
You were the one I left behind
You've been heavy on my mind
It's been a lonely road I've traveled
And so I walk to try to get away
Knowing that someday I will finally have to face
The fear that will come from knowing that
The one thing I had left was you
And now you're gone
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| The Evolution of Cheating: Why Men Tend To Be Jerks |
|09:03pm||Saturday 18 October 2003| |
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Firing up CJ's Anguish |
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Garbage - Queer |
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I guess there's an evolutiory foundation for br0wn_c0w's claim that men are jerks.
A few million years ago, when the earth was inhabited by uni-cellular organisms, life is simple. There were no sexes actually. Only those with different genetic materials can couple. And sex was simple, too. Two unique cells connect side by side to exchange equal amount genetic materials from one body to another. After that, they break up as two new individuals. One has genes of the other. An equal and perfect union.
One freaky incident changed and created the two sexes we know of today. It was just like one ordinary coupling for these simple organisms, so everyone thought. While exchanging genetic materials, one cell cheated. He sent as much genetic materials into the other cell but refused to receive from the latter. Everything evolved from this. The cell that cheated became smaller and mobile, while the other became huge and less mobile. The smaller cell, which we know today as male, is the first sperm cell. The female one became the first egg.
To all living beings, this is the evolution of our sexes. The very first history of cheating and inequality. We all carry the same traits from these prehistoric cells.
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| Crotching Tigress |
|03:42pm||Thursday 16 October 2003| |
Woke up 2:30 pm today. Had a dream. Isang Hongkong-Hollywood inspired action film with a gay comedy twist. Ehehe!
Mala Michelle Yeoh ang drama ko dahil naglilipad ako along mountain ridges running after this Chinese-looking villainess. At ang costume ko ay mala-Michelle Yeoh din. Lots of hand-to-hand combat and pyro shows sa dream. There is a guy who fight by my side.
Next scene, parachute chase. The lady villain and I were in parachutes. I was chasing her kaso in a urban setting na. Probably Hongkong or Vietnam or anywhere in Southeast Asia. She escaped from me kasi he fired something at my parachute. She landed safely in a rooftop. Ako I was struggling to get off from my torn parachute habang bumubulusok ito pababa. I can remember yellow ang color ng parachute ko. Safely, nagcrash ako in an old temple's roof. The evil lady saw this. There was a girl who saved me. Basta sinundan ko siya pababa from the roof. And then the villainess fired us again. We were trapped in a room and there's only one way out. The girl and I planned a decoy. She went out the room first and I did some back flips and everything pababa sa temple ground. The girl died. I escaped.
I went home but after some time umalis ulit to end the battle. I then found myself sitting on top of the same roof na pinagbagsakan ko. Waiting for something I don't know what. Until this small chopper or aricraft landed on the roof. It was the guy who was fighting on my side. At gwapo ito, hehe!. Kaso the chopper is good for one. Sabi ko, how are we going to get out of here with that aircraft. Basta umupo lang siya at pinaupo nya ko on his lap, ahaha!. I can feel the bulge in my dream.
Ayun, while we were flying, ang ganda ng scene. The sun is about to set at lumilipad kami over a river. I remember telling him that its the Yellow River. Very prety sight. We can see the sun reflected from the river. The river turned inot yellow-reddish color.
We went to his base. Kaso there were attacks sa base so daming fight scenes ulit. He was worried that his girlfriend might get hurt. Ouch, akala ko ako ang leading lady. Ehehe! So we looked for her. We found her in safety naman. Apparently, her girl is some kind of a royal personality. So I met her in a ceremonial manner. So pinagbihis ako.
Two lines for both sexes were walking towards her. Nasa line ako ng mga lalaki pero I'm wearing a sash-looking cloth or an obi ata tawag dun. Makitid yung road na nilalakaran namin at muntik ako mahulog. Hinila ako nung guy nung mahuhulog na ko. Kaso sa paghila nya napunta ako sa line ng mga babae e nasa harap na kami nung royal family. E di biglang upo kami. Biglang bumungisngis yung girlfriend kasi nasa line ako ng mga bellas. Napahiya ako.
Woke up. Si Kelly Osbourne ang bumungad sa tv ko.
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