| The Final Countdown |
[17 Nov 2007|12:41pm] |
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Fiona Apple - Love Ridden |
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Jiman and I are really over this time. Wala ng coma, wala ng ellipsis. Isa na lang malaking tuldok. And no, it's not Jiman anymore, just Jesse.
No, not baby anymore
If I need you I'll just your simple name.
Only kisses on the cheeks from now on,
And in a little while we'll only have to wave.
It was a roller coaster ride, and we've endured about 3 mini-breakups before this final countdown. We've been over for a week now. No texts messages, no missed calls, no nothing. There wasn't even any drama when I broke up with him. I just simply said that this---we, wasn't working, and we should just stop. His reply was a simple, "Ok, if that's what you want." Thoughtless and cold. The easier for me to let go.
I cried my one last cry a week ago, too, right after we broke up, and that was it. The pain wasn't less, but the agony was shorter. I feel so much better now. I think I've already recovered from the heartbreak. In just 7 days. Parang Olay lang.
Somehow, my quick recovery makes me afraid. Am I becoming callous breakup after breakup? I really loved him. I'm not sure if I still do now, but I sometimes still wonder how's he doing. And that's all there is to it now. There isn't an urge inside me anymore to actually know.
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