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Lately things havent been going to do for me. =( No matter what i do something always seems to get screwed up. I'll tell you about that sometime later, I havent updated in a while so heres whats going on.
I spent all weekend at tricias house!! It was tons of fun! I love tricia shes like my bestest friend! well heres my weekend. On friday we went out to dinner with some people, it was fun! our waiter was HOTT haha and he was from ypsi!! tricia was like flirtin with him, shoot man, he was hott!!! we didnt get home till bout 1ish so that was basicly the night, and i didnt end up going to bed till 5am and tricia fell alseep at 2.. ahh!
saturday- We got up about 9:30 and went over to tricia's grandmas house cause she was having a g/sale and tricia was sellin old clothes, and well Jimmy lives there!! so i finally got to meet him! Hes sooo cute! hahaha so me and tricia were at her grandmas all day, then we went home and got ready to go to angies party. we looked so cute! so then we went to Angies house, and Jimmy was there too!!!!!! So we hung out with Jimmy all night, tricia kept leavin me and jimmy alone outside on the porch, haha but it was all good. =) i got to know him, he's really sweet and nice! So we were there all night, and then me and tricia were gonna go stay at her grandmas house with jimmy but tricias mom wouldnt let us. hahahaha so yeah we got home around 1ish and then just chilled in tricias room, i sorta fell alseep before tricia cause i was soooo tired. but it was fun!!
sunday- 4th of July! we hung out at her house, tara came over, and stuff we had a bbq time thing, it was pretty cool. i talked to jimmy a bunch of times that day, cause i was doin a favor for him but everything up messed up, sorry bout that jimmy. Well later that night we did fireworks, there was some really cool rights right by tricias house and stuff and then we did fireworks! it was a pretty chill 4th. and then at around 12ish tricias friend Kyle came over to see us just to say HI, he was pretty cute!!! haha so that was sunday.
monday- we WALKED forever, omg it was insane....... CHRIS better be happy with all that damn money!! and we did a little shopping, i got a cute new belly-button ring!!!!!!! so yeah, and we just hung out at tricias, and then i went home later that night.
TUESDAY- WAS A REALLY REALLY SHITTY DAY..... So tricia called me tuesday around 11ish and i was talk with her and stuff and then my other line beeped and i clicked over and it was jimmy =) so i told jimmy to hold on so i clicked over and told tricia i would call her back so i could talk to jimmy, so well everything was good i was talking to jimmy and then i get off the phone with him and get online to find out tricia is MAD AT ME....... ahh! so she was super pissed at me for ditchin her to talk to a guy. AND I KNOW IT WAS WRONG... AND I FELT LIKE SHIT AFTER I DID IT. it was sooo bad, tricia told me she didnt want to be friends with me anymore. i told her i was sorry abot a billion times, i felt so bad i even cried. thats how bad i felt. things were just soooo bad because i lost my bestfriend over a guy i PROMISED myself i would never ditch my girls for a guy, and i did. I WILL NEVER EVER DO IT AGAIN. tricia wouldnt even listen to me, it was awful, i cried in my bed for like 3 hours. things couldnt have gotten any worse, THEN THEY DID i had found out by my cousin lauren, that my aunt connie had died on 4th of july.. WOW things were just terriable. this was deffinitly a really LOW point for me. i just wanted to be alone lastnight, i couldnt beleive this was my life at that moment. i couldnt beleive i lost my bestfriend for something stupid, i cant beleive i didnt even know my aunt was sick and that i didnt even get to say good-bye or tell her that i loved her and that im sorry i havent seen her in a while. I wanted to be happy again and i was FINALLY starting to be happy and be myself again. but now i cant be happy. my bestfriend the 1 who was there for me is gone, and knowing its ALL MY FAULT is killing me. I guess im just not ment to be happy. whoa i never thought things would end this this......... i know ur prolly not gong to read this but TRICIA IM SOO SORRY, YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW I FEEL. I NEVER MENT TO DITCH YOU FOR JIMMY. I FEEL TERRIABLE. AND ALL I CAN DO IS SAY IM SORRY, AND THAT I HOPE 1 DAY WE CAN BE FRIENDS. BECAUSE YOU WERE MY BESTFRIEND. IM SORRY.
wow things are just crazy. I cant beleive things are happening the way they are. And feeling like shit i have no one here, the person that usally helps me doesnt want to be my friend anymore (tricia) I just cant beleive i screwed something up this bad. I guess for now on i will think twice before i do something. because i never want ANYTHING like this to happen again. wow i feel like shit.
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RIP aunt Connie... you will be missed. And im sorry i didnt even get to say good-bye and tell you i loved you.
*I don't know why I did it
*How stupid could I be
*I know its going to take a long time
*for you to forgive me
*I'm such a bad friend
*I'm sorry for hurting you
*I know your mad
*gosh...I don't know what to do
*Please try to trust me
*You mean the world to me
*Your my best friend
*To get you back I would pay any fee.
*I cant believe
*our friendship is done
*when I think about it
*Everything leaves even the sun
*Im sorry Tricia
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