| My suicide letter. |
[14 Dec 2003|04:01am] |
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"Don't let this be over" BLINK 182 |
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Fuck the world. Fuck you. I took forty 50mg Restorils. . I'll be sleeping for a while. Goodnight world.
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4 broke| my heart
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| I'm so EMO. |
[26 Nov 2003|09:46pm] |
Remembering the times that we spent together
I know how good it feels to be in your arms
I'm always so happy and filled up with laughter
When ever I'm with you I feel safe and warm...
Unsung Zeros "Louder Than Words"
We look eye to eye
And I'm swept away.
We don't have to talk,
We don't have to laugh at all
I just want you here with me
Rufio "One Slow Dance"
Heavens not a place that you go when you die
Its that moment in life when you actually feel alive.
So live for the moment and take this advice
Live by every word, live is just a hoax so forget anything that you ever heard...
And live for the moment now
The Spill Canvas "The Tide"
I'd like to introduce you to my heart
it's been dying to meet you
now that you both have met
I have someone to write home to
i see a sense of wonder deep inside your eyes
as we’re sparkling & twirling in the twilight
and in case you
and in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me
you’re all kinds of beautiful as you end my day
and you sweetly retire as stars chase you away
Spill Canvas "Sunsets and Carcrashes"
It’s been a bad day,
another bad day and all I want to do
is look at you and know i'm okay
Something Corporate "Bad Day"
The truth is you could slit my throat
And with my one last gasping breath
I'd apologize for bleedin on your shirt
Taking Back Sunday "You're So Last Summer"
So, come to me wherever you are.
I will wait for you, tonight, alone in the dark
Tori Amos "Firefly"
So I say why don't you and I hold each other and fly to the moon
and straight on to heaven
Cause without you they're never ganna let me in
Chad Kroeger and Santana "Why Don't You & I?"
I can remember the taste of our first kiss.
I can't remember a time when I felt like this.
Bigwig "Moosh"
You’re so unbelievable,
I know this because
I can’t believe my eyes.
Your face leaves a space in my heart.
You’re an angel in disguise.
I can’t believe your eyes
Bebop and Rocksteady "Days Away"
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now
Because maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me?
And after all
You're my wonderwall
Oasis "Wonderwall"
Place your hand in mine
I'll leave when I wanna
Blink 182 - Feeling This
Are you afraid of being alone?
'Cause I am
I'm lost without you
Blink 182 - ?
I'm staring at your picture
and dreaming that I could hold your hand
The Ataris - ?
Why does tonite, have to end?
why don't we hit restart,
and pause it at our favorite parts.
we'll skip the goodbyes.
if i had it my way,
i'd turn the car around and runaway,
just you and i
matchbook romance "tiger lily"
to hold you now is a far cry
more than anything that i deserve.
i'm waiting to give you whatever the world may bring
i'd give you my life
but i dont own anything
A New Years Project "Further Seems Forever"
As we walk out to the street, the sun shines on your face
I feel your love inside, your breath...your lips i taste
And this is what i feel, and you are what is real
Visions of what was "Finding Westerly"
i want to steal your heart
i want to make it mine
and leave this all behind
and leave a legend of a love
i want to be the girl you need
when you're lost at sea
The halo friendlies "Run Away"
I believe in the sand beneath my toes
The beach gives a feeling, an earthy feeling
I believe in the faith that grows
And the four right chords that make me cry...
When I'm with you I feel like I could die
And that would be all right, all right
Third eye blind "Semi Charmed Kinda Life"
If you're missing I will run away
I will build a path to you
If you're missing I will run away
'Cause I find myself in you
Something Corporate "The Runaway"
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you
As years go by
I race the clock with you
But if you died right now
You know that I'd die to
I'd die too
Story of the Year "Until The Day I Die"
It's only you, beautiful.
Or I don't want anyone.
If I can choose. It's only you.
Brand New "No Seatbelt Song"
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
Dide "White Flag"
I can smell your cologne from a mile away,
No one can breathe in your skin like i do.
A Static Lullaby "Song For A Broken Heart"
After all those nights you've kept me warm
I'd hold my breath just to hear you sleep
Tokyo Rose "I Love You Too"
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6 broke| my heart
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| People get hurt. I just wish it wasn't me this time. |
[13 Nov 2003|09:53pm] |
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"Never Fall in love again" -- Louis Costello |
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i wish things with us could be what they fall into
but we're holding them back
keeping them quiet.
i wish i could hold you thru this darkened night
but youre not close to here
farther than ever
please just save me the heart ache
and let me down easy
dont make up excuses
for not wanting me
ive been here before
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my heart
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| First love. |
[05 Nov 2003|08:40pm] |
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"I fell in love once," she whispered between her tears. "It never lasts, and one always gets hurt. Perhpas it is because one always loves more than the other, or simply, first loves. . . . never last, but never die."
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1 broke| my heart
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| It's been a while. |
[01 Nov 2003|12:33pm] |
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[Lover I don't have to love] BRIGHT EYES |
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ComedySportz thursday night. Met the most amazing guy. We went out halloween night and now are officially a couple. Oh, yes. Let me describe him for you:
19 1/2. . .Bleached blonde short surfer hair. 5'4". . yes, he's short, but I'm shorter. EXCELLENT DANCER. Crystal clear blue eyes that I get lost in. Soft lips, GREAT KISSER. Lghtly tanned skin. Six pac abs. Muclular arms. Works at the YMCA teaching little kids rock climbing and raquetball. Left-handed. Going to UC Santa Barbara next year. Opens all doors. . gentlemen. . . oh, yes. Good in bed. {never said I wans't a a slut}. Drummer. Lives in Redondo Beach. Went to Redondo. Drives a Blue Ford Bronco. He is the relationship type. Funny as fuck. Wild. Smokes weed, drinks. Two bad things: Smokes cigarettes. Although, I must admit. . . I love the way his mouth tastes after he smokes. . I like that after cigarette taste. And his name is Matt. Is this going to get confusing again? MATT [highscool is MATTHEW, and MATT, [college] is MATT] Easy enough. BEST THING: my boyfriend.
::SMILES:: BE STILL MY HEART.
This guy. . wow. . perfect. His Dad thinks I'm 18. HA! Ohhhh, yeah.
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3 broke| my heart
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| I love britney sooo much. LOL. |
[26 Oct 2003|08:27pm] |
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IwannaLICKurGOAT: hey
whitexsnowyfox27: hey
IwannaLICKurGOAT: blah
IwannaLICKurGOAT: Corey went out to dinner
IwannaLICKurGOAT: blah
whitexsnowyfox27: awww
whitexsnowyfox27: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: omg u know what's so funny
whitexsnowyfox27: wait
IwannaLICKurGOAT: blah
whitexsnowyfox27: what does matt say about all this
IwannaLICKurGOAT: what?
IwannaLICKurGOAT: he says
IwannaLICKurGOAT: bleckenschlecken
whitexsnowyfox27: oh
IwannaLICKurGOAT: he claims to nto care
whitexsnowyfox27: okay
IwannaLICKurGOAT: but I know he does
whitexsnowyfox27: that means he cares
IwannaLICKurGOAT: but not a lot
whitexsnowyfox27: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: it sin't killing him
whitexsnowyfox27: well cuz he knows ur bound to marry him
IwannaLICKurGOAT: maybe
IwannaLICKurGOAT: anyways:
IwannaLICKurGOAT: whitexsnowyfox27: omg u know what's so funny
IwannaLICKurGOAT: tell me
IwannaLICKurGOAT: what's so funny
IwannaLICKurGOAT: ?
whitexsnowyfox27: oh ok
whitexsnowyfox27: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: u know brooke
IwannaLICKurGOAT: ya
whitexsnowyfox27: ok...she found this guy....
whitexsnowyfox27: kenny
whitexsnowyfox27: he's cute....he's on ftj....
whitexsnowyfox27: yeah k anywayz
whitexsnowyfox27: so they hung out on friday
whitexsnowyfox27: and now they're going to the movies tonight
whitexsnowyfox27: so she likes him now
whitexsnowyfox27: and i like josh.....
whitexsnowyfox27: and lauren likes cody
whitexsnowyfox27: and so all of us are sooooooo close to going out with these guys
whitexsnowyfox27: and like...they're all younger than us
IwannaLICKurGOAT: yay!
whitexsnowyfox27: and all white boys
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: and it's just funny
IwannaLICKurGOAT: corey is two years younger than me
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: and he's. . half white
IwannaLICKurGOAT: can i join your circle?
IwannaLICKurGOAT: and be cool?
whitexsnowyfox27: all of us today were like yeah we can all go on a triple date and then anthony goes arr now i need a gf!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: too bad he's gay
IwannaLICKurGOAT: he's a nice guy
whitexsnowyfox27: NO HE'S NOTTTTT
whitexsnowyfox27: he likes lauren
whitexsnowyfox27: but......
whitexsnowyfox27: he's kinda weird......
whitexsnowyfox27: cuz i asked him if he'd consider ever dating a guy.....and he's like..maybe...
whitexsnowyfox27: but i know he likes girls cuz he alwayz tells us all what girls he thinks are hott and when we went to the mall he kept looking at the victoria secrets pictures and he's like OH I LIKE THAT@
IwannaLICKurGOAT: maybe he wants to wear it
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: k, sorry that was mean
IwannaLICKurGOAT: you wanna know whats funny?
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I'm drinking hawaiian punch
IwannaLICKurGOAT: and I'm not even hawaiian
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: lmao
whitexsnowyfox27: i ono y i'm laughing but that is so funny!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I know it soo is
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: lol wtf
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hehehe
IwannaLICKurGOAT: just lik ealier
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I was eating a taco
IwannaLICKurGOAT: and I'm nto even mexican!!!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: *not
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lmao
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I dunno why that is soo funny to me
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hahahaha
whitexsnowyfox27: me too!
whitexsnowyfox27: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: we're so messed up us americans
whitexsnowyfox27: lol ok
whitexsnowyfox27: get this
IwannaLICKurGOAT: yeah
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: jeff ballenger just called
IwannaLICKurGOAT: what?
IwannaLICKurGOAT: oh?
whitexsnowyfox27: and he goes this is jeff
whitexsnowyfox27: and i'm like wtf
whitexsnowyfox27: no it's not
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: and i'm like jeff who
whitexsnowyfox27: and he goes....guess
whitexsnowyfox27: and i'm like....um there's a lot of jeff
whitexsnowyfox27: s
IwannaLICKurGOAT: did you think it was ur imaginary friend jeffr>/
whitexsnowyfox27: and he's like well guess u'll guess wrong
whitexsnowyfox27: and i'm like well then i don't wanna guess
whitexsnowyfox27: and he goes ballenger
whitexsnowyfox27: and i'm like arguing saying no it's not
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: dorkus
whitexsnowyfox27: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: what did he want?
whitexsnowyfox27: no it wazn't jeff hupp!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: he isn't reallll!!!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I just burped but I'm not even from lithuania
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: rotflmao
whitexsnowyfox27: HE'S REAL~
whitexsnowyfox27: !
whitexsnowyfox27: look in the yb!
whitexsnowyfox27: jeff hupp
whitexsnowyfox27: he's a jr in that pic
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I just burped again but I'm still not even from lithuania
whitexsnowyfox27: WTF DOES THAT MEAN?!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I dunno
IwannaLICKurGOAT: but it's damn funny
IwannaLICKurGOAT: put it in your profile
IwannaLICKurGOAT: the first one and the second one about lithuania
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: lol......
whitexsnowyfox27: that's ok
IwannaLICKurGOAT: fine
IwannaLICKurGOAT: don't be cool
whitexsnowyfox27: i'm not anywayz
IwannaLICKurGOAT: like all the lithuanians that burp
whitexsnowyfox27: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: what?>!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I dunno
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I swear I'm high
whitexsnowyfox27: that's somethin to put in my profile
IwannaLICKurGOAT: except I'm not
IwannaLICKurGOAT: it's wierd
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hahahahahah
whitexsnowyfox27: only if it makes me laugh.....really hard i'll put it in my profile
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hehehe
IwannaLICKurGOAT: if you saw how hard I am laughing you'd cry
whitexsnowyfox27: i hate when ppl tell me what to put in my profile it's ilke......IT'S MY PROFILE GET YOUR OWN!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I just pissed my pants
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: !
IwannaLICKurGOAT: urine. . down my ankle
IwannaLICKurGOAT: laughing so hard
whitexsnowyfox27: btw....it took me three tries to make that one little exclamation point!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lost bldder control
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: wierdo
IwannaLICKurGOAT: it'a cult of sperm donors!!1
IwannaLICKurGOAT: wagon wilters!!!!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: aaaaaaahhh!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: penis wrinkle.
IwannaLICKurGOAT: ewww.
IwannaLICKurGOAT: old man penis.
IwannaLICKurGOAT: yuck.
whitexsnowyfox27: my dad just told me not to put my hands in the fan
whitexsnowyfox27: wtf
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hahahahaha
whitexsnowyfox27: he treats me like i'm 5
whitexsnowyfox27: oh
whitexsnowyfox27: and he says
whitexsnowyfox27: make sure you don't open the door for anyone u don't know
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I swear im gonna pee a million times before I make it to the potty
whitexsnowyfox27: or lock the door when you leave
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hahahah
IwannaLICKurGOAT: make sure you don't lock the door when you leave
whitexsnowyfox27: watch he's gonna be like...don't open the window for that guy dressed in black when he asks to come in
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: and i'll say y not?
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hahahahaha
whitexsnowyfox27: and he'll get all mad
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hahahaahahhahahahahhahahahaahahahah
IwannaLICKurGOAT: rotflmao
IwannaLICKurGOAT: my mom just came in and I'm laughing so hard tears are coming out
IwannaLICKurGOAT: and she's like
whitexsnowyfox27: he just said to me....
IwannaLICKurGOAT: aren't you doing ur hw?
IwannaLICKurGOAT: is it really that funny?
IwannaLICKurGOAT: and I was like,
IwannaLICKurGOAT: TAMPONS
whitexsnowyfox27: brittany make sure u don't forget to turn the fan off when u go upstair
whitexsnowyfox27: s
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lmao
IwannaLICKurGOAT: i dunno why everything you say is funny
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: oh man
IwannaLICKurGOAT: "g" is for g-zis
whitexsnowyfox27: pudding
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: lol i just put a G in pudding
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I love pudding
whitexsnowyfox27: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hahahahaha
whitexsnowyfox27: lol i saw that on the fairly odd parents
whitexsnowyfox27: and cosmo kept laughing
whitexsnowyfox27: and then wanda said he laughs at everything see watch "pudding" and he laughed
whitexsnowyfox27: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: my mom was like, what is so funny??
IwannaLICKurGOAT: and she read the Im
IwannaLICKurGOAT: and all it said wa spudding
IwannaLICKurGOAT: and she just looked at me wierd
IwannaLICKurGOAT: and mumbled something about durgs and elft
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hahahaha
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hehehe
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lmao
whitexsnowyfox27: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: oh man
whitexsnowyfox27: pudddddddding
IwannaLICKurGOAT: ::wipes tears from eyes::
whitexsnowyfox27: makes the world go round
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: EWW
whitexsnowyfox27: what if
whitexsnowyfox27: the ocean waz made of pudding
whitexsnowyfox27: and everyone pissed in it
whitexsnowyfox27: EWW
IwannaLICKurGOAT: eeeewwwww
whitexsnowyfox27: and then ppl would say.......it's the sun making it warm
whitexsnowyfox27: but it wazn't
whitexsnowyfox27: !
whitexsnowyfox27: and the fish swam in the pudding
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: oh man
whitexsnowyfox27: and the monkeys were in the apple trees and ate apples instead of bananas and then they threw apples at ppl because a worm waz coming out of it and scared the hell outta them
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I am gonna go eat pudding before the fish and people piss in it
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: freak
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hahaahaahahahah
IwannaLICKurGOAT: i love you brit
IwannaLICKurGOAT: brb
whitexsnowyfox27: lol
Auto response from IwannaLICKurGOAT: pudding . . eating it. . you?
whitexsnowyfox27: NO IT HAS PISS IN IT!
whitexsnowyfox27: u crazy!
whitexsnowyfox27: like sweaty hands!
whitexsnowyfox27: OMG
whitexsnowyfox27: what if the sweaty handed ppl swam in there too
whitexsnowyfox27: can you swim in pudding?
whitexsnowyfox27: lol u drown in pudding
whitexsnowyfox27: and have pudding showers with ppl.....but you don't need chocolate syrup cuz it'll be pudding.....so all you need is the whipped cream
whitexsnowyfox27: and the lifeguards try to come and save you from drowning in the pudding
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lmao
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I ate pudding
IwannaLICKurGOAT: it was good
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hahahaahaahahaha
whitexsnowyfox27: PUDDING IS EVIL
IwannaLICKurGOAT: sweaty pudding!!!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: sweaty pissed pudding
whitexsnowyfox27: ppl pee in it
whitexsnowyfox27: lol ewwwwww
IwannaLICKurGOAT: what if people pissed pudding??
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hahahaha
whitexsnowyfox27: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: then guys would have stains in their pants too
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hahahahahahahahahaha
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: omg
IwannaLICKurGOAT: what if pudding was boogers???
whitexsnowyfox27: lol eww and girls that give head......they like it cuz it's pudding
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I'd eat mine
whitexsnowyfox27: except if ur allergic to pudding
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: allergic to pudding?
IwannaLICKurGOAT: what part of it?
IwannaLICKurGOAT: the pudding beans it's made from?
whitexsnowyfox27: the pudding?
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hahahahahahah
whitexsnowyfox27: PUDDING'S MADE FROM BEANS?!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: yes
IwannaLICKurGOAT: pudding beans
IwannaLICKurGOAT: that grow in jamaica
IwannaLICKurGOAT: on treees
whitexsnowyfox27: r u serious?!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: yes
whitexsnowyfox27: liar!
whitexsnowyfox27: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: pudding trees
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: jeff hupp is a pudding tree
whitexsnowyfox27: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: i'm puttin that on my profile for JEFF TO SEE!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lolk
IwannaLICKurGOAT: cuz he's soo "real"
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: your profile is soo random
IwannaLICKurGOAT: people are gonna read it and be like, wtf??
IwannaLICKurGOAT: oh, man
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I am putting this convo in my subprofiel
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: on it's own page
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hahahaha
whitexsnowyfox27: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: my profile makes no sense
whitexsnowyfox27: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I noticed
whitexsnowyfox27: they're gonna be like wtf where did pudding come from
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hehehehehehe
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hahahaha
IwannaLICKurGOAT: burping lithuanians to pudding??
whitexsnowyfox27: i know!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: and then masturbating watermelons. .
IwannaLICKurGOAT: how do watermelons masterbate?
whitexsnowyfox27: lol they don't have arms!
whitexsnowyfox27: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hahahahaha
IwannaLICKurGOAT: they use pudding beans
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: eww could u imagine kissing a watermelon
whitexsnowyfox27: it'll like have seed teeth
whitexsnowyfox27: and like......be all juicy
whitexsnowyfox27: OMG i'm gonna have nightmares now!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: i'm scared of watermelons
IwannaLICKurGOAT: watermelon kissing???!!???
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hahahahaha
whitexsnowyfox27: what if a clam kissed a watermelon
whitexsnowyfox27: cuz clams kinda look like watermelons
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lokl
whitexsnowyfox27: talking fruit is scary
IwannaLICKurGOAT: so is talking pudding
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I'm a french bitch
IwannaLICKurGOAT: except I'm canadian
whitexsnowyfox27: lol i'm trying to type a paper for english and tomorrow it'll accidentally have pudding in there randomly watch
IwannaLICKurGOAT: oh man
IwannaLICKurGOAT: same here
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I am writing a story about pudding wars
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: i couldn't find my lion king tape!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: instead of monstera
whitexsnowyfox27: i wanted to watch it on friday
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I wish I had sex
whitexsnowyfox27: u can call scott
IwannaLICKurGOAT: or at least a masturbating watermelon
whitexsnowyfox27: he'll give it up!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: who is scott
whitexsnowyfox27: putman
IwannaLICKurGOAT: is he another pudding tree?
whitexsnowyfox27: he's cute.....wanna see a pic
whitexsnowyfox27: HE'S NOT FAKEEEEEE
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hold on
IwannaLICKurGOAT: he's not in the yb
whitexsnowyfox27: YES HE IS!
whitexsnowyfox27: who
whitexsnowyfox27: wait
whitexsnowyfox27: scott?
whitexsnowyfox27: no scott's not
whitexsnowyfox27: he goes to torrance
IwannaLICKurGOAT: does he have pudding boogers?
whitexsnowyfox27: i ono
whitexsnowyfox27: he might
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hhahahaaha
whitexsnowyfox27: http://66.14.50.177/opt-pkg-proofs.php?session_id=13241
IwannaLICKurGOAT: this better not be pudding porn
whitexsnowyfox27: LMAO
whitexsnowyfox27: in the showers!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: there is nothing at that link
IwannaLICKurGOAT: in the showers???
IwannaLICKurGOAT: pudding showers!!!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: ahhh!!!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: yes!!
whitexsnowyfox27: weird.......it waz his grad pix
whitexsnowyfox27: scott's
whitexsnowyfox27: hmm
IwannaLICKurGOAT: o
IwannaLICKurGOAT: wait there are pics
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: oops
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I farted and I'm not even japanese
whitexsnowyfox27: OMG
whitexsnowyfox27: go to the site and then scroll down really fast!
whitexsnowyfox27: and u can see scott
whitexsnowyfox27: but for some reason it won't stay
whitexsnowyfox27: oh i think i know y.....
whitexsnowyfox27: maybe cuz someone else is at them...
whitexsnowyfox27: oh me
whitexsnowyfox27: !
IwannaLICKurGOAT: oh my!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I saw hi
IwannaLICKurGOAT: him
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hahaha
whitexsnowyfox27: haha that's scott
IwannaLICKurGOAT: yes
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I'm sure it is
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: IT IS!
whitexsnowyfox27: !
whitexsnowyfox27: errrr
whitexsnowyfox27: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: a puddign treee!!!!!!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: i'll give you his SN!
whitexsnowyfox27: but he's not on right now
IwannaLICKurGOAT: mwwwuuuaaa ha ha hah
whitexsnowyfox27: lol u can IM jeff
whitexsnowyfox27: he's on but away
IwannaLICKurGOAT: no, he hates my nigger
whitexsnowyfox27: jefflikes2run
whitexsnowyfox27: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: it fell off in tehthe woods
whitexsnowyfox27: what?!
whitexsnowyfox27: ur nigger
IwannaLICKurGOAT: yes
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I mean
IwannaLICKurGOAT: er, ne'er?
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hahaha
IwannaLICKurGOAT: pudding
whitexsnowyfox27: i know!
whitexsnowyfox27: ahahaha
whitexsnowyfox27: pudding trees exist
whitexsnowyfox27: well not pudding trees but jeff and scott
whitexsnowyfox27: aka the pudding trees
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: do you tip cows?
IwannaLICKurGOAT: i do, but only if they're my waitress
whitexsnowyfox27: often
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: 5 gay men cleaning one house
IwannaLICKurGOAT: you're very ethan without uma
whitexsnowyfox27: that is very true
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I like looking at puppies and kittens... then i like to eat them.
whitexsnowyfox27: me 2!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: but only after i run them over with my truck
whitexsnowyfox27: cuz then they're juicer like the masturbating watermelons
IwannaLICKurGOAT: yes!!!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: It's an *NSYNC world ~ BSB just live in it
whitexsnowyfox27: WOWWWWWWWWWWW
whitexsnowyfox27: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: josh is on but i'm not talking to him
IwannaLICKurGOAT: what's his sn?
IwannaLICKurGOAT: I'm gonna see how long I can talk to him before he thinks I'm wierd
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
whitexsnowyfox27: lol nooooooo
whitexsnowyfox27: u'll RUIN HIM FOR LIFE!!!!!!!
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: nigggger nutz
whitexsnowyfox27: and then he'll forget who i am
IwannaLICKurGOAT: er. . ne'er nutz
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hahahaaha
whitexsnowyfox27: and think i'm a mexican with a black hat
whitexsnowyfox27: named eric
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hehehe
whitexsnowyfox27: lol scott's on
IwannaLICKurGOAT: gasp
IwannaLICKurGOAT: evil is just spelt live backwards
whitexsnowyfox27: OMGGGGGGG IT ISSSS
whitexsnowyfox27: so is.....racetracks....
whitexsnowyfox27: or no
whitexsnowyfox27: i mean racecar
IwannaLICKurGOAT: Loves a two-way street and I think your car just died
IwannaLICKurGOAT: racetracks??
IwannaLICKurGOAT: LOL
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lmao
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hahaha
whitexsnowyfox27: that's a sad car huh
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hehehe
whitexsnowyfox27: i mean
whitexsnowyfox27: ERR
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: hahahaah
whitexsnowyfox27: i mean that's a sad quote huh?
IwannaLICKurGOAT: mooka chooka
whitexsnowyfox27: lol
IwannaLICKurGOAT: lol
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| The random things you hear when you're tripping out. |
[17 Oct 2003|08:41pm] |
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Why does Sea World have a seafood restaurant? I'm halfway through my fishburger and I realize, "Oh my God... I could be eating a slow learner."
A lady came up to me on the street and pointed at my suede jacket. "You know a cow was murdered for that jacket"? she sneered. I replied in a psychotic tone, "I didn't know there were any witnesses. Now I'll have to kill you too."
I'm desperately trying to figure out why kamikaze pilots wore helmets.
I'm not into working out. My philosophy: No pain, no pain.
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| I hate the hospital. |
[17 Oct 2003|12:52pm] |
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"At your funeral" --Saves the Day |
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My stepdad will be here in 15 minutes.
He's forcing me to go to the hospital.
If no one hears from me for days, you know I'm on my death bed in that hell hole of yuck.
Call my house if you want to make sur eI haven't died.
Have fun at my funeral.
I want to be cremated. . . lots of food for everyone, though.
Matthew, cut your hair before the service.
::Takes one last breath::
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| You are the only reason for me to believe. |
[15 Oct 2003|08:06pm] |
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"Nicotine Prom Queen" Dilego |
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I hate being sick. I've been sick since September 30th now. . and I'd very much liek to be well.
I hate Mr. Palozzo's class.
No sleep last night, stayed up doing 18 essays.
Have 5 more essays tonight.
I am doing to die, but man, I wish it would happen soon. . . . please, death, have mercy. . take me NOW!
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| Craig Nakayama, do everyone a favor and die. |
[14 Oct 2003|10:03pm] |
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I hate him. What kind of woman was my mother to have married an asshole like him?
SUNDAY: he socked me in the head very hard and I fell bashing my head against the tile countertop and getting a sweltering knot. Then he called me a "Nigger Bitch HO" and preoceeded to kick my limp body lying on my kichen floor. After I got up he acted like nothing had happened and I left the kitchen. Ten minutes later I went to get water and I'm standing at the fridge and he put a fucking kitchen knife to my throat. I don't think he was really gonna stab me, but his voive. . the way he said it. . ". . . you aren't mine, whore. . . . son't get comfortbaly. . you're gone soon." Yeah, out the day I turn 18.
MONDAY: He made me get off the computer while I was doing homework so his daughter coudl PLAY GAMES. What kind of shit is that? Then when I complained that I had homework, he called me a selfish bitch adn snet me to my room WITHOUT dinner. I wans't allowed to eat.
TODAY: He fucking has been yelling at me about what a cuntwhore nigger bitch I am and how I probably spread my legs for anybody and is just being a dick about things. He fucking told me I had to get off the comp at 8. . too bad I have homework ASSHOLE. . . then I told him that I had homework and I was staying on until I finished it and he walked over and slapped me across the face. I swung right back because that's instinct for me when I get hit, and he socked me in the chest so hard I fell off the cahir and couldn't breathe for like, a minute and then he kicked me in my head like a fucking. . I dunno waht. . but I blacked out for a second. . . . I'm so sick of his shit and I hope he dies.
What kind of abusive monster like that deserves to live?
I'm scared of what else is to come. Right now he's in his room "going to bed" but what when he comes out? What then?
This world never fails to dissapoint me.
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| Journals. |
[12 Oct 2003|08:42pm] |
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"White Flag" -- Dido |
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Journals. These are places where I bear my soul. . .and I think it's obvious what I want. . .but part of me, part of me isn't ready to accept that. . part of me just won't settle down. Part of me wishes I was pregnant with his baby ruining our lives because that would kill the part of me that can't settle down. Well, damn you, slutbag part, you will not win. I love him, and that is that. I said forever and I meant it, and there is no going back. I think I know what I want. . . I just. . . don't know how to get it. I know, I know. Me? Not know how to get what I want. . . I always get what I want, right? Maybe not this time. . maybe I'm actually scared of getting what I want. . . but I'm even more frightened of getting what I deserve. . because I don't deserve anything. I don't deserve him. I don't deserve anything. Please, God, if there is one, for one last time, don't give me what I deserve.
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| everyday is sunday morning for all i care... |
[12 Oct 2003|04:31pm] |
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"Not Forever" -- Tsunami Bomb |
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Today woudl have been one month.
How can two people expect to get married when they can't even last one fucking month?
I am a failure in love.
I am a failure in commitment.
Why, oh why, must I be such a slut?
And why, oh, why, must I love him so?
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| These Tears are not my friends. |
[11 Oct 2003|02:08pm] |
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"Invisible" --Clay Aiken |
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Woke up early after a sleepless night. Went to see Al. Talked about things. Went to the mall. Everything. reminds me of Matthew.
Can a song replace a broken heart?
Can a song replace a broken love?
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| Eventful Life |
[10 Oct 2003|11:38pm] |
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The tuba dancing band song |
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Broke up with Matthew.
Football game.
Everett set me up on a blind "date" thingy with his buddy "Dolla-Bill". . mmmmm, that wasn't so great.
Spent the night being the bandwhore. Kissed Jeff. Groped Jeff, Kevin, and Maxwell. Flirted with anything with a penis, and checked out the ass of anything with a penis.
Slut? I think Yes.
I enjoy this freedom. . I love being single. . and yet, I can't help but wish for Matthew.
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| Fake as Steak. . . . |
[09 Oct 2003|08:42pm] |
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"At your Funeral" -- Spin 45 |
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Hmm. Went to Doctor's today.
Went to Hospital Monday Morning.
Took a million piss tests and a billion blood tests.
The onyl results I have back: I am NOT pregnant.
Gee, tanks, medical proffesionals everywher. you sure do help a girl out when she REALLy needs it.
I was thinking. . ink poisoning from my tatoo?? Naw, couldn't be. . didn't get that one until monday night. . . and I have been sick since last sunday. . .
I am gonna die.
Doctor called. Says I have "Walking Pnuemonia and A Severe and possible hearing-depriving ear infection" and something else that he can't figure out.
Great. So now I am a wlaking infection of deafness.
Still doesn't explain the blood.
Hear are all my symptoms so if anyone has the slightest idea. . it'd be nice of you to help before I die:
Sore Throat
Dry Coughing Fits [No Phlem]
Body Aches
No Fever
Chills
Severe Migraine Headaches
Pissing Blood
Pissing Bloody Chunks
Frequent Urnination
My Piss is ORANGE. . dark dark ORANGE. . not YELLOW
Vomiting
Nausea
Dizziness
Passing out
Double Vision
Loss of Hearing in Left ear
Fatigue
Extreme Weight Loss [11 lbs. in 10 days]
Extrememly Low Blood Pressure
Tightness in Chest
Black outs
omg, I just re-read my list to make sure I didn't leave anything out, and I realized why I have.
I am dying of death disease infection.
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| I have a Vagina. |
[08 Oct 2003|09:20pm] |
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"Let's get it on" -- Marvin Gaye |
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Lonely Vagina seeks firm, erect, long, thick white penis. Perferably permanently attacthed and belonging to a male of the HUMAN species. Must be attatched to good kisser and must be willing to were a "raincoat" for moist weather. No experience necessary. Will be paid commision only through various sexual favors. Call 420-6969 for an interview. [Interview may consist of trial run].
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| Stole this from the temptress. . . |
[07 Oct 2003|08:06pm] |
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"Sex you up" --?? |
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1. When I go in, I might cause pain. I cause you to spit and ask you not to swallow. I can fill your hole. What am I?
2. A finger goes in me. You fiddle with me when you're bored. The best man always has me first. What am I?
3. I'm spread before I'm eaten. Your tongue gets me off. People sometimes like to lick my nuts. What am I?
4. I go in hard. I come out soft. You blow me hard. What am I?
5. All day long it's in and out. I discharge loads from my shaft. Both men and women go down on me. What am I?
6. I come in many sizes. When I'm not well, I drip. When you blow me, you feel good. What am I?
7. If I miss, I hit your bush. It's my job to stuff your box. When I come, it's news. What am I?
8. I offer protection. I get the finger ten times. You use your fingers to get me off. What am I?
9. I assist an erection. Sometimes big balls hang from me. I'm called a big swinger. What am I?
10. I'm at least 6 inches long. I leave foamy lubrication when engaged in my job. What am I?
Answers:
1. a dentist
2. a wedding ring
3. peanut butter
4.chewing gum
5. an elevator
6. a nose
7. a newspaper boy
8. a glove
9. a crane
10. a toothbrush, of course!
Btw, I FAILED this quiz.. I guess my mind is just a little too dirty. :)
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| Everyday buries me deeper. . . |
[06 Oct 2003|06:42pm] |
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"White Flag" -- Dido |
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She said, "All I'll ever mean is 'I love you.'" Sometimes she wanted to cut out her stupid heart and give it to him, because she meant it that much...
Stayed home from school today. Well, part of the day. Went to school for lunch, 5th, and 6th. Then went to little sister's basketball game. They lost by 2. It was a good game, I guess.
RANDOM QUESTION: Do you think 18 is too young to wed, too young to know what love is? Can't love pay the rent?
ANSWER: Yes, it is too young to wed, no it isn't too young to know what love is, and love alone cannot pay the rent. . . .
Question: Is love worth the risks?
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