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Monday, September 22nd, 2003
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11:01 pm - I got to see my Ticia!!!
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So I went up to Sussex for the day with Lisa today. She has been in bed crying like all weekend over Jeremy, so I drug her out of bed and made her come to Bethany with me to see who was around. I first saw Steph when I got there, I was so happy! I saw the new townhouses...Man do they ever make me with I was going back! They are amazing! I couldn't believe it! I then saw Laure Mitchell and Vrooman, that was cool too! Then I saw Janet :), Then I saw my TICIA!!!! I was soooo happy to see her! She shares an appt with Tina Becker though, bah, that made me sad! Oh, and after, Lisa and I went out to Matts place and I got to see him for a few minutes, that was cool! I miss him! He still hasn't asked his folks about the 19th...lol...surprise! Anyways, I have to go get stuff around the house ready, Geoff will be over soon. Later
current mood: happy
current music: And Again...Our Lady Peace
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2:25 pm - ok ok...so I go on msn...guess who starts talking to me...Brad
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I am still talking to him right now...He's acting like nothing has happened...bah! boys! I mean, I don't care...but I do...Like it doesn't really hurt anymore, I dunno exactly how I feel. I think I am more angry than anything, just at him and everything that he has been about...I dunno...it was just a normal convo...I didn't ask anything about Hether, I wouldn't let myself! We just talked about him sending me my stuff and some money to send him his stuff...So whatever. I don't overly want to talk to him a whole lot! Anyways..I've gotta go clean my room... Iguess Geoff is coming over tonight. Later.
current mood: confused
current music: Our Lady Peace
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| Sunday, September 21st, 2003
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10:53 pm - Just as I suspected!
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So, just like I thought, Sara bailed for tonight! She says she has to go into work early in the morning, which she probably does, but she'll still probably go over to jerk face Matts place! Or he'll go over to her place...She deserves so much better than him! So, I am home, but I think that Geoff and I are gonna get together and watch a movie...he's hot! ha ha We've been friends since I was 15...distant friends until lately. He might come over here, that's probably what will happen. So...I should go get ready... I look really bad! I'm in my pjs already! crap! So, I'll fill ya'll in later!
current mood: I wish I was drunk!
current music: Our Lady Peace
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12:47 pm
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Well...it's off to another fun filled day of work for me now...woo hoo...It seems like that's all I do, and then once school starts next week...ugh...it's gonna be all work, school, and the occassional visit to BBC. That's it! I told mom last night not to ask me to do anything on my every other Saturday and Sunday off! Plus I am going to have to get involved into the community somehow, for the Bacc of Social Work Program, you have to be "involved". So...here goes the next 4 years of my life!
I was supposed to go out with Sara and some people last night, but then Sara's boss told her that she had to work this morning, so we didn't go. Then We're supposed to go tonight, but now I don't know if we're gonna. Cause Sara doesn't know if she wants to since she has to work tomorrow too...I think she just wants to go see Matt again tonight...Ugh! Boys are the root of all evil!
I am having another "I wish I was at BBC right now" moment! I think it's more or less just so I could see everyone...but my closest friends aren't even gonna be there. So I don't know why? I am just having all the memories come to me from last year!
Anyways...I don't work until 2:30, but Papa and Grama are my ride there, and they have to take me in an hour and a half early...blah! They have to go to a funeral. I'd actually like to be going, but ya know, that's how it works. My paycheck for the next time around is already gonna be crap! Since I took time off last week to be with Chuck and Sheena, then this week for being sick! So, I have like 15 minutes tro be ready, and I am not quite there yet, so I'd best get going, cause Papa won't wait!
Later...
current mood: Blah!
current music: Dashboard!!
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| Friday, September 19th, 2003
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6:11 pm - I went and checked out St Thomas University today...
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So, I actually slept in until 3pm today...I couldn't believe it! It was nice though, I was out with Lisa until 2am this morning...she tried to hook me up with her cousin Rob, no thanx! Ugh, why does everyone keep trying to hook me up? I am not into finding anything right now...I am not against it, but I am not looking for it either!
I guess she called me today when she got up, I didn't even hear the phone ring...So, when I got up we went to the DMV to get her registration on her sueped up neon re-newed, went to St. Thomas and checked out where my classes will be, (and checked out some of the current male students)...ha ha...(i can look) and then we went to McDonalds...now I am very sleepy again. I hate being sick! It drains everything out of me! Anyways...I have stuff to do...well...not really, but I wish I did! Later.
PS- I hate it when I can't sing! It drives me crazy!
current mood: content
current music: Three days Grace
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| Thursday, September 18th, 2003
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5:34 pm - and still...i am sick...
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Alexandra spent the night last night...First mom and I took her to see 'Pirates of the Carribean". She really liked it...The only reason I went was because I had another doctors appointment before it started, and mom didn't want to drive me home first....We saw becky Cummings while we were out, and I guess she called Liane later and told her how good I looked ha ha, it's great! Anyways...Our deep freeze unfroze, so we are making a big supper for the whole family, so I have to go...later!
current mood: and still....i am ill
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| Tuesday, September 16th, 2003
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10:15 pm
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So I went to the doctor, and I guess I have strep throat...blah! The doctor gave me a few perscriptions, but when I got home I found out I am allergic to one of them...crap! So now I have to wait until tomorrow to get some meds I can take! Frig! So, another night of a soar throat...but I get a few days off work...doctors orders! So until I feel better, later!
current mood: Sick again...will it ever end?
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1:05 pm - ugh...
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So, I have been sick since Saturday, my throat feels like is swollen and I am having trouble breathing! It just keeps getting workse and worse! I have to go to work in a little over an hour too. I don't know if I am gonna be able to cut it! Mom told me to call in sick, but I don't think I can do that! There is no one to cover my shift, and they get mad when youi call in there! It sux! I can hardley talk or anything, no customers will be able to even understand me! If I am still sick tomorrow, I will call in then, because I have 2 days off right after that. I don't know whay I am sick, I hate it! blah! Well I should get ready for work now, sigh! Later
current mood: sick
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| Monday, September 15th, 2003
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3:15 pm - I feel as though everything is not ok today....
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Nothing has happened to make me feel this way, I am not sure exactly what it is... I feel kinda lonely and out of place I guess. I feel an emptyness inside of me, and I don't understand it! I haven't fought with my mother, or Brad...I haven't even talked to him in ages...So what is it? I don't want a realtionship right now...so it's not the lack of that...It's just, I don't know. I feel alone. I can't believe that I am actually going to say this...but I am kinda sad about not going back to BBC...Sick I know! But I was just sitting here remembering things...Like sitting at my desk in Summit, typing away to brad, Sheena, Brently, and Lily accross the hall on msn late into the night, with Sarah sitting behind me on my bed. both of us freezing our butts off, yet the window is still open...lol Then 10 minutes later Sheena is knocking at my window on the deck...."let me in guys...it's cold out here" lol Getting up for 8am class, going back to sleep, yelling at Sabrina for having her music too loud, going to 11am class, going to lunch, going to class, back to bed, supper, hang out with brad, Sarah, Jordan, Sheena, Chuck, and Steph. Or going to Matt's place with Brad and everyone. I am going to miss that all! I feel sick right now as it is, just thinking about how I am going to miss it all! I don't have any friends going to St. thomas with me, I am going to know no one there! I like my job, but I hate working there! Stuff about it just sux! At Bethany, if you are bored, at least you are bored with someone else....here, I am alone...yet again! I almost hope my student loan doesn't go through, so I can move to Halifax with Sheena, and maybe Sara. that would be awesome! I think it would be anyways...maybe that's just me trying to find another thing to fill up what's missing inside me. I honestly don't get it! I am a Christian, I have God in my life...I am following after what I think he wants me too...So what's the friggin problem? Anyways...I am out, there is nothing else I can put in here that is any different than what I have already put in! Later
current mood: Empty
current music: Our Lady Peace
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| Saturday, September 13th, 2003
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12:11 pm
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So, here it is...my sleep in day, and Peter calls me this morning and asks me to come in early. It seems that the new girl he hired came in and quit on the spot this morning. He called at 9:30am and asked me to be in at 11:10am and work until close...I was like..."ummm...I'll come in at 1pm". So he said ok, now I have to go in early, I had so much to do today too! Frig! Anyways, I need to go get ready or I will be late. Later
current mood: blah
current music: Linkin Park
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2:40 am - So very sleepy!
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I got back from Chucks place at like 5pm tonight... We took his moms car, it was sweet! First we dropped Sheena off in St. John at the boat. Then Chuck and I drove with the top down on the car from there to my place, it was sweet...Even Chuck said it made him feel cool! lol After I got home I stayed up for like an hour, and then I laid down...I woke up at 10pm...lol It was great! So now, at 2:44am...I am still awake! blah! I have to work tomorrow! Only from 2:30pm - 9:30pm though, so it's not too bad. At least it's not 7:30am!!
Sheena and Chuck tried to hook me up with Sean, we decided we will make better friends though. Neither one of us want a relationship right now. As everyone knows, I am kinda anti-guy/dating right now...So who knows what the future holds. Anyways...I am gonna try and catch some z's now! Until later!
current mood: sleepy
current music: none...tv's on...Law & Order
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| Friday, September 12th, 2003
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6:03 pm - So...why do boys suck?...let me explain!
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Guys suck for more than one reason! And I 'd like to say before I start writing this that I didn't always believe that all guys sucked, but now, I am at the realization that until they're 30 they're all suck deep down! And even after they hit 30, there's no guarantee! Guys suck because they'll be in a long term serious relationship, and then just wake up one day and discover that they don't really know who they are, and they want thier freedom, so they decide along with that comes the realization that they "don't feel that way" about you anymore. Guys suck because they say they need time to do things on thier own, but when they are ready they will give you a call...but then three days later they hook up with another little hussy who lives closer by. Guys suck because they are all excited to meet you, when they do they hold your hand and give you a quick kiss goodnight...then the next day, they're not 'sure' how they feel anymore. With no explanation to anything ever given! Now I know that I will never understand guys, and I don't even claim to try to! But you would think that they would make the effort not to always be assholes! But no...no effort made! I know that there are some nice guys out there, even the three examples I have given today are from relatively nice guys. But they all have thier moments, and they usually don't even realize how they make girls feel. And if they ever do, it takes much longer than it would take any girl to realize! And even after that they don't always try to rectify what they have done. I am not saying that I hate all guys, because I don't. In all honesty, i couldn't say that there is any guy out there that I hate! No matter how hard I try to. I have just come to know that no matter how hard I try, I am not going to find 'The Perfect Guy'! He just doesn't exist! And if he actually does, I am all for him proving it to me! Come and find me and let me know that you are out there. Until then though I leave you with these wonderful words given to me by a close friend..."Cling to Jesus with all you got, because when it really comes down to it, He's all you got!"
current mood: aggravated
current music: Dashboard
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