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[18 Jul 2003|02:00am] |
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daniel daniel daniel. He's so cool.......I went to see him at work tonight (also to confirm i was working tomorrow morning) he's hot :) Maybe I will kiss him soon.
I went to a yoga class tonight, and now I'm sore. man am I ever sore.
tomorrow is brand new and moneen. YAY. :)
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| a last survey |
[17 Jul 2003|01:42pm] |
A Last Survey
last cigarette: don't smoke
last car ride: last night
last kiss: Monday Night
last good cry: when matt & I decided to break up
last library book checked out: Love in another town
last movie seen: May
last book read: A million little pieces
last cuss word uttered: fuckeddd
last beverage drank: light cran-grape juice
last food consumed: watermelon
last crush: jorge, at work
last phone call: about 10 minutes ago
last tv show watched: real world
last time showered: yesterday morning
last shoes worn: work out sneakers
last cd played: Damien Rice
last item bought: the damien rice cd
last downloaded: jason mraz
last annoyance: lyndsay and her eating disorder/nicole and her always being sick
last disappointment: that i gained 5 pounds.
last soda drank: diet pepsi
last thing written: an e-mail to my ex
last key used: house key-to get in.
last word spoken: that movie is fuckedddd up
last sleep: 2am-11:00am
last im: brian in ohio
last weird encounter: when some random stranger followed lyndsay & I all the way around the neighborhood.
last ice cream eaten: sugar free bunny tracks
last time amused: last night working out, seing fat people run.
last time wanting to die: last night.
last time in love: w/matt
last time hugged: tuesday i think.
last time scolded: a few minutes ago.
last time resentful: a couple of seconds ago.
last chair sat in: the couch
last lipstick used: Remmel sheer stick
last shirt worn: race for the cure (breast cancer) (still wearing it)
last time dancing: last night.
last poster looked at: punch drunk love poster
last show attended: taking back sunday in houston
last webpage visited: www.deviantart.com
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| daniel |
[11 Jul 2003|12:49am] |
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...::**I kissed Daniel again tonight**::....
I feel like I'm floating, he's soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo what I need right now.
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| I KISSED HIM!!!!!!! |
[02 Jul 2003|02:28am] |
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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I made out with the guy from work I like. His name is daniel, and he kissed me tonight!!!! And we made out!!!! And it was the greatest thing ever!! And he's such a good kisser...I'm so excited, because I've never kissed anyone but my ex, matt. And after kissing daniel, I've realized matt was a bad kisser. (sorry matt.) oh man. Daniel was sitting in my car with me after work. We got so close to kissing, it was like energy flowing between our lips...that close. And he wouldn't do it, so I moved away...... Then all of the sudden, I don't even know how it came about, he kissed me. My head was on his shoulder (I'm getting chills just thinking about it) And he kissed me. Immediately his tounge was in my mouth. *ahhhhh angels singing* wow. It was great. So we kissed for like a minute, then I pulled away and it was akward but sweet. We just kind of giggled. He gave me a necklace..a round thing, he said it was a calandar. Then we kissed some more. Then we joked around....and started to say goodbye......and then had the most wonderful make out session. It was really about 10 minutes long. It was amazing. All I wanted was to feel his hands on my body......and we were in a full on embrace and he is such a good kisser :) and -sigh- it was orgasmic. he had to pull out. I wouldn't do it. He was like "we should go." and then he left. and i was in the clouds. :)
ps-matt is an ass.
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| karma |
[24 Jun 2003|04:24pm] |
I gave $10 to the fossil ridge cheerleading squad team thing.
I made $50 in tips that night.
I lost my $50 in tips that night in the parking lot.
A friend of mine (a cook from work) gave me $50 and would not let me decline his offer.
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[12 Jun 2003|12:32pm] |
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lyndsay & I went to work out last night..my entire body is sore. It hurts :( I had a dream that manny (the 40 year old cook from work) was my husband. And I kept trying to divorce him because he had tricked me into marrying him, and wouldn't let me go. He's so nasty, you don't understand. And I tried to just be cool with him.....but he's so annoying, he won't leave you alone!!!! Its driving me nuts. crazy. pure crazy. grr.
so I want this new boy, right?
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| daniel |
[12 Jun 2003|12:36am] |
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the cook at work wants me. if only he'd grow like 2 feet, i'd want him too. but he was major flirting with me, it was fun. rubbing my sides, right under my armpit...writing on my arm. he's sweet.
i feel sick.
i talked to matt. he said its going to be a long couple of years in alaska because his heart is with a girl in texas....me. I gave him the same crap back wich is half true, but i'm so enjoying being single...I don't want a boyfriend right now. Its too soon. Too early. I like mingling :) Leading boys on then changing my mind (ceasar). Its fun. now I'm after jorge..he also works at waffle house. i should go visit him. he's mucho sexy.
CLUBBIN SATURDAY! followed by margaritas, daquiris, and pina coladas. :)
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| from a nervous guy |
[05 Jun 2003|11:40pm] |
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 hug from behind - you like to feel what the other person is feeling and see things how they see them. you tend to be serious and emotional.
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i miss brian. i told him "I should just jump on a plain this summer and come see you. he was like "maybe. we'll have to see." i bet he has a freaking girlfriend, and isn't telling me.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
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| lalala. |
[02 Jun 2003|10:42pm] |
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 You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss that never lessens and always blows your partner away like the first time.
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So I have a crush on the cook at work....thats like a foot shorter than me. So what? He's so hot. This little 24 y/o mexican guy......he's got these huge muscles, and this cute little baby face...he asked me to marry him, a while ago. I said no. He's always singing me love songs in spanish. How ghetto is that? But sweet. I also like ceasar....the mexican busboy (sexy.....he thinks i'm hot too) But it would be awesome if he spoke english. haha.
-sigh- I need a guy. I'm going out with matt tomorrow night. Oh well. Its his last night in the contenental united states. How freaky is that?! I think I'll be okay.
Tomorrow morning lyndsay and I are going for a bike ride...and we're gonna work out....and lay out, get some sun. Its all gravaayyy.
Ps..I love you
(brian) hehehehehehe. life is fun :)
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[02 Jun 2003|12:59pm] |
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I feel sick to my stomach. LIke barfing up sick....not this nervousness sick.
I graduated yesterday. It twas fun, boring, exciting, I'm now a High School Graduate! It doesn't feel like it though. Matts moving on wednesday. i get to see him tuesday. I hope I'm not going to have to start over.....and fall in love with him tomorrow night, and then have to deal with all this heartbreak again. I'm finally getting okay. I can see him, chat with him, be okay. I think mostly I'm just getting lonely. I just want a guy to hug me, touch my arms, I want to lean against them, and just lean against the muscles, and get hugs, and kiss. I'm just lonely. Lyndsay and I went out to dinner at the Riata last night...this REALLY expensive, nice restaraunt in downtown FW. It was fun....but there was so much butter and grease, I think its making me feel sick. -sigh-
I'm lonely.......somebody love me.
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| Casar |
[23 May 2003|10:47pm] |
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YOUR STUPID AND U LISTIN TO EMO U WILL BURN IN FLAMES IN HELL BECAUSE SATAN HATES EMO IT MAKES HIM WANT HIS HAPPY PILLS!
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So I work at the Black Eyed Pea, right? Well, the dish-washer's name is Ceasar...But you pronounce it "Sazar". Well, he has a crush on me. :) And everyone is always telling him I think he's cute...blady blady, to make him think I like him too. The other night he asked me to the movies, and I was like "Ceasar, I have a boyfriend." He goes "So?"
So all night I walk by him, and he's checking me out.......its getting old, but still funny. Also, one of the cooks asked me to marry him on mothers day. I'm just a chick dick magnet.
I've got that Stacie Orico song on my head. Matt moves in like a week and a half. Its sad, I'm ready, but I know the day he leaves I'm going to be so depressed. WHY? Why do the people I love so much always have to move away? I only have one more day of High School left. (YES!) -sadness sweeps over- Not sadness for missing my friends, and school......but sadness for missing Matt.
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[22 May 2003|10:45pm] |
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[22 May 2003|10:35pm] |
I went to prom and stuff.
Today we had a field trip to the Kimball and Modern Art Museum. It was fun :) I would really like to go when there aren't so many roudy kids around 3 days before schools out, and a boyfriend who doesn't appreciate art. But I liked the modern art museum the most. I have decided Modern Art is the bomb. :) There was just a white canvas, with little blue lines, like a piece of graph paper....that kind of stuff I didn't understand. My favorite was this big empty room, and there was a ladder. It was large and low to the ground, then it curved up and got smaller. It was really neat. Then there was this small little lamb that was balancing on one foot, with a big red cape wrapped around its tail. I loved it. Then there was also a book with these huge wings. Anyway, back to my homework.
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| almost broke up with my boyfriend |
[14 May 2003|10:59pm] |
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 YOU ARE MARRIED TO A WoODCHUCK!!!
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My boyfriend and I almost broke up today. It was so freaking scary. But at the same time I was somewhat okay with it, unlike last time....when it was completely not appreciated. But were okay now, I just need to watch my negetivity, and stupid comments, that have been getting on his nerves. -sigh-
PROM iS ON SATURDAY.......AAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I'm so excited, we're going in his moms mini van......oi, then he's sleeping over and we're watching movies all night. its exciting :)
-sigh-
I get my hair done tomorrow. Yay. I'm going to ask her to put more red highlights in it for me. That would be so badass.
Oh yeah, lynze (my bestfriend) her "boyfriend" (guy she met on a cruise and started a thing with now he's coming to prom with her) is coming in tomorrow afternoon! AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH! Its so exciting, I've heard so much about him...I can't wait to meet him. They are going to come eat at the BEP, so I'll get to be their waitress. *yay*
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[09 May 2003|01:37am] |
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I think i have the stressed personality disorder. I bought diet pills with caffine in them, and i'm wired!! yet tired. I'm wearing my prom shoes and feeling very fat. and sleepy. I'm talking to brian. i think jason is hot, i wish i could be his liz. or brians liz. I'm sick of matt being so one sided. That boy is as flat as a pancake. I just wish he could RISE to the situation, and take both sides of things. Maybe a weird diagonal angle too. I need a boy that see's the top, the bottom, the left side....the top angle........I don't know, I'm not making sense. Maybe I need an intellectual.....undiscovered boy? Why do I keep thinking of Jason? Maybe cause his Liz is so dynamical. I'm not meaning multi-taskiful......but so diamond like....or what shape is that? The little dice thing with every letter of the alphabet that comes in that one game? I need someone 26 sided. Someone who isn't going to give me the same view, the same answer, someone unpredictable, someone discreet, hidden, shy but full of words. SOMEONE NOT SO GOD DAMNED HORNEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh my god, can I meet a guy who doesn't CONSTANTLY talk about sex?? jesus. (ahem brian. quit talking about how I excite you. and ahem matt quit being tired until we get home from school, then be all awake in time to fool around, and then see me to the door) I don't think I ever thought that I would get sick of Brian too. I need to be way more god damned emo. Or maybe I need to be less someone else, more me.....the stressed out girl who wants a 26 sided man. I just keep thinking of everything and becoming disgusted with it. Like the color tan. Why in the hell is everyone wearing tan/brown clothing? Its so annoying. Wear CYAN! HOT PINK! What was that one crayola color called? It was a really pretty blue/green.....it was always my favorite, started with a C. a weird name. Can't remember.
I want to make out with a guy, and not want it to end. i want to want to make out with him forever, never ending soft kisses, and wondering hands that never wonder in the wrong places. Is it bad I want a touch-free-sex-free relationship for a while? Some guy who doesn't go to church, believe in god, someone i can see right into. but not because he is translucent, but because he is the one i'm supposed to see right into. I'm supposed to be able to handle his 26 sidedness.
I'm ending this now.
ps-donate money to my digital camera fund.
 borderline
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[07 May 2003|11:08pm] |
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I took another ephedra diet pill tonight. It makes me all jittery, but it also keeps me from eating which is something I want. I'm trying to just lose some weight for prom. It'd also be nice to not have cellulite on my thighs for the summer. I think I'm going to go buy some, so I don't have to keep stealing Franks. I closed for work tonight. I made $60!! Its amazing. I'm trying to save up for a digital camara...so far I have $70. Just like $330 more...haha.
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| bad? |
[06 May 2003|12:37am] |
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 Cocaine.
You like to talk,
you like to run,
but most of all you like to have fun.
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I just printed out an old online diary of mine. it was completely about my eatting disorder. Its really scary. I was obsessed.
I'm talking to this guy Brian who I've known forever. we only talk online. Well we are secretely in love with eachother. (its just not a secret to eachother) I like him a lot. :) :)
Is it bad I write this, as my boyfriend gets ready to move to alaska in 5 weeks?
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| the first...ahhh |
[04 May 2003|12:32am] |
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So this is my first entry in my new journal...YaY. My friend chrissie has a journal here, and for almost every entry she takes a quiz. I think I'll borrow her idea....haha. Anyway. I have this boyfriend, right? Well he's moving to Alaska in 4 weeks. Is it bad to say, I'm excited, but also not really excited? Because Thats how I feel....I'm ready to be free, but I know I'll miss him.
My mom is going to Beverly Hills this summer on business..she wants me to go with her, and I really want to go! :)
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