yes..im lazy! i admit..im just gonna copy and paste the 2 journal entries i posted on my melo!
2 much damn drama*
ok..seriously..i know i complain sometimes how my life is so..eh! but seriously..i talk w/ lots of ppl that just think their life is hell!
uh..hello?! ppl talk 2 me and theyre complainin b/c theyre havin sleep problems (not u nikki) and how no1 accepts them and shit and how theyre gonna go and cut theyre wrists..get a fuckin life!
u dont c me complainin (l8ly) how my life sux and i think i have more problems then u! get a reality check..idc if u like this or not..but u arent promised 2morrow..u could die 2night..u could die right now..so stop mopin and b happy! jesus freakin christ!
u dont c me complainin..u all dont have a dad that insults u and goes on the comp. 4 sexual pleasures, ur mom isnt always away on job trips, ur brother isnt in jail 4 2 yrs and 4 yrs of probation afterwards AND ur damn sister (also ur best friend...) didnt leave u 4 SC..4 some guy she met! jesus..
u all need 2 learn howta b happy! u all think ur life is so damn rough if some1 u like doesnt say hi 2 u..get a fuckin clue! idc if u all r mad @ me or not..im just tellin it like it is..
u need 2 get over this depressin crap and get a life!
FUCK U ALL!! idc nemore! *walks off*
*the aftermath..dun dun dun*
yes..that last entry was 2 vent *breathes normally again* but really...
ppl complain over the stupidiest shit..and i always thought i craved attention..talkin 2 some ppl i know..i have realized that i dont crave half the attention they want! and the sad thing is..is they get it..
im gonna explain my life briefly..u might not think its bad, but it is..
my mom has worked w/ the *** 4 17 yrs. she recently got a promotion so she hasta do all this gay trainin and stuff..so she's home 4 the weekend, occasionally..if im lucky
my dad works all the time! so im pretty much by myself (except 4 my grandma) when he gets home late from work..he goes straight on2 the comp. after eatin and looks @ nasty sites and talks 2 weirdo ppl on AIM, yahoo messenger and/or MSN messenger...he insults me all the time (like yesterday) by callin me fat when im not..neways..
my brother decided he should sell drugs (all thanx 2 one of his friends) his 1st time doin it..he gets caught..taken 2 jail..goes through a million court dates and crap when they finally decide he should go 2 jail 4 1 1/2 yrs w/ 4 yrs probation afterwards..so he's screwed..b/c it happens 2 b a felony charge! yet..some1 killin a man gets NO jail time..yeah..that makes a whole bunch of no sense
my sister has helped me through everythin..school, make up, boys, family problems, etc. i told her everythin i didnt wanna tell my mom..the 1st time i kissed a guy, the 1st time i skipped, etc. ten she meets this albino terd! who thinks he's all high and mighty since he's a fireman..go suck the dalmations nut! neways, so she leaves u 2 move up w/ him in SC
my grandma used 2 b ok..when i was little and had no clue how damn creepy she was! now u deal w/ her crap..like just now im singin "daddy i h8 u" and she comes in clappin! wtf? do u even realize im insultin ur son u dimbwitt? god!
me--gettin insulted by ppl @ school and home, feelin like poo, wantin attention..gettin it 4 a lil bit, jealousy like a bitch, bein a bitch, havin arguments over stupid crap, no1 likin me? losin like 3 of my friends, kinda..and now my cat is diein..just great! oh yeah, and i went from a 4.0 2 a 2.8 in a yr.
u might think my life is like nothin compared 2 urs..but...i used 2 think my family was the epitamy of "perfect" ..but that was when i was lil and blonder hair and didnt realize half the crap goin on..like my brother droppin outta school and commitin his life 2 drugs, my sister like..startin smokin when she was in 6th grade, my parents fights increased over the yrs, etc. it just added up..and i havent included the fact that my mom is not happy @ all w/ my dad..and was thinkin bout divorce a few weeks ago..who knows whats happenin now..
im just sick of how ppl w/ lives that im jealous over..r complainin bout how they wanna go and cut themselves and kill themselves and blah blah blah..seriously, im not tryin 2 b spiritual but u all need some damn help from God in ur life! like i said, u r NOT guranteed 2morrow, 2night, 2day..and ur gonna waste all of ur life complainin? if ur life is so horrible..then do somethin bout it..
thats it..im gonna b happy dani again *cough* lol