|Monday, January 27th, 2003|
|Dating Leads To Insanity
Well My ex-boyfriend has officially went insane he never leaves me alone hes in such denial he makes up any insane thing to argue with me he sent me a crazy email where the subject was HAHAHAHAHA!!! hes gona crazy i swear, im gonna end up one of those girls that gets killed by there ex boyfriends im so not lying LOL man people are fucked up ahhh well what can u do i guess well im goin to go now and yeah i have to catch the bus ill write more later on tonite.
*peace,love,empathy* Current Mood: angryCurrent Music: Cross Out The Eyes Thursday
|Friday, January 24th, 2003|
|Long Way From Home Lost In A.........
Hmm.....Just got home pretty fucking cold lol my basement is freezing so yeah umm im moving in like 2 weeks so i mite not be able to update this journal for a bit till we get a net hook up which blows cause we cant get cable at our new place :( ahh well ill have to live with dial up grrr.......mmm....when i move i get an insta friend his name is *mysterious guy* hehe im not gonna say but yeah hes umm good and stuff lol hes my *friend* now and when i move im moving like 7 houses away from him so im pretty happy so yeah hmm im kinda at a lose for words today lol i dunno why either cause usually i have so much to say even though i dont write most of it but anywhore i havent talked to my ex in a couple of days well i have on the net and he just says shit to piss me off he called my cell twice today but i had my ringer off so i just didnt bother to call him back cause i didnt feel like arguing with him cause thats all we do mmmm *friendz* are good, im sorry its just that i hung out with him ALL day today and it was so fun come to think of it ive been with him for the last three days and they have been great i dunno like yeah i just broke up with my boyfriend and whathave you but its not like i planned anything so yeah lol i could be labeled a slut because i just broke up with my bf and already im into some other guy but when unexpected shit happens thats exactly what it is unexpected and you cant control your feelins for someone so whatever lol man my good friend ill keep his name confidential but anyways his bestfriend just commited suicide the other day and man i dont kno what to say to him because i kno from experience that nothing helps, my bestfriend hung himself in 2000 and we grew up together and i know that nothing anyone said meant shit to me i just wanted to tell everyone to fuck off and now my friend is going thro the exact same thing and *sighz* i hate old memories bad ones not good hmmm......k i hate to ignore the subject but i have to stop talking about it or im just gonna get depressed and that blows umm actually now i dont know what to say im just gonna go so yeah byes.
*peace,love,empathy* Current Mood: awakeCurrent Music: The Most Depressing Song The Get Up Kids
|Tuesday, January 21st, 2003|
|People Piss Me Off
Fuck my ex boyfriend will not leave me alone i hate when people take so much selfpity in themselves like get over it fuck im really nice but hes just buggin me he wants to be my friend but all hes doin is pushing me away im about really to say fuck off cause im sick of it i hate listening to people bitch at me hes says i need help and he thinks that i need someone and blahblahblah im tired buh byes
*peace,love,empathy* Current Mood: highCurrent Music: Shape Of The Fear Jealous Sound
|Monday, January 20th, 2003|
Wow im pretty boed and stoned and lots-o-bored grrr never mind i dont want to write lol ill write later Current Mood: highCurrent Music: 99 Red Balloons Goldfinger
|Saturday, January 18th, 2003|
I Dont kno where to start, i broke up with my boyfriend reasons: because im fucked up in the head, i cant cope with people, i cant stand being wanted and/or needed by another human being, i cant be happy with myself therefore i cannot be happy with another person. i kno it all sounds so lame but i dunno i just get so scared and think way too much that it drives me to the point of insanity. I Dont understand anything anymore maybe its because i just dont care i dont kno, I love Matt and yet i cant be with him, its all pscyhological and i hate it. im sorry if anyone reads this its just rambling i just cant seem to make sense of anything right now and yeah im just gonna go.
*peace,love,empathy* Current Mood: numbCurrent Music: Everlong Foo Fighters
|Tuesday, January 14th, 2003|
|Well She Looks Like A Movie Star......
I Dont know what i was gonna write even tho there is so muchthat i want to write yet cant think of the words to say ahh fuck it.....
*peace,love,empathy* Current Mood: confusedCurrent Music: BlackBird Paul Mcarteny
|Saturday, January 11th, 2003|
|mmm peanut butter and mayonaise......
wow havent written in what a day?? lol well nothing has really happened except for the fact that i should have just stayed home in the first place because people are fucking dumb man nobody especially my boyfriend cant just go with the flow take life as it comes why sit there bitching about little things and stuff i dont get it even tho im sitting here bitching about but at least im not bitching to like one of my friends in person bringin them down. I'd rather just write and get it all out i hate bitching at people its pretty lame maybe its cause i hate when people bitch at me meh lol i wanna go hang out with my cousin but i cant its my moms birthday i made her some pancakes for breakfast and i didnt burn them wow! hehe i would have expected burnt ones lol hmm im so going to hang out with my bestest buddy Ian tomorrow Yay! i love that kid hes sooooooo weird and you have so much fun just talking to him, were so getting married lol well i should go, buh byes.
*peace,love,empathy* Current Mood: awakeCurrent Music: Been a Son Nirvana
|Friday, January 10th, 2003|
|fuck, fuck, fuck.......
im so fuckin exhausted, i do not want to go to school grrrrr....... man i need caffiene i just spelt that wrong lol so im just gonna say coffee which i have none of anyways......mmmm breakfast that would be nice a tim hortons bagel with cream cheese lots of cream cheese. man i dont want to get dressed lol i dont want to do anything today, i didnt even go to bed that late at all yet im always tired if i go to bed early then if i go to bed extremely late im fine getting up most of the time. i hate talking to people first thing in the morning they never have anything decent to say you always just want to tell them to "SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!" anyways im done with that lol well i suppose i shall get going and get dressed if not i have trouble on my hands and her name is mother.lol.bye.
*peace,love,empathy* Current Mood: tiredCurrent Music: none
|Thursday, January 9th, 2003|
Its 706 in the morn i still havent slept in fear that my brother wouldnt wake me up early enough to have a shower and then i would leaving the house and stink lol no i just really want to shower im eating carrots for breakfast there pretty good except for the gross rotten one i just ate about 2 seconds ago, well today im pretty fuckin *happy* i get to see my boyfriend who i havent see in 2 days i know its not long but im used to seeing him everyday so......and as the snake is drown and as i look in his eyes my fear begins to fade recalling all of the times i could have cried i should have cried and as the walls come down and as i look in your eyes my fear begins to fade recalling all of the times i have died and will die its all right i dont mind..... sorry bout that got a little into the song :) hmmm cannibal corpse at ten after seven in the morning nice! lol anywhore i get to see all my friends today who i havent seen for like 3 weeks so im excited about that go figure i couldnt find any of there phone numbers over the break either aahhh well ill get them now well im out talk to ya later.
*peace,love,empathy* Current Mood: amusedCurrent Music: Bob Marley Is This Love
|Wednesday, January 8th, 2003|
|Why Cant I Fly?
Im in such a weird mood for no reason it must be from staying in this house, i feel like screaming at the top of my lungs hmm maybe i should i think it might just be because im listening to Opiate by Tool and this song makes me want to scream the lyrics at the top of my lungs everytime.......i wont tell you that i actually do when no ones around......lol anywhore, my friend Rob isnt hom yet this is lame :) ive written in this thing like 4 times today, can you say i have no life? i knew you could lol nah im usually NEVER home its this damn flu that i cant shake off oh well fuck the flu no matter what im getting the hell outta this place tomorrow :) hmmm.....i need a smoke i think i will go have one later gators.
*peace,love,empathy* Current Mood: weirdCurrent Music: H Tool
|Assholes Fucking Suck pt.2
Anywhore so she hurts my bestfriend then thinks she did nothing wrong by doing all that then tells me oh i didnt like he doesnt turn me on or anything so whatever im pissed for a bit then im like fuck whatever i told her that she was an asshole for doing it this and that and that i was pissed so time goes by mind you not alot of time at all then she meets Jordans friend Steve so then im like "Dont hurt Steve" cause ive known him for along time and were friends too but whatever right shes like oh i wont blahblahblah what does she do? shes all likin steve then yesterday she tells my bestfriend Jordan "Ohi still like you" i was so fucking mad cause i hate when people hurt other people especially when they know what there doing so i asked her about it and she was like oh it doesnt matter cause i told him i like steve more so it doesnt count man people are fucking dumb...........sorry for whoever reads this i just had to rant......bye.....
*peace, love, empathy* Current Mood: calmCurrent Music: Thats What I Get NIN
|Assholes Fucking Suck
Wow I love how my friends are fucking mental well not all of them just the one that likes to call herself my bestfriend, shes so slutty and backstabbing and not even just to me but to everyone else to nothing to her is real or even worth anything unless it has to do with her. Ok im gonna *calm down* a little and tell you the story I have a bestfriend named Jordan and hes been my friend for what seems like forever hes a little bastard lol but I love him, well then i meet Jenn this year in september and shes all cool and stuff whatever then i introduced her to my friend jordan BIG MISTAKE he falls for her which i knew he would and of course i dont want them to date because i knew what jenn was all about shes one of the "innocent" closet sluts too thats whats even worse, so heres my bestfriend all in love with my other friend and she tells him blahblahblah i dont like you i dont want o go out with you i just want to be friends this and that then she FUCKS HIM!! and its his first time to so of course hes gonna be all upset so she blows him off and i have to go sorry lol bye.
*peace,love,empathy* Current Mood: pissed offCurrent Music: Something I Can Never Have NIN
|Sickness Blows Chunks.....Literally
Boredem the leading cause of death amongst teenagers......I cannot stand sitting in my sheltered little house all day and its now going on 2 days suffice to say im pretty pissed. I cant even go on my own computer which pisses me off cause my brother is "doing homework" as he likes to call it, I didnt know playing on neo-pets or looking at comics or whatever the fuck he does on the comp is considered doing homework meh ahh well. I want to leave but my mother wouldnt even let me go to school today :( i dont know how you add people to your "friends list" or whatever but im gonna try to add a couple people, ive been reading some peoples things while fucking around on this site theres some pretty cool people on this site :) well im gonna go now and do stuff i guess.
*peace,love,empathy* Current Mood: blahCurrent Music: Mayonaise Smashing Pumkins
|Tuesday, January 7th, 2003|
I Just realized that I am a dumbass how the fuck do i view my own journal??? lol yes probably one of the most retarded things you people have heard but yeah im very "simple minded" haha im so joking, but yeah the computer is getting pretty lame considering ive been sick all day so all ive been doin in surfing the net *gggrrrrrr* i hate the net! Did u know you can pop virtual bubble wrap on the net?? yeah goes to show how non-productive my day was. hmm weezer i like weezer :) but yeah im gonna go and add some shit to my likes in my info thingy buhbyes.
*peace,love,empathy* Current Mood: boredCurrent Music: Rooster Alice In Chains
|My Boring Day In Hell
Well im new to this whole journal thing but i always wanted to get one :) umm yeah again im new with this so dont hold it against me if i have shit all to say at first lol Im eating Chicken Alfredo right now and it is good! Im Weird i know but its normal where i live so its all good. hmm lets see i have This Boyfriend and his name is *Matt* He is Really cool its weird how i met him cause he came to a party at my place and i didnt even really know him that was like 2 years ago then i met him again this year and he was like yeah i used to see you at school and i went to your party and crap like that blah blah blah lol and now were dating its weird how shit works out. are you allowed to swear on this thing? hehe i dunno, dont care. grrrr i watched the movie Halloween Ressurection man it was fuckin lame as hell i was dissapointed i mean busta rhymes kicks jason ass?? gimme a break! lol whatever lol yummy The White Stripes......well im off again dont judge by my first entry hehehe ciao.
*peace, love, empathy* Current Mood: bouncyCurrent Music: Everclear Father Of Mine