03:06pm 19/12/2005
 
mood: blank
music: letters to you- finch
man today was really wierd i got woken up by sarah saying that mari was calling and i awnswered the phone i was so happy that i was gonna get to talk to her. and she broke up with me because she said that she heard from somewhere that i was cheating on her and she thought that this time i was gonna be different. I was like what the fuck... That shit pissed me off... appearently i was "all over" bubba. I was like OMG you are crazy. I couldnt believe that shit. Pissed me off. Really, really. bad. Idk. All i know is that I want to merry her. Thats all i know.		  
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i dont know   
02:04am 19/12/2005
 
mood: blah
music: giving up- silverstein
wow its almost christmas and right now i really dont know what i am doing... i have been trying to watch a movie all day, and i am so... i guess blah. I am listning to punk goes acoustic. its great. i love taking back sunday. I am kinda upset because mari hasnt called all day and she went out.. im cool with that but its already two in the morning... i called her house a litle while ago.. her mom says that shes not home yet. and i dont know if shes gonna come home tonight. which kinda bothers me. I think because i got so used to having her around again.. and now shes just not here. I really miss her. Its like I have been going to kerris house and ill come home every little while to ask if she has called yet. I hate this feeling. like i keep wondering if shes okay, or if sometihing happened. im worried. and i know that i do really love her and it bothers me.. it really does. and it makes me so sad that shes not here. Today linda told me that i can invite her over for christmas. That really makes me happy. I cant wait because then she will be here and onm christmas morning i will wake up next to her and kiss her and tell her that i love her and merry christmas. and its something that i cant wait to do. I cant wait to just hold her in my arms again. i dont know. I am downloading all punk goes acoustic songs. its great!		  
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11:59am 31/03/2005
  FEEL MY SQUIRLY WRATH


I LOVE FOAMY!!!		  
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11:52am 23/02/2005
  tomarrow is maris birtday and we are going to have a party on friday night. I just want everything to go good at her party and though some of us that are going to be there have our differences i just want everything to be okay. I hope that we can all get along and at least pretend to be "friends" I just want to do it for her. I love her and i know that everyone that is going to be there does in their own certin way. I know that it may be hard. I dont want any awkwardness that might make her uncomfortable. Please help me make her birthday good for her. I dont want her to cry or be upset. Please... Just for her party.... please.  
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11:52am 02/02/2005
 
mood: energetic
music: matchbook romance- the greatest fall of all time
wowwwwwieeeeeee!!!! I feel great. I had a good night sleep. I wish mari had been there though. She makes me happy. Its so wierd to sleep with out her. I hate it. I really do. It gets on my nerves. Shes great though. We have been actually "back together" for a month now. Even though weve really been dating for 9. I am also so happy beacause now im okay with her friend... and that means alot to her. Because its kinda hard to have a best friend who hates your girlfriend. man... idk... Im also so happy because im about to GRADUATE!!!!!!!!! wow.. life is great.
Those who try shall never loose.		  
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03:17pm 18/01/2005
  Well well well its so wierd... all of the things that have happened lately. Things have been really great. I love mari. I always knew that but i guess in a way you can say that i fall for her more each day. idk. thats all i have to say.  
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mari went home :(   
01:26pm 02/01/2005
 
mood: depressed
music: look what youve done-jet
I am so sad.. Mari went home and i dont know when i am going to see her again because shes going to be in corpus and im going to be in alice... maybe i can find a way to go over there.. idk. Anyways im really gonna miss her ... i dont know what else to say. She is my baby. I dont think that she knows how much she means to me. I love her... and i really do want to spend my life with her. Shes one thing that i cant and dont want to live with out.
I love you baby.

Mandi Kae		  
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i dont like boys   
12:57pm 22/12/2004
 

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loved i am   
12:28pm 22/12/2004
  man.... its been a good week the only thing that wasnt good was the fact that i had to leave... im here in alice right now. its okay i guess. I really wish that there was a way to stay home and hang with mari bt theres not. it kinda sucks that i have to be gone. well i know that we will still talk everyday but i am really going to miss her. its hard to be with out her. but ill be okay. just a week or so...
i hope it snows.... im sleepy and going to bed...

I LOVE MARISOL

mandi		  
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this is true   
05:01pm 19/12/2004
 


AMANDA
A is for Abstract
M is for Mellow
A is for Abstract
N is for Nutty
D is for Dramatic
A is for Arty


 
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I am loved ... i think   
12:48pm 19/12/2004
 
mood: loved
music: Jet- look what youve done
Life has been pretty good lately. Yesterday was 7 months for Mari and I. Thats a pretty long time. Its not like forever but thats good for the person i used to be. I have been doing well lately. I went to school every day since i got out of the hospital. Which is good. And on the 6th of January I start at Richard Milburn Academy. I graduate it may. Ill graduate a year early. Then its off to college!! I really need to have a good job. I need to be able support myself... and When i get older.. my family.
Last night was really great. Me and Mari went and saw the forgotten. It freaked us out. But it was really cool. then we went to the house and looked thru all of my stuff!! We ate Whataburger. And then... we crashed. We slept for a long time. It feels really good to sleep next to her. It feels right when we lay there together. Last night she made me fall asleep with a BIG smile on my face because i told her that i loved her and she sang that she loved me too. it was really cute... She got her hair cut. It looks cute. Im not sure that i liked it at first because i was so used to her long hair. But i love it now.... so much has happened in the last 7 months i feel like its been alot longer then that. but it hasnt. its crazy... i could write about her forever ... even though me and her are not together exactly.. i still belong to her. and i love her with evrything i have and i am HAPPY with MARISOL!!!!
MaNdI		  
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promise simple plan   
11:06pm 12/12/2004
  Breakdown
I can’t take this
I need somewhere to go
I need you
I’m so restless
I don’t know what to do

Cause we’ve had our rough times
Fighting all night
And now you’re just slipping away

So give me this chance
To make the wrongs right, to say
Don't, don't, don't walk away

I promise
I won’t let you down, you down
If you take my hand tonight
I promise
We’ll be just fine this time
If you take my hand tonight

If you take my hand tonight

Without you I go through the motions
Without you it’s just not quite the same
Without you I don't want to go out
I just wanted to say

That I'm sick of these fights
I'll let you be right
If it stops you from running away

So just give me this chance
To make the wrongs and right to say
Don’t, don’t, don’t walk away

I promise
I won’t let you down, you down
If you take my hand tonight
I promise
We’ll be just fine
This time
If you take my hand tonight

Take my hand
Take my hand
I promise
Take my hand
I promise
Take my hand
Go!

I promise
I won’t let you down, you down
If you take my hand tonight
I promise
We’ll be just fine
This time
If you take my hand tonight

If you take my hand tonight
I won’t let you down
Take my hand tonight		  
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you and me bowling for soup   
11:02pm 12/12/2004
  All I needed was an answer
I didn’t ask for nothin more
and she said, “just leave your jacket at the door”
and we were locked inside
again it started here we go
if you can help me let me know.

So she asked if I could stay there
and I say we’ve been through this before
and she said “just tell me, what do you expect
here?”
and we were locked inside
again it started here we go

you can hold my hand, but
don’t go back on me
Just remember that it’s gonna be alright
and you’ll see we can have it all yeah
can’t you see that I’m right here waiting, looking
back at you
you and me, we’ve got nothing to lose. Oh Yeah!

So she wraps me up inside her
and I knew we should not get that far
and she said “ just close your eyes and say you love
me”
and we were locked inside, again ......

don’t go back on me
Just remember that it’s gonna be alright
and you’ll see we can have it all yeah
can’t you see that I’m right here waiting, looking
back at you
you and me, we’ve got nothing to lose. Oh Yeah!

All I needed was an answer
i didn’t ask for nothin more
and she said, “just leave your jacket at the door now”
and we were locked inside
again it started here we go
if you can help me let me know.

All I need to kill the pain
is for someone else to blame
and I’ve waited my whole life
I try to run but I can’t hide

don’t go back on me
Just remember that it’s gonna be alright
and you’ll see we can have it all yeah
can’t you see that I’m right here waiting, looking
back at you
you and me, we’ve got nothing to lose. Oh Yeah!

(no no no no)
(no we got nothing to lose now)
(no no no no)
(oh you and me)
(no no no no)
(no we got nothing to lose now)
(no no no no)
(Oh Yeah)
(no no no no)
(oh we got nothing to lose now)
(oh no, no no no no)		  
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11:00pm 04/11/2004
 
music: let it snow
wow this is my favorite time of the year!!! I can eat like the little fat kid that i am!! I am going to have my own thnksgiving all by myself, thats gonna be sad but i am happy bc i can wake up and have some hot chocolate and watch the turkey day parade and SLEEEPPP .... itll be soooo great. and then itll be christmas and i will LOVE it!!! so gooooooodddd and then new years.... yay! i get to start over... which i need to do. And then, another year for me!! MY BIRTHDAY!!!! yay i cant wait... wow its like so much in these next 4 months. Bc after my bday is valentines day ( i want to have a valentine this year... i never had a real one :( and i really want one) so yeah... then i know so many people who have there birthdays on the 24th and 25th... I CANT WAITTTTT!!!!!

mandi		  
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you asked...   
04:33pm 04/11/2004
 
mood: crushed
music: matchbook romance-promise
I LOVE YOU		  
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... only its my song to you.   
04:28pm 04/11/2004
 
mood: depressed
music: matchbook romance- promise
Build a bridge to your mind
Takes me there everytime
Lay it all on the line
There's a way
Build a bridge, make a path
Overlook the aftermath
Make my tears be your bath
There's a way
Only'd if you take a ride
Go with me to the other side

CHORUS
Even though its gonna crumble down
I'll keep building till you come around
Even though its gonna fall apart
Break my heart
I'll keep building till I die

Build a bridge of memories
Stretch it out over seas
To the end of the world
There's a way
Build a bridge made of pains
Send my longing down the drain
Have no reasons to complain
There's a way
Only'd if you take a ride
Go with me to the other side

Chorus

Wait...wait for me...
Wait...please wait for me...
Wait...wait for me...
wait...please wait for me...

Chorus		  
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My mari song   
05:37pm 01/11/2004
  Build a bridge to ur mind takes me there everytime. Lay it all on the line, theres a way. Build a bridge make a path, over look the aftermath, make MY tears be your bath, theres a way.
Only if ull take a ride, and go with me to the other side, even though its gonna crumble down, ill keep buildin till u come around. Even though its gonna fall apart, break my heart. ILL KEEP BUILDING TILL I DIE!
Build a bridge of memmories streach it out over seas, to the end of the world, theres a way.
Build a bridge made of pain,send my longing down the drain, HAVE NO REASON TO COMPLAIN, theres a way		  
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Read bottom first....   
05:20pm 18/10/2004
 
mood: crushed
music: I dont believe
... Ok... Its like somethings she says sometimes. Or things she does.. Like saturday night we slept together on the phone. And i dunno. I really dont think that she understands how much it hurts when she doesnt call or she treats me different. What really hurt was i thought i was gonna get to go to see her and then she never called. That really broke me to pieces. I just dont know. I guess im not good egnough for her.. And i probly never will be. :(

yet another let down, and broken heart.
Mandi.		  
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Read bottom first....   
05:20pm 18/10/2004
 
mood: crushed
music: I dont believe
... Ok... Its like somethings she says sometimes. Or things she does.. Like saturday night we slept together on the phone. And i dunno. I really dont think that she understands how much it hurts when she doesnt call or she treats me different. What really hurt was i thought i was gonna get to go to see her and then she never called. That really broke me to pieces. I just dont know. I guess im not good egnough for her.. And i probly never will be. :(

yet another let down, and broken heart.
Mandi.		  
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Read bottom first....   
05:20pm 18/10/2004
 
mood: crushed
music: I dont believe
... Ok... Its like somethings she says sometimes. Or things she does.. Like saturday night we slept together on the phone. And i dunno. I really dont think that she understands how much it hurts when she doesnt call or she treats me different. What really hurt was i thought i was gonna get to go to see her and then she never called. That really broke me to pieces. I just dont know. I guess im not good egnough for her.. And i probly never will be. :(

yet another let down, and broken heart.
Mandi.		  
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