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[22 Oct 2007|01:55am] |
first off, i don't want to hear "if you're sick of it, change it." i fucking know.
but, to explain a tad bit more, my best friend is naturally a person who flirts.
it pisses me off, because even when she "doesn't realize it", she flirts with guys i like.
and she's really pretty. not to say i'm ugly, but whatever.
when i go to this thing i want to look hot. and more importantly feel hot/sexy/GOOD about myself.
i don't ever feel like that with her around. i feel like she's always over shadowing me.
i feel like i'm just the fat girl with the hot best friend when it comes to guys and being around guys with her.
and i don't feel like that with the person i was going to go with, because she's not rail thin, and more importantly, she isn't at all like my best friend.
i just want to fucking go to this thing and have fun. dress like a hooch, flirt/dance with guys, etc.
and though i would have fun with my best friend,
i wouldn't do all that stuff because i'd be feeling self-conscious about myself all night.
and it doesn't help that i barely have any girl friends and no guy friends over 21.
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[22 Oct 2007|06:33pm] |
Guys are so confusing,
one minute hes the funnest, nicest guy..
then he turns into this not so friendly,warm person..
one minute we can joke around, and laugh..then
the next day he looks at me like i have 23897 heads, when i try and crack a joke.
what does this mean? should i ignore him?
ughhh...
secret: i am uncapable with keeping up.so help me. :\
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[22 Oct 2007|07:53pm] |
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I have a friend that gets jealous over a few other girl pals.
She isn't mean to them or to me, but gets a little agitated sometimes. It's...honestly? Kinda adorable.
But after she made a comment, I was like, "Are you jealous?" And I laughed.
She was like, "Yeah, I get jealous! I can't help it! You're the only one I get like that with."
I don't know. Just knowing I have at least one friend who cares enough about me to get jealous makes me feel loved.
Anyways...She's my best friend and I don't think anyone could really replace her anyways...
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[22 Oct 2007|09:15pm] |
confused doesnt even begin to cover it anymore.
what do i have to do to make this better?
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