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[01 Jan 2007|12:27am] |
no one called me.
i have no one to call.
no kiss, either.=[
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[01 Jan 2007|12:37am] |
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I'm not sure if iIm strong enough to keep it.
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[01 Jan 2007|12:42am] |
i hold everything in until it reaches a boiling point.
drama and conflict makes me queasy, i get nervous about speaking up when i feel wronged.
my new year's resolution that i'm actually going to keep is to be more calm and not get so angry over lost socks or other people's insignificant actions.
i'm going to let all the petty grudges go, and be a better person.
secret?
i hope i can stick to it.
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[01 Jan 2007|12:59am] |
sorry.
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[01 Jan 2007|01:14am] |
( ... )
I MISS THIS.
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[01 Jan 2007|01:37am] |
Oh my god this conversation is painful.
Talking about the girls you’ve dated, or liked, and you being a parent.
Him: my ideal girl is a total sexpot but is in a monogamous relationship, and happens to also be something of an intellectual.
Him: IM NEVER FINDING MY IDEAL GIRL
Me: Like me?
And then he basically avoided the subject.
Can’t you tell I’m FUCKING CRAZY ABOUT YOU?!
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[01 Jan 2007|01:50am] |
In the darkroom we were discussing your ex-girlfriend. The subject actually comes up quite often.
Me: Well, you dated and had sex with her!
Him: Yeah, then I realized she was nuts.
Me: How could you not know that? Everyone has known that for quite a long time.
-- Then, you moved a lot closer, so your face was inches from mine. My back was against the back wall, And in a whisper you said
"Because I was crazy. And it wasn't until I met a certain someone that i snapped out of it. I used to be so fucked up. But I'm not anymore."
You smiled. and slowly moved away. I stared at you for awhile, and you stared right back.
It wasn't until after some over-analyzing on my part, that i realized.
She introduced me to him, him and I talked a lot in the halls. 2 weeks later, they broke up.
Am I wrong to think he might have been talking about me?
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[01 Jan 2007|02:20am] |
my new years.
sucked anus.
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[01 Jan 2007|02:32am] |
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the raconteurs |
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i just went to their new year's show. it was fabulous. =]
i went with sheldumb. he is the best person to go to a show with.
when he kisses me, i can't wipe off the ridiculous grin & end up blushing.
i want to date him but could never tell him. i suppose i'm just his random makeout/fuck buddy.
but i want more.
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[01 Jan 2007|03:25am] |
It's hard to deal with the fact that no matter what material possesion I fill the hole in my life with, everything will still feel mundane and empty.
I want to tell my friends and the people I love that I am incredibly sad,
But I'm afraid they will think I am selfish or begging for attention.
I am just really fucking lonely.
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[01 Jan 2007|05:22am] |
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If I'm Not Already Crazy -- Lari White |
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...which to use of the several secrets I made using this picture. I posted the others in my journal, if you're curious. This is the secret that won out for use in the community:
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[01 Jan 2007|10:34am] |
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[01 Jan 2007|04:18pm] |
no photo.
after hooking up. not once. but repeatedly, then snuggling for forever.
him: yeah, i'm really not that drunk right now. this is the most fun i've had in a long time.
me: yeah. did you want this to be a one time thing or what? you're cute.
him: you're cuter. i wanna hang out again soon. give me your number.
next day.
him: i was so drunk i dont even remember last night.
me: oh. yeah.
him: what all did we do?
me: oh nothing big. you should call me if you wanna hang out tonight.
.....
still haven't heard.
boys are gay.
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[01 Jan 2007|04:57pm] |
saturday
sunday^^^
every saturday I feel sooo great! the music, the people, my mood.. Every sunday I feel miserable,
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[01 Jan 2007|05:13pm] |
new year was great! I felt like I had nothing to worrie about,,! There were so many kisses,, and so many friends,, even HE was there to wish me a happy new year
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[01 Jan 2007|07:38pm] |
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[01 Jan 2007|09:01pm] |
I found his body.
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[01 Jan 2007|09:51pm] |
him: you're tense.
me: i know. i'm nervous. can't you tell.
him: nervous of what?
me: i'm don't know.
him: nervous you might like it .. ?
i'm scared&unsure.
but i want to see him again.
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[01 Jan 2007|10:30pm] |
[this is a picture i found on google images, btw]
stupid boys.
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[01 Jan 2007|11:05pm] |
i'm in love with my best friend's boyfriend.
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[01 Jan 2007|11:45pm] |
but no one knows how badly i really want to do this.
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