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[31 Dec 2006|12:21am] |
your photography is absolutely fucking terrible
i don't understand how you think you have any talent at all.
i just can't tell you that.
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I am HIGHLY untrusting of strangers (that are boys.)
But I’d just about trust any random girl with my life.
Sign of a future lesbian?
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[31 Dec 2006|02:32am] |
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I WANNA KILL YOU EVER TIME I FUCKING SEE YOU
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[31 Dec 2006|11:14am] |
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[31 Dec 2006|02:22pm] |
I had a panic attack 20 minutes ago.
I felt so bad because I couldn't tell my mom why.
you're the reason i feel sick all the time.
I wish you would stop messing with my head,
and tell me straight up that you don't want to be with me ever again.
Instead of telling me that you like me.
because i know you don't.
and even worse, I have to be with you tonight. because i want to be with my other friends.
and you will, just so happen to be there.
well I'm going to treat like like fcking crap.
I'm going to ignore you.
I'm not going to be sweet to you.
I'm tired of having bad dreams about me never getting to be with you.
I'm done taking my anti-depressants hoping that i can go the whole day not feeling one negative emotion that you influence.
secret: if you told me you really loved me, i'd be on my knees thanking God.
I love you so fcking much Eric.
I really do.
and I'm scared to deaath .
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[31 Dec 2006|03:34pm] |
I don't have any real friends. I have acquaintances.
i'm usually just all alone
and it really doesn't bother me at all, but i want a best friend like my sisters have.
one that won't leave me.
but i'm not sure if i'll ever have one, even in college or further on on in life.
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[31 Dec 2006|09:16pm] |
I hope you remember
It'd mean so much if you do
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[31 Dec 2006|10:28pm] |
tonight he was supposed to come over for new years
when he asked if he should, i couldnt make up my mind for a while because i was scared
when i finally did, and he went to leave
HIS STINKIN COUSIN CAME OVER
i skipped a huge party because i was sure he could come over
i cant even leave my house now
i hate our luck, or lack thereof
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[31 Dec 2006|11:25pm] |
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no one knows that i like to be sad, because sad is all i have ever known. sad is comfortable. to feel any other emotion feels wrong.
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