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I always cry on Christmas.
Not because of presents.
Not because of family.
I’m starting to think it’s from just the overall disappointment, and lack of love.
You expect Christmas to be this beautiful thing, where you just spend time with the ones you love.
Even if I do, they’re all just obsessed with their $20 gift certificates and airsoft guns.
I hate Christmas.
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[25 Dec 2006|01:41pm] |
"Don't feed me lies about some idealistic future"
That one day when you started naming all your pet peeves and the wierd things you like and dislike, and then told me that you want to tell me everything and then you asked how long I could handle all of those wierd little things and I replied with "Up until the day you leave me." you laughed and told me that you won't be leaving me and then i mentioned that i like to get up early and go running and you replied with "That's gonna change the day we move in together."
I laughed.
Almost 2 months after you dumped me, I still think about us living together. And still whenever I eat something that you mentioned something wierd about I start to cry. Why can't I let go of you?
Dear Santa,
I've wished for one thing this Christmas- I didn't get it. So instead of wishing for him back, I wish I could forget about him, stop loving him, and finally move on.
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[25 Dec 2006|04:24pm] |
I wonder if President Bush sits down and takes the time to think about all the heartache he causes.
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[25 Dec 2006|05:37pm] |
if i said i wanted you for christmas, that'd be a lie
because i want you all year long.
and i have for the past three.
i love you and miss you
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[25 Dec 2006|06:30pm] |
God,
Last night when I prayed that you would look after my grandmother, I didn't mean kill her.
Happy fucking christmas.
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[25 Dec 2006|07:15pm] |
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I Knew I Loved You - Savage Garden |
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I opened the gifts from Charlies mom.
Everything inside brought back memories.
I got his hoodie he would always wear with me.
I got some jewelry that he was going to give me for Christmas.
I got an engagement ring.
I got some clothes.
I got a letter.
I got an album.
I got money.
The letter hurt the worst.
It said how he loved me and everything.
[Secret]: I'm sitting here now crying my eyes out and I don't know what to do.
If you have AIM, please IM me. I can't keep my spirits up... It's Christmas.
My Screen name: Soulofagoddess28|
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[25 Dec 2006|07:37pm] |
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I opened the gifts from Charlies mom.
Everything inside brought back memories.
I got his hoodie he would always wear with me.
I got some jewelry that he was going to give me for Christmas.
I got an engagement ring.
I got some clothes.
I got a letter.
I got an album.
I got money.
The letter hurt the worst.
It said how he loved me and everything.
[Secret]: I'm sitting here now crying my eyes out and I don't know what to do.
If you have AIM, please IM me. I can't keep my spirits up... It's Christmas.
My Screen name: Soulofagoddess28
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[25 Dec 2006|07:45pm] |
i am finally content with how i look
fuck the rest of the world
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[25 Dec 2006|08:02pm] |
Nobody should have to go through what you are.
I don’t even know you, and I love you already.
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[25 Dec 2006|09:16pm] |
i was with justin for a yr.
we lived together the whole time, he was my ONLY friend. then one day he up and left me. its been a yr and 3 months since he moved out and the last time i saw him and talked to him again. a whole year! now im far better off, i have a life, live at home again, am back in school and have the best boyfriend in the world! he treats me like you wouldnt believe. we talk about marriage. i love him but the thing is i still cry almost every day over justin. i know for sure i think of him. its unbelievable the way i miss him... and the worst part is, i was miserable with him in the end. i was addicted to drugs and had no life. just him. so why do i think of him with sad eyes while im driving with my boyfriend and a song comes on that reminds me of him?i prayed last night while i was hysterical missing him. my boyfriend was in the next room
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[25 Dec 2006|10:13pm] |
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he told me that he misses me, that he wants to be with me, and that he wants me to go to school with him.
i miss him more than he knows and wish he was here with me now.
secret: i have a boyfriend. it's not him, but sometimes i wish it was.
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[25 Dec 2006|10:47pm] |
It breaks my heart when people think they are worthless and they don't deserve better. Especially girls when it comes to relationships.
The right guy wont break up with you numerous times.
The right guy will make sure you KNOW that he's your bf and that you're not dating anyone else. There will be no "well I THINK we're dating... but im not sure..."
The right guy will ask you out! Guys like getting what they want. They will chase it. And if they dont... who wants to date mr. lazy guy?
Girls: YOU ARE ALL FABULOUS! The right guy is out there somewhere. "something" is NOT better than nothing!
Sigh. I love you all.
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[25 Dec 2006|11:47pm] |
It would be cliche to say that all I want for Christmas is you, but I've made that wish for the last two years...
I'm happy though. I'm finally getting over you and I'm so happy about it.
Two and a half years of dealing with you, trying to understand your viewpoints on dating and why you won't date me if "[I'm] everything [you're] looking for in someone." I'm sick of crying myself to sleep some nites just wondering how amazing you are and if we'll ever be anything more than just friends.
For Christmas, Santa got me a UHaul truck b/c I'm moving on and am no longer waiting around for you. You your chance. Now I've got someone else that makes me happy.
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