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[22 Dec 2006|12:30am] |
I sent the boy from my last secret a friend request last night and I was beyond nervous.
I haven't heard anything back yet. According to his profile, he hasn't been on MySpace today.
The waiting is making me crazy.
Secret-I feel stupid for getting so nervous over a simple friend request and even more so for being so impatient. But, this was the boy who made me shake like no one has ever made me before.
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[22 Dec 2006|01:16am] |
My insides are screaming with happiness that I know wont last.
...But I've never felt more comfortable with anyone...
12:51 AM here is 6:51 AM in England, and I'm trying so hard to hold myself back........
Sigh.
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[22 Dec 2006|04:15am] |
you're 600 miles away.
i'm really falling for you and i'm scared.
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[22 Dec 2006|01:19pm] |
 i hate falling in love over the internet.
i feel as if. im only using the feelings i have on myspace as an excuse to not look for love in my life.
but he is my life.
or a big part of it anyway.
he just doesnt know i exist.
i keep moving towards the end of his top friends.
but i feel as though im moving towards saying goodbye.
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[22 Dec 2006|01:31pm] |
 every single christmas since i was 10.
ive found the presents my parents had brought us.
i used to have to pretend to be suprised.
i hated not knowing what i was getting but i hated knowing more.
this year i dont know where the presents are..
i dont know what im getting.
I'VE NEVER HAD SUCH A GOOD CHRISTMAS.
=]]]]
secret: but that hasnt stopped me from looking.. curiosity kills.
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[22 Dec 2006|02:56pm] |
please don't die.
especially not on my birthday.
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[22 Dec 2006|03:14pm] |
I had today planned out for like 2 years.
Thank you mom for ruining my life.
asjhakjfh crap.
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[22 Dec 2006|07:07pm] |
Last night I stayed up talking to him. He stay up until 6 AM talking to me.
This is so stupid. But we just click...! I'm not this type of person. I'm a logical person. I'm reasonable. Why am I doing this? Why do i feel like this?
Anyway.
I bought a webcam today for HIS Christmas present.
I was gone from home for 3 hours.
In the 3 hours I was gone, someone broke into my house and tried to steal my computer. Except they didn't realize that the monitor cable screwed into the tower, so instead they just yanked it out.
Also yanking out the port that's built INTO the computer.
So now I have a webcam and not a working computer.
...Is this a sign?
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[22 Dec 2006|09:13pm] |
Im so tired of talking to him, seeing him, I hope that he stays in his hometown and go to school. Im so tried of being jealous and if he stayed there then I wont have these problems. Why did you have to come back here...I know for the PARTY!!!
Secret: I love him and if he was still with me then I would be fine with him.
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[22 Dec 2006|09:40pm] |
( i wish i could call him mine.)
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[22 Dec 2006|10:26pm] |
I don't know why but it infuriates me when I see someone wearing make up the way I do.
For example, I don't like seeing people putting dots or x's around their eyes, i don't like seeing people wearing like 5 different colors the way I do...
I don't know. I always felt like it was MY thing, and when i see other people doing it, it makes me upset.
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