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[13 Nov 2006|12:26am] |
that hurt like hell.
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the strees - when you wasn't famous |
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srry no picture,,
I really think i'm obsessed with hollywood.. not the girls, but the boys.. I think i CAN meet them, fall in love and marry them,,
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[13 Nov 2006|12:18pm] |
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[13 Nov 2006|12:25pm] |
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i should be so happy. but i cant seem to let myself be. 
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[13 Nov 2006|01:28pm] |
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Sometimes the fairytale doesn't end with a "happily ever after."
Sometimes the prince never shows up, and the princess drowns her sorrow with sweet drinks.
Sometimes she never wakes up.
secret: i dont want fairytales to come true.
sorrow gives me an excuse to cry.
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[13 Nov 2006|01:36pm] |
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You're worthless, just like everyone else.
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[13 Nov 2006|03:53pm] |
I want so much for him to take his away message down so that I can IM him and finally figure out why he stopped talking to me in the first place.
It makes me so angry.
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[13 Nov 2006|04:17pm] |
I just can't figure out if the pros or the cons are winning.
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[13 Nov 2006|04:44pm] |
I judge people.
I think I might be addicted to pot.
I'm in love with my ex-boyfriend,
and I'm with someone else for no reason.
He's crazy about me and I don't care.
I'm blunt.
I lie.
I look for fights.
I can't wait until the day I turn 18.
I'M OUT!
I'd do anything to hurt one of my best friends.
I'm a horrible person but people just don't see it.
SECRET: I love my life.
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[13 Nov 2006|04:48pm] |
Secret 1: I cried when I found out I had mono
Secret 2: It's led to me losing heaps of weight and now my boobs aren't the same size as each other
True story.
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[13 Nov 2006|04:49pm] |
asdfjnasdf.
jessica™ do you know you're unlike any other, you'll always be my thunder.
boy: i'll always be your thunder, eh? <3
me: lol.
secret; it's not about him.
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[13 Nov 2006|04:55pm] |
no pic. sorry.
tomorrow is 50's-80's flashback dat at school.
i am terrified of hippies.
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[13 Nov 2006|04:57pm] |
i constantly try to completely deny
the fact that you're lying to me.
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[13 Nov 2006|05:01pm] |
i accuse all of my friends of lying to me.
but really i'm insecure about all of the lies i've told.
yeah, that makes no sense.
i know.
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[13 Nov 2006|05:28pm] |
no matter how self-centered it makes me sound
i honestly think everyone should worship me.
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[13 Nov 2006|06:28pm] |
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I Like That You Can't Take That Away from Me - Eric B. & Rakim, Jae Millz, June Christy & Mashonda |
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[the picture = my attempt at an emo picture. Just looks way canadian scene or something.]
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[13 Nov 2006|06:55pm] |
i guess that's why i love it so much when someone just tells me outright that they don't hate me
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[13 Nov 2006|07:48pm] |
I hate your poetry.
I think it's low quality and disgusting.
I also think that anybody who likes it or claims to like it is one of the biggest idiots who ever lived.
YOU SUCK AT WRITING. YOU THINK YOU'RE SO AWESOME. NO MATTER HOW ARROGANT I MAY SOUND, I KNOW I'M BETTER THAN YOU, BITCH.
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[13 Nov 2006|07:54pm] |
i wish i still had photoshop :[
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[13 Nov 2006|07:55pm] |
If we ever dated I think I would keep it a secret because I know all the shit I would have to put up with just because your black and Im white....not to mention my parents would FREAK
Thats PART of the reason I wont date you now...
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[13 Nov 2006|08:03pm] |
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[13 Nov 2006|08:26pm] |
I can't decide if I love the scene hair,
or if I think it makes the scene kids' heads look like skunks.
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[13 Nov 2006|08:33pm] |
I may be getting back with a boy that i went out with for two years. it's going to be 8 months in two days since we broke up.
my mom hates this boy.
but i can't be misrible any more
i can't be empty any more
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[13 Nov 2006|08:50pm] |
I'm not doing this because of him,
i'm doing it because i need it.
i need to be able to feel 110% confident in myself.
i just hope him liking me will be a perk.
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[13 Nov 2006|09:28pm] |
Im really in love with you
& i think you might be the guy who is gonna save me.
But i dont know if theres a chance that i will ever be your girlfriend.
I dont know how to get you. Talkings not enough
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[13 Nov 2006|10:16pm] |
i'm so anxious and worried i can't sleep.
it's not over a boy or something along thoes lines.
it's even more stupid.
The Color Guard Commander for my JROTC team hasn't taught me colors reverse yet.
i nee to know it for a huge competition on Saturday, in which i am commanding the un armed color guard.
ughhh.
[if you dont know what it is, JROTC is Junior Reserve Office Training Corps, color guard is just about 4 people walking and stuff in a line with 2 flags and 2 fake riffles. except un armed is without riffles.]
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[13 Nov 2006|10:25pm] |
If you can't read it let me know.
I don't like running drills...and that's 90% of softball...
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[13 Nov 2006|10:25pm] |
couldn't find the right image:
i think if i tell him about the rape
he would try harder to come back to me.
i want him to know how badly i need him
to keep me safe.
he is the only boy who i've
ever loved, and he never even tried to do anything
with me, even if he had to move back to scotland,
he didn't want me to think he was using me, or rush things.
when we finally see eachother again,
i'm scared i won't be able to be intimate
with him after this happined..
i don't know how to tell him
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[13 Nov 2006|11:42pm] |
i want sex
ALL
THE TIME.
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[13 Nov 2006|11:56pm] |
im going on birth control this week and
im scared of blood clots
and heart attack
and of having a stroke
and gaining weight
but i'd rather have that then a baby.
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