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[03 Nov 2006|12:09am] |
I wish I could tell you.
But I know that you'd judge me.
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i wish all boys were like my brother...
and not like the boy who's breaking my heart.
tomorrow is our nine months... i doubt he'll show.
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[03 Nov 2006|08:36am] |
you take everything out of me
im fucking exahsted
i need to hang out with my friends more
he's taking over my life
i thought i'd like being someones obsession
but its getting out of hand
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[03 Nov 2006|12:49pm] |
screen-name: and im not gunna be fake and say u can rely on me 100% of the time cuz i have so many problems of my own i cant deal with, but im willing to lend an ear and try to help
i need you so much right now. and i'm trying so hard. what happened to the person i could tell ANYTHING. i can't even look you in the eyes anymore.
and i don't wanna live without him. literally. and i hate myself for that.
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[03 Nov 2006|01:22pm] |
I'm scared.
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[03 Nov 2006|03:59pm] |
i feel like killing my self right now.
-now im not looking for all these people to comment me saying how stupid i am.
-i dont think im going to do it.
-but i want to.
-so keep your rude comments in your mouth.
-and shut up.
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[03 Nov 2006|05:21pm] |
I dread when people ask me what I'm doing for the weekend.
Because I hate having to admit that I have nothing better to do
Than go to my 12 year old sister's softball games
Even though they're really really fun to watch.
I just wish I had a social life.
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[03 Nov 2006|05:57pm] |
stop pretending we're still best friends.
you know we're not.
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[03 Nov 2006|06:39pm] |
[sorry,
no picture]
secret:
i wish he would just ask me out
he knows i like him,
what the hell is taking him so long?!
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[03 Nov 2006|07:09pm] |
For a while I haven't shown saddness or weakness.
Everybody has seen me has this happy kid
and kids tell me their proud how I stuck to my beliefs
But tonight I just let it all loose and cried.
It felt good but uncontrollable and I couldn't stop.
I realized I missed coming home and talking to people on AIM.
that weren't just internet friends whom I've never met [Ily though annie :D].
I miss having someone, ANYONE, to call when I was bored or had a rough day.
I miss getting a phone call from you just to talk.
I miss having sleepovers and telling everyone my exciting boy stories and secrets.
I miss going out on weekends and not being on MySpace all night.
I miss having a best friend and all the memories that I've now forgotten.
I don't like the fact that the pictures in my room are of my old house, and no friends expect my friend miles away.
I miss having a few good friends to call if I wanted to go shopping or the movies, now I live a life where I feel the group of kids I hang out with accept me because they feel bad for me & losing my best friends, & they've admitted talking about how they pity me.
I really do miss it.
And if for some odd reason you aren't
having fun with your new friends Kelly,
my life really hasn't been remotely the same
or happy since I've lost you as a friend.
That fucking "best friend" bull shit you wrote in my card
and how you missed hanging out with me obviously was just pity.
Thanks for the wasted 6 years of being my best friend,
just to change it all for some new potheads who
can take you out to have "a real good time"
and waste your fucking life away to boys who honestly
don't give a shit about you and girls that will backstab you.
It's really too FUCKING bad.
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[03 Nov 2006|07:28pm] |
'I'm better looking & a better kisser than you.
But those were your ex-boyfriend's words, not mine'
that sounds really bitchy, but I guess I'm just jealous.
She's always the one with a boyfriend, and she shines in everything she does.
We've been friends since 1st grade and I love her to death, but it's just comforting to know that for once, a guy would say those things to me instead of her.
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[03 Nov 2006|10:20pm] |
Why am I not over you?
You were such a jerk to me towards the end.
You're in another fucking country and you will be FOREVER.
I saw someone who I thought was you the other day
And completely flipped out.
Like heart in throat, sweaty palms flipped out.
If it had been you I don't know what I would have done.
((Stolen from lj))
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[03 Nov 2006|10:28pm] |
please don't lecture me on abortion or using a condom.
we did use one. it broke.
hop off
haha
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