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[31 Oct 2006|12:12am] |
i miss my dad.
i am super hungry.
i can't keep food down.
i dont want to go to sleep.
i have to wake up really early.
i hate college.
i feel insecure lately.
i don't know where i belong.
i just need time alone.
i hate the world today.
i don't like not trusting friends.
i don't understand people.
i hate people who aren't nice.
i wish everyone would get along.
i hate songs that remind me of people i miss.
i need a vacation.
i think that would be nice.
i would love to go to california.
i like typing random thoughts that i need to get out.
i think my head is to full.
i don't like not being able to shut up my brain.
i am very sad.
i feel like i am all alone.
i want to be in love.
i don't know about this life anymore.
i want a new one.
i need a change. a big one.
i need to get my act together.
i just don't know.
i think i've had enough.
i love you, always.
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[31 Oct 2006|05:14pm] |
We're off to see the clinic, the wonderful clinic of Oz.
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[31 Oct 2006|08:25pm] |
everytime he lets me down, i tell him it's okay.
SECRET: it's been 2 months since he last let me down. i'm still crying over it.
REAL SECRET: he's worth every tear.
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[31 Oct 2006|08:30pm] |
11. If I died, would you be wishing you told me something that you haven't already told me?
um thanks for listening to me being psychotic? idk i think you know quite enough lol
TRUTH: oh and i would give up. literally everything. just to be your girlfriend.
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| homeless man arrested for repeat coat-stealing, arm-severing offenses |
[31 Oct 2006|08:33pm] |
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[31 Oct 2006|08:54pm] |
I mean like, every second of every day, in every class.
I imagine fucking all the guys in the room even if they're not the least bit attractive in looks or personality.
I go over every detail in my mind again and again.
I'm obsessed!
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[31 Oct 2006|08:59pm] |
"I want to help you but I don't know how.
I'm terrified you're going to end up killing yourself before you turn 18.
Please hold on."
...I don't know what to do.
He can't take care of himself, let alone taking care of himself and me.
And we're not even dating.
But this leaves me in an awkward position: Do I help him through his depression and suicidal thoughts, or just turn around and walk away?
It will be easier to leave now than it will be 3 months from now when I'm in too deep.
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[31 Oct 2006|09:55pm] |
![](http://i9.tinypic.com/48drwax.jpg")
I don't know who made this, but it's all too true. Everytime I hear some little kid say this is their favorite book, I assume they haven't read any others. Well, besides the few school forces them to, or the Dr. Seuss books they learned to read with.
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[31 Oct 2006|10:08pm] |
My whole playlist pretty much revolves around you
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[31 Oct 2006|10:16pm] |
So I went trick-or-treating with some of my friends tonight
& we met some guys & we were chilling with them.....
The only reason I hooked up with him was because he reminded me of my ex.
Everything he said & did... It was like the first night I met my ex.
I know it's horrible but the whole night I kept picturing him as my ex. /=
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[31 Oct 2006|10:58pm] |
first post.
no picture.
i'm extremely inexperienced.
i can't look at him without seeing you.
i can't imagine being with him because of you.
i can't get over you.
i can't like him as much as i ever did you.
not even close.
and sometimes i think i'm just trying to make you jealous by being with him.
but when im with him it's different.
except for tonight.
"why can't he be more like tyler?"
yeah, that's all i asked myself.
fuck you for meaning the world to me.
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