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[17 Oct 2006|12:19pm] |
i'm lying when i say i'm "better off alone."
i'm really fucking sick of being the only one without someone.
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[17 Oct 2006|06:12pm] |
My dad found all that stuff in my room about 2/3 weeks ago.
He grounded me. I promised I would never touch the stuff. Well Coke anyways.
Today I found a baggy filled with about 5 small lines worth in my room.
I didn't even think about it I did them. & I also found some Adderalls. Took them as well.
All day I thought about everything & everything.
I even told my friend "I need to get closer to god." I have never said that before.
She stared at me shocked. I looked at her shocked.
I couldn't believe the words that had left my mouth.
But maybe that is what I need.
When my dad gets home I want to tell him that I broke my promise to him.
But I don't know if I should /=
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[17 Oct 2006|08:34pm] |
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I didn't realize what I had until I lost him.
He found out everything I did behind his back.
He hates me & will never talk to me again.
I'm so jealous of his new girlfriend.
Why did I have to ruin it with the one person I truly cared for.
It's been a month, why am I still not over it?
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[17 Oct 2006|09:12pm] |
i have boring secrets.
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[17 Oct 2006|11:16pm] |
i'm lucky.
i'm pretty much perfect.
and i'm not the only one who knows it.
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