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[12 Oct 2006|07:31am] |
I'm in deep shit
But the cause is the only source of my sanity.
( Read more... )
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[12 Oct 2006|08:48am] |
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Go Tigers! |
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[12 Oct 2006|10:49am] |
I can't wait to live together.
I'm tired of having to worry
about roommates and parents.
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[12 Oct 2006|01:27pm] |
i hate how he does , like the world is all about him.
Like, whats wrong? is it me? ( you can hear him think 'it must be me')
Yes asshole, for once, its you. i hate you.
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| No pic I'm mostly venting out of PMSness |
[12 Oct 2006|04:20pm] |
I've had 2 grandparents, an aunt and 4 friends die because of suicide. 4 because of cancer. I've had relations with lots of people who are dead now. Alltogether I knew about 17 people personally that are dead now.
After I found out my grandpa killed himself, I am no longer afraid of death. I'm no longer afraid if how I'm going to die, when I'm going to die, or not leading a complete life. Sometimes I feel that I'm just biding my time here on Earth until it's my time to die.
The secret part of this long message: It gets lonely down here. I'm not sure what the point is anymore, eventually I'll be dead and nothing I have done will matter. All I wanted to do was get rich and give all my money away to save the starving kids in Africa and the rainforrests. Boy was I naiive.
(No this is not suicidal I'M JUST PMSING LIKE HELL MAKE IT STOP!)
Okay done.
(And to a few certain people, no I am NOT fucking bragging about how many people I've had in my life die, that's stupid to even think I would EVER think like that)
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[12 Oct 2006|06:10pm] |
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[12 Oct 2006|07:28pm] |
I say I hate you more times then I can count. But I don't. I love you. I really wish you didn't move in with her. I need you. SHE'S the reason I never see you. It kills me. We all knew the divorce was coming.. but why did you break our plans to move to the mountains? I thought I'd have more you and me time. But we didnt even get a chance.
I miss being daddys little girl.
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[12 Oct 2006|08:09pm] |
sad... but true....
i feel like a bad person lol
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[12 Oct 2006|09:38pm] |
i've glanced at a couple of people using the word "hypocrite" kind of often here.
"i think im a hypocrite ... most of the time."
(sorry if the picture doesn't really make sense)
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[12 Oct 2006|10:22pm] |
I am an addict, and I still hurt myself.
My life isn't all that horrible. It's just lonely.
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