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I kinda miss my depression. Not that i liked being depressed, but the way i thought about things back then.. makes me want to go back now.
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Jan 25th, 12 @ 9pm ] |
My best friend from high school and I haven't spoken in like 2 years. And since a month or so, I see her almost every day, but we're still not on speaking terms.. Although I'm very mad, and kinda sad cause she ditched me, I wish she would say something, or even smile at me..
Tomorrow is my birthday, and I wish that when I see her, she's gonna smile, just so I can see that nothing's changed, and she didn't forget me..
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Aug 17th, 11 @ 11pm ] |
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Secret? I still love this page after about four years of using it...somehow still don't know any of you by name.
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Jul 19th, 11 @ 12am ] |
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I still think about my ex. A lot. We broke up in October. And I wonder if I could've done things differently and made it work. Now I can't seem to care about anyone at all, even the people who treat me like I am the best person they ever met.
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Jan 31st, 11 @ 11pm ] |
I know you are planning to do this soon. You are a horrible liar and I can read you like a book. Just so you know? I don't care about the dress or where we live, just as long as I'm your wife. I'd marry you tomorrow in the basement of my house, and live in a trailer park with you if it meant having you as my husband for the rest of my life. Cause even though we ain't got money, I'm so in love with you honey.
Everything will bring a chain of love. In the morning when I rise, you bring a tear of joy to my eyes
and tell me everything's gonna be alright. ♥
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Dec 2nd, 10 @ 12pm ] |
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I just need someone to talk to.
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Nov 29th, 10 @ 9pm ] |
It's been three years. Winter still brings back memories of you.
I can remember so vividly this night the middle of December at two in the morning and you without your clothes on blushing in the dark and me with my camera in hand, hoping you didn't hear the shaking in my voice. Both of us trying so hard to act professional. I was already in love with you by this time.
Or the night that the stars fell, sitting in your truck shivering but not because we were cold. The night I thought you loved me too.
I remember how cold your house was while we were between your sheets. Just one night.
I gave you my all and you held back, you waited, you wanted to entertain other options, you wanted me to wait.
A marriage, a baby, and 3 years later, I still regret not wanting to be your second choice. I deserved to be your first choice and you fucked up. I hope you know that it's your fault. And I hope it bothers you. You don't deserve me.
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Nov 28th, 10 @ 5pm ] |
Rated 0 the beginning is part of a monolouge from the movie "Beautiful Girls" here are those:
a beautiful girl can make you dizzy, like you've been drinking jack and coke all morning.
she can make you feel high,
full of the single greatest commodity known to man --
promise.
promise of a better day.
promise of a greater hope.
promise of a new tomorrow.
this particular aura...
can be found in the gait of a beautiful girl.
in her smile
in her soul
the way she makes every rotten little thing about life
seem like it's gonna to be okay.
I know love can make you do crazy things. what im considering doing is pretty crazy. I'm nervous.
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Nov 15th, 10 @ 3am ] |
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I just got out of a 2 1/2 year relationship and have basically had a boyfriend since I was 13. I feel like I have missed out on so much stuff and it kinda makes me feel like I should just go wild. I know I'd be disgusted with myself but I can't help thinking I should just sleep around for a little bit so that when I do finally settle down again I'll know that I truly went out there and did whatever I wanted for a few months.
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Nov 14th, 10 @ 2pm ] |
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It's not a secret that our actions affect others.
And it is not a secret that taunting and tormenting,
Pushed her too far beyong her limit.
A life cut way too short.
WAKE UP and change.
Selfish, thoughtless actions... spread like a disease.
Wake up.
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Oct 15th, 10 @ 8pm ] |
I can't explain the anticipation I felt leading up to going away to college. I was excited to start over and meet new people. Now I'm here, and it isn't what I expected. I've never been one to put myself out there, and my friends are people I just happen to have crossed paths with in life. Crossing paths in college is not easy, especially when the majority of people I've met just don't seem to really "get it". Part of me feels like I would rather be out exploring and seeing all there is to see in this beautiful world, but society says that I need to further my education. I know that education is important, in fact I want to teach later in life, but I wish I could just get lost in the world of literature and nature to learn for a while.
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Aug 19th, 10 @ 2pm ] |
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I really just wish someone would tell me I look beautiful today.
Ignore the scars, the gaunt face and rings under my eyes.
Just tell me I'm beautiful, on the inside at least.
(Secret: I really wish my husband would, most of all... Please make me feel like you used to...)
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Aug 15th, 10 @ 12am ] |
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The things you know about me I don't feel like I could tell you now. Time should have strengthened us, not divided us.
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Jul 29th, 10 @ 5am ] |
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I'm not calling you a liar,
Just don't lie to me.
I'm not calling you a thief,
Just don't steal from me,
I'm not calling you a ghost,
Just stop haunting me,
And i'll love you so much,
I'm gonna let you,
Kill me.
I haven't talked to you in almost a year. And who the fuck do I see across the college auditorium, but YOU. After 4 years of us not going to school, we both decide to go to college at the same damn time. We're still linked. I decided to to go to school on a complete whim. I was going to wait until the spring term, but decided, "well, why wait...let's take a bite out of life!" It annoys me that you're there, yet a bigger part of me is hoping maybe this will heal the big bad wound and reunite us as friends again. Seeing you every day now is going to turn that knife just a little deeper. I have safely avoided seeing you for almost a year...and now I'm going to have to deal with the constant possiblility of seeing you every day.
What will this new chapter bring to my life? Maybe you. Maybe a resolution? Closure? A new beginning? I suppose we'll find out now, won't we?
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Jul 4th, 10 @ 1pm ] |
i recently found out my "best" friend has been taking oxycotin for a year and is trying to sober up.
i feel terrible about it, but i really don't care anymore. i've dropped everything in my life for her so many times for 10 years and i'm done helping her if she won't help herself. i hear the same thing from her every time. while i hope that she is serious now and will finally stick with it, i'm sick of dropping everything for her every time this happens. and i know that this makes me sound like a selfish bitch, but i don't care.
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May 24th, 10 @ 11pm ] |
Recently my best friend and her boyfriend broke up, and it was bad. He cheated. A lot. (He plays basketball for a Division school)
I decided to set her up with a friend of mine, just to take her out and make her feel good.
They now like each other.
The bad thing is, I have feelings for him.
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May 17th, 10 @ 3pm ] |
When you were wasted Saturday you told me you love you.
I blame the alcohol.
I wish it were true.
Tell me it's true.
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May 11th, 10 @ 10pm ] |
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secret: I miss my boyfriend all the time.
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May 2nd, 10 @ 3pm ] |
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You've broken me.
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The reason why it hurt so bad when you didn't tell me you had a girlfriend wasn't because I was in love with you or some shit like that. I mean, I was in love with you, but it wasn't the entire reason.
It was because I put more trust in you than anybody. You were my only means of support during one of the worst times of my life. My other friends couldn't understand, my mother could barely get out of bed, my father wouldn't talk about it, my sister was in another country and my brother was the source of pain. You had been there. You asked me how I felt. I didn't have to sugarcoat anything for you. I did the same for you when you had your own troubles. I thought there were no secrets between us. You were my best friend. Even though we weren't hanging out everyday, you were the one person I felt 100% comfortable around. I felt safe with you.
So for you to keep a secret from me--a rather big secret, when you think about it, one that I found out about through fucking facebook, no less--really fucking hurt. You broke my heart. When I ran into you the day word got about you and your new girl (9/4/08,) when I ran into you in the quad, your eyes went from my face to the ground in under thirty seconds. That hurt me so much, I cut class, went back to my apartment and cried my eyes out. Your actions didn't help, either. You went from not being able to look at me to telling me you loved me as you kissed my neck to telling me you weren't one to judge break ups to telling me I absolutely had to meet her in under a month just about killed me. I was a wreck. Then, second semester? We could barely hold a fucking conversation whenever we saw each other. I hated you for that. I hated that you went and changed everything. Why the fuck couldn't you just tell me? If you had just been some stupid schoolgirl crush object of mine, I would have been able to let go. But since there was a friendship involved, I was angry. And clearly, I still am.
I wish I could tell you this to your face. I wish we had gotten the chance to talk about this before I moved.
Now...I don't think we will.
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