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May 11th, 08 @ 2pm ] |
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It says:
"This was the last time we
talked before he dumped me for
the "other girl" secretly...
Even though he treated me like
shit the whole time we were together
and all my friends thought that I
deserved better, I still love him...
Help me?"
I don't know what to do.
After a whole year of being together and loving each other unconditionally, he leaves me for another girl and doesn't think another thought about it. Of course, I'm heartbroken and I feel like I'm never going to get over [I know I will eventually], but I just want to know how he could just so easily replace me after a year of being together and loving each other.
TO HIM [even though he isn't reading this]:
"How did you just get over me and find another girl to replace me? How did you stop caring for me after a year of being together and loving each other unconditionally? Please just answer me that so I can move on too."
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May 10th, 08 @ 1pm ] |
He talks about me like I'm a godess.
Truth is, I'm in love with someone else, and always will be.
I'm going to try and give him my heart, even though I'm completely in love with another boy.
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May 10th, 08 @ 2am ] |
i am the horniest girl in the entire world.
and i'm a virgin.
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May 9th, 08 @ 5pm ] |
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May 9th, 08 @ 12am ] |
I can't stop.
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May 8th, 08 @ 9pm ] |
SECRET?
I WANT HIM BACK MORE THAN ANYTHING.
and i cant tell my friends, because they would be pissed.
BUT I DONT CARE.
.... i need cute ideas to do something to show him i care.
ANY IDEAS?
anything & everything.
IM DETERMINED!
i'd love you guys forever TOOO
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May 8th, 08 @ 10pm ] |
recently, i've developed a "thing" for one of my brother's close friends (my brother is clueless) and i know he likes me back.
we're becoming friends with benefits, but the only problem is he's always at my fucking house!
when i go to bed, he's there.
when i get home from school, he's there.
when i get home from work, he's there.
it's convenient and all, but it gets so tiring! i feel like i have to look cute at all the time.
i find myself putting on makeup at midnight.
and i mean, shit, if i can't look gross in my own house where the hell can i look gross?
it's so stressful!
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May 7th, 08 @ 8pm ] |
tonight at dinner I mentioned to my mom that I should probably start going to the gyno, I mean I'm seventeen and she said, "Oh no sweetie, you only do that when you're sexually active... you won't have to go for a while."
I tried to tell her I wasn't a virgin and she gave me this look like I was making it up.
I don't know why it fucking bothers me so much that she assumes I don't have sex.
Like I'm not attractive enough for guys to fuck.
It also still bothers me that freshman year she thought I was gay, even though I had no indications that I liked women.
so I guess, here's my "secret":
I'M NOT FUCKING GAY AND I HAVE SEX (WITH GUYS!) AND IT PISSES ME OFF THAT YOU THINK I'M TOO UGLY TO HAVE SEX.
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May 5th, 08 @ 2am ] |
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May 4th, 08 @ 1pm ] |
which is saying a lot.
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May 4th, 08 @ 2pm ] |
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Right before this picture was the first time my father ever told me he was proud of me.
It breaks my heart every time I look at this picture, now.
[This is also the only picture I have with him.]
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May 4th, 08 @ 11am ] |
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May 1st, 08 @ 1am ] |
I am a size 11...and my finace has a 30 in waist.
Truth be told....I've never felt sexier.
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Apr 29th, 08 @ 3pm ] |
i need advice. or comfort. just something.
me and this guy had been talking since the beginning of summer. we both liked each other and we hooked up a lot, but we have had our rough times...we always worked them out and "got back together" (we never actually officially dated) we might have well been together though. so we had sex for the first time a little over a month ago. and then we had done it again a few weeks later.
we lost our virginity to each other, which was a big deal for him, even though he said he didn't love me. i care about him so freaking much it blows me away. i've never felt like that before, but i don't know if i love him.
we're currently not speaking because we got in a fight about how he never sees me and "he can't like a girl he doesn't see for weeks at a time" and so he basically stopped talking to me. and it kills me. i won't admit it to anybody. but i'm completely dying inside. i never realized how much i needed him. i feel like we're over for good..it's never gotten this bad. we haven't spoken for about two weeks.
for about a week now i've been having these awful nightmares about him being killed or dying. i get woken out of my sleep right after he is killed crying or screaming. i have no idea why, but lately i'm just so afraid of something happening to him. i guess i can't stand the thought of us possibly ending like this forever.
these nightmares are the worst i've had in a really long time, they're so graphic and disturbing. i just don't know what to do with myself.
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Apr 29th, 08 @ 8am ] |
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Everytime people ask what I have been doing since graduating 2 years ago, I lie.
I'm sick of either being lectured: "OMG...YOU'RE SO SMART. YOU SHOULD BE IN SCHOOL...DON'T WASTE YOUR INTELLIGENCE DOING NOTHING AND BLAH AND BLAH BLAH AND BLAH!"
OR...I get (which is even worse) this disapproving stare or this look of sympathy after I tell them the reasons I'm not doing school.
(Family and financial issues that are pretty important).
I hate those looks and I hate explaining why I'm not doing or doing something.
I'm fucking grown. I'm 20.
I don't answer to no one and I've finally decided not to.
It's none of their business what's going on in my family.
Even my eye doctor lectured me.
It was one of the most awkward and pathetic 20 minutes of my life moments in my life.
It's easy for him to say how important school is to my future...
He's not sick.
His spouse isn't dead.
Money isn't tight.
Family isn't dysfunctional.
Unemployment.
Teen pregnancy.
Drugs.
Bulimia.
Constant drama.
All issues going on in my 8 member family.
It's just so GODDAMN easy for someone on the outside to try and tell you what you need to do...the right thing to do.
Sometimes the right thing to do ISN'T exactly right for you.
School isn't going anywhere. I need to be with my family.
After this fucked up year, I need to be here...
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Apr 29th, 08 @ 12am ] |
my best guy friend, of like 4 years and i kissed like a 2 months ago. we went on like nothing happened.. but i get this vibe from him, all the time.. he tells me he loves me, calls me just to say i love you... he flat out treats me better than my own boyfriend of a year.. Every time my boyfriend and i have a problem, he is there to tell me that i am so much better..
Since that night we kissed, he has been on my mind.. He has a rough past with girls, hes never "loved" a girl.. Everyone says i could be the one to change him ... and i think i want to be the one..
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Apr 28th, 08 @ 9pm ] |
i'm forgetting how it feels to be held :-/
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Apr 28th, 08 @ 4pm ] |
I WANT TO
i have herpes. i'm not a slut or a whore.
my exboyfriend chose not to tell me before we
started a sexual relationship and it sucks.
i have an incurable virus.
my current boyfriend new before we were dating
and we are responsible about it.
he told his fraternity president in confidence
(which i am still mad at him for)
and the president announced it to the
entire fraternity sunday...
i went to eat at a resturant last night and they showed up
and were screaming about it.
i acted like it didnt bother me and the people
i was with didn't hear but it HURTS.
i didnt do anything to deserve it.
i try to not let it ruin my life and
as soon as i start accepting it this happens.
not everyone who has it is nasty
not everyone who has it has had multiple partners
i'm tired of the social stigma for a virus that is the
same as cold sores and the chicken pox!!!!
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Apr 24th, 08 @ 11pm ] |
Take me to a mountain top and let me scream at the top of my lungs!
All this pain, regret, happiness, sadness is building up faster and faster.
I am going to explode.
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Apr 24th, 08 @ 10pm ] |
"fwd: promise me that no matter where life takes us swear we'll always be tight..Send this to 10 people including me or lose someone tonight.."
after not talking to you for 3 months, trying to move on with my life without you, and thinking there was no hope for our friendship, you send me this tonight. as much as i want to be mad at you for how you handled things and kicked me to the curb, i'm so happy to know that you still care..
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