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| 12:54pm 05/11/2005 | |||
| OMG! I haven't updated this in forever! I remembered I had one of these when I was typing random things in Google and I saw my user pic! LOL.... I'm retarded, I know. I was actually trying to find a Jets picture. | |||
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| Friends Only! | ||||
| 08:09pm 08/12/2003 | ||||
People have been finding the links therefore.......... my journal is now Friends Only or private or whatever you want to call it. Just for me to vent in.... have a nice day! :)  PS: If you wanna be added just comment. |
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bouncy| had to include this..... | ||||
| 09:09pm 05/11/2003 | ||||
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crazy| Damn thoughts! | ||||
| 12:11am 03/09/2003 | ||||
Yesterday I was talkin to my friend Yasser, and wow, a lotta stuff he said really made sense! It's scary! haha.... he's like my older mentor. No, but seriously, he enlightened me! I was saving the convo to post it in one of my journals but I accidentally deleted it! :\ hmph! Today sucked, like always. Eddie made me feel stupid in 6th, it's ok :P We took a quiz in 1st period, which was ridiculously easy! W/e I'm trying not to think about it and surprisingly enough, I'm not dwelling on it. I barely remember anything that happened this summer or any other time i spent with henry. It helps, I don't miss him as much. It's better this way. It's better if I just end it here and never show up to Vegas again. That way, nothing has to be said and it will be implied that w/e we ever had is over now. Yea, I should do now what I should have done a long time ago(not go back and just left it as it was). I have this really bad feeling that he's gonna hurt me(if he already hasn't). And, I can't trust him. I honestly can't. It's so hard, because I'm with him, and I feel like I'm whipped, like I like him more than he likes me(and i HATE feeling like that! It sould be the other way around). I feel like I'm contradicting myself, I dunno, it's weird, haha! Like.... I tell myself to be careful with him and not trust him, but when he's with me it's bliss, and I DO believe everything he says, but then I start to think about it and grrrrr it pisses me off. God, why can't he be more honest? Why is he so selfish? It's not that I'm jealous or obsessive(I'm not!) but ok going out with his ex to the Paris parties is just crossing the line! I can't trust him......AT ALL. And, it makes me feel horrible, because I'm there with him and I'm so happy but at the same time I'm paranoid and scared, and that makes me feel blah, and he's noticed, once in a while he'd say "You aren't happy, why?" and I would just shrug it off. Forget it.... writing about it makes me think. I'm off to watch tv. |
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depressed| Hi, I'm Lissy | ||||
| 02:25am 01/08/2003 | ||||
One that NO one knows about, well no one that knows me personally I hope. Heh... I could have been sleeping by now, but I decided to stay awake and wait for Henry to come online. I'm scared of feeling this way towards someone and not having them with me. Great.... the guy I have cared the most for and he lives half a country away! I just signed on MSN and he's not there :( I'm scared... I'm scared that he'll find someone new in Las Vegas and he'll forget about me(just like Peter did), and I know he can because it happened last time we spent so many months apart. GRRR! Thinking about that stupid girl juleamy, or however her reffy named is spelled, pisses me off. BITCH! God I DISlike her(a LOT) bitch, swearing she's all hot and stuff, well guess what u aren't! UR a fat little bitch with curly hair and braces! |
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