| "It causes her pain...that's part of the charm." LB | ||||
| 08:15pm 22/09/2003 | ||||
She slips down the shade And lets herself drown..." - Lindsey Buckingham |
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sleepy| "And the summer became the fall...I was not ready for the winter" SN | ||||
| 08:11pm 22/09/2003 | ||||
It kills me by just thinking about having to go to school tomorrow... |
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okay| "A black widow spider makes more sound than she..." SN | ||||
| 11:04pm 19/09/2003 | ||||
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pissed off| "Don't turn away I'm listening...Over and over again..." | ||||
| 09:49pm 18/09/2003 | ||||
When will I ever be really happy...? My life is just a number of questions that never have any answers. Oh well... "Imagine all the ways to cope, I close my eyes..that gives me hope. It cures the silence..." Stevie Nicks - Everyday |
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depressed| "In a flood of tears...That no one ever really heard fall at all." SN | ||||
| 04:09pm 17/09/2003 | ||||
Mr.Trobaugh's band sang "Stop Draggin' My Heart Around" at the end..so that made me happy, heh. Today was the powderpuff football game and the boys cheerleading thing. Never, ever wear a black shirt when you are going to be outside. Omg...it's terrible. But yeah...that wasn't loads of fun either. I think I'm just getting to the point where I get bored veeeery easily. Oh well... Courtney's moving out, too. Now the only problem I have is with rides to school...I'm sure Peter will still take me untill Maegan turns 16 in November though. If not, maybe I can get Candace to take me in the moring. I don't know.... Okay, well..I'll type more in here later I guess. I'm going to find something to do... |
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grumpy| "You can consume all the beauty in the room, baby..." SN | ||||
| 04:52pm 16/09/2003 | ||||
But Lindsey's wife, Kristen, was there...blah. So no interaction with Stevie. But towards the end of the taping, Lindsey and Stevie took requests. Someone shouted out "Frozen Love" and Stevie sang a line from the song..."You may not be as strong as me. And I may care not to teach you" Then she said, "Sorry, that's all I remember" I bet Stevie would have suddenly remembered the song if Kristen wasn't in there...Heh oh well, I would have been AWESOME if they would have sang it though because they probably haven't sang that song since 1974. Someone shouted out "Holiday Road" and Lindsey just laughed..lol Damn, I need to see them in concert again... I told my mom that if Fleetwood Mac or Stevie Nicks were touring when I turn 16, then I'm going to go to a lot of shows..she just laughed. And then I told her I was dead serious, and that I wasn't kidding. She said okay...And even if my parents say no, I might need to be a little rebelious and just go anyways.. :) I might end up going by myself to a lot of their shows...I doubt I could get people to just pay the money for a ticket because I just want to go to the show...so, I'll be by myself..heh. Courtney pissed me off sooooo bad this morning. Today I wore my red "The Used" shirt...and I went to ask her for my red belt because I let her wear for tacky day yesterday. And she said "Umm..I kind of let someone borrow it." And I just stood there thinking "What the fuck..." And she said "Yeah, I'll try to get it back as soon as I can." I just left after she said that... She's nice and all, but I'll be honest...then only thing I like about her being here is that she can drive me to school in the morning. |
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frustrated| "I am something of a dreamer..." SN | ||||
| 04:24pm 15/09/2003 | ||||
I am so sick of making these damn necklaces! But hey...I get money. I'm thinking about going to bed now, and waking up around 2:00 or 3:00 in the morning to make necklaces. I think that's what I'm going to do...well, I'm going to try it atleast. I think I'm going to go to Barnes and Noble again this weekend...I want to buy a journal there. I don't like writing as much as I do typing, but I can also bring this everywhere with me, and I can write in it anytime. I think that's what I'm going to do... :) It's homecoming week...thank God! Ugh...now I want a journal to write in now. :) |
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| "And I who went to sleep in tears, woke up in tears..." SN | ||||
| 11:00pm 14/09/2003 | ||||
The game was kind of boring...We went to sonic after the game, then Maegan had to be home soon after the game because they were leaving that night to go camping. So on our way back to my house...Courtney said "What's that big bright thing in the sky?" and I just thought she was being stupid because I couldn't see anything, so I just said "The moon..." And then I saw what she was talking about and there were these bright airplanes in the sky..like 5 of them. She thought they were UFO's...I don't know, it was weird. Saturday..I said around the house and occupied myself till about 5:00, then my parents came home from the tanning place, and we went to Barnes and Noble. I looked around..I got two books, "The American Night" which is a book of poems that Jim Morrison wrote. And "Rumours Exposed" which is just a Fleetwood Mac book, it's okay...all the stuff in there I already know. But it's still interesting to read... When we left the bookstore, we went to Candace's birthday party. I'm glad we weren't there for the whole party...it was pretty boring. When I got home, Jordan called me...so we talked on the phone from 11:00-2:45. Damn...that was a long time. But for the last hour or so, I talked to Andrew on the phone...But yeah, we had some interesting conversations. One was about us buying some flavored lotion, and then we were trying to think of where to put it, and then who was going to lick it off of who. Yeah...very interesting conversations. And then I talked to Andrew on the phone..and I kept on dozing off..And for some reason, he only calls me Bray...not Brey, but Bray. Maybe he's just that country...so then I got off the phone with them and went to sleep... Sunday...I woke up around 10:00, so I missed church. Then I cleaned the kitchen and the living room. I don't get it, but I'd rather clean everyother room in the house that looks like shit, but I wont clean mine. Heh, I don't know why..oh well. I talked to Jordan on the phone again tonight. We both made eachother a deal. I have to burn him a CD of all my music, and he has to burn me a whole CD of his music. And then we have to quiz eachother on it to make sure we both listened to the CD. And if he passes my test..I have to give him a kiss at the football game on Friday. I don't know about that...I'd rather be going out with him when I kiss him, that would be so much...sweeter. I cleaned out Jordan's (my brother..not the other one) old closet. It's a big closet..so I just cleaned it out and now it's my personal "area". I have everything in there now..lol. My comfortable chair..a CD player..layers of blankets on the floor. It looks awesome. And I'm going to write lyrics on the wall and put posters on it if I have enough room for the posters and the lyrics. I need to think of a name for the room though...lol. Because when I came out..Courtney asked where I was this whole time, and I said I just got out of the closet. And it sounded as if I just "came out of the closet"...so I need to think of a name for it. I just thought I could call it "The White Room" lol..I thought of the song, and then I thought that I could write the lyrics or something on the door before you walk in. Yeah, I'm corny, I know... :) Oh shit...I have to wake up at like 5:00 to watch this thing on T.V....So I should probably go to bed soon. Or maybe now...heh. |
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tired| "Your are not happy, but what is love? Hate gave you me for a lover." BN | ||||
| 06:21am 12/09/2003 | ||||
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sad| "Illume...says the candle that I burn." SN | ||||
| 10:45pm 11/09/2003 | ||||
With my thoughts Of how we could make it Of how we could get out What we've been through All of the trauma The smell of Nag Champra Shadow of a stranger I will not take you for granted I wouldn't trade you for jade Or for diamonds Not for one minute Not for anything I need you to be there Just remember when I'm haunted That I was just so scared." - Stevie Nicks My heart goes out to all those people who lost loved ones two years ago on this day... |
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| "Rock on ancient queen...Follow those who pale in your shadow." SN | ||||
| 11:27am 10/09/2003 | ||||
I think I'm going to change my journal around a little bit, too. |
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| "I can still hear you saying you will never break the chain..." FM | ||||
| 08:38pm 09/09/2003 | ||||
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good| "The people...they love her. And still they are most cruel..." SN | ||||
| 11:11pm 07/09/2003 | ||||
I don't like being rebelious because I don't want to get in trouble and I don't want my parents to think bad of me. So..I'm left to follow the rules, and to do my life in a little pattern. Same damn thing..every damn day... And if I'm having too much fun, I feel like I'm doing something wrong...I don't know how to explain it. I don't let people understand me. I don't think any of my friends really know who I am... To me..life goes like this..You live...You die... But here's the thing..I don't want my life to be like that. |
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confused| "Packing up....Shacking up is all you wanna do" LB | ||||
| 11:57pm 05/09/2003 | ||||
She was SOO close!!! TWO points!!! I'm so sorry Jennifer... :'( |
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| "My destiny says that I'm destined to fall..." SN | ||||
| 06:26pm 04/09/2003 | ||||
I know that all sounds corny...but oh well. |
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happy| "The invisible girl...that was my name. She walks in and walks out and I'm sorry now..." SN | ||||
| 10:14pm 03/09/2003 | ||||
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blank| "I can't change the world...and I can't face it." SN | ||||
| 07:35pm 03/09/2003 | ||||
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| "Crying in the morning trying to be strong...Waiting for the spring to turn into fall." SN | ||||
| 04:43pm 03/09/2003 | ||||
Ringo Starr |
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shocked| "Don't forget me...yes I was outspoken." SN | ||||
| 05:14pm 02/09/2003 | ||||
And when I'm not thinking about me dying..I'm thinking about someone in my family dying. Why do I have these thoughts.... Damn this song is so sad... It was I who was The hourglass And the sands of time like Shattering glass went past me -Stevie Nicks But I still love it... |
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scared| "I can't change the world....and I can't face it. " SN | ||||
| 10:05am 01/09/2003 | ||||
heh...It reminded me of Ashley, since she thought that Stevie Nicks was a guy. But Ashley thinking that was funnier... :) But after the movie, we went through Harbor Town...which is a neighborhood in Memphis, like less than a mile from the Pyramid, it's like over looking the river. It's a really nice neighborhood... Sunday...I woke up late, so I didn't go to church... :( My mom, Jordan, and I went tanning...Well not Jordan, he just played with the computer up there. But it's so weird because my mom owns that now...But it's cool because we can go there whenever the hell we want to. And it's good because when I start working up there, they have a computer with AOL on it already (like I'm not online enough) and they're getting a TV with cable on it. I should be occupied. We went to Memphis again last night to look through Harbor Town again. My parents are seriously thinking about buying a house over there...They already picked out what type of model they want. The only thing that's stopping them from buying it is not knowing what the school systems are. They have to call the people up tomorrow (not today since it's a holiday) to find out what the school districts are. I don't really care if I move or not...I just don't want to go to a private school. Private schools are much harder...so that's a no. I don't even know if we will move though, my parents do stuff like this a lot. And plus, my mom and Mrs.Charlotte just bought the tanning place, so I don't know if my mom would want to drive back to Munford a lot. But after that...we went to Beale Street and ate at Elvis Presley's Memphis. Jordan pisses me off so much...He complains like a little bitch the whole time. And he's 13 years old...what the hell... It took a while to get a table because it was crowded. But when we were in the gift shop, he asked me if we could eat somewhere else since he was really hungry and he didn't want to eat. I mean..what the fuck?!? It's my birthday dinner, and he knows my birthday was shitty...so then all he thinks about is himself. He acts like he's 3 years old..I swear.. So now I'm home alone...Everyone else is at the tanning place changing stuff around. And right now, I'd rather be anywhere then with them... School tomorrow.. :( |
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