Alexis' Blurty

God Dammit
Why? That's the worst question of all time. There is almost never an answer to the really important "why?" questions. For instance, there's an answer to why water freezes but no answer as to why do some people suffer while others thrive, or there's an answer as to why computers work but no answer as to why, if God exists, does he let innocent children be abused and raped and killed. Fuck it! I just want to fucking walk! I'm sick of being on crutches and sick of having people do things for me and sick of being isolated. I just want to walk around by myself and see the city or maybe go out to the bars, I even got a yoga tape in anticipation of my recovery. Why can my bones function like everyone elses? Why don't I heal like they do? Why me and not them? Give me an answer where God or religion isn't the answer or reason, or "everyone's different" either...Yeah, I thought not...Fuck it, just FUCK IT!

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Jordan Caress