Alexis' Blurty

I Am Home
So, I'm home. Back to the city, the hussle and bussle and fustration and love and confusion and I acclimate right away and it's because, of course, it is my home. Still, I miss Tewks and all my friends there. I'm so pathetic, I mean, I've been gone for less than 12 hours and I'm already sick to go back. Kristen went to a Tori Amos concert tonight with Joey. I hope she had a good time. Tomorrow she's going with Cate to another, and Raluca's going too, but not with them. I'm not sure if she's going with Anurita or by herself. Oh, let me not be a crazy stalker...I've caught the Sketchy Girl Disease from Cate! Oh NO! *he he he* I wish I could just turn things on and off, like a switch. Ashley's aunt died. The pain and struggle was too much for her and she let go. I feel so selfish, but I don't know if I can deal this. Tomorrow I'm going to comfort Ashley, but what good can I do her? I'm still dealing with my own father's death and I don't want to snap at her. If I knew I was going to die, what would I do? Tell all my friends I love them? Watch my favorite movie? Eat my favorite food? Who would I kiss last? Now I'm just getting depressed and that needs to not happen. Why is my cosmic rubber band snapping?

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Ani DiFranco - You Had Time