Alexis' Blurty

Saturday Night
So, I feel like I should have partied tonight, but the Hip Hop Party sucked so badly. We stayed for a total of 5 minutes and then came home. Page came with Cate and I, but didn't stay to watch "Down To You" with us. Cate and I knew it was cheezy, but it was still fun. Kristen just got on her computer and is writing an email to Lauryn. She misses her so badly and I wish I could help, but there's nothing I can do. How does one replace such an important part of someone's life, a soulmate? You can't! I wish I knew how to make her feel better, but I guess the only think I can really do for her is to listen and to be there for her when she needs it. She's so depressed. It makes me want to cry, and even though I feel sorry for her, on the other hand I wish I had someone that I was so close to that I suffered so. That's a horrible thought, but to have that connection with someone is utterly amazing. I'm almost jealous, but I'm not exactly sure if that's the correct word. I saw Kelly in the Campus Center on my way to the party with Cate and Diya. It was nice to see her. I pulled on her curls and she pulled on mine, it's the way that we crazy curly haired people communicate. I wish that we could just have some time together, just the two of us for an extended period of time. I know that we will, but it's hard to suppress the 3 year old inside of me that screaming for it right now! I'm even frustrated with myself and my own thoughts. Tomorrow is the PC Open House, it'll be my first step in the PC application process. I really hope that I'm a PC next year or at least my Junior year. I kinda want to be that mother figure and help people out. I think that I would be a good PC and a lot of people say the same, but they might just be saying that. I hope that I'm a PC, but if I'm not, it's not really the end of the world. If I'm a PC I don't think I really have to worry about room draw, not that I'm worried about it. I wouldn't mind living in a single in Tewks, I mean, they're huge and my knee will be healed by then. I don't want to be too far from Cate or Diya, but I don't think I could live with them together or Diya at all. It's not that I don't love Diya, I do, but it's plainly obvious that she prefers Cate to me and we would kill each other. There's no one out right now. I look out my window and half expect to see the drunk and stoned rolling around on the lawn, screaming and laughing, but then I remember that it's winter and freezing, and everyone's being crazy in their dorms. Today my heart aches, but not for Kelly or Betsy, for Kristen. With all my heart and soul, I wish I could bring Lauryn back to her.

Current Mood: touched
Current Music: Tori Amos (From Kristen's side of the room)