Alexis' Blurty

Still Unmotivated and Lazy
So, I'm still, as mentioned before, unmotivated and lazy. I didn't write yesterday, I was just too tired when I got home from the theater (I'll get to that later). That's a bad me, bad me! Anyways, I'll get over it. Yesterday afternoon and this afternoon I visited my old high school. As I walked up to the door, my heart was pounding and I was all nervous. It was kinda funny, looking back at it now. It was nice being an alum and walking through the halls. I gave Debbie a picture of me with my volleyball team at Bard. My heart soared when she moved a picture of Sydney to fit me on her board. Debbie put a picture of ME on her board, for people to see. OH, the overwhelming pride! I saw Linda too, which was so lovely. I've missed her. She wasn't only my teacher, but my advisor as well and a good friend. Today she told a whole class of freshmen how much I am missed as a part of the Chorus and musical program (I was the Music Librarian) and how versatile my voice was. I blushed horribly. It was nice to feel missed. I didn't get to see Marie, or talk to Sue, or joke with Denman, or dish with Chris. I have to go back and see everyone. It's so hard to see everyone at once. Golriz, Emma, Richard, Annie and Alex were there, and Addia showed up after I left, but it was hard to see so many people at once. I am more excited that Bobby is coming to Bard next year after talking to him, but I'm pissed as hell that Stephanie Feinman got into Bard. If she comes to my school I will kill her, I hate her. Such a phony little bitch. Anyways, moving on. Last night I went to go see "Hairspray" on Broadway with Ashley. It was great!!! At first, I thought it was going to be disappointing, but it was really good. The music was catchy and fun, the sets were great, the choreography was exciting, plus, I love gay men, especially when they're in drag. I could be Tracy Turnblad, I could totally play that part. I'm chubby, I can dance, I can sing and I'm a complete drama queen! After medical school, we'll see. It was nice going out to the theater and then a quick dinner at The Olive Garden (it was the only thing open that wasn't horribly expensive). Ashley and I have been so stressed out lately, and it was nice to have a night away from everything. Tomorrow night is the party and I'm so nervous. I'm excited also, but nervous. I'm kind of a shy person, though most people don't believe that. Tomorrow is a very busy day, I mean, I have a doctor's appoinment (for my knee) and then I'm getting my hair cut (that's a little secret, I hope Cate doesn't read that before I get to Wisconsin) and the party and I have to pack and clean my room. Craziness. I feel like I've kinda been suppressing my thoughts lately. I miss Kelly and Cate and Diya (and everyone else, of course) so much, some times I don't even know what to do with myself. I miss the hugs the most. I miss feeling squished between my friends and hearing them squeak a little bit, just like I do when I give hugs. I honestly didn't think anyone else did that. But I'll be with Cate soon, not soon enough. I never thought I'd make friends like them. I am truly lucky and I hope that no matter where we are, any of us, we will still be friends. I feel like I'd die without them.

Current Mood: awake
Current Music: Indigo Girls and Hairspray Soundtrack