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Saturday, September 11th, 2004

Subject:say goodbye
Time:8:34 am.
Mood: depressed.
Music:Believe - Yellowcard.
I read all my friends journals and I think, wow, they sure have a lot of important stuff to say. And I go to MY entries and all they are is stuff that I do during the week or the day. Why cant I be imaginative and think of something else to talk about? The only time I ever do that is when Im depressed or mad about something. Why cant I write happy things or just random things I think everyday. Not stupid things but stuff that accually means something to someone. Me particularly. Ive been thinking lately about all my friends and how much they care for me. Why? Why me? Whats so darn special? When Im hanging out with them all I step back and take a look at all the blessings in my life and I still think 'why'. Why would God do all this stuff for me? Ive never done anything for Him. So why give me all this stuff? Yeah I thank him everyday for everything he's ever given me, friends, family, people who genuinly care about me, but to all those people who I 'named', why pick me? Because honestly? I dont see it. I dont see anything in me that is special or any reason why you would want to call me your friend. I have no speical talent. Ciara, youve got basketball and karate. Liz, youve got singing. Chris, youve got the cello. Alyssa, the violin. Greg, any instrument imaginable. What do I have? Nothing. Ive tried in the past. Sports, music. But nothing. I lost my skill for music and I never was good at sports.... so what now?


And to go back to what I usually put in here...: It seems like Im never going to get my permit. Maybe I just wasnt meant to drive. Everything happens for a reason but I want to know what the reason is that I cant get my permit.
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Subject:In Rememberance of 9/11/01
Time:8:49 am.
Mood: thankful.
Music:cant you guess?.
"Again today, we take into our hearts and minds those who perished on this site one year ago, and also those
who came to toil in the rubble to bring order out of chaos, to help us make sense of our despair. The world will
little note, nor long remember what we say here, but it can never forget what they did here."

**Listen closely to 'Believe' by Yellowcard and you'll hear this**


Think about the love inside the strength of heart
Think about the heroes saving life in the dark
Climbing higher through the fire, time was running out
Never knowing you weren't going to be coming down alive
But you still came back for me
You were strong and you believed

Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Be strong. Believe.
Be strong. Believe.

Think about the chance I never had to say
Thank you for giving up your life that day
Never fearing, only hearing voices calling out
Let it all go, the life that you know, just to bring them down alive
And you still came back for me
You were strong and you believed

Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Be strong. Believe.

Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Be strong. Believe.

Wanna hold my wife when I get home
Wanna tell the kids they'll never know how much I love to see them smile
Wanna make a change right here right now
Wanna live a life like you somehow
Wanna make your sacrifice worthwhile

Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Be strong. Believe.

Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Be strong. Believe.

Think about the love inside the strength of heart
Think about the heroes saving life in the dark
Think about the chance I never had to say
Thank you for giving up your life that day


*To all the heros out there who risked or gave up their lives to save others 3 years ago in New York. I pray for you all. You wil never be forgotten. Always in my heart you'll stay.*
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