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	2007.04.23  00.52 GAAHAHHG AHAHHD FGHHAG AGA GAHAAAHAHHH!HH!!!!H HHAL!!! GUESS WHAT?! everyone loves attention! that what. EVERYONE!! THEY LOVE IT!!! WWWWOOAAAHH!!! you should be able to change text size on this crap. i saw evan's play. i saw an awesome mohawk. i saw evan's parents. i saw some hydrogen molecules. metaphorically speaking. actually literally. i guess. hi flora. REMEMBER TO dO YOUR HOUSING CRAP ASA! DOOOOO IIIT!! wanna go on the roof again. tommorra. finished my flash. kinda. unpolished. but i am learning. no thanks to my teacher. darth vader is badass. money is awful when you don't have it, but great when you do... i spilled juice on the floor. sticky floor. rope is good. keep some around. knock knock. who's there? TIME TO GO TO BED!!!!!!

	2007.04.21  22.16 things seem to have lost interest. especially when i'm by myself. nothing seems interesting. video games? blah. internet? blah. anything? blah. i would like to go up on the roof of building 78 right now. but its alot more fun to share with someone. rather than by myself. sharing is fun. also. really really nice weather saps my ability to do work like nothing else. barely did shit today. and i needed too. also i woke up at 2 o'clock today. also, males come in two types maybe. bachelor types and relationship types. i am more of the relationship type methinks. evan made out with a girl last night! go evan! *gong crashes* *post ends*

	2007.04.21  02.44 i have been up for about 52 hours now. it feels funny. i believe i should sleep. i'm scared of how long i might sleep for though. also i don't think i can to sleep yet. i need to wait for evan to get home. to make sure he's all set. tried calling him. no answer. rainbow twizzlers are fucked man. oh and more important than any of this other trivial shit. mother fucking Hot Fuzz. is like. the best movie you have ever seen. it will rock your face off. or at least the second half will. the first part is necessary to set up the second half though. and the second half is apocalyptically funny/badass/most awesome ever. just so you know. and i am reaaaaaaaallllllyyy tired right now... wow. umm... millk? aldkja;lkj;aaaaaaaaaaaa;ja;l

	2007.04.17  21.04 Cream soda is the drink of the gods. its the truth. the eternal debate rages on, cream soda or root beer. but quietly behind the scenes, cream soda has already won. becuase it is better. i love root beer by the way. it's great. but between a really good root beer and a really good cream soda. cream soda wins. every week i allow myself to get one 2 liter of cream soda now that i'm eating healthier. and it's the best part of like, my whole week. it's soooooo good. also, lets explore the tangent of me eating healthier. i'm proud of it. it includes. only buying one bottle of soda per week. instead of 3 or 4. i now drink mostly milk, and some juice. i eat wheat bread now, instead of white. i eat healthier cereal, such as chex instead of fruity pebbles (generic style) for snacks i eat oranges and an apple once in a while instead crackers. the crackers i do have are saltines. which fill in the gaps of my snacking. trying to remember to eat my vitamin pills once in a while. the only thing my diet lacks right now is protein. which i'm not sure how to fix. b/c meat is expensive. and the cheap meat is really bad for you. like hot dogs and chicken patties and stuff. i should work on eating more peanut butter. improving ones self is a very worthwhile pursuit i have decided. this is the first step.

	2007.04.17  12.18 I like being drawn on. it's alot of fun. monica routinely draws on me extensively when she hangs out late at night. like, one time she covered an entire arm, my entire lower leg and my entire chest. it was so cool. last night andy came over and helped out. i currently have an arm and my entire back 'tattoed' with sharpie. it's a cool feeling to just sit there and have people decorate your body. also the sharpies wandering around your skin feels cool. like a really light back massage. kind of. i enjoy it. also drawing on people is fun too. the only downside is when i got to bed enough of the sharpie rubs off to turn whatever i'm sleeping on kind of black. oh well. i think it's worth it. also it's free cone day! AWESOME!! me wants some delicous ice cream.

	2007.04.15  19.22 wow. i am tired. just played intramural soccer. the other team was much better than us. also, my team is having severe 'people-showing-up' issues. i fucking hate people who just don't show up and don't let you know. god it aggravates me. on a related note. there is a girl named kate on our team. and i am quite interested in her. but i have no idea how to make a move. i really have no concept of how to flirt or pick up girls or even like...anything. how did i ever get a girlfriend ever. oh wait. highschool. that perfect atmostphere where the poeple you are interested in are in the same building as you everyday, with ample oppurtunities to establish and build a relationship through conversation and time spent together. dating in the real world is much harder. especially since i don't drink and go to parties. so i only see her once a week for an hour, in which we are playing soccer. no time to sit and talk to her and get to know her. i basically know nothing about her. and i don't see it changing. it's rather frustrating. i guess i'm doomed. shucks. Mood: tired Music: hot hot heat

	2007.04.13  18.32 got some great ideas for the typography poster today. it's a poster thats supposed to be advertising the College of Imaging Sciences. one involves old stock photos from the 50's with funny captions. the other's tagline is 'suprise yourself' and then its a picture of a jumping out and scaring the crap out of himself (another picture of the same guy). i think it's a sweet idea. i'm suprised i got some good ideas, i was kind of really pissed off in class for no good reason. SUBWAY tommorrow! also. great news. whiskey got back into RIT! woohoo!

	2007.04.11  23.49 aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrgggghhhhffftttttttttmssssssgsgsgg... i feel listess. like a cd player thats missing one of its batteries. like i'm off balance. like one leg is slightly shorter than the other and i'm walking in circles. its times like these when i wish i could just sit at the bottom of a pool and look up. it would be so peaceful. it's time likes these that i wish i had someone to hold. to hug. for a long time. someone real. *big ol' fucking sigh* i guess all i can do is move along, and hoping my short leg grows a little longer.

	2007.04.11  18.58 hmm... lets see. my first mp3 player ever finally arrived today. it's pink. b/c the blue one seriously cost like 15$ more. and i refuse to put up with shit like that. so i got the pink one. its 512 mbs and its sexy. the coolest thing is the screen. when it's not displaying something you can't even tell it's there. it's like part of the metal. very cool. and it has an INSANE battery life. 50+ hours on NORMAL power saving mode. you can still go to super power saving mode. ridiculous. anyways. i likes it. therese (my typography teacher) (prounounced as 'trayz') pissed me off today. spent twenty minutes printing my comps b/c the fucking hub was so busy and got to class late. and then she said that people who arrived late couldn't hang up there comps for critique. bullshit. first time she's ever made me mad. usually i love therese. poll. mostly for men. scratch that. for anyone. white or black lingerie? i can't decide. i seriously can't. dead even. and no, i'm not saying which i like to wear most. but for the girls, that can be the question. not that anyone reads this. so really it's a pretty stupid poll. ...

	2007.04.11  10.02 i found some exciting things in dumpstes last night. dumpsters are gods gift to poor college students. especially dumpsters in the art building. becuase they have exciting things like toasters in them. that was in the beginning of the year. and we still use that toaster. also two large strings of working christmas lights. some plastic tubing. and a whole lot of bamboo rods. which we fucking made a table out of. a really really unstable table. but it's a table. a BAMBOO table. so last night i found this awesome like super vinyl/plastic 'paper'. it's like overhead transparency stuff, except really big. and also it's slightly reflective in a coppery way. and when you put a whole bunch on top of each other, the effect is really cool. insanely shimmery and reflelctive. and i found a whole crapload of it. also i found plaster. which happens to be a really cool material. i think i'm going to sculpt something out of it. shin-chan is an awesome show. i like it very much. i am in class now. guitar hero 2 is fun. the end.

	2007.04.10  12.02 i feel funny. i woke up badly. also i hate those 'surveys' where a person writes down ten like emotional important things to 10 different poeple then they're all supposed to guess which one is theirs. okay. i admit. i did one. but the most emotional charged one was 'you remind of peanutbutter'. i don't think too many people we're stressing out about it. jameson did one and suprisingly i was in it. and of course they're are like 4 that i could see myself being. but i don't fucking know. by they way, i used to never say the word 'fuck' in this blog. i suppose i'm an adult now. i will use it henceforth. jameson is arielle's long time friend, and current boyfriend for all those who don't know. she started dating him like 3 weeks after we broke up. anyways. i would like to know which one i am. but i'm not going to guess b/c i would feel retarded if i got it wrong. like i was stepping on someone else's emotional turf. not that i think jameson would ever tell anybody if they were right or wrong. i think that if you have important things to say like this, just tell the person. it's okay to just call someone up, and just tell them what they mean to you. i told monica last night in the car that i was really appreciative of her friendship. becuase i am. honesty is beautiful my friends. not always easy. but it will be a good friend to you if you let it. AGH! GOD DAMN 2D project! Mood: frustrated

	2007.04.09  17.00 Well I suppose i should catch the 0 total readers of this blog up on my life. As I believe i mentioned, mayhaps two years ago, I go to the Rochester Institute of Technology. This year i am in the New Media Design program, as opposed to Computer Science last year. from programming to art. I feel that it was a good move. I am 19 oddly enough. Last october Arielle and I ended our almost two year relationship. That is significant to this blog mostly b/c the majority of my old posts dealt with her in some way or another. As of now i am single, and do not really see that changing anytime soon. I live in an apartment on campus with my amazing friend Evan Stark. Earlier in the year we were also in the accompaniment of Whiskey Pillinger and Keith Burgos. Both have left for their own reasons. perhaps i'll elaborate on that later. My other good friends here at RIT include monica, andrew, and andy. Monica of which i see very much of and will probably live with us next year. Andrew and Andy regrettably i don't see much of, but next they will live quite nearby and life will awesome. My sister is likely graduating from college this summer, as soon as she finishes her thesis, my parents grow older along with us all. I can't think of anything else to say right now. I'll probably dedicate some posts to particular things that have happened to me and to people i know later. today? well. early this morning and late last night i rearranged my room. and let me tell you. it was epic. it took many hours of pondering to figure it out. but behold, i hath found the perfect feng shui for mine dwelling. it took some cleaning, some cement blocks, and a little sprinkling of Awesome. But umm...my room kicks ass now. also, i will brag and tell you that i removed the door from the doorway. b/c i'm cool like that. and who needs doors anyways? i have to pick up evan at 9:30 at the bus station tonight. i have to get groceries. grocery list -12 oranges -3 gallons of milk -1 loaf of wheat bread -1 box of american cheese -2 boxes of saltine crackers that should last me the week. i have to drive monica to walmart to get her new flip flops. well i don't have to. but i'm going to. also, i will now go paint for a retarded 2D Design project. b/c i don't want to do it later. and Lastly, seriously, this is it. I just got skype and it amuses me. i would like to try it out more. so my ID is 'redbuckets' and everyone should let me know if they have an account. c'est finis

	2007.04.09  01.45 Nostalgia. in a likeliness. The title says it all. I'm feeling nostalgic for my blogging days. Here i am 18+ months since the last time i visited this relic. Almost two years since i updated regularly. But i was looking through this electronica journal of mine, and i found that i missed it. i found that i enjoyed the things i said here. they made me feel witty and clever. like people were interested in what i had to say. it made me feel wanted in a way. is that why i am back? i want to feel wanted again? did i simply enjoy having an impartial outlet for my life? do i against all odds actually enjoy writing? all are possible. regardless of the internal reasonings that even i cannot fathom, i find myself typing into this familiar text box once again. in conclusion, i cannot say how this will turn out, be it a brief and fleeting glance into an the person this blogs owner became. or if it will be a return of a writer from a long hiatus ready to pour his soul into the harsh unforgiving internet once again. time will tell. just as always.

	2005.09.09  14.21 Attraction Arielle makes me feel attractive. She makes me feel sexy. She makes me feel so damn hot that I could bust, she makes me feel like there would be no-one in the world that could resist my ultimate umm... power? It feels great, it feels so good that I feel guilty. Sometimes I feel that its going straight to my head and that I better slap myself around a bit before I become a complete asshole. But tonight I just feel good. I feel happy, and attractive. It makes me think that maybe it isn't so strange that people all around the world spend trillions of dollars and millions of hours every year just to make themselves attractive, or just to feel attractive. It feels amazing, to know or to think that you look damn good to people around you, people who don't even know you. The grass is greener, the clouds are more beautiful then ever before in your life. Life sparkles, because you are on top of the world. Could you forgive the fact that it might of taken plastic surgery, makeup, expensive clothes, skin treatments, pedicures, manicures, haircuts and everything else under the sun? Some people can, and to them it is completely worth it to get that little high that comes from feeling sexy. I hope I make Arielle feel attractive. I try every day to make her feel as beautiful as she is. To let her know that I think she is the most drop dead gorgeous women on the planet. I hope I make her feel as wonderful as the make me feel. Mood: happy

	2005.08.21  16.31 finis? hey if you haven't realized it already this blog is pretty dead. anyways i'm thinking if you want to keep in touch or chat or whatever i now have email! its awa6006@rit.edu i think. anyways give it a shot. thanks for being freaking awesome. later.

	2005.07.08  22.18 digital media interactive portable device i now have a Gameboy Advance SP. what the hell? why do i have one of those? a present. okay. so what the hell do i do with it? i dunno. its such a non-me item. wierd... this is the sort of thing i dreamed about happening when i was like 11. that somebody would just pop along and give some awesome electronic toy and i'd be so happy because i knew my parents would never get something like that for me. but i don't really wish for things like that anymore. in fact i don't even know if i want it. the only cool game i'd even remotely even THINK about buying for it would be advance wars. b/c its strategy. and i've heard its great. but thats only if i see it, and only if i keep the thing in the first place. wow, i could probably get 5$ maybe even 10$ for it on ebay. woooopdee hoooooo... yeah. whatev. Mood: bewildered

	2005.06.28  23.27 fireflies on parade there you go arielle. i took it. apparently i'm a freakin Quaker. or a pagan. 1. Unitarian Universalism (100%) 2. Liberal Quakers (98%) 3. Secular Humanism (95%) 4. Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (91%) 5. Neo-Pagan (87%) 6. New Age (83%) 7. Theravada Buddhism (75%) 8. Mahayana Buddhism (67%) 9. Taoism (67%) 10. Reform Judaism (65%) 11. Bah?'? Faith (60%) 12. New Thought (60%) 13. Scientology (60%) 14. Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (59%) 15. Nontheist (59%) 16. Sikhism (51%) 17. Orthodox Quaker (50%) 18. Jainism (46%) 19. Hinduism (37%) 20. Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (34%) 21. Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (31%) 22. Orthodox Judaism (27%) 23. Jehovah's Witness (25%) 24. Islam (24%) 25. Seventh Day Adventist (23%) 26. Eastern Orthodox (15%) 27. Roman Catholic (15%) i am burnt to a crisp. fried and roasted. that stupid ol sun took my skin and broiled it till it burned. ouch. my face. i have been outside all weekend long. rugby and soccer on saturday. and farm work and soccer on sunday. and it has been hot as all hell out there. absolutely miserable. it was working weekend. and i did not like it. except for the BC Fest. that was cool. Saturday night we had the Calculus class party to celebrate surviving the honors math program at essex. we played much ultimate frisbee, we ate food, played a little halo, talked, watched the pellerin story...twice, and then watched animal house instead of UHF much to my protest. and in general we just goofed off. it was fun. afterwards i gave umer and molly a ride home. there was an amazing lightning storm going on and it was so cool. and then after i dropped them off i stopped in grand isle by an empty field just to watch the thousands of fireflies glowing in the dark. it was beatuiful. sigh...it was the highlight of the weekend.

	2005.06.16  21.10 symptoms of doom I have felt funny all day long. One, whenever I have gotten up today from a sitting position my legs have felt funny, sort of achy and sore, as if they weren't getting much oxygen. Then the feeling goes away after a few minutes. Second, I tried to donate blood today. When I went in for the blood tests and such the lady had to give me two finger prick things b/c the first one wasn't bleeding much, actually the second one didn't bleed much either. But anyways after the second one all of the sudden I felt really really dizzy and had to put my head between my knees. So they brought over a wheelie chair and carted me off to a recovery area. After a while I felt better. But I was quite ashamed that I had failed so miserably in trying to give blood. God damn it, I failed to fricken finger prick. Arg. After that I just sort of felt a little off for a few hours and I sorta lost my appetite. And then to cap it all off I was having dinner tonight. And after I ate my meal my stomach just started to hurt really really bad. Sort of like bad hunger pains, but with a lot of just nausea/ cramps thrown in there. It was really painful and I had to try not to breath to much b/c it would hurt my stomach. After an hour it went away though. Yuck. Oh well. Hopefully I'll feel better tomorrow. Mood: off

	2005.06.15  21.11 prom. prom was amazing. the echo center was beautful and so much fun to have a prom at. i love arielle. very much. slept at her house afterwards in the camper with tom and zimmy. she woke me up in the morning and we snuggled for a bit. best way to wake up ever. been tired all day. fell asleep in the chair when i got home. i've finally woken all the way up and its 9. arg. and typing with one hand is really annoying. i'm letting a henna tattoo dry on the other. alright. later

	2005.06.09  22.19 holy freakin poo thats going to be awesome. i'm more excited than i have been in a long long time. Arielle is probably going to come up with me to my grandparents camp at shadow lake!!!! YYYYYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!! that will the best weekend of my life. and the prom is this weekend, and i went hunting this afternoon to find a outfit to wear. and i think i did alright, it has a tophat, and i'm excited. its groovy. i also found some awesome blue hair dye for myself, but arielle won't let me do it till after prom. : ( but i got some pink hair dye for umer too. hee hee. i'm too lazy to post. i'm really really sorry. arg. *sigh* Mood: excited

	2005.05.31  21.20 why are the pushing at each other like that? holy poop its been a long time since i've updated. yeah...like a week and a half. sorry anways. lets go through the motions. last wednesday was my parents 25 year anniversery. so way to go mom and dad! last weekend i had a rugby tournament. it was miserable weather. but i suppose i had fun in the end. we played 3 thirty minute games. we won the first two and lost 0-5 in an amazingly close game to get 2nd in the tournament. i was really wet. and then we had to push the van out of a mudhole. and i pushed right behind wheel. brad punched it, and i got sprayed with 50 pounds of mud. it was insane. and woohoo! the next day i got to do an afternoon of soccer refereeing! arg. but hey, $$$ is always good. i refereed today too. but on friday i had another rugby game, this time under the lights. it was cool. i was out of it for a little bit. but i played alright. i had one tackle i was quite proud of. a super cool new zealand coach was there too. she was scouting. and couch introduced me to her. (hrmm...) i am still sore from that game though. slept at cliff's house. played games. next day we went to burlington hunting for a couch. failed. went back, i went to arielle's house. she tickled me without mercy because i was weak from the game and couldn't fend her off. meanie... went home. slept. woke up. substituted old tv for a couch and took pictures of it and then went off to make some dough. and i just stubbed my toe REALLY bad. and it hurts alot. ow ow ow ow ow i'm still very busy. bye.

	2005.05.21  21.32 accomplishment of the year minus one woo! lets talk about yesterday. yesterday was fun. number one? Arielle and I's 6 month anniversery!! woohoo! we are awesome. i'm so proud. and i love her more than ever. i gave her an amarylis. and a card. with a coupon. yay! also went to the marching band parade. switched buses sneakily and hid from mr.dean. talked with walter and kelly and fibi and co. it was fun. we talked about things like summer camp, and goths and wiggers, and good music. it reminded me of an amazing song. '99 red balloons' by goldfinger. so good. i really wanna hear it again. and the basement jaxx 'where's my head at' and 'frontier psychiatrist' by the avalanches. arg. good stuff. it was fun. we played 'ghost' and random. and kelly slept. i took some pictures of a pretty sunset. i'm ridiculously busy. and the short film is amazingly unorganized. and art is awesome. i really wanna take my final project pictures. but its goign to be really hard. i will admit. it will be hard to pull off. it will require alot of setup. bored? here, have some inspiration. http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/image/chalkboard/ Mood: excited

	2005.05.17  22.35 packed busy busy busy. thats what i am. i'm a busy man. how bout a let you know what i've been up to. saturday night i went Mini Golfing!!! at pizza putt with stacey, arielle, eric, flora and eva. we golfed, ate pizza, arcade-d. it was fun. but. i have decided that i hate pizza putt. and never want to go back. its a bad place. and it costs too much money for the amount of fun. the fun per capita is just not good enough. sorry pizza putt, but you suck. anyways, afterwards i dropped eva and flora off and eric and i went back to his house and played worms and burnout 3 until 2 in the morning. it was excellent. i miss video games. whatev. woke up. enjoyed cereal. played more burnout 3. went to jay's house. sat around being unproductive. repeated a couple of times. played halo. sat around being unproductive. sat around and was inspired with jay. spent some time being productive. jumped on the trampoline for a reward. went home after stopping by at flora's abode. stressed for a few hours. convinced my parents to let me go back into to town to ari's house. hung out there. felt better. had a nice time. went back home. i'm going to RIT. oops i ran out of stuff to say.

	2005.05.16  12.47 blasphemy i heard the My Chemical Romance and The Used cover of Queen's Under Pressure with David Bowie. I was actually excited to hear it, since well, you know, its Queen. I was dissapointed when i actually did hear it. It blew. It was terrible. For one, neigher vocalists are anywhere near the caliber of Freddie Mercury and David Bowie. The harmonics and the normal vocalizations were no where near as moving. The music was alright, not as good, but not that bad. Another thing, they cut out about half the song, the made it really short. what the hell? you can't do a cover and forget to do half the freakin song. and they also ruined the best part of the song, the soft part in the middle "turn away, from it all, like a blind man, sat on a fence, but it don't work" they just kept playing the music and the made it ugly. yuck. sorry guys, but you suck. and Queen rocks.

	2005.05.12  22.26 One Hour Photo One Hour Photo is such a good a movie i shall dedicate this entire post to it and speak of nothing else. I'm not a big fan of favourites. I don't have a favourite movie, i don't have a favourite movie of all time. i do have favorites though, i will have a favourite movie for a while and then it will change to something else. so i don't really have a favourite movie, i have favourite movies. One Hour Photo is my favourite movie right now. It's got robin williams in it. which was what made me want to watch it. i watched it on a school night too, which is highly unusual for me. i almost never watch tv on school nights. its not a comedy. its a thriller-ish thing. psychological. i don't even want to talk about the plot. b/c i don't want to give it away. instead i'll just rant about how awesome it is. its amazing. the story just sucks you in, robin williams plays the main character so emotionally it just pulls you in and makes you attached to the character and his life. the cinematography is so good. it fits the theme and the mood of the movie perfectly. jumpy and emotional and slightly creepy. this movie is so god damn AMAZING!!!!! holy crap i cannot get over it. its so good. i almost cried. its touching, its scary, its moving, its disturbing, its suprising. its my favorite movie ever. its not really, but i like to say that it is. watch it. please. watch it. its simply fantabulous. Mood: fantastic