09:45am 29/03/2006   I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore Really, though. I really want to die right now. And I don't even care how pathetic it sounds. I'm out.        Post       08:55am 06/03/2006   I hurt myself today To see if I still feel I focus on the pain The only thing that's real The needle tears a hold The old familiar sting Try to kill it all away But I remember everything What have I become My sweetest friend Everyone I know goes away In the end And you could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt I wear this crown of thorns Upon my liar's chair Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair Beneath the stains of time The feelings disappear You are someone else I am still right here What have I become My sweetest friend Everyone I know goes away In the end And you could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt If I could start again A million miles away I would keep myself I would find a way        Read 1 - Post       09:55am 02/03/2006   This place is a prison And these people aren't your friends Gah I hate school...End soon, please!!! only 3 more hours....        Post       09:06am 02/03/2006   anyone that is in love with sonny moore screaming Shake it Like A Salt Shaker can be my friend.        Post       08:50am 02/03/2006   Your words are deadly weapons Killing me, destroying me Your words are deadly weapons Scatter my brains across the wall        Post       09:15am 21/02/2006   I start attacking my vodka I stab my ice with my straw My eyes turn as red as stoplights You seem ready to walk You know I'll call you eventually when I wanna talk Til then your invisible Cause there's this switch that gets hit And it stops making sense And in the middle of drinks Maybe the 5th or the 6th I'm completely alone at a table of friends I feel nothing for them        Read 1 - Post       09:41am 14/12/2005   Can a heart break once it's stopped beating?        Post       09:41am 14/12/2005   Can a heart break once it's stopped beating?        Post       09:40am 14/12/2005   Can a heart break once it's stopped beating?        Post       09:38am 14/12/2005   this is my fucking fit of honesty        Post       04:09pm 05/07/2005   I’m tired of having to hide in the cramped, dark corner of my mind, all alone. But it’s the only place I have. Most people don’t even try to understand , so to them, I say GO AWAY! All I need is my mind, thoughts, and dreams. I don’t need you, so leave me alone. You’ll never know what its like to be me, so don’t act like you do. I’ve given up trying to help anyone see what it is that I see, but if this helps.... How sad is it that watching an apple fall from a tree can make me fall apart? All I can think of is that no matter how hard I try to hold on, my destiny is to be that apple, falling to the ground... And you wonder why I’m so depressed. Everything I see, hear, or interact with gives me the same results as the apple tree. I’m the girl whose too sad to give a fuck. I hate that you don’t understand me. I hate that I don’t really understand myself. And I hate that this razor seems to be my only medicine. I guess this is what they call killing yourself in small doses. Does it make me a hypocrite that I pray not to die? But I’m sure we’ll all wish for death long before it comes...so I’m happy I’m not the only one who feels this way. Because I do want to get better...I’m just failing to see the light at the end of the tunnel. So tonight, hand will tremble and a wrist will bleed. And I’ll think of you as I drown in my tears. And I’ll wish you could have saved me from me. just wrote, what do you think??? i have more...should i post or just give it up?        Read 3 - Post       03:47pm 05/07/2005   Me, I’m scared of everything, I’m scared of who I am , what I saw, what I did, but most of all I’m scared of walking out of this room and never feeling for the rest of my life the way I feel when I’m with you. Anyone have any more lyrics on loving someone so effin much!?!??! and almost having a reason to not be emo anymore, except for the fact that that is what you are...        Post       02:58pm 05/07/2005   i cant find the journal to post to grrr i feel dumb and i hate feeling dumb but i have seriosuly been reading this posts for forever and i have been trying to figure this out for so long...maybe my computer is tooo old i dunno        Post       02:46pm 05/07/2005   wishful thinking        Post   wtf    02:43pm 05/07/2005   dont know what im doing        Post

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