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[12 May 2008|01:21am] |
need lyrics about summer,
but not the normal summer love songs.
i am looking for one that explains coming home from college for the summer.
or almost summer lyrics,
or just more relaxed feeling of summer.
like "summer skin" by death cab
or "so long so long" or "dusk and summer" by dashboard
i know this is a specific request, and i apologize but i have been racking my brain for lyrics.
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[08 May 2008|12:46pm] |
& now all of a sudden I feel weird. I'm afraid to walk back into my past after 5 months of being away.
It isn't my home, it's just the past
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[07 May 2008|07:34pm] |
In slow motion, the blast is beautiful
Doors slam shut
A clock is ticking, but it's hidden far away
Safe and sound
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| i thought the American dream was to be something, not to watch someone else be something... |
[09 Jan 2007|09:32pm] |
I am personally offended by the Fox Broadcasting Company and their lack of respect for their viewers. After waiting two weeks to see a new episode of House Md, which was amazing i must admit, i being forced to wait another 3 weeks for a new episode. Why you ask? Because of American Idol, a reality show that has been on for way too many seasons. Is anyone else sick and tired of reality shows that drag on, causing our everyday t.v. viewing schedules to be sent out of wack? First i had to wait to see House because of the stupid MLB, and now i am being forced to wait so that America can laugh at those who have no talent, and put the ones with talent in the 15 minute spotlight of Hollywood, which after their 15 mins of fame are up they will most likely be miserable drug addicts who are so self-absorbed that we will end up loathing them.
House is one of the only television shows i actually watch now-a-days, since Television is filled with so much reality garbage and repetitive sitcoms. It is filled with drama, satire, and just enough flare to keep the appeal. It has been nominated for Golden Globes and SAG awards, and how do we pay our respects to it? By forcing it's loyal viewers to wait 3 extra weeks, so that pathetic wannabe's can be embarrassed in front of an entire nation.
This is a sad day in Television history, when i say, that i am ashamed to be a Fox viewer. At least i actually use my brain while watching House, unlike the viewers of the tasteless lack luster humiliating excuses for shows that we call reality tv. If you really wanna see reality, get off your ass and walk out your door, don't sit there and watch someone else pursue their dreams, and live their life.
idiots.
i thought the American dream was to be something, not to watch someone else be something...
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| Existentialism on Prom Night (my photojournalism project) |
[16 Jun 2006|01:29pm] |
hope yall like it.
I worked a long time on it.
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[02 Jun 2006|01:14am] |
Just got my computer and internet working again.
Thank god.
Took forever.
I am now a senior.
Which is awesome and kind of sucks at the same time, cause all of my best friends graduated.
And now all we have left is the summer
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[16 May 2006|10:06pm] |
Boys suck...
no need for any arguments,
cause you aren't going to change my mind.
First i date the fat jerk who uses me,
then i fall for the fat jerk with a truck (who uses me),
then i take the emo asshole to prom (who uses me).
What next?
A fat emo asshole jerkoff who drives a truck.
Fuck that.
Anyways
it must be revenge of the ex's.
Or befriend you ex week or something, cause within just 2 days, 2 of my ex's have come in contact with me.
1st- was the most recent ex, who kept text messaging me (jokingly) that he wanted to have a one night stand, then he changed his mind and was seriously asking me for a one night stand.
then the 2nd ex who i havent talked to in over a year, asked me if i wanted to go out to lunch or to get a smoothie with him, and gave me his number and asked for mine.
I think it's a conspiracy.
If any other ex's try to get together with me, i am moving to alaska.
ok
schools almost over.
Then i get almost 3months away from those weirdos.
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| you were a priority, was i just an option? |
[25 Apr 2006|05:56pm] |
So i told him to
go fucking die
I didn't mean it. He just treats me like fucking shit.
I mean i pretty scream my soul to him and he says he likes me back.
But then he ignores me or points out my faults.
It's like he loves to see my cry.
I mean we fool around one night, and are all lovey dovey.
Then the next day he ignores me.
Then the next day he holds my hand and is a lovey dovey, up until we are around our friends,
around the girl he used to like.
Then he treats me like shit again.
It's like he uses me to satisfy his needs & wants.
So i finally snap under pressure and snap at him.
As soon as i do it i start to apologize.
And we make up.
We seem all good.
and go back to being lovey dovey.
But then on Wednesday (4 fucking days later)
he says everything is not fine and that he is still mad at me and would much rather go kill himself than talk to me.
Ouch :-\
I've apologized for almost a full friggin week now.
But now.
he wont take my apology.
and prom is less than 2 weeks away and he said he wasn't going with me anymore.
I truely despise how he is acting now.
he calls me overdramatic.... he calls me drama.
Look at how he's acting.
Boys are so stupid.
What can i do to fix it?
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| "every living creature on earth dies alone." |
[20 Mar 2006|08:35pm] |
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"In the Rough" - Anna Nalick |
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And it all boils down to one quotable phrase
"If you love something, give it away."
& i did.
I gave everything away.
For family,
for friends,
for first real love,
for acceptance.
& what am i left with?
A 35mm, a few empty rolls of film, and pictures stained with tears.
fuck my dad for not being proud of me (i made photographer at our school for newspaper). fuck my friends for being two-faced, fuck my first love for using me and then saying i cheated on him (which i didnt), fuck acceptance i am tired of being a fucking lemming.
I ♥ my camera.
And that's all that matters
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[09 Mar 2006|10:26pm] |
These knots in my stomach have been tied into bows, and out of my stress, unfamiliar flowers grow.
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| Lover Boy's Fingerprints |
[08 Mar 2006|09:45pm] |
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"Goodbye My Lover" - James Blunt |
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"There's your lover boy..."
immature & heartless.
This prank is going so well,
i mean look at you smile.
Your eyes match your shirt,
they also match my heart.
Except it's a little brighter,
you've got a little sparkle.
I've got a hole in my heart,
and I can see straight through.
Past the blood and veins,
hidden behind the bottled up pain.
I can see you.
How can i be whole,
when you've stolen my sould,
and left your mark,
on my heart.
These words skipped in my head,
from the night we sat outside.
We fought & you cried.
You seemed so sincere,
so in love.
Was it really all a lie?
Really all an act?
I just dont know if i can believe that...
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| wrapped in velvet & filled with thorns. |
[07 Mar 2006|09:42pm] |
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"Porcelain"- Cauterize |
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I should be doing an English paper on Weblogs,
instead i am making a new weblog.
All because i really have always admired emo lyrics, and always wanted to post on it,
and now i have a burty, and hopefully will be excepted so i can post lyrics.
It's a night time ritual.
To check emo lyrics.
I had really weird rituals.
But it's better than thinking about him,
that's one habit i wish i didnt have.
He hurt me, he used me, and he lied.
He yelled he screamed and blamed everything on me.
And i still love him.
What's wrong with me?
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