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Thursday, July 24th, 2003
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10:27 pm - I took this before, but whatever
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You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.
What kind of kiss are you?
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| Wednesday, July 23rd, 2003
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10:52 pm - I'm going to use my journal to complain.
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Why? Because it's an online journal...that's why!
The last two months have been a disaster. I haven't spent time with any of the people I want to spend time with, except jasper (yay - but I wanted to hang more). Summer is literally almost over for me... I work constantly until the 7th, at which time I'm on a camping trip until the 11th, and then I work again till that Friday. Then four days the week after that, and before you know it I'm at school. We are going to drive down the 18th. School starts on like the 25th or something, whatever the Monday after the 20th is.
And the only people I've spent time with in Sonoma County are Jasper and Joel. That's depressing. Now I'm going to go on wishing I had because I haven't, and it's not going to change anything like it always does. And then I'm going to say I'm lonely, because I always am. And then, promptly, I'm going to wish I met new people to hang out with, and again, promptly, it's going to do nothing.
From there I'm going to say that I miss Lindsay and brigid and everyone, and it's true, and I'm going to again wish that I had spent time with them before they went their respective ways. Because I really wish I had.
It's been almost two months since I went to a concert. I really miss it, but I don't know what I'd do there without Lindsay to hang on. Jasper and I want to go to one, so I hope we will, but I can't go to the one on the 8th because of where I'm going to be - not in Sonoma County. *Sigh* this summer is wasting away too quickly, and I don't know what I'm going to do in the fall. In fact, the only upside to this summer so far is that I got a nice 21' monitor for 100 bucks. That's it. And when I think about it, that's really sad.
And I have another 2 weeks of work to look forward to, in perfect timing for my mom to say "hand over your paychecks to pay for college." That's right, I see very little, if any, of the money that I make at RouteScience. In fact, I have seen none of it. At all. All of it has either gone into a bank account, or gone somewhere else. Like the School. I would give almost anything to not have to worry about money so that I could do what normal kids do... save up for a car or something. But no, my mom is jobless and my dad doesn’t really want to donate any money to my cause, so I have to come up with all the money that would normally be spent bettering myself in monetary ways for college.
Maybe it will all work out or something, and I'll have extra money. But I have a feeling that I'm not going to have enough, and I'm going to be short food and everything else money. Because that is what always happens. Just my luck that I got to go to a school of kids who had everything simply because they were born. People who crash cars only to have their parents get them a new one and have it in the driveway the next morning. People who spend my entire family's monthly paycheck in a night because they want the new thing that no one else has yet. Especially people who do all of this, and think they are entitled to it, just because they have never known otherwise.
I hate this world. I want to be away from it. Greed rules the land and the people live in it, and they don't realize it. Everyone, (and I do include myself in that absolute) lives in it and breaths it; it is what feeds us.
All I can do is complain about it. And hope I meet people. And hope there's time to see everyone before I go. And hope I can make amends with those I've hurt... I hope I can do all of these things and still have a future. But things of this nature never work out for me. So I'll just give up hope now and save myself the effort.
One without the way
missing the worn path of change
without light or dark.
current mood:  depressed
current music: Soul Asylum - Runaway Train
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| Sunday, July 13th, 2003
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1:04 am - For the benefit of the Blurty people
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So....
I got a job at the fair. "How creepy," you say, and I poignantly agree. It happened last week, I needed another job for a Hard Drive, I mean college, and so I went and applied at this place at the fair. Luckily they are putting me in the back, doing something monotonous that they don't have a lot of people for so I will probably get my ass worked off, which means overtime, sweet, sweet, overtime. (Remember kiddies the first two hours after 8 in a day is time and a half, and the rest is double time! that's right, lots of money to get multiple hard drives, I mean pay for college)
Anyways....
Things have been so boring that I haven’t updated in forever. In fact, that was a lie, except for the boring part and the update part. I just don't update for some reason, but I'll try to fix that as time goes on, I don't want to lose touch with a couple people (how's your new house? where is that house by the way? I went through all that music today. how are things going? is everything going ok? I hope you're well).
I work quite a bit now, and I'm rarely home, so usually when I'm online it's either at work or at my friend's house, who I'm staying with for the summer while I'm working. I work at RouteScience in San Mateo, so when I go down, it's two days of travel for (x) days of work. Usually I work four days a week, so that means that I am not at home for a full six days a week. That kinda sucks cause there are people around here I want to spend a little time with before I leave, even if I see them just a couple times.
Has anyone ever wondered what time looks like? Please tell me if you did.
Moving on, it's late on a Saturday night and I have done what I do every Saturday night, just kinda sit around wishing I was at The New Trust show, or anywhere but here.
Home is just so boring and depressing when your headed off for college in less then a month. I really don't know what I'm going to do when I'm not here though, it's hard to see yourself somewhere other then where you live. I know it's going to be fun, and there are going to be lots of new people (yay!), but it is still very daunting. I go for orientation and registration next week. My mom and I are driving down on Monday to go to it on Tuesday and Wednesday, and then coming back hopefully on Thursday, with a bit of a stop at the Walter's house for dinner. I hope everything works out, I got a letter in the mail today from USC saying that I got 24 credits for my AP test scores. I'm really happy about that, it saves my family and I over 40 thousand dollars in USC college courses.
This must be a ridiculously boring entry. Sorry everyone who still reads these, though I know not who you might be!
I hope you are all doing well, mad shout outs to all my peeps!
And everyone, don't frown, for you never know who's falling in love with your smile. That was an old quote that I just remembered for some reason. Anyway, catch you cats on the flip side, assuming there is some such side and the world isn’t actually round.
And to you... Don't make me come over there and make you swoon! You'll be capitalized soon enough. Just kidding!
current mood: A little lonely, but ok
current music: Collective Soul - The World I Know
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| Wednesday, July 9th, 2003
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10:34 pm - A quiz
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You represent... hope.
You're quite a daydreamer and can be a hopeless
romantic. You enjoy being creative and don't
mind being alone at times. You have goals, and
know what you want in life... even if they are
a little far fetched.
What feeling do you represent?
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| Friday, June 20th, 2003
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11:08 pm - not sure
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Hmmm...
Maybe? I'm not sure though.
Can you tell me? I'd be really happy if you did!
current mood:  contemplative
current music: Dandy Warhols - Coffee and TV Wrecks
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| Sunday, June 15th, 2003
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4:45 pm - You All...
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I miss you all! That includes you, too *points*
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| Wednesday, June 11th, 2003
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10:12 pm - First Day Of Work
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Wow, I'm I ever exausted. Not must sleep last night, and a lot of work today... I haven't been up on my feet so long in quite a while. Oh well, maybe I'll update about everything later... We'll see... right now, I think sleep is the answer! G'night to everyone! Yeah, everyone who plans to read a post from me that is. Oh, hey, I started learning C++ too. That stuff is a lot of fun. Oh well, sleep time. Goodnight.
current mood:  exhausted
current music: The ridiculously loud keyboard
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| Tuesday, May 27th, 2003
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7:27 pm
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mmm I like the font that blurty uses. It's good stuff.
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| Friday, May 9th, 2003
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10:13 pm - I'm
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| Saturday, May 3rd, 2003
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12:18 pm - woooo!
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You know that crazy warm feeling that you get when you... first update a new journal? Well that's what I'm feeling right now! Or something.
Either way, this journal is one more to add to my repertoire (this journal makes it a total count of...4), and so far, no one I know knows about this one. Probably simply because I haven't told anyone that I got it becuase I only started using it today.
Hooray for X-Men 2! best movie ever. Sure I'm not going to the Sony Metreon on Thursday May 15th to see The Matrix: Reloaded. Sure I'm fatly not going to school that day so I can go. Sure it's not going to be the best day ever. Drive down, park is Saulsileto (sp), take a ferry to Fishermans' Warf, walk to the Metreon, and see the sickest movie ever. Best ever.
Alright, lets see who wants to be my friend, because I don't have any! Feel free to just leave a comment and I'll add you, because I am a lonely basterd when it comes to online journals at blurty.com!
current mood: Unit Review Project-AP Physics
current music: Social Burn - U
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