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Below are the most recent 5 friends' journal entries.
|Friday, December 6th, 2013|
WOOF. i think i ate 4 meals today. mind you, i got up quite early and did a lot all day and night.. but STILL!
i think sometimes, being cold gets mistranslated as being hungry for me... this is one thing that gets to me every single winter and drives me crazy. part of why i like winter less and less as i get older. really, i need to just deal with that, though! and drink a lot more tea, and not dive straight for snacks every 5 minutes.
anyway. thankfully, squeezed some interval yoga in between doing things today. maybe i need to make a plan for the next few days to keep myself in check..
- wake up: warm lemon water or just warm water to start.
- if at all possible: yoga first, 30-60 min. depending what's going on and how i feel.
- THEN coffee, and possibly breakfast if i can handle it.
- work most days. bring green smoothie with me, and sip that at break instead of buying weird snacks nearby. also, drink tea instead of coffee all day. green tea good, coffee not that good.
- when i get home: big glass water and hang out for 20 minutes before even thinking about eating food. all too often i have gone directly to making dinner and eating too fast. give myself some time to digest being home before digesting a bunch of food really fast.
- or if it's a day when i couldn't do yoga first thing, try and do it as soon as i get home from work, instead.
- nothing after dinner except tea.
- also - obviously - watch portions like crazy. eat less than i think i need, and then wait awhile before getting seconds. old habits.
|Tuesday, December 3rd, 2013|
HMPH. bloated like crazy and hungry too often.... not digesting well... what gives??? guess i'm eating too much grain, and not enough water? not the right balance of things? probably. i've had to eat in a hurry all too many times owing to work, and that's never good. meh. also, i think dates are not agreeing with me, so i'll avoid those for awhile (been having them a bunch the past week, somehow).
dyed my hair last night. it didn't turn quite the colour i wanted. considering trying to get a salon to turn it into what i wanted for me, but that would probably cost a lot of $$.. but.. i want to feel like i look good, too. mer.
work tomorrow, then FINALLY get 2 days off. this will be my 10th day in a row. fuck!
gonna start the day with warm lemon water.. then go out and ask about colour, drop off rent cheque, do yoga, eat good but moderately sized breakkie, see how the day goes from there.
|Sunday, December 1st, 2013|
ok, my wack schedule is making me eat weird, and not in a good way. i'm taking care of this NOW! tomorrow i don't work early in the morning, for once, so i can actually make food before i go, and solve that problem.
also i can do yoga in the morning, and that will help things, too.
was 2 lbs up when i got on the scale today. not happy about that. though it feels very temporary. i know i'll get back to normal low weight. it's possible, too, that i freaked myself out on a subconscious level by talking about getting down to 112. i'm going to forget i said that and just aim to maintain 115, because i'm pretty good at that weight and size, generally. it's comfortable. i'd be impressed at myself to get under that number, but i won't make it a goal. anyway.
yeah - tomorrow i'll start the day with getting groceries, then yoga. bkfst will be mostly fruit, with quinoa flakes etc. lunch will be greens-based. dinner will be soup, because i always want soup when i get home from work, and that's not a bad thing... basically i just have to relax on the grains and the sugar, and i'll be okay.
agh. work is really fucking annoying. i almost quit today, but realistically, there's only 3.5 weeks left of it, so i might as well just go through with it.
there've been a few remarks about my appearance at work the past few shifts, and although i get that i'm supposed to look nice, there's not much i can do about looking really tired if i'm really tired.. and then the other stuff, little stuff, just gets under my skin so much more than i want it to, especially if i'm tired, which i always seem to be. duh. blah. trying to not let the remarks swim around in my head too long. the people i work with are kind of shallow, and i don't really care what they think, and YET, when you hear it a bunch of times over a short period of time, can't help but feel kind of shaken by it.. sigh.
i'm giving myself a reminder here to be gentle with myself and not let myself get weird, either with non eating or over eating. must focus on being as healthy as possible, and let everything else slide.
yep. starting with yoga will be great.
|Wednesday, November 27th, 2013|
doing okay, i guess, but craving yoga like crazy, and no time to get it in yet. i've been unable to do it since saturday, having been very busy, and briefly sick. so that makes 4 days without. yarg!!! food habits are different on days without yoga. energy's different, everything's different. and not as good.
well, tomorrow i have plans to go to the community class with a pal of mine, so at least there's that. that will be a good hour of intense yoga, or at least it should be (last time i went it was a surprise restorative-style class, which was kind of more like naptime than anything, nehh).
right now my belly hurts a little. i ate a lot of rice-bread with my soup, which i don't often do, and digesting seems to be harder than usual. meh pooo. no more of that bread for awhile.
work tomorrow 7.5 hours, same the next day, then 3 hours saturday and then a gig saturday evening... blahhhh workity workity work. it's almost too much, but i dunno. it's not like it's that hard, usually.. just kind of draining, and i stand most of the time, and it takes at least half an hour to get home from it. egh.
what i have to do is do yoga as soon as i get home from work. then there's a set time, i won't have just eaten, and it will open me up after a long weird day. that was my plan today, but there was company here when i got home, and i hadn't seen one of the people in a few months, so.
there's so much crap i have to do that i keep forgetting to do because i'm just at stupid work all the time. at least it's not forever. one more month.. but i really do have to do that stuff somehow in the meanwhile. i wish i could compress sleeping time so i could do more things, but i never ever ever get enough sleep now. blah.
in other news, i got a really nice vintage coat today. makes me feel sassy wearing it, and it's slightly warmer than my current coat (i think?). has a hood, fits really well.
i feel fat and gnarly and tired. that's about the state of things right now. maybe i could squeeze in 20 minutes of yoga tonight, even while these guys are here...? i dunno. maybe, but probably not, unless it's right before bed. i'll see what's going on in a minute.
thinking about dyeing my hair for the first time in yonks. i'm thinking RED!. maybe i'll find the dye tomorrow. that would be exciting.
1) gotta drink more water again, even though it means i have to pee more, which is hard at my stupid job, but fuck that stupid job. sometimes people have to pee. i'd rather be hydrated. been drinking less on account of the trouble with pee breaks, but i can deal with it now that it's not me working alone all the time.
2) yoga after work on days i have work. even if it's 20 minutes, but i'll likely do more like 40 once started. i may be really hungry, but i'm rarely too hungry to delay eating half an hour. WORTH IT. good for body and mind and soul. open up the bod and breathe and lengthen.
|Monday, November 25th, 2013|
maintaining my first goal weight for the last week or so. HOORAY. i feel way better about my bod these days, and am getting noticeably better at some yoga poses. notably bakasana, which i couldn't do at all well before, and can now hold for a minute or so, if i'm having a good day. makes me feel strong and healthy.
i like it when i can do yoga every day. it's hard to with this job, though - working nearly every day, long hours, come home really hungry. i feel like i should just do yoga righta way when i get home, but often i just need to eat like crazy. i'll figure it out. onlyyyyyyy what.. a month left of this job, anyway. so hooray.
i feel like i could lose another 3 lbs and be okay. if i lost 4 more then i'd be officially underweight, which is not what i'm going for, but i admit i would like knowing that. some things never go away. but still, 112 is my ultimate ideal number, for some reason. so i'll stick with that, and that's 3 lbs away. even if i stay at 115 i'll be fine with that. but if i happened to go under... i'd be happy about it.
oh man. i have to wake up so early. and then work, and then go to a funeral of a longtime family friend.
ok i should go get ready for movies and bed. work early, long day. long week. ah.