| putting the healthy back in thin& |
[06 Apr 2008|12:21pm] |
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The good news is I am 36 pounds lighter than the day before I had the twins.
The good news is I wore my own jeans yesterday.
The bad news is I am obsessed with numbers, intake & my body again. Just when I liked me & was happy maintaining. I go & have twins. My body is not bad considering there were two people in here 4 months ago. But there is loose skin etc. I just keep telling myself it has gotten this much better I will continue to bounce back even more. I'm holding steady at 135 which is pissing me off. Pre-pregnancy I think 135 was the heaviest I ever was in my life. Why the plateau? Not eating enough? Not enough cardio (I already know that.) My period is kicking my ass. Perhaps I 'll lose a few when it ends?
I reference my own entries from early March - I focused on being a size 6 & getting in the 130s. Here it is a month later & I am wearing size 6 pants out to dinner tonight (wore my 4 jeans yesterday) & I am right smack dab in the middle of the 130s. Why can't I focus on the positive.
I will wear my own clothes this summer & I will be in the 120s by Memorial Day! *flexing muscles*
I just wantto get back where I was, but I know all this preoccupation could trigger trouble. I need to keep the HEALTHY part in mind.
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