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[08 May 2008|08:54am] |
I reached my goal---- 126 today.
where do we go now?
I, of course, want a few cushion pounds. Is that me or my ED talking? I have to be dedicated to healthy eating& proper nutrition. Anyway, hooray 4 me. I did it the T&H way. I need to stay that way.
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| shark in the pool? |
[07 May 2008|06:08am] |
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Being this close to my goal presents a problem:
wanting a cushion.
126 doesn't seem like enough anymore. I want a few pounds of a cushion just in case, That is how a disordered mind thinks. I've been losing for 3 months now. How do I stop? Isn't a "cushion" an excuse not to stop? Weight loss is control. I haven't even mourned two devestating losses in my life yet. I've become a mother. So much change. Weight loss has always been my drug of choice. As I approach my goal these are actually dangerous waters. I'm scared. Numbers going down is relieving. It always has been. I need to really focus on healthy eating & having energy. Feeling good needs to be more important than numbers. The focus has to come off numbers right now. HEALTHY....that needs to be the mantra.
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| do I hear a marching band warming up????? |
[03 May 2008|09:12am] |
127 today. I guess a lot of this was water bloat I'm getting rid of by paying my "monthly bill". I know that is TMI (too much info.) but I don't want you to think the rapid decline this week is because I am doing anything unhealthy.
Ready the parade route -----here I come!
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| perseverance |
[02 May 2008|06:17am] |
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128 today!!!! YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
I'm proud that i've done this the thin & healthy way. It has not been easy but I think this way the results are mine to keep, not a quick flukey fad that won't last. I'm thin and healthy again.
126 is still my goal by Memorial Day.
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| Weekly Wednesday weigh-in |
[30 Apr 2008|07:48am] |
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129 today on my own scale.
The 120's. *throws Glitter* This is the motivation I need! ONWARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| Plateaus SUCCCCCCCK |
[27 Apr 2008|08:53am] |
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130 130 130 130
Plateaus in the past were smashed by:
banishing peanut butter
increasing cardio
I feel like there isn't anything else to cut or change. I eat healthy, take a walk a day with the girls, pilates class twice a week. (sometimes the women in there talk TOO much. I just want to work my ass off.)
Possible changes:
a dvd during the day IF the twins EVER get into a nap schedule. I have my ipod on right now while they "cry it out". I am usually in tears by the sixth minute, but they are almost 5 months & I can't keep indulging both of their whims forever or they'll be spoiled brats & I'll be insane from sleep deprivation.
I could cut the coffee mate out of my coffee. (blah....so little fun left......)
More water????
IDK, this sucks.
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[26 Apr 2008|06:16pm] |
some visiting nurse had to come to our house today b?c we are finally getting life insurance.
I was 128 on her scale.
i love her.
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| WWW |
[23 Apr 2008|06:35am] |
130 today.
to be knocking on the door of the 120's seems amazing. I never thought I'd get here. 4 lbs away from my goal. My mother told me my torso looks "elongated" & that you can tell I'm a "person who works out". That made me feel good.
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[21 Apr 2008|04:21pm] |
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holding at 131. PPl keep telling me I look great after twins. I still feel insecure. Pushing the double stroller is a great workout & the girls LOOOOOOOOVE it. My goal is still 126 by Memorial Day. *Fingers Crossed*
New Gossip Girl tonight . Lovezit!
The Rock of Love reunion was amazing. Daisy should sue. Brett let Heather beat on her.
Housewives of NYC was amazing. You need that kind of money to roll in that town. Which is why I moved.
When I sit down I realize how tired I am. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
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[13 Apr 2008|10:32am] |
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I lost my grandfather today. Just two weeks shy of the anniversary of my grandmother's passing. they were my best friends.
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[12 Apr 2008|10:00pm] |
131 today
giddy up
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[11 Apr 2008|07:44pm] |
132 today
i think the walks are helping me along.
6 pounds to go.
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[09 Apr 2008|10:54am] |
134 today.
slow & steady............................................
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| STUCK |
[08 Apr 2008|10:58am] |
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this plateau is kicking my ass & dashing my motivation. someone push me off this plain! *pulls out hair*
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| should i make a dvd? |
[08 Apr 2008|10:56am] |
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my new workout craze - pushing a double stroller
especially effective unhill
xoxo
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| food&such |
[07 Apr 2008|02:42pm] |
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I had:
one glass of white wine
salad w bv dressing
swordfish w rice
a few bites of the loves chocolate cake
decaf tea
not too shabby @ a 5 star restaurant. not diet-rific but not a complete failure either.
Today so far:
oatmeal & eggwhites
kashi granola bar
soup & soy dog
activia
maybe fish for dinner??
waaaaaaaay too much coffee. & zero exercise, but I took the monster double stroller out for a ywo mile hike yesterday.
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| putting the healthy back in thin& |
[06 Apr 2008|12:21pm] |
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The good news is I am 36 pounds lighter than the day before I had the twins.
The good news is I wore my own jeans yesterday.
The bad news is I am obsessed with numbers, intake & my body again. Just when I liked me & was happy maintaining. I go & have twins. My body is not bad considering there were two people in here 4 months ago. But there is loose skin etc. I just keep telling myself it has gotten this much better I will continue to bounce back even more. I'm holding steady at 135 which is pissing me off. Pre-pregnancy I think 135 was the heaviest I ever was in my life. Why the plateau? Not eating enough? Not enough cardio (I already know that.) My period is kicking my ass. Perhaps I 'll lose a few when it ends?
I reference my own entries from early March - I focused on being a size 6 & getting in the 130s. Here it is a month later & I am wearing size 6 pants out to dinner tonight (wore my 4 jeans yesterday) & I am right smack dab in the middle of the 130s. Why can't I focus on the positive.
I will wear my own clothes this summer & I will be in the 120s by Memorial Day! *flexing muscles*
I just wantto get back where I was, but I know all this preoccupation could trigger trouble. I need to keep the HEALTHY part in mind.
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| THOUGHTS Puuuuuhleeeeeeze! |
[05 Apr 2008|07:07pm] |
what is the better choice? im going out tomorrow (sunday) night:
Filet Mignon10 oz or 14 oz
Free Range Chicken Breast Lemon Thyme Sauce
Grilled Tuna Steak with Oriental Vegetables
and Soy Ginger Sauce
Grilled Salmon Fillet with Baby Vegetables and
Creamed Dill Sauce
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| 4 is the magic # |
[05 Apr 2008|06:59pm] |
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i wore my size 4 jeans to the girls 4 month dr. appointment today. grant it, they were roomie ann taylor pants, not my size 27 citizens, but hey - its a start!
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| LOCO |
[03 Apr 2008|01:23pm] |
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bought a pair of size 6 pants at ann taylor loft yesterday.
my stomach is obscene. i hate it. i do pilates daily & still it remains.
9 pounds by memorial day.
I haven't had pnut butter in weeks
*passes out*
sample menu:
brekkie:bottle of water
oatmeal & eggwhites w green tea
snack 1:
coffee
kashi granola bar or banana
lunch: zero points! cup of progresso soup
soy dog, no roll w mustard
celery & red peppers cut up to munch on
more green tea & bottle of water
snack 2: apple & or activia (green tea or water)
dinner: tipapia or chicken
green beans or spinach salad
sweet poptato or cottage cheese
another bottle of water
dessert: orange & vanilla nut tea w splenda
This is sort of the plan right now. Like I said I sneak a walk when I can. Do Denise austen DVD & take a pilates class twice a week. God help the poeple who want to chat in my class. I'm like, "let's go damnit ! I have a gut to get rid of!!!!!"
This scared me. http://www.befitmom.com/abdominal_reconditioning.html I stopped doing ab assault b/c I dont want to do crunches wrong & make all this shizzle even worse. I know I had twins & I would be patient if I could be assured it WOULD go away someday. The thought that it never will makes me CRAZY.
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