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[07 Sep 2003|10:51am] |
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okay well this'll be the last entry cause i am realizing how blurty is just one big peice of gay.
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| don't drag me through this again. |
[06 Sep 2003|12:12am] |
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well yesterday was just kind of like yeah... depressing.
excpt for going to funtazia and talking to sam :) havn't talked to him in a long ass time.
today.. well today was great for the most part.
today was friday. let's just say it's not the most favourite day of the week.
x. went to skool (not that bad.)
x. came home and then went straight to the mall.
x. got some stuff.
x. went to some stores.
x. met up with some people.
x. came home and read some books... did some homework in advance (nothing else to do.)
x. hung out with tom (came down for the weekend :).) and matt for a little while. :D :D :D
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| i held a fallen star and it wept for me, dying. |
[03 Sep 2003|11:31pm] |
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today..
x. went to skool. oh joy, back again.
x. walked home with rach but didn't feel to good.
x. watched the boob-tube.
x. talked on the phone with andre and later on tom.
x. went to 8 billion stores cause the gay wanted me to get supplys.
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| the people you knoe are the ones you hate. |
[31 Aug 2003|08:32pm] |
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well since i have a half house before i go out i'll tell you the "highlights" of hershy..
x. it took 3 hours to get there.
x. went straight to hershy park and me and craig went off on our own after a while.
x. went on a total of 4 rides cause me and craig are dorks and couldn't find any of the good ones until the end when they closed the park early.
x. bought solid chocolate big fucking hershy kisses and made a plan.
x. we freze the kisses and throw them at people while were in tress and kill them.. but tis the perfect crime cause we can eat the evidence. muahahaha. "so how'd yer brother die?." ..... "a hershy's kiss."
x. went to the hotel and yeah my mom gave me an early b-day present..
x. the gay got me a video camera.
x. i am sooo happy. i've wanted one forever.
x.
next day (friday.)
x. was my birthday.
x. got some phone calls.
x. ate some cake.
x. went out.
x. back to the hotel and played hide and seek lolol. craig got like scared shitless.
saturday.
x. went home.
x. this time it was a 5 hour car fucking ride.
x. got home and went to the nail place.
x. got a mouse for thor. he didn't eat it when me and craig were trying to video tape it.
x. drove craig home.
x. got back and the mouses (douche) tail was sticking out of thor's mouth. yeahhhh.
weeeee now tis sunday.
went with my dad today to celebrate the birthday since i wasn't with him on friday.
oh yeah. i changed "stewys" name to thor.
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[31 Aug 2003|12:54am] |
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wow i just worte a fucking long ass entry about what happened with pennsylvania and everything. and then my comp froze.. so when i feel like it i guess i'll write it again. fuck.
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| the tears keep streaming down her face. |
[27 Aug 2003|11:01pm] |
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well today i have to say was great. :D :D :D
- woke up at nine a fucking clock cause kaitlyn called me. rahh. :)
- woke up and realized that it was mark's birthday.
- wrote out a card (it was nice and gay.) and told him he was old as usual.
- just watched t.v. and read some books cause i was bored.
- i deiced to die my hair black.. and as i was dieing it who deciedes to come over with my birthday present?
- craig and andre! :D
- i got a snnnnnake. they named him stewy. :)
- thanks guys.
- talked to tom on the phone but he wouldn't tell me nor andre what was wrong.
- then we just hung out and watched final detination 2.
tomorroe i'm going to pennsylvania with craig. the gay. danielle. and gorgie. :) i'll be back in a couple of days. were going to hershy park lol ohh the joy of mounds of chocolate. :)
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| no one else can find it for me. |
[25 Aug 2003|11:18am] |
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yesterday.
- smoked with brandon.
- hung out with gen.
- died the hair pink.
- thought a lot.
everything always seems so fucked up. and they when things go and get better tis great. but after a short time of everything being alright everything fucks up again. it's ridiculus. don't you hate it when being fucking sad is all that's there? well i for one am sick of it all.
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| she never read a book but by christ she understood that the meaning of life starts in bed. |
[24 Aug 2003|04:06pm] |
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jesus
fucking
christ
yesterday i got back from fucking camping. i was so stoked about going and when we got there yeah it was rad and everything but aparently i fucked everything up for some people. but you knoe what. oh fucking well. i don't give 2 shits anymore. fuck it.
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| THE LAST DAY. |
[15 Aug 2003|06:41pm] |
WELLLLLLLL. today i am packing. and packing. and finding clothes that i didn't even knoe i had. and uh.. yeah packing. i'm going camping for a week with craig and the family. really tis his family but whatever. wow, my mom's really fucking gay. she's fucking bitching cause she does everything at the last minute when it concerns me. (she's very fucking self centered.) so anyways.. now i am realizing that i really don't have enof shit to bring.. so let me go and serch for more..
bye. for a week. :/ hopfully it'll be fun.. never been camping before except in the back yard.
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| and everyone was dancing. |
[15 Aug 2003|01:21pm] |
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ohh man.
yesterday was fucking gay. but it was fun. i got up at like 12 and the dad was pounding on my front door asking me to baby sit. so i babysat for like 2 hours and then like i was like whatever. it wasn't that bad. excpt for babysitting. yeah.. then i was on the fucking phone with matt and BAM. POWER OFF. what bullshit. so i was playing cards with the grandma for someodd amount of hours. went back downstairs. and then i got the mom to drive me to craigs house and then i slept over. nothing really exciting came out of last night. except for getting lost and just walking around. oh yeah and playing yazze lol. then this morning we woke up and had to carry all shit from the deck to the garagde.. FUN. okay yeah so now i'm home.. and if yer reading this. you can tell i have power. and i have to fucking pack for camping..
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| and it's getting even harder. |
[13 Aug 2003|11:30pm] |
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yesterday..
x. went to gay summer skool for the last day (finally.)
x. took the finals.. hopefully did okay.
x. played cards with the grandman for like 4 fucking hours.
x. get lectured by the gay for like another 109237 hours.
today..
x. woke up late and had to get ready like the fucking flash.
x. the dad drove me to tom's but we got lost for like an hour..gay.
x. went to <3tom<3 's house.
x. we hung out for like 182374174 hours but that's never long enough.
x. Tom I Miss You Sooo Much. All The Love.
x. went home.
x. hung out with Bri and Matt..
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| there's a little boy with a spider in his hand. |
[12 Aug 2003|04:53pm] |
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here's a big
FUCK YOU.
to all of the people that i hate right now.
now that's a lot of fucking people.
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| at last it's finally over. |
[11 Aug 2003|10:40pm] |
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today kinda went like this..
x. i went to gay summer skool which was oppused to be review classes for finals for tomorroe. well in s.s we really didn't do much of anything but not do work and found out our grade for the summer excluding finals. (you would think, right.) i have like a 69. oh what a lucky number. but that means i have to do REALLY good on the final tomorroe. so but since i didn't understand what we were reviewing or what we were doing today.. i doubt brittany's gonna do good tomorroe. and plus i'm studying at the last fucking minute as always.
shit.
then english i knoe what the hell i'm doing so i'm good. and i'll pass the final and everything'll be alright. see at least i have fucking confidence in that class.
so i went home and took a nap after watching some el t.v. :D
but then craig came over. (when is he not over?) and yeah we just hung out. even though he was oppused to help me with studying. opps. oh well. hopefully i'll recelct some stuff when i'm taking the final... again.
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[11 Aug 2003|04:43pm] |
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ra cha cha.
leave me comments douchebags.
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| bordum.. |
[11 Aug 2003|12:01am] |
well i'm fucking tired but can't so go sleep.. soo..
1. Your name spelled backwards: ynattirb.
2. Where were your parents born?: in a tralior.
3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?: coheed and cambria.
4. What's your favourite restaurant?: ihop.
5. Last time you swam in a pool?: ha, i don't even remember.
6. Have you ever been in a school play? yeah i was a bumble beeee.
7. How many kids do you want?: 186132681234
8. What kind of music do you like most?: i listen to alot of hardcore.. either that or indie.
9. Are you registered to vote?: nope.
10. Do you have cable?: yeah...
11. Have you ever ridden on a moped?: no.
12. Ever prank call anybody?: hahah yeah.
13. Ever get a parking ticket?: lol jamie.
14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?: of course.. and already been bungrr jumping.
15. Furthest place you ever traveled?: florida? or vermont.. which evers further. no maine! i don't knoe.
16. Do you have a garden?: ugh, yeah. the gay likes to garden.
17. What's your favourite comic strip?: zits!
18. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?: haah no.
19. Bath or shower, morning or night? bath, night.
20. Best movie you've seen in the past month?: gay.
21. Favourite pizza topping?: cheese.
22. Crisps or popcorn?: popcorn.
23. What color lipstick do you usually wear?: pink or brown.
24. Have you ever smoked peanut shells?: lol, uh no?
25. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?: hah, no.
26. Orange juice or apple?: apple.
27. Who was the last person you went out to dinner with and where did you dine?: umm with rach and ellen, friendlys.
28. Favorite type of chocolate bar?: plain old hersheys.
29. Last time You Polled? uhm. pole danced?
30. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?: never.
31. Have you ever won a trophy?: hah softball when i was like 5.
32. Are you a good cook?: easy mak, motherfucker.
33. Do you know how to pump your own gas? yeah.
34. Ever order an article from an infomercial?: of course.
35. Sprite or 7-Up?: sprite.
36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work?: nope.
37. What was the last thing you bought at a pharmacy?: candy.
38. Ever throw up in public?: ahaha yeah.
39. Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?: millionare.
40. Do you believe in love at first sight?: yeah.
41. Ever call a 1-800 number? lolol yeah.
42. Can exes be friends?: sometimes.
43. Who was the last person you visited in a hospital?: me and tom just went to the hospital to cheer up the sick kids.. does that count?
44. Did you have a lot of hair when you were a baby?: i had like red/blonde crazy hair.
45. What message is on your answering machine?: music i think.
46. What's your all-time favorite Saturday Night Live Character: oh shit, the guys from goth time.
47. What was the name of your first pet?: i had lots of fishies. i didn't name them but i killed then with my mom's makeup.
48. What is in your purse?: cigerettes, lighter, money, make-up and a pen.
49. Favorite thing to do before bedtime?: scream.
50. What is one thing you are grateful for today? mentos the fresh breath maker.
51. silk or lace? silk.
52.Lucky Day: who knoes.
53.B-day: august 29.
54.Car I want: 64 chevey.
55.car im stuck wit: crack fucking mobile.
56.Favorite time of the Day: night.
57. Favorite kind of weather: winter. snow. death.
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| you almost made me cry again this time. |
[10 Aug 2003|11:39pm] |
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well today wasn't worth explaining.
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| hah well this is gonna be a long entry... |
[10 Aug 2003|12:05pm] |
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WELL WELL WELL. holy shit. yesterday was something i guess you can say remember.
well lets start off with the morning. yesterday i woke up pissed.. (warped tour of course). and then my dad stopped by at like 12 and flipped a shit cause i didn't call him. oh well.
yesterday was mark's 50th surprise party. i didn't wanna go and i wasn't planning on it either. so my mom comes down stairs and tells me that i don't have to go. and i didn't even feel good. so i was just reading and watching t.v and was online for most of the day. so then after the party ended...
mark and my mom come home with fucking launa and greg. greg is mark's brother and well launa is his wife. launa is a alcholic but i love her and we can relate to each other and understand each other. it's crazy. so mark and my mom were like in the back room or something and greg is cursing out launa cause she's always drunk and how he wants out of the marridge. and greg's yelling at me not to get married. it just ruins yer life. and it's gonna be the worst mistake of yer life if you ever get married. DON'T GET MARRIED. he's yelling at me. and i was just like yeah yeah sure sure.
so launa's just sitting there having a cigerette just telling me to ignore him. so i was like yeah i am. so mark sets up the back room for greg and launa and he's just like okay go inside. and so greg goes in. and launa and me are just sitting there talking and having a disscusion. and so mark comes out get inside launa. GO TO BED. he's like fucking yelling at her.
and then after about 2384723 times of mark coming out and telling launa to go to bed and how he can't go to sleep unless she goes to bed and blah blah.. my mom fucking comes out and is all like go to fucking bed launa go to fucking bed with yer fucking husband. and she's drunk off her ass to.
and before all this me and launa are fucking sitting there talking about how we hate having people running our lives and how
we hate how people tell us what to do. and you just want to do yer own thing. and she's sitting there having a cig. and i was just completly understanding her. and i knoe that she was drunk but we were sitting there fucking understanding each other. it was just insane. i'll never forget that conversation.
but then mark finally convinces launa to go to bed after greg comes out and fucking starts yelling at her to. and at this point i just look like i'm wathing t.v..
soo.. about 10 minutes later my uncle frank, aunt dale, cuzin and my little cuzin goergie come over with all the presents and stuff. oh and then i saw bri and matt and all them.. lol. so then the aunt, and 2 cuzins go upstairs ro the grandma's part of the house. and the gay and the uncle are just sitting on the couch talking and launa comes stumbing out of the room holding the side of her head. and i was just like oh shit. so i'm just watching t.v and me and launa start to talk a little again. and my mom's just baffeled.
so launa gets up and puts out her cigerette and mark fucking comes out and is like what the fuck is yer problem launa. get into fucking bed. and she's just like no i don't want to. he just fucking hit me in the side of my head. greg just hit me. and mark just fucking blows it off and she's sitting in the chair that's closest to me, and she's on the vearge of tears and mark is SCREAMING in her face. SHUT THE FUCK OUT LAUNA. YOU TO GREG. THIS ISN'T YER FUCKING HOUSE. SHUT THE FUCK UP LAUNA. SHUT THE FUCK UP.
and at this point i'm fucking crying cause i just fucking hate this guy so fucking much. and i was being a little emo gay yesterday.
so after i went upstairs for i little bit i run downstairs and the gay is in the way and wouldn't leave me alone. and i started just fucking screaming as loud as i could in her face after she fucking shoves me and punches me in the head. and i was just like no fucking way. and i'm just fucking screaming at her. and she's like why do you hate me so much. why do you fucking dispise me.
and i started screaming that it's not about fucking hating her. i was crying and i wanted her to leave me the fuck alone.
and she's just like what the fuck is wrong with you? and i said everything.
so she just fucking stumbles upstairs. and then i'm for a good hour crying and talking to myself like i always do and i'm just fucking crying like there's no fucking tomorroe.
and i was thinking. why does everyone fucking blame the person with a problem? why is mark fucking screaming at launa. she has a fucking drinking problem. do you really think she can have 2 bears and say.. okay no more? no she can't. but she's a fucking adult and can go and ask for help when she needs it...
after all that was over i called craig and i told him everything i just wrote..so then me and craig had this whole thing with fucking joanna. and let's just sum it up too.
personally, joanna is a two-face cold hearted judging son of a bitch.
THEN my fucking ceiling colapsed. yes the fucking whole thing. i was fucking hyterical. i thought it was just absoltuly the funniest thing. good way to end a night. the ghosts fucking reipping my ceiling off. and you knoe how i knoe it was ghosts, cause i was sitting at the computer and the ceiling above my head didn't fall. they like me. so like then i went to sleep after a long fucking night.
then this morning i woke up at like 11 and i got stuck in the ceilive sand trap on my floor lol. it was great to wake up to ceiling everywear. and so i go upstairs and my mom's not home but there's FRUITY PEBBLES on the table. but i didn't eat anything yet and i'm fucking hungry. so i ask jack ass (mark) where my mom was and he just said she went for a ride. so i was just like whatever. and i called her cell and she was at the park. and so the gay said that she told mark that he had to LEAVE. YES YOU HEARD ME RIGHT. LLLLEEEEAAVVVVEEEE. omg you don't fucking knoe how happy that makes me. and she said that because i'm her life. and it was "touching" to a certain extent.
wow.
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[08 Aug 2003|11:07pm] |
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today..
x. read some edgar allen poe poems.. i heart poe..
x. craig came over
x. watching the jungle book 2!!!!
x. got reasons to hate mark even more.
x. and found out that britt isn't going to fucking warped tour tomorroe. wow that REALLY fucking sucks.
yesterday..
x. went to skool.
x. hung out with rach.
x. went to the el home.
x. went to craigs house.
x. and yeah went el home again.
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