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my entire fucking journal entry just got erased including a poem i just wrote. im so pissed. good bye
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[14 Nov 2007|04:56pm] |
fuckkkk. last night me and my boyfriend got into our first HUGE FIGHT....it was nuts and al this fucked up stuff was said that we didnt mean...iv felt completely numb all day...i love him n i no he loves me...
so please...lyrics about being sorry.
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[21 Oct 2007|07:01pm] |
I’ll sing alone
the whole night through.
While you sleep safely,
I’ll be thinking about you.
You have my attention.
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[10 Jun 2007|08:54pm] |
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god i love summer.
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[03 Feb 2005|07:31pm] |
i love you.
things with the jonathan love are well, i was there the past 2 weekends and ti was alot of fun, now i miss him alot because i wont see him for like 22 days...but hey whose counting haha
i just got yelled at. bye
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[27 Jan 2005|10:27am] |
its the end of the semester so finals r crazy and final projects r stressin everyone out. thank god that i finished all my stuff today or i woudl go nuts, i had a whole powerpoint i had to do wher ei had to interpret someone inmy classes poem, i had a writing portfolio with a 2 pages relfection, i had a 3 page paper, and i had a parady of an ad that me ny mypartner made a commercial. on top of that i got 2 tests on monday but the good thing is that tomorrow n monday r half days and i am going to jons this weekend again thank god, i miss him already i cant wait to see him.
For they are beautiful
For they are love
They are infinite
and never enough
they are warm
and they are one
for they are perfect
end never done
they are keeping
eachother up and down
Like a perfect turnover
For their love is never over..
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[25 Jan 2005|09:45am] |
your smile is the only thing that keeps me breathing.
The hours pass by like minutes when I'm with you.
The hours pass like minutes in the rain.
So lets stand here in the rain forever.
i have not updated in a while, been real busy.
i was at jons all weekend and i miss him so much already. i love my boyfriend :)
we got to the station n my train was cancledd so i thought "awesome one more day with oyu, it will be perfect" but my mom said since i had school on monday i had to go home ior she would of let me stay another day, so i caught another train that was delayed and of course at 9 oclock my mom called me "meg...you dont have school tomorrow imsorry" i was so upset, when i was on that train all i wanted was to be back with jonathan in connecticut where everything feels so perfect. so the trsin ened up gettin stuckn onm the tracks and we were stalled for 2 extra hours, i didnt get back to newark till 1130pm sunday and back at my house till 1 in the morning. worst night ever. on top of that i felt so bad cuz my dad was waiting for me and i just wanted to be back in connecticut or at least home in ym bed crying about how bad i missed my boy...
but instead i was forced to sit on this packed train thinking of where i wanted to be more than anything...in jons arms falling asleep.
31 days.
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[18 Jan 2005|04:09pm] |
goin to see my baby on friday, i cant wait, i miss him alot cuz yea it been shitty. i love pms. love it.
great song been in my head alllll day....
Led Zep
Measuring a summer’s day,
I only finds it slips away to grey,
The hours, they bring me pain.
*tangerine, tangerine,
Living reflection from a dream;
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[12 Jan 2005|07:41pm] |
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lately it feels like i cant even help myself, i need you so bad and the arguing is keeping me from being the person i want to be to you. Everything can be so perfect at times, and those are the times id like to remember. Sometimes i stay up all night going through all the things ive done wrong in my head, what i should of said, and what i shouldnt have and then i think of what you should of said or shouldnt have and i get angry and upset because all i want is that fairytale ending. i know the true love is there, and i wish you understood that nothing in this whole world could keep me from loving you for all that you are. i need this so much...
prométame por favor para siempre...quiera por favor esto.
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[09 Jan 2005|04:34pm] |
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let me appologize a million times for not writing in weeks. to tell u the truth i was fuckin lazy and so much has happened that i cant even describe it all. jon and kim were here for christmas. jon got me this gorgous necklace with half karat diamonds and 10 k white gold. beautiful.
i went to jons house on the 29th and stayed there for new years. new years was a fuckin blast, partied it up with the connecticut kids whiel the whole night they called me jersey girl and i taught them what "breaking the seal was. what a great time haha. bond fired and people who can barely walk. funnny shit and my kinda new years party. of course the best part was my new years kiss from jonathan, yea it was damn good. when i had to leave his house it really sucked. thats the only bad thing about our relationship, when we have to wat until next time to see eachother, but hey im strong and so is he, weve made it almost 7 months now and ive never been happier. its unbelievable. i love you
so when i got back it sucked. becuase one, i left jon and 2 kim was gone and while she was here it felt like old times cuz we laughed about the same shit we woulda laughed about in 7th grade and on top of that her and jon loved each other and its always awesome when the best friend and the boyfriend get along so i was fuckin happy. i came home on sunday night to have a fucking 100.8 fever and strept throat. lets just say i miss monday and tuesday of school, lost 5 pounds from not being able to eat, and had to take a 875 milligram pill of amoxacilin, and might i add that the pill was huge, it was like a damn horse pill. yea not a fun 2 days back. idk jon thought i was love sick, but i think the real case is that i had so much fun over christmas break, that it was so worth it to get sick haha. whatever. i got back to see my babe in 2 weeks. cant wait. i got to go though. theres the last couple of weeks in a nutshell. im sure i left out alot but whatever i guess those are the highlights. hot.
oh yeah, friday i got season 3 of sex n the city and seasons 1 and 2 of saved by bell, to complete my saved the bell collection i now have saesons 1 through4. awesome i know. how can i resist my childhood loves?
time for a fun filled time at the hibachi steakhouse with mom and brother.
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[25 Dec 2004|02:04pm] |
yay merry christmas!!!!!!
my top 2 favorite presents would have to be my mini ipod and my digital camera that is fuckin sweeeet!!!
yay for christmas!!!
jonathan is goin to be here tomorrow and so r my grandparents and i will finally see kimmy! i love christmas break.
oh and i cant wait to exchange gifts with all my girls n my jonny boy.
you make me wanna lala
in the kitchen on the floor.
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[23 Dec 2004|07:36pm] |
you cover up your face
as if its covered in makeup
you say you look terrible without your mask,
but i still think you look like a doll.
like shimmering in the sun
or even drowning in thick water,
either way it wont ware off.
1 day till kimmys here
2 days till christmas
3 days till jonathans here
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[23 Dec 2004|03:25pm] |
you make me wanna
la la
in the kitchen on the floor.
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[22 Dec 2004|10:01am] |
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i have not written in this journal in a while considering the time i have now adays which is about none. work school and everything else keeps me away from relieveing my tension and thoughts that this journal often consumes and keeps me level, maybe thats why i have been so stressed out lately, ormaybe i just want christmas to come right now. only 2 days till kims here and 3 days till christmas and then 4 days till jon is here and i just want those days to come right now.
harry came home yesterday, it was real exciting, i was doing college apps and he ran in through the door and screamed my name n gave me a big hug, then we wrapped presents together, i showed him what i got everyone, except for him of course.
today is 6 months for jon and i and i love it, i am so happy about it, and the best part is, this is just the beginning and thats awesome. i love you hunny.
And tonight, I close my eyes and dream that he
is still the one, laying there beside me
I'd walk a thousand miles
I'd swim across the sea
What do I have to do, please just tell me...
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[16 Dec 2004|10:28am] |
everyday i love him just a little bit more, a little bit more, a little bit more, everyday i love him just a little bit more
6 days till 6 months :)
8 days till kimmy is here :)
10 days till jonathan is here :)
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havnt written in a while cuz nothing ever goes on anymore, i visited harry at rehab, hes doing so good, im really proud of him n yea it feels good to say that considering i havnt said that in like a year.
me jill n ellie did r senior ad, wow "so many pictures" i know haha everyone is sayin that. it looks awesome though, i cant wait to see the yearbook this year cuz its like devoted to seniors.
kim will be here in 8 days
Jon will be here in 10
i am sooooooooo excited!
i got my hair cute and highlighted yesterday, i like it alot and i got contacts finally. i love it. cept theyf eel really weird. i still feelthem hopefully i iwll get used to them soon.
Somethin' in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms.
There's somethin' in your voice, makes my heart beat fast,
Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life.
You get me
When nobody understands
You come and take the chance, baby
You get me
You look inside my wild mind
Never knowing what you'll find
And still you want me all the time
So what if I see the sunshine
In the pouring rain
Some people think I'm crazy
But you say it's okay
You've seen my secret garden
Where all of my flowers grow
In my imagination
Anything goes...
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[10 Dec 2004|10:16am] |
Starry, starry night
The silver beams the only light
Summer breeze, summer dreams
Float over me
The stars frame his silhouette
Beauty steals away my breath
This moment will last forever, forever
Forever
There is no time but now
There is nowhere else but here
Time has lost its grip tonight
Beautiful enchantment
I just might hold him, hold him close
Never let him go
There is no time but now
There is nowhere else but here
When all else is cold
The warmth of holding him near
Tonight the stars in his eyes
Outshine the stars in the sky
Tonight love is in his eyes
I'll hold, hold him close tonight...
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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[08 Dec 2004|10:05am] |
It doesn't make it easier.
It doeasn't make it easier to be away.
I'd like to hire a plane.
I'd see you in the morning,
when the day is fresh.
I'm coming home again.
Ther's pillows in their cases
& one of those is mine.
And i wrote the words I love you,
& sprayed it with perfume.
It is better than the fire is
to heat this lonely room.
i miss you...
15 days till schools out
16 days till christmas eve
17 days till christmas
18 days till kim is here
18 days till jonny is here
wow do i love count downs.
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[06 Dec 2004|09:51am] |
please dont ask me what i love about you
cause its every little thing you do
and thats just the way you make me feel
this weekend was kinda sucky cuz i had so much shit to do, friday i didnt do much i was so fuckin tired cuz i had SATS on saturday morning. so yea i did that on saturday morning and i had to get up so early.
then saturday after SATS i went o my sister cheer banquet and then i took like a 3 hours nap that was amazing and then jill came over, we wnt out for sushi and jill thought miso soup was called mim soup, funny shit and she burped so loud in front of like all these people, i sware i cant take that hoe anywhere haha. so funny tho. the food was mad tasty as usual.
then we chilled at my house and we were danincg n singing like retards as usual haha and then we went to pick up kayla at her health quest dance and it was funny as hell seein all these little 7th graders n 8th graders dancing like idiots haha. hmmm sunday i had work from 10-4 and that sucked then i went home n i chilled. talked to jon on the fone for a while. i miss him alot. :(
kimmy and jonathan are here in 20 days! yay!
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sometimes i get the feeling
that i won't be on this planet
for very long
i really like it here
i'm quite attached to it
i hope i'm wrong
all i really wanna say
is you're the reason i wanna stay
i loved you before i met you
and i met you just in time
'cause there was nothing left
i miss you more than anything. 23 days. ily
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIMBERLY DEE YOUNG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fucking 18 and legal! uh oh....i love you bitch! cant wait till your here on the 26th.
aww im so happy 2 of my favorite people will be here the 26th, kim and jonathan and then it will be all my girls n my boy here i am so excited. i cant wait to give all my friends family and boyfriend there xmas presents, i love giving christmas presents. jill and nicole know what i got them but they love it haha.
SATS tomorrow morning, im up for death haha i hate the SATS. blah die.
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