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depressed| More.... | ||||
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 Protector The ULTIMATE personality test brought to you by Quizilla  Wind The Force of Nature Quiz brought to you by Quizilla  borderline Which Personality Disorder Do You Have? brought to you by Quizilla |
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discontent| More Quizzes | ||||
| 06:21pm 06/12/2003 | ||||
 You're depressed. Really you are. And you definitely have a reason. You often space out and stare at things blankly, even if you're normally hyper and energetic. This is because nothing really seems important anymore. You might just be sad right now, or you might be manic depressive. Don't worry. Have some cocoa and stuff'll be ok. How Depressed are You? brought to you by Quizilla  Blue Angel Right now you are in a time of your life where you aren't doing so good. Nothing is going your way you sometimes wish that you weren't here, but soon enough you know that life is going to turn right around and everything will soon be all good for you. You are a pretty and you need to right now just keep your head up. Write down your problems like as a song just so you can get your feelings out. it will help What Angel are you? (With Pics) brought to you by Quizilla  [[Distant Snowflake]] You're so aloof. while giving some people the cold shoulder may make you look cool, you could be preventing great people from reaching out to you. surprisingly, your chilly demeanor probably comes from insecurity, not a superiority complex. perhaps you are worried that people are unable to accept you for who you are. then these people are probably not worth your friendship. to start breaking down your ice-princess barriers, you could take more small risks like smiling at strangers. and Are You Friendly Or Frosty? (Find out what vibes you are sending out to others around you! Friendly carebear, or Frosty snowman?) brought to you by Quizilla |
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good| A Little About Me | ||||
| 09:22pm 05/12/2003 | ||||
 You represent... angst. You have an extremely cynical outlook on just about everything. It's okay to sulk and be depressed, but life is short, and you only get one. It's only what you make it, and only you can make it improve. What feeling do you represent? brought to you by Quizilla  A GARAGE-GURL. Youre into loud music, hot guys and wild fashions. Youre most at ease when youve got all your mates around you and you like to party. Boys are a game and youre always on the ball because you make sure youre always number one. Your virtues: Confidence, fun nature, sociability. Your flaws: Loudness, jealous tendency, need for attention. What kind of girl are you? brought to you by Quizilla  You are every goth-kids dream! Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You? brought to you by Quizilla  Your Heart is Black What Color is Your Heart? brought to you by Quizilla  You're the sad smile,the one that regrets nearly everything and is constantly wondering about what could have been.You're not happy with your situation and usually blame yourself because of the bad things that have happened.Cheer up. What Kind of Smile are You? brought to you by Quizilla  Your element is Fire. Wild and free. Your emotions lead you everywhere. You are a very passionate person, though sometimes forceful and destructive you have a goal in life, even if that goal is just to make it another day. Fire consumes and purifys, it also protects. There is always caution with fire because once it is started on something there is no telling how much it can destroy. Fire people have the same tendency when mad you could be a candle burning but if someone tips you over... What's your element brought to you by Quizilla  You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and creativity, and usually are highly intelligent. Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs. What Type of Soul Do You Have ? brought to you by Quizilla  You have a dominant kiss- you take charge and make sure your partner can feel it! Done artfully, it can be very satisfactory if he/she is into you playing the dominant role MEORW! What kind of kiss are you? brought to you by Quizilla |
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bored| Worst Nite in awhile | ||||
| 04:22pm 03/12/2003 | ||||
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irritated| Another Bad Day...and People Are Fake | ||||
| 03:03pm 02/12/2003 | ||||
I have so many tests and quizzes this week, not to mention 2 projects! I'm getting way over stressed. I havn't slept much for the past 4 days, and I'm about to lose my fuckin mind! And it snowed today, ARGH...could my day be any worse. |
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aggravated| Another Day in this Life of Mine | ||||
| 05:19pm 01/12/2003 | ||||
I figured out what tatoo I'm gonna get when i'm 18. I'm gonna get "Numb" in Chinese on my lower back. I was before gonna get this thick black out line of a broken heart but I figured ppl won't know what my back will say if I do it in Chinese. Numb is basiclly my life. I don't feel a thing when i get dissed and I can't love or trust anyone. It fits me well. Things are staying the same between me and Dan, I'm really happy about that one. I'm glad he stays to his word, it's like nothing ever happend. I'm so clueless on what to get Mike for his B-day!!! His b-day is in 15 days so i need to think of something and get some money.How would I know what the hell a guy would want for his b-day! Uh money? That's so lame though, i wanna get something really good that he will love since he didn't get me anything for my b-day which i'm still pissed about. He says he loves me and doesn't know what he would do without me but then he doesn't get my anything for my b-day, he had the money, but he decided to buy a pizza for himself the day before my b-day! HOW LOW IS THAT! Then he said he was gonna give me his b-day money! I don't want something he's not realyl giving me, it's more like his parents are giving me $50. God he's an ass! Tomarrow Jessie is gonna give me my b-day present (a month late!) she got me a mistletoe candle (inside joke!) |
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| 06:16pm 30/11/2003 | ||||
Omg yesterday evening at 5:00 Mike came over and I didn't know he would be stopping by, I had my PJs on my hair was all messy and gross, and i had no make-up on. He will prolly never come over again inless he calls first. I don't really care cuz it's mike but i just wonder wat he thought when he walked in. I'll have to talk to him tomarrow since he grounded for lighting his drive-way on fire. |
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drained| Thanksgiving/ Erica's House | ||||
| 11:31am 29/11/2003 | ||||
Friday I went to Erica's house FINALLY. I think it's been about 3-4 months since we last hung out. We went in her hot tub for a lil bit, then got some cheesecake and went downstairs to watch "Night At The Roxbury" L8r that nite we watched most of "Finding Nemo" That movie is gr8! So now i'm back home doing nothing. Waiting for sum 1 to call me, I doubt that will happen since alomst everyone is grounded or still away cuz of Thanksgiving. I think we have Friday off for school. Which would be awsome. Well I'm gonna go watch TV now..... |
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tired| What a weird Nite | ||||
| 08:08pm 26/11/2003 | ||||
So Mike called me this morning and was being gay cuz Timmy was over. So I hung up on him and we havn't talked since. I'm at my moms house today in VT. We made Rasberry Ribbion Pie and Pumpkin Pie for tomarrow. They came out really good. Then we ordered some pizza so fuck you all who say I don't eat, cuz i had 4 slices of pizza, gotta be proud. So now I'm just trying to find something to do cuz this computer doesn't have AOL or MSN just Yahoo messenger and i don't know anyone who has Yahoo. So this sucks. OMG tomarrow i'm going to eat so much, haha, so once again screw you all who think I don't eat! I will be 10 pounds heavier, ha ya right! I went to the dermatoligist Mon. and now i'm on pills for my face, that should clear up very soon. I HOPE! well i'm gonna go play pool now on the net! HAPPY THANKSGIVING! |
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| My heart is confuzzled | ||||
| 03:33pm 25/11/2003 | ||||
I saw michelle today and she kinda yelled at me about my shirt, she said, "God Mary is your shirt small enough?" It was said in a real bitchy way. Im not sure wat that is all about though. I'm going to my moms tomarrow and sleeping over for thanksgiving. It's just gonna be me, her, and my grandma. It should be alright. I'm gonna make two pies...YUMMY! Mike NEEDS to get a haircut, I told him i'm gonna call his mom and tell her to drag him downtown to get his hair cut. It's nasty! I HATE hairy guys. Legs is fine but anything other than that EW! |
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confused| Me and Dan's convo | |||
| 03:17pm 24/11/2003 | |||
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This is a convo I had with Dan last nite, It's was really funny KDevlinNH: bitch! DanTheMAn3384: no UR supposed 2 be MY bitch KDevlinNH: u know im ur bitch, how about tonite? DanTheMAn3384: k KDevlinNH: i'll be thur after i finish my HW DanTheMAn3384: o sure put school over me, overachiever! KDevlinNH: fine then u come ova here DanTheMAn3384: I have HW 2 KDevlinNH: then we're both not screwed DanTheMAn3384: DAMMIT! |
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| Life Suxs | ||||
| 02:46pm 24/11/2003 | ||||
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| 05:48pm 23/11/2003 | ||||
So today I went driving, again! I did much better than yesterday. I'm getting the hang of it now. I also went to Bed Bath & Behond for like an hour looking at pillows! It was so boring, but the guy who had to get on the lader to get one of the pillow was really hott! When I got home I went jogging on my treadmill for an hour! Go me! Now i'm just watching Tv and about to get offline cuz it's boring and no one else is one! |
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calm| Lonely Nite | ||||
| 03:56pm 22/11/2003 | ||||
So ya I went driving today, i did pretty good! I still don't have backing up, it's alot harder than it looks. I take up 2 much space. I can park though thats easy. Tomarrow I think i might go again, it depends of what my aunt is doing. Other than that life it boring, and i hopeing that something will happen any day now.......... It's really hard to be somebody that can take care of everyone else but can't even take care of herself when acknowledged, you're a hazard at school you're just another kid and the one you love doesn't even want to give you a chance and all you can do is sigh, force a smile on your face and look at the glass as half full, not half empty you're running through this endless maze and never finding a way out so you ask yourself sometimes why am i still going? why am i still trying? why am i still loving him? why am i still waiting? why am i not giving up? because i'm not a quitter i'm too determined not to be defeated by my own mind |
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| Another Night | ||||
| 06:26pm 21/11/2003 | ||||
So I talked to Erica today about Sat nite and sleeping over. Her Aunt now doesn't know if we will have to babysit or not, and if she does have to babysit she said "prolly" I can go to. I better be abel to go. I will find out in the morning around 10ish, thats if Erica sticks with her word. I wouldn't bet money on it though! I get to go driving tomarrow! I will learn how to back up and park! I can't wait!!! I luv driving so much! The latin report......i got some of it done but it was mostly taking notes from some paper thing, that I don't even know what the fuck it's about!!! I gotta finish my rough draft on the report tonite. I will be able to get that done cuz it's a friday nite and I have nuthing to the fuck to do! Everyone is grounded or just out somewhere. I dunno where Michelle is tonite though nobody is home. Erica is going to the moose lodge dance, I would go but not enough of my friends go to it. I went 2 weeks ago and didn't have that great of a time, I would have a kick ass time if I had a guy, but I'm working on that one! well i'm out for tonite, let's see what tomarrow brings me........ *Horrid Dreams* Once again I awaken from my horrid dreams, With a broken spirt and wrist slashed to the bone. I can't help but cry out, all because of this terrible pain And then I remember that, as always, I am alone. Another night of nightmares keeps me from my rest, Once again I ponder just when I will heal. But somehow I know that it won't happen So a part of me wishes these dreams were real. I sit here in the middle of the night and cry While the rest of the world takes time to sleep. At least this way there is no one that may come And attempt to interrupt me while I weep. So I sit her quietly, unable to stop the flow of my tears, And the saddest part of it all is that I don't know why. I am not sure if I sit her weeping in fright from my dreams Or is it, I weep becuase I cannot finally die? |
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| Not To Bad | ||||
| 04:05pm 20/11/2003 | ||||
I'm going driving this weekend with my Aunt! I'm gonna learn how to back up and park, hopefully I won't kill anybody this time! Naw, I'm pretty good at driving, only 5 months till i can drive on the road withmy 'rents! I can't wait. Also with my aunt I'm gonna do my Latin report that I have been putting off for the last minute. Last nite I did end up running on my treadmill. I wanted to go for 30 mins. but I got really dizzy so I only went for 20 min. Tomarrow I get to find out if I can sleep over Erica's!!! I better be able to or else i'm gonna be pissed! There nothing I can really do about it but oh well. Well that's allf or today, I'm going to go eat sum cheese and paste thing now! Till tomarrow..... |
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anxious| The Past | ||||
| 06:35pm 19/11/2003 | ||||
*I'm Okay* So bright outside where the sun shines my smile gleaming like there's nothing wrong but I'm I okay on the inside? the rain does fall the thunder strikes my heart this is my inside tears fall down but no one wants to see them they tell me to wipe my eyes I'm just fine but they cant see the inside all they see is what they want to see and what they see is perfect but i hide the secrets of hurting pain pushing aside my struggles But I'm okay... I don't remember if I wrote it or I got it some where. I really like it just doesn't sum up my week but just the past 2-3 years of my life, sad isn't it. but on the brightside...ummm, is there a bright side to my life? I havn't found it yet. But i'm gonna go know and run on my treadmill as soon as my dad goes to sleep which should be very soon.... |
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| Too much | ||||
| 04:36pm 19/11/2003 | ||||
I'm done with my Health project, that must of been the easiest thing i've ever done! But now I have this gay ass Latin report! I've put it off for like a week, and it's due monday, UGH! So I went after school to work on my report cuz i figured I wouldn't do it at home, but Laura and Dan came with me so i only got like one sentence done. We all decicded to go to Dans house. We were all hanging around on the couch, and the i looked outside the window and i saw Dans brother Chad, so me and Laura hid in the clostet! we couldn't stop laughing so Chad found us. Oh well! Then we had a pillow fight, that was dirrrty. My aunt picked me up then I went home, now I gotta go do my report! |
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frustrated| Not as bad as I thought | ||||
| 06:13am 18/11/2003 | ||||
Mike thinks I like Dan. I can see why since me and Dan flirt but it's cuz of the inside jokes we have, we both know we don't like each in that way. Dan and Jessie broke up Friday, and laura's party was Friday but Jessie couldn't go! Fri nite was crazy, I mad that Davy called me a slut! I have to talk to him about that one tomarrow, If i remember.... Erica wants use to hang out and be friends again. I want to be friends, but I just can't trust her. It prolly won't work out that I can babysit with her Sat nite then sleep over. Wheneva we try to make plans it never seems to work out! Just my luck wit that gurl.... Mike, a lier, an ass, a jerk, the list goes on..... I'm tryin to be friends with him again also, but I dunno if I can. He lies SO fucking much, it drives me crazy! L8ly he has been really perverted towards me saying that he wants to see me run on my treadmill, and just other shit. Horny lil shit! I'm out mabey this week will be betta than the past 2 weeks..... |
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