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[07 Jan 2009|10:07pm] |
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Benny Benassi vs. 50 Cent - In Da Club (cruise satisfaction) |
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Tell a friend that she has changed into someone you cannot remember anymore?
Let a friend know that she is totally contradicting herself by doing exactly everything that she said she would never do?
How do you get the message across when that friend constantly avoids any confrontation of problems?
How do you do that without sounding harsh or hurting, when that friends is a good friend who is essentially a very nice person?
I wish I have the answers to the above, as it is disappointing to see a good friend being led the wrong way.
But how?
Do I care too much? Should I just let it go? Maybe that will be a little easier on myself and the friendship?
How?
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| interesting auntie |
[07 Jan 2009|03:15pm] |
The other day I was on the bus and on the way back home from Bedok when a middle aged woman got on halfway and took the seat beside me. I didn't pay anymore attention to her and was minding my own business until she pulled out a PSP from her bag.
What a happening auntie.. i thought to myself.
Curious, I peeped from the corner of my eye just to see what game she's playing and when the screen loaded Midnight Club my eyes widened alittle. Anyway, I decided to spy on her races.
Think she played the game quite often as she seemed to know the check points but i had to do something to control my laughter as she approached her first major bend. Her hands that was holding the PSP totally followed the cornering!
I was like ??!!? 'why are you bringing your PSP towards me?'.
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| friends |
[07 Jan 2009|10:05am] |
during this past month, i realised how little friends i have. i have hundreds of numbers in my phone but less than a handful i can actually call to have a heart-to-heart talk or out to party with.
i'm coming 29 and i'll just use the 200+ friends i have on facebook to work it out. and out of these 200, i can only really count just 10 as my friends. which also means, i am just like a passerby to the other 190.
i quite dislike it that i receive invites to birthdays and weddings but nobody calls me for other celebrations like christmaas, new year's eve or erm, valentine's day..hahah i was joking about valentine's. that would be a date. am i there just to deliver a pressent (i can't afford the obscenely expensive presents like gucci or LVs that i see my friends exchanging. i never ever see them using my presents - too cheap to be on their bodies i guess) or to deliver ang baos?
have i taken my practice of detachment too far? till the extent that i have no more friends to call on? i can't think of anyone to go to if i need some comfort. in fact i'm embarrassed to call on people - the seemingly happy ones, cause they may think i'm a pessimistic person. it's always the same phrase i hear - aiya, don't worry la. it'd be fine.
what am i expecting anyway? a loan? don't think anyone would do that. a hug? most people would find it scandalous to hug someone from a different gender, and hugs are really costly these days. people dispense money more than hugs or smiles these days.
i'm becoming like a tree i feel. people walk pass me, they don't even give a thought about how i'd feel on a rainy day or if there are worms crawling on me. they don't even stop to say hello. who would talk to a tree anyway?
i want to be human, but i've lost the human-ness in me. i can't speak properly to humans. some tend to misinterpret my views and get offended when that's the last thing i'd do. and sometimes, i myself misinterpret signals from others and end up terribly misled. if only people communicate properly like computers - proper encoding and decoding. but it would be utterly boring won't it?
how? i'm totally dissatisfied. haha.
this entry is all about ME ME ME. so self-centred.
oh...i've yet to come up with my new year's resolution. i need to have one so i'll have plans and so that it can be a productiev year for me(hopefully).
okay this has gone on for too long. haha bye.
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| RD |
[07 Jan 2009|03:11am] |
Also known as Senno Chosashitsu, Real Drive is somewhat quite different but yet similar in bits here and there to Ghost in the Shell, Masamune Shirow's other work. Anyway, watching Real Drive i feel like i am playing Second Life again.
Like having mechanical people on a lifeless world.
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| Question 126 |
[05 Jan 2009|04:42am] |
The lights have gone from red to green but there are still people crossing the road. You:
1) ram your engine
2) highbeam them
3) horn them
4) all of the above
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| FTT |
[05 Jan 2009|01:17am] |
Ivan noticed me carrying the Times bag as we exit the bookstore and he asked me what i bought.
I looked at him and then i replied, "something embarassing".
He took the bag from me, pull out the book and saw the title of the book which reads, 'Final Theory Driving Test 570 Questions and Answers- Prepared and set systematically to help you PASS THE TEST'.
He then put the book back into the plastic bag, gave it back to me, look at me for a few seconds and smile weakly.
"yeah, this is abit embarassing". I felt one of my knees giving way.
Anyway.. now that i have this 'aid' i should see no problems passing the next test.
I shall bring this book with me everytime i hit the toilet.
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| time...time after time |
[01 Jan 2009|06:12pm] |
haha i can't help being so anal.
but i wanna say in all your faces...NEH! I TOLD YOU SO.
not everyone la.
but hahah. ok i shall explain myself in a while.
i think time has pretty much told me everything.
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| Back in reality and hola 2009 |
[01 Jan 2009|10:38am] |
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Few hours have gone after the year end party ended
I guess I am supposed to feel super tired and sleeping now
But I am super awake, not a single tireness.
The world sound so quiet at the moment
Just hours ago, it was filled with nothing else but loud music, fun and laughter
Obviously, I am feeling very empty
I missed those who spent the last day of 2008 with me
For a moment, I thought I was in love
Then I realised it's me madly in love with them
So how arh?
You guys are so sexy
=P
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| i don't like such situations |
[31 Dec 2008|09:40am] |
but i'm growing impatient.
i understand everyone goes through a rough patch. so do i.
i always seem to go through one.
but so what? we can only stay down for that long only. we will shift our attention elsewhere after some time. why would we wanna continue digging wounds?
i'm empathetic but how long must we wait before everyone moves on? is it fair to keep everyone waiting without a clue?
where is the passion? oh wait, are we actually on the same wavelength? with the same desires, goals, ideals, dreams and aspirations?
actually, i should not use the word "we". these are my thoughts.
well, try as i might, you would no longer look me in the eye. are you feeling trapped or bored or disinterested?
do you see yourself growing with us in the future? do you still enjoy your time?
if you want a break to think it through, just say it.
i know it's a terrible phase to go through now, and i can never experience the pain you are going through.
i can't find the right words to say anymore. i might lose my temper because the impatience is eating into me.
or are you just lost?
or are we so lousy that you get bored? hahaha.
whatever it is, today is the day to get reborn at midnight.
either you live with the ghost of the past, or you get renewed and start afresh - stronger than ever. think about it.
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| maam maam |
[30 Dec 2008|04:35pm] |
i want to eat:
bibim bap at the place with free flow kimchi
nice warm jap curry - renowned chef has flown back from the UK. hope i get to taste it while he's here. haha.
nicely rolled sushi at whichever place that serves them fresh
some nice pastry.
what else?
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| study and party simultaneously |
[29 Dec 2008|08:06pm] |
it is demanding, but in order to succeed in life, you have to learn how to multi-task.
there is a thought of really giving up now.
so i need this opportunity to dance that thought away and welcome the new year.
several things going on outside and inside my mind right now. i'd say i lack the luck, guts, and perhaps the chances.
so yeah, i wanna lose my mind for just one night. i want to stop the thinking. i don't wanna care too because who cares as much as you? i don't wanna do also, because how much can i do?
i shall let the infinite and omnipotent take over. let it take over while i bow down and surrender.
whatever will be, will be.
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| Moon On The Water |
[27 Dec 2008|03:27am] |
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Sowelu ~ Moon On The Water |
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Sowelu version :
http://www.imeem.com/maepotsessions/music/Unlb7CQX/sowelu_moon_on_the_water_full_moon_sway/
Full moon sways
Gently in the night of one fine day
On my way
Looking for a moment with my dear
Full moon waves
Slowly on the surface of the lake
You were there
Smiling in my arms for all those years
What a fool
I don't know 'bout tomorrow
What it's like to be
Ah...
I was fool
Couldn't let myself to go
Even though I feel
The end
Old love affair
Floating like a bird resting her wings
You were there
Smiling in my arms for all those years
--- End Of Lyric ---
P / S :
Its cold and silent now~ Plus i refuse to sleep~ best mood for such tune~
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