Below are the 18 most recent journal entries recorded in Big Bad's Blurty:

Thursday, January 1st, 2004
8:13 pm	I'm Back! Yeah, I've decided to go back to the Blurty for this entry, because then it's not as public as my other one. So, it's the new year, and with the new year, comes new problems. Remember that whole Jackie situation? Yeah, that's not too promising anymore, at least it's not looking that way right now. I came into that hoping to find someone special, and hopefully have it be the start of something. It's been about 6 weeks since I first met her, and nothing's really changed. Sure, we hang out on occassion, but that's about it. From what I understand, I guess she doesn't want it to go anywhere, which is kind of depressing. I'm so sick of this though, you know? Just once, I want a REAL chance at a relationship with someone normal. Now, you're probably saying "What about Sarin and Krysten and them?" Well, I wouldn't really call the things I had with Sarin real chances, because we were never really given the opportunity to turn it into something. That whole situation with Krysten, yeah, it would help if she wasn't a psycho bitch, but whatever. Every other time I've tried to get something, it's just gone to shit basically. I thought I had a real shot with this one, but that's not the way it' looking right now. And that whole thing with Amy, yeah, that's not looking too promising either, considering I guess she's pissed at me, yet, I don't know what I did wrong. Whatever, hopefully, one of these days, I will be given a true chance to be happy. until then, I guess I'm stuck at home doing nothing. Oh well. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Nirvana - Come As You Are (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 22nd, 2003
4:02 pm	One of the last....... Yeah, I think this is gonig to be one of my last entries, if not the last one for Blurty. Livejournal is so much easier to use, so, I'm going to stick mainly to that one. Also, it's so much more convinient considering all my friends are using it. So, here'e my Livejournal address: www.livejournal.com/users/brotherjonesah/ (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 16th, 2003
12:46 pm	Long Time........ Yeah, it's been a long time since I've updated, and alot has happened since then. We'll start with Friday night. Friday night, I met up with Jackie at the mall, then we went to the movies. We got there around 5:30, but our movie didn't start until 7:40, so we had 2 hours to kill. So, we just drive around for an hour and a half doing absolutely nothing, and going absolutely nowhere. Well, not true. We did make one stop at 7-11, because, you all know you can't go that long in a car without a slurpee. Then, we got the the theater at around 7:10, and went to our movie. We saw Gothika, and it was pretty fucked up if you ask me. Pretty much a ripoff of The Ring, only a bit of a different twist. Of course, Jackie wouldn't know because she was asleep for basically the whole fucking thing. Then, we went back to the mall so I can grab my car and head home. While we were there, Rachel, Kirsten, Neil and Rod show up and just ruin the moment totally. So, we just talked for like 20 minutes. I love how everyone refers to Jackie as "Mark's Jackie". I'm sitting there like "Thanks guys, how comfortable must she feel right now." Then, we said goodbye and I left. Saturday was just a totally badass day overall. In the afternoon, I had Decision Day at Nichols College. I took the tour of the campus, sat in on a class, and did all that stuff. The class was easy as hell, and seriously, if college is that hard, it looks like I'm gonig to do pretty damn well. The only bad point is that there is not one track team, which sucks. However, Illio's applying there, so if he gets in, we'll probably room together, which will be badass. Then, I found out I got in. THAT'S RIGHT, I'M A FUCKING BISON BABY!!!!!!! WOOOHOOOO!!!! GO ME!!!! Yeah, then I hauled ass over to the Worcester State campus to watch the end of the Superbowl, which we ended up winning. OH YEAH!!! Then, I hung out at Funk's house, and they took me out for dinner as a celebration. Then, I went back to Funk's house, and we played Nintendo all night. That's vintage if you ask me. We played like 4 games of Tecmo Bowl. Any time you have Bo Jackson and Marcus Allen in the same backfield going against Walter Payton, you know you have a great game in the making. Then we played Paperboy for a little while. Then, I went home. These last two days haven't really been too exciting. I watched football all day Sunday, then yesterday I had practice, then came home and slept for 3 hours. Today during lunch though.......just wow, I thought me and Dave were going to go nuts on each other. Oh, wait, we did. I'm sorry, anytime anyone says that Bledsoe is a bad QB, I just have to go nuts in defense. Seriosuly, you can't deny that he's a good QB. He's not mobile by any means, but he still is accurate, and he still has a strong arm. Not to mention he can lead a team when they are down to victory. Oh well, we'll get into that later on. Current Mood: bored Current Music: Nirvana - Smells Like Teen Spirit (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 11th, 2003
5:26 pm	40'9" Yeah, yesterday was our first track meet. I love how we had only 4 days of practice before it, not to mention we're missing 12 people because they're still playing football. We would've had a nasty team Wednesday if we had the football players, we probably would have had a good chance of winning the Relays too, but oh well. Yesterday we basically got slaughtered in every event. We came in second in the 4x4, which I believe is the only place we got. I think I had a good day. I threw the best I ever had, with a throw measuring 40'9", not too shabby if I do say so myself. Oh yeah, then on the bus, we realize that we're missing someone, who is in 3 events. So, coach is like "We need someone for high jump.", so I jokingly put my and am like "Let me do it coach." Sadly enough, he actually put me in there. I'm telling you it was a riot. Ever seen a 230lb kid dive over a high jump bar? It's a sight to be seen. I even cleared opening height too, which I was shocked by. I was also named as one of the captains of the team. I'm glad about that, all the hard work I've put in the last two years is paying off. Then, I came home and called Jackie, talked to her for like a half hour, then I went to bed, because I was so dam tired. Today was basically a boring day. Nothing special happened, nothing out of the ordinary. We had the Spanish debate today. I'm on the jury which makes my job so damn easy. I knid of wish I was on the "Against" side of it instead of Josh though, because then, they'd actually had a solid team. But, seriously, that kid has no idea what he's doing. All he did was go up there and say that everyone has the right to live, because it's in our Constitution and in the Declaration of Independence. Holy shit, what a weak argument! The least he could've done was bullshit his way through it. I just feel so bad for Sarin, Marlena, Diane and Robyn, because they're suffering because that kid sucks at Spanish. I think I could have at least given a decent argument, better than his at least. So, here I am sitting at home doing nothing. This weekend should be good though. Friday, I'm hanging out with Jackie, I don't know what we're doing yet, but it should be a good time. Saturday, I have my interview with Nichols, which I'm kind of nervous about, but I should get in. Then, I have the Superbowl to go to at 3:30, WOOLIE PRIDE! Then, I'm not sure what I'm doing Sunday, if anyone wants to make plans, let me know. Lataz. Current Mood: chipper Current Music: Nirvana - Smells Like Teen Spirit (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 8th, 2003
10:49 am	THIS SUCKS! Yeah, I haven't updated in a few days, so we'll go back in time a few days and see what happened. Friday, I went to the Solomon Pond Mall with Sarin and Nikki, not the original plan, but it works. Then, I came home and got my car, then I went to pick Matt up for yet another trip to the mall. There, I was Matt's wingman, so while he was off with his gf, I had to occupy Erin, which wasn't really that bad ;). Then, we hauled ass back to Matt's house, and we played videogames all fucking night. We beat the hell out of LOTR: Return of the King, and then we started a franchise in NFL Fever (Billy Mac, you know). Saturday, I came home and did nothing all day because I felt like shit. Then Sunday I watched football all day, while I still felt like shit. Today, I stayed home from school because, once again, I feel like shit. I'm seeing a reoccuring theme here. Then, later on today, I have to go to practice, because we have a meet on Wednesday, and I am so not ready for it. Our whole team isn't. It also doesn't help that we won't have Tetzel, Belliveau, Hebert, or Lavallee because the Superbowl got moved until Saturday. Yeah, this week is going to suck royally, but oh well. Current Mood: sick Current Music: OMC - How Bizarre (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, December 5th, 2003
11:24 am	THE FRUG!!!!!! Yeah, last night I went to the mall with Kait, Tim, and Amy. Kait had this great idea that since I got turned down just two nights ago to set me up with someone last night. And to be honest, it wasn't bad. We hung out at the mall for a while, then we hit up Wendy's. Then we headed back to the mall, because we were bored, and Amy wanted to buy some earrings. Yeah, that was fun. Then I went to FYE and bought El Parque Jurasico. That's right, I actually found Jurassic Park in spanish. Boo fucking yeah. Then I came home and did nothing all night. Today's been pretty badass. I didn't do as well as I hoped on the Law quiz, but I still got a 90. I got out of Physics for like 10 minutes to go home and grab my English article. Then, in Spanish, we watched the Frugal Gourmet. In case you haven't seen it, it's a riot. You have this 50 year old minister trying to cook spanish dishes, and he has no idea what he's doing. According to him, a double "a" in spanish makes a "y" sound, and tapas, as in tapas bar, is spelled "T-O-P-A-S". I don't know about that one. Also, he loses everything that he sets down, except for his white wine and cheri. Every dish he makes has to have some cheri in it. He also doesn't know that a "dash" of something doesn't mean alot. He just makes the most random comments when he's cooking too. Apparently if you don't do something correct, he's going to hunt you down and find you. Also, he can basically do whatever he wants because he's the Frug. I also just found out that tonight I'm a wing man for my friend Matt. You all know what this calls for: This chick's rockin' our bro, on the dance floor, But she's towing an anchor, A junior investment banker, Who's talkin' about herself and not much more, Woooooooooo Wooooooooooooooooooooo, So buy her a beer, It's the reason your here, Mighty Wing Man, You're takin' one for the team, So your buddy can live the dream. Wing Maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan. Current Mood: hungry Current Music: Lost Prophets - Shinobi vs. Dragin Ninja (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 3rd, 2003
9:58 pm	Sometimes........ You know, sometimes you just look back at something, and you're just like "What the fuck was I thinking?" or "Why the fuck did I do that?". Yeah, I'm having one of those moments right now. Yeah, to sum it up, "PULL!" *gun firing* *shattering sound*. In case you didn't catch that, I just got shot down tonight. I just sit back and wonder why I did that. First off, I made a move on her in Bill's car, which I thought was the right thing to do, because it seemed like we were both into each other. Mistake #1. Mistake #2, telling her what I think about her, and my feelings towards her way too early. But, not all is lost I guess, we're still going to be friends, and who knows? Maybe someday down the road........then again, maybe not. She said she's just really confused right now, and I guess I am too to some extent. I should've known this was going to happen. Feelings were just flying way too fast this time. I should've listened to the people around me, not of fallen this quickly, oh well though. Strangely enough though, I am taking this much better than I thought I would. I think I just prepared myself for it better this time. Maybe I'm just used to this. Who knows, whatever it is, I guess it's not a big deal, just part of being a teenager. Maybe in my heart, I was just so excited about there being someone new in my life I may have a chance with that didn't see some of the signs. Anyways, I got stuff to do. lataz. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Red hot Chilli Pappers - Under the Bridge (Comment on this)
12:24 pm	7-11!!!!!! Yeah, dude, what is sweeter than leaving school ni the middle of the day to go get a slurpee? I do believe the answer is nothing. Yeah, so that's what I did during study. Anyways....... Yeah, this past week has been decent. Track started on Monday, which is sweet. It's my last year of track, which sucks. But, I should be the second best shot putter in the league, unless LaCriox got incredibly good in the last 6 months. Lane's still got me beat by about 6 feet, but I can deal with being second best. I also start hurdles today, which should be fun. I love how I'm one of two people on the track team to go over a hurdle. That's just sad. I'm excited though, we should have a really strong Winter team. We finally have sprinting in Tetzel, Belliveau (Jordan), and LeBlanc, which is the one thing we've been lacking in previous years. Colin should be doing really well in the distance races, as well as Berube. Lavallee is one of the best long sprinters in the league, and nasty in high jump, so he'll be scoring some big points. I got the shot put part of our team covered, so we won't be doing too bad in that. ur weakness this year is hurdles, with Hebert and myself. But all around, we should be really good. Northbridge still has some good athletes, and so does Grafton, but I don't think they are as well rounded as we are. Anyways, here I am sitting in Digital Photography, doing absolutely nothing. Bill was right though, a journal is such a great time killer in this class. Oh well, tonight I have to go to Sears and get my mom's present, then my shopping is done. Then I'm going to come home, and rest up my legs, because practice is going to suck. Who even makes a team run outside when it's this fucking cold out? What the fuck? Oh well, have to suck it up and deal. Because, when life throws you lemons, throw them back and say "Fuck You". Lataz. Current Mood: sore Current Music: Guns N' Roses - Welcome to the Jungle (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 2nd, 2003
11:46 am	Yeah...... If you were to make a CD with your favorite 20 songs ever, what would they be? 1) Stone Sour - Bother 2) Linkin Park - My December 3) Foo Fighters - Everlong 4) Godsmack - Serenity 5) Metallica - Unforgiven II 6) Guns N' Roses - November Rain 7) Guns N' Roses - Welcome to the Jungle 8) Switchfoot - Meant to Live 9) Metallica - One 10) Disturbed - Down with the Sickness 11) Spineshank - Synthetic 12) Powerman 5000 - When Worlds Collide 13) Boxcar Racer - There Is 14) Nirvana - Smells Like Teen Spirit 15) Nirvana - Come As You Are 16) Nirvana - Lithium 17) Systematic - Beginning of the End 18) Mudvayne - World So Cold 19) Micheal Jackson - Thriller 20) Metallica - Turn the Page The three most overrated band ever are: 1) Aerosmith 2) The Beatles 3) Alice in Chains The three most underrated bands right now are: 1) Spineshank 2) Systematic 3) Epidemic The top three CDs that you own from start to finish are: 1) Nirvana - Nirvana 2) Metallica - Metallica 3) Systematic - Somewhere in Between (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 30th, 2003
5:29 pm	Apparently My Ego Has Gotten Huge? Yeah, from what some people have said to me lately, my ego has gotten gigantic ever since I was voted as Vice President of Student Council. Now, I may want to take some pride in what I've done, but I truly don't think I have a huge ego. Excuse me for doing many things no one else does, including tasks that are the other officers responsibilities. Now, how could I know that thy should be doing this? Oh, I know, because I re-wrote the Student Council By-Laws, which has a list of all the jobs they need to perform (with alot of help from Bob McDonald, who originally wrote them, so props to you big guy). Last time I checked, the School Store was totally the responsibility of the Treasurer, who is Sarah. From what I've observed, it's been the Julia/Tom/Andy show when it comes to the School Store. Who goes up to EM Screen and orders all the stuff, designs all the stuff, and drops off all the checks to pay for it? I do believe that's either Julia or myself. Who runs the School Store during football games? It has been Andy and myself for the most part, with help from people like Chris, Jason, Kathryn, and and Paul. I don't see Sarah's name anywhere in there, I don't know about you. Also, how long does it take to find out how much money is in our treasury? You'd think a day, maybe two days tops, but it took her more than three fucking weeks to find out. Now, onto Laura, who does a great job organizing everything in the filing cabinet, doing "Thank You" letters, and getting lists of people in the committees. Also, she doesn't come to any committee meetings after school. But, when it comes to attendance, she started off really shaking, but is getting better at it. But, when it comes to the meetings online Tuesday night, neither her nor Sarah say anything. Now, many of you probably think I'm lying. You know what, check it out. We have every meeting printed out and saved. Look at them, and you'll see I'm right. Now, when it comes to Ryan, he's a good officer when it comes to ideas, and he is dedicated. The only problem is he can't make it to any meetings because of practice, which is undertandable. Julia is a good president, I'm not taking anything away from her. My only problem with her is that she doesn't make it to the meetings on time, which annoys me because I'm all about punctuality. Now, I won't sit here and make myself look perfect. I have missed a meeting online last Tuesday because of problems with my computer, and I didn't make some after school meetings because I either forgot about them, or I figured I was not needed. Here's a list of some of the things I've done though: - Re-wrote the By-Laws - Designed, Ordered, and Sold the stuff for the School Store - Take inventory once every two weeks for the School Store - Made an inventory spreadsheet of all the stuff for the School Store - Made a budget for Student Council - Made a spreadsheet of the attendance, which includes lates and tardies - Basically ran the Can Drive - Helped out with the New Point System - Made a sheet for the New Point System - Went to both Parents' Nights - Went out and bought decorations for the Halloween Dance right before the dance There are some other small littles things that I didn't bother listing too. Now, if all of you want to go around and say I have a big ego now, go right ahead. I seriously don't care. I only have to deal with you for another six months, then I never have to see you again. I know what I do, and I do think I deserve some credit for what I've done. But, if anyone is mad at me for having a "big ego", oh well. I guess you really weren't my friends in the first place. Because if you were, you'd be proud of me for what I've done. But, let me tell you something, ask almost any one of my close friends, and they know what 've done, and yeah, I do get pissed about it. That's because I shoudn't be doing all this, other people should step up and help me out, which Andy and Julia have done. Ask Frankie J, this is the best set of officers he's ever had, which he has repeatedly stated publicly. But, you almost never hear him say it's the best council, because the council barely does anything. So, if any of you have any problems, tough. I truly don't care. Confront me with them if you'd like, but it won't do you any good, because nothing will change. When my close friends come to me with problems, maybe then I'll change, but not until then. Lataz. Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: Limp Bizkit - Break Stuff (17 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 29th, 2003
6:32 pm	This is My December, This is My Time of the Year Yeah people, that's right, December is right around the corner. All of you are probably excited for Christmas and whatnot. But, December also marks the beginning of indoor track, which I am looking forward to like you have no idea. My last indoor track season, which means no more running in the halls for practice, and no more fights in the boys bathroom. December has been good to me in the past years. First off, there's Christmas and Christmas Break. December has also usually good with relationships for me. Sarin and I started dating in Decembver back in 10th grade. Last year, I started going out with Krysten in December. Now, I know your all saying that both those turned out bad, but in December, everything was good. And look once again, a new December, and new relationship budding (hopefully, *crosses fingers*). Today was alright, nothing special happened. I went to shoot pool with Johnson and Ethier, and that was the highlight of my day. Yeah, Johnson and I started playing one handed pool, and even though it was hard as hell, we're both pretty good at it, and it's fun. Now, I'm sitting here listening to some sweet music, basically what I do everyday. Tonight doesn't look to appealing. No one's home, so that means I really can't go out. Lataz. Current Mood: grateful Current Music: Linkin Park - My December (Comment on this)
12:23 am	I'm too fucking short! Yeah, so tonight was the V-Dance at Shepherd Hill. Not exactly a bad time, probably one of the best times yet this year. I think that was mainly due to the person I went with. Yeah, I got to her house, and I realized that I was the shortest out of me, Jackie, Bill and Emily, so for our pictures, I actually stood on a book to make myself look taller. Yes, most of you are saying pathetic, but hey, I don't care. I had the most beautiful date there, there wasn't even any competition. Also, I got humiliated more tonight than I have in a while. See, for the pictures they had, there was a jungle plant, going along with the jungle theme (however, they didn't play Welcome to the Jungle by Guns n' Roses, strange). Yeah, so when we get ours done, Jackie's like "I want him hiding in the bushes", so here I am, hiding behind the bushes for our professional picture. Meanwhile, everyone's looking at me and laughing, and that's all I could do was laugh. It was funny though, I'll look back on it and laugh so many times. The only bad part of the night was that Jackie kept on disappearing. Like, I'd turn around, and she'd be gone, it was crazy. However, at least she wasn't always running off to the bathroom or was like pissed at me like one of my other dates. Then, I had to drive Jackie to Marlena's, which was fun. We got to spend some time alone together, which is always nice. Yeah, I seriously think I'm falling a little too hard a little too fast with this one. I mean, she's everything I could want in a girl. She's more than beautiful, has a great sense of humor, doesn't care what anyone else thinks, and most of all, has a great personality. I just wish I knew how she felt about me, it'd make everything so much easier. Hopefully, something more than friendship will come from this. Anywho, I have to being off to bed now. Lataz. Current Mood: tired Current Music: Metallica - The Unforgiven II (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 26th, 2003
6:51 pm	WOOLIE PRIDE!!!! Yeah, today, was the basic day at MHS. However, it was the final episode of "La Catrina", which, I'm sorry to say is maybe the last time I'll ever see Santana and laugh at his lame attempts to follow Jamie. After school, I was tuck in Frankie J's office doing attendance for Studnet Council. Now, since I wrote the by-laws, I do believe that task belongs to our Secretary, but once again, I have to pick up the slack. Seriously, like Julia, Andy and I do most of the work for SC, and it's starting to piss me off that no one else helps out. Then, originally, Jackie and I had plans, but she made plans with her friends, which is perfectly fine, no big deal, so I hung out with Kait. We basically sat there for about 45 minutes watching her brother mow down people in Vice City with the Gattling Gun, which was badass. Then we headed to the mall with Ted. Now who do we see pass us but our old friend Krysten. So, kait calls her and wonders where she was going, and then she tells her we're going to the mall. As we were walking to my car to get my wallet, which I forgot, who do we see in the mall but Krysten. How convinient that she was going the opposite way when we saw her in her car, but then she appears at the mall like 30 minutes later. So, we walk around, and do nothing. Yeah, it was kind of funny. I was wearing my Woolie Pride shirt, and all of a sudden I hear "I hate the Woolies, they suck. How can you even have Woolie Pride. Tetzel is the most overrated player ever." from behind me, and I'm just like "OMG, what a bunch of fucking retards." Then we go to the Food Court, and then we leave. Strangely enough, Krysten didn't seem pissed or mad at me at all, which was kind of unexpected. She might almost be a cool person if she didn't constantly lie about me behind my back, and tell people all this shit about me. And from what I hear, I'm a pretty popular topic for her to talk about. So, I'll let you decide what that means, I already have my opinion. Lataz. Current Mood: bored Current Music: Stone Sour - Bother (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 25th, 2003
10:35 pm	Revenge is so Sweet Yeah, as you can guess by the title, this entry is about revenge. Tonight, I found out two things, oh, and they are so sweet. The first thing has to do with my stalker, the one who called me everyday for about 2 months, and would not leave me alone, and begged me everyday to come and see her. Yeah, well, she's been a bitch to me lately, and I truly could care less. So, she goes off and sleeps with like 12 guys (no lie), and gets herself pregnant. I truly found this out, and laughed for about 5 minutes nonstop. Secondly, I'm sure all of you remember prom from late year. Remember how it was my birthday and all? And I'm sure many of you remember my date, Krysten. Well, what you may not know is how she made my prom, and my birthday, miserable. Yeah, when your date is constantly in the bathroom, and is totally miserable, it's kind of hard to have a good time. However, like I said before, revenge is sweet. As some of you know, the V-Dance is coming up. And some of you know I am going with Jackie. And some know Krysten will be there. however, when Krysten found out I was going, she said I basically ruined her V-Dance. So, I guess we're even. She ruined my prom and my birthday, and I ruined her V-Dance. It all works out in the scheme of things. NOt really, but I'll take it for now. Lataz. Current Mood: cynical Current Music: Metallica - Welcome Home (Sanitarium) (Comment on this)
8:05 pm	I May Have Jumped to Conclusions a Bit Too Soon Yeah, you know that awesome week I was talking about before? Yeah, that went out the window. This week has officially been the suck. Monday was the only somewhat decent day so far, that's because I did nothing all day. But today, holy shit, was just straight up awful. It started out good with a 105 on a Law quiz, but it just got worse from there. Physics sucked as usual. English is English, I hate it with a passion, even though Clance Master Flash is the man. Spanish was the longest period of the day, the damn thing would not end. Then, I went to the BK Lounge for lunch with Billcat, that was fun. After that, the day just went to shit. Study sucked, Digital Photo suck, and Calculus sucked. Not a bad way to finish off the day (note the sarcasm). I had a track meeting after school, where I didn't even learn anything, I was too busy running errands for Frankie J to have any idea what was going on. Then I had to move the entire school store into my car, that was a task and a half. Then I find TBJ and Marlena outside stranded, so I try to give them a jump, and it doesn't work. Then my day gets fun (once again, sarcasm). I end up giving Colin a ride to work, and Andy a ride home. Then, I get home, and someone starts telling me how I shouldn't to one of my friends because I insulted them in some way. How? I don't know. Then I have to haul ass to the bank to get change for the school store, because once again, we forget it. Then my grandmother asks me for a ride to go get her car, and I'm already on a tight schedule. Then I have to go up to EM Screen to get our merchandise, only to find out that our hats aren't done yet, and the decals probably won't be in by Thanksgiving. I mean, I can understand if we asked for them like a week ago, but I've been waiting over 3 fucking weeks for those God damn decals. Then, I go to get gas, and I drive all over Millbury/Sutton/Worcester looking for fucking tables to sell stuff on. I finally find them after about 45 minutes of looking. Then I come home and change. Then, the bonfire comes around and setting up was a bitch times ten. Then, Julia comes up, and then goes nuts on me because I have tables, and I asked her to get one. Well, she said she'd try to get some, and I'm not going to depend on an attempt, so I take action into my own hand. Now, at this point, I've just about had it. If one more person had said a word to me, I wouldn't just gone insane. Luckily, Gancarz was nearby, so I basically dragged him out of the concession stand, because I needed someone to talk to. So, we talk, I basically use the word "fuck" more times in 3 minutes than I usually do in a week. But, if it wasn't for him, I would've thrown a total nutty. Yeah, I've had a long day, and I'm going to bed as soon as possible. And seriously, if you want to bitch at me about something, wait until next week for your own good. Lataz. Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: Switchfoot - Meant to Live (Comment on this)
Monday, November 24th, 2003
5:10 pm	Good to Know Where I Stand Among Friends Well, isn't it good to know that some people actually care about my happiness. I mean, you know, apparently I'm a bad friend. You could've fooled me. Let me ask you something, if you do so much for your friends, and are always there for them, and always do something if they ask you to, how does that make you a bad friend? Oh, I know, because the one time you actually have the chance to do something that would benefit yourself, you take it, and you don't help a friend. Well, excuse me for being such an asshole. It's good to know that people just want to see me happy, considering that's just too much to ask for. You know, I have always bveen there for my friends if they needed something, but can I ask you something? Where the hell have my friends been for me? Let's see, how many times have I asked my friends to be there and support me? The only time I can think of is when I asked some people to go to one of my track meets, considering it means so much to me. Everyone's been talking about true friends lately, so, I'll just make a list of the ones I have: Billcat - He's always been there for me, whenever I need him, whenever I need someone to talk to, or if I just need to get out of the house. A true friend, people, is what this kid is. Gancarz - Once again, always there when I need him. No other person has ever seen me in a bad time, and then taken it upon themselves to fix it like this kid. Once again, a true friend. Kait - Been there with me through thick and thin, and always have backed me up, even when she knows I not always right. There's my list of friends I've always been able to count on, and that have always been there for me. It's kind of sad really, only three people, when I've been a true friend to so many others. Just once, just once, I want someone to think of me instead of themselves, and come and give me support, when I need it. I know I may be asking for alot, but think about it, am I really? I just want one day where I can be remembered. Just one day. I've been there for some of the band competitions, percussion competitions, baseball games, soccer games, Conformation, NHS Inductions, the play, Academic Awards, spring concerts, volleyball games, and the list goes on. Even at my birthday, four people showed up. FOUR FUCKING PEOPLE! That's so bad, I mean, people had excuses like they were tired or thry were at the mall. It's nice to know that people remember me on my birthday, but just have better things to do. Because we all know how hard it is to go out and have dinner with a friend. Remember that, because if I have done all of that for all these "friends" that I have, the least the could do was take 2 hours out of their life, and come to something I find special, and they could support me in. That's all I ask from you people who are, supposedly, my "friends". Current Mood: sad Current Music: James Taylor - You've Got a Friend (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 23rd, 2003
9:36 pm	Total Craziness Yeah, tonight was a pretty badass night. However, before we get to that, let's go over my day, shall we? First, me and the Billcat go grab something to eat at Arby's, and guess who we see? Well, it's Millbury's favorite engaged couple. Who else could I be taling about but Kathy and Lyle. Personally, they both sicken me, and I hope they're miserable throughout their life. Then I basically watched the Patriots game. Tonight, however, was crazy. So, yeah, I go up to Kohl's tyo buy pants for tomorrow, considering it's pajama day, so I get there, and Bellz is working. So, we decide to do something tonight. So we call Johnson and Ethier, and we got to the Green Room. Normal pool shooting night, excepty for the fact I was sucking balls almost all night. Then, we play 3-Ball, and I come out winning $4, woooohooooo. On the way home, we pop in the Pure Disco CD, and everything just goes insane. We're flying down the highway singing YMCA, and I Will Survive. Meanwhile, me and Jonson are in the back basically beating the shit out of each other. Then, we come along side a silver Mitsubishi Eclipse, and there's a wicked hott girl in there. So Johnson, being the ladies man he is, decides to hang out the window, and try to get her to notice him. Needless to say, it didn't work. Yeah, this week is going to be pretty badass if I do say so myself. Pajama Day, Twin/Hat Day, and School Colors Day, Winter Carnival is back for one week!!!!!! Then, I get to see Jackie on Wednesday (I believe that calls for a "Fuck Yeah"), Thanksgiving, and the V-Dance ("Stuart Scott wants the fleece, 'Boo Yeah'"). Not a bad line-up if I do say so myself. Lataz. Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: Lacuna Coil - Heaven's a Lie (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 22nd, 2003
11:17 pm	Ummm........Yeah Well, it seems as though everyone else has a journal of some kind, so I decided, why the hell not? Yeah, so today was rather uneventful, for the most part. The only good thing was that I got to hang out with Jackie for four hours. Yeah, I find a strong attraction to her, I don't know what it is. I've only seen her two times, I rarely ever talk to her, but I just feel like there's something special between us. I don't get this. We're so different, but in a way, we're not. I don't know. It just seems weird, knowing someone for such a short time, and have such a strong attraction to them. The funny thing is, ever since I met her, she's the only thing I've thought about, night and day. I know that's not normal, but are any of my relationships normal? I didn't think so. There's just something about her. The thing I dno't get the most, when I met her, all my feelings for Sarin just left my mind, body, and heart. Whenever I usually would be thinking of her, I'm thinking of Jackie. Maybe I'm just falling for someone too quick, and it's gonna come around and bite me in the ass, maybe not. Who knows, maybe this could finally be the one, or maybe it's just another failed relationship to add to the list. Only time will tell. But I do know that I have not felt this strongly towards one person as soon as I do now. Lataz. Current Mood: confused Current Music: Foo Fighters - Everlong (Comment on this)