| You won't get much more than this out of me at the moment |
[31 Mar 2003|01:25pm] |
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REM - It's The End Of The World As We Know It |
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MINE.
And I didn't have to stay at the hotel last night after all...
:D
I'll update properly later and explain I promise.
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(give my life for yours)
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| Yeah... |
[31 Mar 2003|03:25am] |
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Good Charlotte - Wondering |
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If you want me to wait, I would wait for you
If you tell me to stay, I would stay right through
If you don't wanna say anything at all
I'm happy wondering
Since I was a young man girl I never was a fun man girl
I never had a plan and no security
Then ever since I met you I never could forget you
I only wanna get you right here next to me
'Cause everybody needs somone that they can trust and...
You're somebody that I found just in time
Now my life is changing, it always rearranging
It always getting stranger than I thought it ever could
Ever since I found you, I wanna be around you
I wanna get down to the point that I need you
'Cause everybody needs somone that they can trust and..
You're somebody that I found just in itime
If you want me to wait, I would wait for you
If you tell me to stay, I would stay right through
If you don't wanna say anything at all
I'm happy wondering
Don't tell me the bad news
Don't tell me anything at all
Just tell me that you need me
And stay right here with me
If you want me to wait, I would wait for you
If you tell me to stay, I would stay right through
If you don't wanna say anything at all
I'm happy wondering.
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(12 lucky ones  give my life for yours)
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| Don't wanna be just like you |
[31 Mar 2003|01:08am] |
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Good Charlotte - The Anthem |
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The weekend was crazy. Friday started off really well... ;] But after that I had to travel up to WA for the last two shows of the tour. Saturday was the very last one, the last date of a totally fuckin awesome tour. I've had a fantastic time. After the show we had a huge party with crew and everyone and I got way too fuckin drunk and got kinda sick. :/ I felt pretty awful today, but I'm getting over it now.
I now have a place in LA! It's in Santa Monica and it's a big sexy appartment with a gorgeous view. I can't wait to decorate it. I'm staying at a hotel right now while all the paperwork is sorted out and I'm gonna pick up the keys tomorrow. :D
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(6 lucky ones give my life for yours)
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| Question |
[27 Mar 2003|08:26pm] |
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Blink182 - Lemmings |
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Can this one thing work out against the odds? I haven't had a lot of luck lately, but I'm really hoping on this one and I know I'm probably setting myself up for a fall but I can't just forget about it and move on. Not yet.
Is it too much to ask for the things to work out this time?
I'm only asking for what is mine
I wanted everything, I got it and now I'm gonna
Throw it away, I'll throw it away yeah.
EDIT: ::smiles:: I don't wanna jinx myself... but I've got a feeling about this, and apparently that feeling is mutual... :]
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(12 lucky ones give my life for yours)
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| I want you I don't know if I need you but mmm I'm dying to find out |
[27 Mar 2003|01:27pm] |
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Savage Garden - I Want You (haha don't hate) |
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I'm staying in LA for a few days now appartment-hunting. I met James in Starbucks yesterday and we drank coffee and talked crap. :]
Ryan, Doug and I rearranged the lyrics I was talking about yesterday and we recorded a rough version of the song with Ryan singing.
( Coping )
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(2 lucky ones give my life for yours)
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| Inside you're screaming but your screams don't break through |
[26 Mar 2003|03:34pm] |
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Dougie & Ryan playing my song |
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I'm at home and Doug is still here with another of my Vancouver friends, Ryan. They are jamming and recording some shit and using my lyrics from the other day. My flight is in at 12pm... I'm gonna hang out with James for a while then look for an appartment.
( Don't you want me baby? )
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(give my life for yours)
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| There's nothing you can say that means a damn thing to me |
[26 Mar 2003|02:49am] |
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Kelly Osbourne - Shut Up |
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The show on Friday night was awesome. Saturday was hot and sunny so we lazed around in a field. Gill and I watched Scott and Doug play the Dakona guys at soccer and played with a video camera. After the show on Saturday night (our very last Canadian date. We're doing two shows in Washington on Friday and Saturday and then we're done...) we checked into a hotel and kinda threw a party in one of the rooms. We all drank and smoked a whole lot and stayed up to sit on the balcony and watch the sun rise. I realised I had never, ever done that before. It was beautiful. Sunday I came home for the first time in a while and slept in my own bed for a few hours, then went to a friend's house to hang out with old friends from Vancouver who I hardly see anymore. We chilled out and watched '8 Mile' and 'The Goonies' (two movies that naturally go together, I think you'll agree...). It was cool. Yesterday and today I've just been relaxing and seeing friends and family. Tomorrow I'm flying out to LA to look for an appartment... anyone who wants to meet up for a cherry coke let me know. :]
<3 Biftard
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(4 lucky ones give my life for yours)
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| One-liner |
[25 Mar 2003|08:39pm] |
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Idlewild - Actually It's Darkness |
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I have a nice glass of chilled white wine.
I will update about what happened on the weekend. Soon. I promise.
I've just been trying to read through the 8,546789374 entries you guys posted since Friday.
::skips off to be sociable::
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(give my life for yours)
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| Cherry Coke |
[21 Mar 2003|07:44pm] |
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Hole - Violet |
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( Lips )
I hate leaving unfinished business with people. I can't relax because of the way I've left certain relationships and I wish I could swallow my pride and confront people about why things have turned sour between us. I guess I just just can't take rejection and wouldn't be able to handle it if they decided they didn't want to resolve things, or at least end them properly. I just hate having issues with people, it makes being around them so much harder than it has to be.
Had a show last night, got another show tonight. The tour is drawing to and end now and I have to admit I am a combination of reluctant and relieved. We made a stop to get some coffee so I'm using an internet cafe computer, hence the lurking. I've got a pretty fucken busy weekend ahead of me so you probably won't be seeing very much of me until Sunday night at least, but I guess most of you will be at Marion and Zac's wedding anyway. Hope y'all have a great time.
<3 Biffy
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(2 lucky ones give my life for yours)
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| What a prize! Got a body like a battleaxe |
[20 Mar 2003|02:13pm] |
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Ok Go - Get Over It |
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Yesterday was my day off, which rocked because the non-stop touring was really starting to take it out of me. That's not to say I don't love every minute of it, because I do, it's the best thing ever. It's just nice to be able to take a breather once in a while. I had a looong sleep then got up and lazed around for the first part of the day, then Eliza came over (she's the best... not to mention one hot lil biker chick!). We sat around and talked and had a few beers, then went and got pizza and mozzarella bread at this little Italian restaurant... the waiter there recognised Eliza and gave us a complimentary bottle of chardonnay after she signed an autograph "for his daughter". ;] Afterwards I took Eliza to see LiveOnRelease and Freshbread playing a show at this awesome little club where we met up with Gillian. The atmosphere was crazy; everyone was hot and sweaty and covered in beer... so naturally Gillian and I felt right at home haha. The show was fucking fantastic and when the bands finished playing we took Eliza backstage and hung out with the girls from LOR and opened a big bottle of champagne. :>
Eliza had to leave a little while after that to go surfing but Gill and I stayed with the girls for a few hours drinking and catching up. I fucken love those girls. <3
Right now, though it's back on the road. We've got shows tonight, Friday and Saturday and then the Canadian part of the tour is done and we get another break. I'm sorry I haven't been around a whole lot lately... if you're reeeally missing me (ha...) I'm gonna be on Urban Rush this Friday at 12pm, 5pm, 7pm, 11pm and 1am so watch and make me feel special.
<3 Biffy
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(2 lucky ones give my life for yours)
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| >:[ |
[19 Mar 2003|12:43am] |
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Puddle Of Mudd - Blurry |
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What the HELL is it with you men?! You wait till we're down and you just carry on kicking!!
Ack and I can't even talk to the one person I would usually talk to about these things.
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(3 lucky ones give my life for yours)
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| Don't ask me how I am today, don't wanna talk about it |
[18 Mar 2003|01:11pm] |
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Doug playing Daddy's Getting Married on his acoustic |
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Everyone here is writing declarations of love to their significant other, and I mean everyone. It makes me sick. :&
Why do I get the feeling I've been lied to?
I wrote some lyrics last night right before I fell asleep. They still need a lot of work, but...
( Not Like You )
Another show tonight, then a break tomorrow so I can hang out with Eliza. For now though Scotty, Gill, Doug and I are gonna get stoned as fuck and watch the Jackass Movie. Anyone who wants to join us is welcome to.
EDIT: Just now we stopped at a store to buy food and we were in the line to pay for the stuff when Doug accidentally dropped a glass bottle of ketchup and it smashed everywhere and covered us both in the stuff. Everyone stared at us and we had to walk through the parking lot looking like we had been in a chainsaw fight. o_O
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(5 lucky ones give my life for yours)
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| They ain't out to get ya, cos you're a mile away |
[17 Mar 2003|01:49pm] |
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Distillers - Red Carpet And Rebellion |
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Fuck, I'm away for two nights and already I feel outta the loop. Things are getting pretty hectic up here. Right now I'm going shopping with Dougie but I might be online later so keep your eyes peeled for me. Don't you just love that expression...? ;]
<3333 to my girl Brody I love you sweetie.
EDIT: Gonna hang out with Freddie on Sunday when I'm back in LA. :]
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(7 lucky ones give my life for yours)
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| We end up dead in the end, star no star |
[15 Mar 2003|03:52pm] |
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Jack Off Jill - Star No Star |
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Another great show last night. A local radio station had run a competition to win backstage passes so afterwards the fans came backstage and Dougie, Gill, Scott and I hung out with them for a while and had a few drinks. We ended up going to this skatepark nearby for some stupid drunken skateboarding in the dark. Doug is a show-off cos he knows all the fans want his body. ;]
We stayed in a hotel last night and this morning I had a nice, long, hot bubblebath which was nice and relaxing after all the drama that went on last night ::winks at James:: haha. Anyway now the sun is shining and I'm on the bus with the guys playing Jack Off Jill at full volume with all the windows wound down and a nice big spliff. I love my job ::smiles::. Eliza called me yesterday and we made plans for Wednesday which is my day off so that should be fun. For now, though, onto the next venue for a soundcheck. Work work work. ;]
<3 Biffy
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(6 lucky ones give my life for yours)
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| God bless Bikini Kill |
[14 Mar 2003|05:47pm] |
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Bikini Kill - I Like Fucking |
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Hey do you believe there's anything beyond troll-guy reality?
I do. I do. I do.
It get's so hard
Just to be okay
Sometimes being happy baby
Is what I'm most afraid of
Baby you know
It gets so hard for me to fight
I don't know how
I guess I never did
Why don't you show me now
How to lose control
She's so very I don't care
She's so very I don't care
Just cos my world sweet sister
Is so fucking goddamn full of rape
Does that mean my body must always be a source of pain?
No. No. No.
She's so very I don't care
She's so very I don't care
Just cos I named it right here sweet chickadee
Don't mean for a minute you should think
I'm the opposite of anything
But if you wanna know for sure I'll tell you
We're not gonna prove nothing, nothing
Sittin around watching each other starve
What we need is action/strategy
I want. I want. I want.
I want it now.
What I want. I believe in the radical possibilities of pleasure babe
I do. I do. I do.
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(2 lucky ones give my life for yours)
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| Feels like I'm starting all over again |
[14 Mar 2003|01:57pm] |
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Chelle - Goodbye To You |
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I guess I should update. I'm on the tour bus right now and the others are asleep but I'm feeling restless. Last night's show was fanfuckingtastic. It felt awesome to be up onstage again and it was a great crowd. Gillian and I totally rocked out together and we came off the stage hot and sweaty and totally wired. I'm so fucking happy now, I always forget how good it feels to perform. It's what this is all about. Fuck everything else, as long as I can do this I'm happy.
Of course, it helps having Mr. Boyd serenade me with Build Me Up Buttercup. <3
I think we're gonna make a stop soon. Its windy but pretty sunny and Gillian just woke up so I'm gonna get her to come with me to find somewhere I can get coffee.
If you live through this with me
I swear that I would die for you,
And if you live through this with me
I swear that I would die for you...
FUCK YOU!
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(give my life for yours)
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| Tom Delonge, I feel your pain |
[13 Mar 2003|05:42pm] |
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Boxcar Racer - I Feel So |
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Sometimes...
I wish I was brave,
I wish I was stronger,
I wish I could feel no pain,
I wish I was young,
I wish I was shy,
I wish I was honest,
I wish I was you not I...
'Cause I feel so mad,
I feel so angry,
I feel so calloused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap,
So used, unfaithful,
Let's start over,
Let's start over.
I'm currently on a plane to our first gig in British Columbia, and I'm pretty fucking hungover. Last night Gillian came round and found me in my hotel room chain smoking and feeling sorry for myself and subsequently took me out on the town (100% against my will, I assure you ;]). We went to a couple of strip clubs... I got to put a $20 bill in a gyrating lady's sparkly thong. Are you jealous?
I am in dire need of some black coffee.
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(20 lucky ones give my life for yours)
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