ah,poetry. be still my little heart   
05:33pm 15/11/2003
 
mood: blah
music: thrice: send me an angel
this poem is kind of mature. bummer. but its still aa good one i think.


**politics and poetry**
there is a community of the spirit
join it, and feel the delight
of walking in the noisy street
and being the noise

drink all your passion
and be a disgrace

close both eyes
to see with the other eye

open your hands
if you want to be held
sit down in this circle

at night
your beloved wanders
don't accept consolations

close your mouth against food
and taste the lover's mouth in yours

you moan, "they left me"
twenty more will come

be empty of worrying
think of those who created thought

why do you stay in prison
when the door is so wide open

move outside the tangle of fear-thinking
live in silence

flow down and down in always
widening rings of being




i really kind of dont like it but it will do

because you do it oh so well
 
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not so sure anymore   
09:41pm 15/11/2003
 
mood: accomplished
music: bright eyes :waste of paint
Zodiac Sign // scorpio

What school do you go to // pchs

What is your mascot // panther, nhs came over last day of school last year and spray painted the panther on the signe in front of the school pink so i guess now we're the pink panthers

What are your school colors // blue black and silver

Nicknames // sweets, ernie, amster, and my real dad use to call me amybug

Where were you born // elizabeth city nc

What are your hobbies //friends poetry music bert monster

Hair color // dirty blonde

Hair length // alittle past my shoulders

Eye color // blue

Height // 5'7 n 1/2

Have any pets // dog::sam cat:: sayla 2 lizards:: lizard guy and lizard girl (thats their real names)

What do you fear most in the world // snakes and any kind of bugs oh and scream mask

What do you regret the most // christopher

have braces //unfourtunately

Do you have glasses // yes, dont wear them
Are you good at school // im an honors student so what do u think
*Favorites*

Color // pink, and dark red

Teacher // mrs marshall

Class // creative writing

Day of the week // tuesday

Holiday // valentines and halloween

Season // fall

Month // august

Sport // volleyball, cross country, and softball

Movie // the gooines and fear

T.V. show // real world and when ever buffy is on

Drink // liquid brownie frappe, chai and water

Male singer // lead singer of the used

Female singer // emilana torrini
Word[s] // are you a loser with a coupon?....duh...... come on come on come on come on

Brand of shoes // chucks, addidas, and of course my faithful reef flip flops

Radio station // 96.1 and 104.5

Room in your house // my room

Pizza Topping // black olives or mushrooms

State // hawii and missouri

Song[s] // ever so sweet, ever long, is patience still waiting, anytime, iris, some song by dashboard
Letter[s] // the letter "a"

Number[s] // 2

Cereal // fruit loops and grapenut os

*This or That*

Red or Blue // red

Pretzels or Potato Chips //pretzels

Jeans or Khakis // jeans

Comedy or Drama // drama

Computer or TV // computer

Gold or Silver // silver

Outgoing or Shy // outgoing

Tall or Short // tall

Breakfast or Dinner // breakfast

Day or Night // night

Radio or Cd's // cds

Internet or Phone // neither

98 degrees or O town // neither

Happy or Sad // emo

Guy or Girl // guys

Sexy or Cute // adorable
Tough or Wimpy // tough

Strong or Weak // strong

Funny or Hilarious // hilarious

Summer or Winter // both

Love or Lust // love

Friends or Family // friends

Car or Truck // both

Dog or Cat // cat
Inside or Outside // outside

Hurricane or Tornado //tornado ive been through aot of huricanes youre not missing anything exciting
Thunder or Lightning // love both

Rain or Snow // rain

Hail or Sleet // hail

Sunny or Cloudy // cloudy

Loud or Quiet // peaceful

Mcdonalds or Burger king // mcdonalds for breakfeast burger king for the rest
Coffee or Tea // coffee

Coke or Pepsi // coke

Mr. Pibb or Dr. Pepper // what the hell is mr.pibb?

White chocolate or Normal chocolate // neither

Britney or Christina // christina

Chocolate or Vanilla // vanilla

Writing or Typing // writing

Cold or Hot // lukewarm

Pen or Pencil // pen

Candle or Incense // candle

Plain paper or Lined paper // lined

Blonde or Brunette // dirty

Curly or Straight // dunno

Blanket or Sleeping bag // blanket

Shower or Bath // both

Body wash or Soap // body wash

Perfume or Body spray // perfume

American Eagle or Abercrombie // american eagle

Pochahontas or Mulan // noether

Pop Tarts or Toaster strudles // strawberry pop tarts with frosting any day

Chicken or Turkey //chicken

MTV or VH1 // fuse

Shorts or Pants // pants

Tank tops or T-shirts // t-shirts

Rich and dumb or Poor and smart // poor and smart

Markers or Colored pencils // markers

Boxers or Briefs // boxers

Nike or Adidas // cant deny my shell tops

Mercedes or BMW // bmw

Army or Navy // costies

Orange or Grape // orange

Lime or Lemon // lemon

Striped or Plaid // both

Innie or Outie // innie

Hot tub or Sauna // sauna

Land or Water // water, sand irratates me

Sneeze or Cough // coughing with a stuffy nose

Skittles or M&M's // plain m&ms or sour skittles?

Truth or Dare // double hitter

Letterman or Leno // letterman

SNL or mad tv // mad tv

*Love Life*

love at first sight// i believe in taking a deeper look
Do you have a crush // bert monster!!!!!!

Whats his name //bert monster!!!!!!!!!!!!!! chicken boy cluck cluck

How old are they // 18

How long have you liked him or her // a year 1 month 3 days and couple hours

If you could kiss anyone in the world, who would it be // my reald dad and my bert monster

If you could date anyone in the world, who would it be // Ashton Kutcher of josh hartnet but i am ecstatic justdating my bert monster
Do you prefer being the dumper or the dumpee // dumpee

Do you think there is a person for everyone // everyone except for dorthy

If yes, do you know who yours is // yeppers

Have you ever been in love // yes and im still falling

What do you think love is // not applicable

Do you have a b/f or g/f // yeah

What do you like about your crush or bf, gf // i like their hotness

When was your first kiss // kindergarden but if that dont count then when i was in 6th grade the first day of school

Did u ever hookup with just a friend // yes...


*Past*

Last words you said // dontmake me seperate you two
you sang // feeling left out : most accidents

Last meal you ate // ham sandwhich and some rice

What did you hate most about school // getting suspended

*Present*

What's in your CD player // coldplay, deftones, some mixed cd, give up the ghost, and nada surf

What color sox are you wearing // white

What's under your bed // lots of magazines

What's the weather like // crisp and cloudy

What time did you wake up today // 9


*Future*

Who do you want to marry // we all die alone anyway

Are you going to college // unc chapel hill baby

to study what // journalism

What is your career going to be // journalist

Where are you going to live // whereever robert drags me to

How many kids do you want // one boy one girl i want the boy to come first so he can defend his little sister

Kids names girls // ahulani, kaleena, amanda loretta (after my sister)

Kids names boys // matthew, mark , luke, john, or travis

Where do you want your honeymoon // bed

*Have you ever

Been Drunk //lots

Skinny dipped //yea

Stole // no

Stayed up all night on the internet // yea

Been in a fist fight // yea

Been in a cat fight // yes

Wanted to kill someone // not really

Fell off a chair // many times

*Other*

Do you like your handwriting // depends on my mood and the type of pen

Which superhero would you be // roberts is: ron jeremy and mine is the naked guy off kablaam

Do you have any piercings // 1 cartlidge piercing 2 earlob piercing im getting my belly button done and the thick cartlidge and the entrance of your ear

Any tattoos // im getting one

Are you picky // very

What makes you cry // everything

What makes you mad // stupid people

Do you like cartoons // not really

Do you believe in heaven // yea

Do you believe in God // yea

Do you think there is a hell // hell yea

Do you believe in the devil // yes but i dont worship him

When you get mad, do you swear a lot // depending on the level of madness

Do you have a magic 8 ball // use to

Ever worn black nail polish //yea but i did it like french tip when i had nails

Do you have your own tv and vcr // yea

Do you believe in fate // yea

Do you see dead people // no but i see alot of black folks just kidding

Are you a good speller // yes cant you tgell?

Do you ever steal anything from hotels // soap, it smells so good

What is your last name backwards // sekots

Do you want to be the first person on the sun when you grow up // not really, im not one for sun burn ( ha ha aint i so funny? kidding)

*What Do These Words Make You Think Of*

Rainbow // lucky charms

Frog // ribbet
Carol // my preachers wife

Star //emo

Ticket // the deftones concert i went to last year

*This or That*

Florida or California // florida

Sprite or 7-UP // 7-up yours

Mountains or the Beach // beach

AIM or MSN Messenger // AIM

Geography or Math // geography

Private schools or Public schools // i did both

Email or Phone //email im not one for just sitting on the phone and saying nothing

Baseball or Basketball // baseball

quiet people or outgoing people // depends

Sun or Moon // moon

Christmas or Your Birthday // christmas but my birthday aint too far way from x-mas

Blue or Purple // violet

Gelly Roll pens or Milky Pens // gelly things

Gap or Aeropostale// aeropostale

Bath & Body Works or The Body Shop // bath and body works

Flirting or a good conversation // both

scariest: tornado, hurricane, or earthquake // ive never been through an earthquake before

Middle School or High School // college

Wavy/curly hair or Straight hair // straight

Blue, green, or Brown eyes // blue

Nintendo 64 or Playstation2 // neither

Guinea Pigs or Hamsters // i had 3 hamsters and now they are all barried in the front yard right by the fence

Hawaii or the Bahamas // a cruise to bahamas so i can dance to reggae or hawii so i can surf the pipe
 
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i leave you with something to read and ponder while i sleep   
10:50pm 15/11/2003
 
mood: exanimate
music: jill scott :honey moalsses
**LoVe YoU**


and maybe
when the damage is all done
we can turn this back into love
because, you know, it`s like they say
you don`t know what you`ve got til its gone

this beauty only runs skin deep
i`m not as great as you may think
i don`t deserve how good you are to me

you`ve gone and headed right off the deep end
and nobody will be there
to catch you when you fall

just as you`re about to hit the bottom
i`ll reach down and save you
just like i always do
save you from all those troubles
you keep locked inside your mind

what was i thinking
i must be crazy
thinking i could live without someone like you
well, i`m no one without someone like you

im no one without someone like you
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Telephone wires

I've heard in time it gets better
I've been waiting forever
I'll say goodbye for the last time
Only this time I'll mean it

My fingers ache from clenching this fist
My eyes still burn
I'm pouring my heart through these telephone wires
I'm getting the notion that you've become tired

You run your legs take you so far
You would always come running back
I won't be here this time


Sleep forces itself on me
Escaping reality

I know where you'll be when you come back
No reason to visit
No need to remember
 
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