are you drowning your fears in a glass of deception?   
09:33am 28/10/2003
 
mood: irate
music: dead poetic: augus winteran
you know what i yet to find out about myself? everytime i get in the emo mood and no matter how angry i am about something no matter if im mad at the elephant eating my stick to my flag when i was a kid at the circus i can always use that anger to write about love. i think thats awesome and a half. but yet im such a dork. haha

:: thIs tImE mAkE It cOUnt ::


why don't i finish myself off?
i will take all that i have left
i will destroy myself
will you finally be content?
these words are unappealing
they hold no revelation or hidden meaning
deny me
i'm dying inside
in your eyes i lost myself for the first time
tonight i will rid the world of these articulated emotions
that bear false pretenses and have no purpose
i am nothing
all that i was became another failure in a life full of them
let me do you a favor
i will choke on the letters
i find so entertaining
thats all thats prevailing
i will give in to them
i leech onto my only comfort
a desolate figment of my imagination
i give into my frustration
i do what i can
to alleviate the pain
but you are the only weakness i have
you tore me down
now look upon the wreckage
this is how it looks to have a life without a purpose
i will tear down the barrier keeping us apart
it will kill me and stop this broken heart
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didnt think i knew all those big words did ya? I knew reading war and peace in the 8th grade paid off for something.

anyways im off to put up soe decorations. yay for me!!

im breathing in your skin tonight quiet is my loudest cry wouldnt want to wake the eyes that make me melt and if its healthier to leave you be kill me while i still believe you were meant for me		  
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