reflection of the distorted   
07:54am 10/09/2003
 
mood: awake
music: some song by seether
i dont have to go to school today. yay!! im missing like a really big test in honors on the Puritans. oh well.
umm... i have an eye apt. at 9:30 i might be getting contacts and getting rid of my funky rectangular rimed glasses. ain't like i wear them anyway. ill probably wont wear the contacts either. defeats the whole purpose of me going to the eye doc today dont it?

i wrote a poem in church the other day.

**PRAY**
The shards of glass
Used to cut away
At the hands
That are clenched tightly together
Blood dripping down to the white carpet
But still they hold tight as glue
Never to break
Only to stay tied forever
And for always...
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heres another one

**without wings**

Recession of these thoughtless forms
Nightmares and stale bed sheets
Are what im reduced to
--
I was your angel
The doese of medicine
Kindering to your broken heart
--
I'm your lap dog
Lingering on your every word
And all you do is push me away
--
We had the "suto-quazy" happy existence
Now we're the melting ice cream on an 8 year olds popsickle stick
Unhappy
With sugarcoated commercial smiles
Plasterd on our emotionless faces
--
Can't we go back to hello?

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welp im off to get dressed. ciao

"i guess you know im faking when im lying next to you"- seether
 
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