The stars aren't out tonight but neither are we to look up at them   
12:24am 13/08/2003
 
mood: tired
music: Gaebage "im only happy when it rains"
Alright i can't sleep ive tried and no success hense me up here posting. i know i have to wake up at 6 to do tae bo and then take a shower and shave yata yata but i cant sleep. lynn not going to have a happy camper tomorrow when i help her set up her classroom. maybe there's still some energy pills in the med. cabinet. ill check later.

robert asked me a really long time ago to post the lists of boyfriends ive had and the people ive kissed i just kept forgetting. these lists make me feel alittle like a hoe. but im really not. i just get bored easily.

**People ive kissed or made out with**
. demetre ishman
. david james
. Chris pureza
. Chris fardoulis
. Mih Nyguen
. Matt Baker
. Duana Kennedy (not to proud of that)
. Danny Lavoie
. Bret bouman
. Chris spellman (not too proud)
. Andrew creech
. Robert Spruill (im very proud to announce that he was my first...partner)
. Devin Weatherly(ugh)
. John Spence (just kissed)
. Michael Taylor (my first kiss)
. Marty (kissed)
. John Cafferelo (kissed)
.Crystal Blankenship (kissed) im not gay
. Jessica Whitehead (kissed) i was drunk at kyle's birthday party, thers a picture of it somewhere
. Steve Young (kissed)
. Tey Askew
.Brian CLark (kissed)
. Joseph Winslow (kissed) my beach buddy
. Will Whidbey
. Ryan Odwyer


**boyfirends**
. demetre ishman
. david james
.Minh nyguen
.Robert brown (what was i thinking)
.cody samuels
.michael lands
.matt baker
.duane kennedy
.danny lavoie
.robert spruill (forever and always)
.Devin Weatherly(ugh)
.Brian Clark
.Will Whidbey (my first boyfriend)
.Ryan O'dwyer

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if you notcie some of the boyfriends i had arent on my kissed list, because some of them ive dated during spring break last year at the same time and i never saw them because i was gone out of town and then when i came back to school i decided i didnt like them anymore. im tryflin. atleast when it comes to whom i date. but im stuck on one now and hes the one.

im listening to Tori Amos and shes playing "smells like teen spirit" on the piano. kind of ironic. not really.
i wish i had a voice like hers. its very pretty. i cant wait until senior projects come out so i can do mine on learning to play guitar. and i after i finsh learning im going to play up at muddy's.
NOTE TO SELF: GO TO THE PAWN SHOP AND CHECK OUT ACOUSITC GUITARS
i have like 3 pics and never use them. the only thing i know how to play on guitar is twinkle twinkle little star (how i wonder where u are up above the world so bright......). who doesnt? great now i have that damned song stuck in my head.
i wish someone was on aim so i could talk to them. only rachel and im not in the mood for volleyball talk. if i want to talk about volleyball ill call my niki dawg.
i finally tlaked to her. well actualy i talked to her saturday but still its been 3 days so... ya know
i havent seen her since last month which in reality isnt that long but shes my bestest (not a word i know) friend in the world.
well i think i can finally fall asleep because my eyes are heavy so im off to dreams of my bert. good times. good times.lates.
"i greeve the special dirty things we use to talk about" - orgy "stitches"		  
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what id do if i could just look into your eyes   
01:31am 13/08/2003
 
music: slightly stoopid: couldnt get high(reminds me of jordon)
Still no sleepy-by
im in hateful cranky mood now.

what i hate today
* Remixs to stupid songs
* stupid people who are directionaly challenged
* people who think that premarital sex is an unholy thing (not if your in love and truly mean what you do with the motions of your bodies)*
* gay bashers (diference in sexual orientation has no reason for you to be mean)
* jay leno (does he ever smoke that cigar that he holds in his hand? that thing has to be atleast 30 yrs old.)
* flat tires
* sperm (at times)
* broken surf boards
* the end of summer
* people who put more than ketchup and mustard on hotdogs
* bands who immitate emo
* writer's block
* mango kiwi smoothies (taste like shampoo)
* people that are so lazy that when they spill things they dont clean it up or atleast help clean it up (grab the freaking paper towels)
* the government(mostly bush)
* martha stweart (does she every remove that stick of sugarcoated happiness out of her ass?)
* songs that keep repeating over and over and over and over and over and over and over in your head
* radio stations that play out good songs until the point that you hate the great song
* safety pins (how are they safe when whenever you try hold something together with them they stab you?)
* chid safety locks
* shoes (whats the point?)
* socks (again i say whats the point?)
* the brady bunch theme song
* dial up connetion internet
* pop up ads that advertise that they want to stop pop up ads
* spam (are we that lazy?)
* the universal remote (ill stick with the three remotes that i have now thank you)
* publicity whores
* double sided tape
* a paddle boat that has a motor (only my father would think to do that)
* sexiest people
* dragons (what the hell?)
* people who blast blue grass at 6 in the morning. ("yee-haw im retarded or i atleast sound like it")
* the person who decided to start making students leave they're bookbags in their lockers(have they not seen how big the books are)
* insomnia
* the theory of evolution
* people who dwell on 9/11 (get over it; people died, we greeved, lets move on.)
* the little ball inside the mouse
* bugs
* people who have the nervus problem of beating on desks and tables
* rap vidoes (if want to watch pornos we'll order them of pay-per-view or watch late night hbo)
* ashley russell( TO ASHLEY: INCASE YOU ACCIDENTALLY PURPOSLEY STUMBLE UPON THIS JOURNAL I WOULD LIKE TO LET YOU KNOW, IS THAT YOURE UGLY. I THINK YOU KNOW THAT ALREADY. I UNDERSTAND THAT YOU'RE ANERXIC AND U CANT HELP IT BUT PLEASE LAY OUT IN THE SUN AND GET A TAN BEFORE YOU GO PRANCE AROUND IN A BIKINI AND SUNDRESSSES up at the public)
* people who wear thongg bikinis
* torists (stay home)
* why do they put the non-toxic label on glue when u damn well know that when u eat glue ur gonna die ?
* beevis and butthead
* the scooby-doo movie (so--- stupid)
* consistent liars (dorthy, i dont hate her i hate the things she does)
* people have those like 6 inch long finger nails (how do u eat or write or whipe your ass dont mean to be nasty but i mean damn)
* the people who cancelled "rocko's modern life" and "daria" on regular cable ( i hate that i have to go into digital cable channels to watch them)
* people who dont bother to tell you that we have lobster tails , shrimp, snow crab, and salmon in the freezer
* steak
* pork chops
* mono
* The nasty guy noel that gave me scabies when i tutored him for english last year
* chris fardoulis for giving me mono the same time i had scabies

i think im done.lates.
i sweat till i lose some weight - eminem "purple pills"		  
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Waste a day so i can think clearly   
07:20am 13/08/2003
 
mood: drained
music: deathcab for cuite "sleep spent"
i was a really hateful person last night, literally.

i figured since i have time to kill before i leave to help lynn id post alittle.
4 hours of sleep....... crushial. my eyes feel crusty and dry and i cant find the visine. punishment for being so hateful.
i have to sneeze but it wont come out. (^ squinching up my nose^).
i dreamt about grits again last night. what i wouldnt give to have some. i miss some grits man. im going to buy some today.
i get this damn expander taken out. yay! i get to see my bert tomorrow. double yay! ! !
im going to sleep super early tonight. i need to get use to going to sleep before 12 and waking up alittle before 6. sssssssssssccccccccccccccchhhhhhhhhhhooooooooooooooollllllllllllllllll nnnnnnnnnnnnnooooooooooooo go.
well im off to tinkle and go over to central. lates
TO BERT: CALL ME AFTER 6:30 TONIGHT!!! I LOVE YOU
"ive been to mushroom mountain once or twice but whos counting?" -eminem "purple pills" "hoe's like a hallway they just dont close" - ludacris "you's a hoe"		  
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