"when we wake its like strawberry fields" -gaven rosdale   
07:59pm 18/07/2003
 
mood: loved
music: "at last my love has come along"
he is my lullaby before the nightmares/ the bright star in the night sky/ my saving grace/ my rapture/ my night light in the darkest of night skies/ the first love/ and the last/he is my good morning kiss/ and the nights full of intamacy/ i cant help the tripping over the steps the i take/ for i have/
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in love with him/ no turning back/ im diving head first into a world of bliss/ knowing that hes holding on to me forever/ i feel safe/ and have no fears/ no tears shall be shed unless of happiness/ i will forever feel his touch/ and his passionate kiss/my heart is a shrine to the one i love/ cherish it as if it were yours

"sarenate me with a sweet lullaby until i colapse into my dream world."		  
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"we are all anemic"   
08:46pm 18/07/2003
  i pulled the wire out of my braces today because it kept stabbing me in the mouth ill get a new one put back in on the 31st no biggy.
i think im going through menaupause. i have i had hot flashes today like mad crazy. the a.c. was set on 65 and i was hot laying on the couch in the living room so i brought out the box fan in my room and put it right infront of the couch on high and i was still hot. whats wrong with me?		  
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" in hell we are all anemic" - deftones   
08:49pm 18/07/2003
 
mood: hot
music: " anemic" deftones
i pulled the wire out of my braces today because it kept stabbing me in the mouth ill get a new one put back in on the 31st no biggy.
i think im going through menaupause. i have i had hot flashes today like mad crazy. the a.c. was set on 65 and i was hot laying on the couch in the living room so i brought out the box fan in my room and put it right in front of the couch on high and i was still hot. what's wrong with me?
robert called twice today. i was so happy. the first time he called i had just got out of the shower and i was sitting in a tee shirt and panties and the other i was laying on the couch watching "marired with children;" he called the second time to say "i love you" because he read my journal entry about eric and mines convo. i might get to see him tomorrow but i highly doubt it. i cant wait until those damned chickens of his go out.
next thursday we are going to spend the day at the beach. he asked me if i was afraid of swimming in the ocean. i mean does he have a brain? duh bert!!! i love ya! we are going to go see 28 days later if it playing down there. ive wanted to see that move for the longest time. he's such a big baby. he's afraid of scary movies, i love them almost as much as i love him.
i feel sick to my stomach my im getting the flu. damn you niki. (just joking) you gave me strep and now its turning into the flu. im going to be like pam.
im off to find the thera flu. byes.
"crome buttons and leather surfaces, lucky witnesses"- deftones		  
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"such a cancer on the face of everything thats beautiful" staind   
09:18pm 18/07/2003
 
mood: emo
music: "giving up on love" :the ataris
my hand

I want to see your eyes
The light, the tunnel.
I need to feel your love.
This fight, my struggle.
Which hand should I cut off?
My life in shambles.
I'll lose my life right here.
But what for, I'm coming home.

And I will meet you there

I'm heading nowhere fast.
I need your hands.
Which breath will be my last?
It's gone, my past.
Love with a broken heart.
I'm here alone.
I'm getting taken away.
I hope you're coming soon.

And I will meet you there

Grab my hand and take me home.

Will you be there to grab my hand and take me away?

I want to see your eyes.
I need to feel your love.
Which hand should I cut off?
I'll lose my life right here.		  
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